Tracey's wedding weight loss attempt (comments welcome & needed!!)

[keenercam]

Tracey -- I wouldn't have said that if I didn't mean it. I really do want to have your discipline about getting to the gym. Thank you so much for inspiring me! Now, we just have to avoid all those "red light" foods! For me, it's pretzels! I seem to be fixated on them.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Tracey, I think you are definitely healthier and that meal was probably just higher in fat and carbs than what you have been eating. Good habits have been established and now you'll pay the price when you overeat!

Just let the dip incident go, you ate it, its done! And one candy bar never killed anybody. You got back on track and thats what really matters. Have you tried humus? Maybe that and some veggie sticks would satisfy your dip craving? I love me some dip too!

Glad you had a nice lunch with your granddad, I know how special he is to you!

 

[traceycooper]

DH back at work today, DD is hoping to go ice skating with a friend so thats when i'm hoing i will get to the gym!!

Didnt sleep well last night, i was feeling kinda of guilty & sad...let me explain

When i lost my grandma it was a big shock it was sudden & i'd never lost anyone close to me before.
i've always been close with her & my grandad but when i lost grandma it bought me & grandad even closer,
i feel like grandma is watching over me but i was afraid grandad wouldnt cope without her & that i would lose him soon too, i often say a little prayer to grandma telling her i'm not ready to lose grandad yet & asking her to let him stay a little while longer.... 4 years later, she keeps answering the prayers

yesterday after i had lunch with grandad it just popped in my head.... -
that now i think i could cope, & i would be extremly sad if i lost him but could cope now & would know he is with her....poor man hasnt gone anywhere & i'm writing him off!!!
i lay in bed last night feeling so upset, i dont want him to go anywhere so why was i thinking like that????
sorry i needed to get that off my chest!

 

[keenercam]

Wow, Tracey, sweetie, this is so hard. I am so sorry you are going through this, but I don't think it is a bad thing. Maybe something about your time with him made you realize that your Grandpa is lonely and missing your Grandma, and maybe what you were really subconsciously thinking is that you feel badly that your prayers have kept him from being with your Grandma. It all is so outside our power to control and yet we feel so badly in our subconscious if we have prayed for something that we later think is selfish. I really do understand what you are going through. Just enjoy the time you have with him and know that you bring joy to him. When it is his time to go to heaven and be with your Grandma, even your most fervent prayers and wishes won't keep him Earth-bound. Sending you a huge hug, sweetie!

 

[goldcupmom]

Hey, Tracy ( & Amy?) Here's a link to the Aquatica map. http://www.aquaticabyseaworld.com/Site/ParkAreas.aspx

Ok, so it's probably not a link, but at least its the address.

Looks to me a lot like the one at SW San Antonio. It was AWESOME!!! I haven't explored the whole website, but I'm gonna!!!!

It's horrid what our female minds do when we play the 'what if' game. Sending & for you. I know how hard it is!!!!

Your food & gym have been really, really good (hanging head in shame....)

Hope you have a wonderful weekend! (it's Friday where you are....can I come!!!)

 

[Amy&Dan]

Tracey, do not feel guilty! I had several years where after my mom was diagnosed I prayed ALL the time, please God, you took my dad when I was 7, I can't lose my mom yet. He answered and she outlived her original diagnosis by 6 years. However, that last couple of years I began to have a different prayer, that God would take her. It suddenly hurt more to see her living this awful existance than it did to think of losing her. It felt at times terrible to pray for her to be released from her earthly life but in the end, those prayers were answered too. It hurts terribly. Often, I would have those thoughts pop into my head while she was with me, and I'd think, how can I sit here with my mom and wish her to be gone? It was confusing and at times (many times) I was wracked with guilt. But I still think of the moment after she died, falling into my brothers arms and we both sobbed and said "thank you" because we knew at that moment she was in my dad's arms at long last. It takes courage and awareness to realize that you are a big enough person to go on. You have Gary now and when it becomes that time for your grand dad to join your beloved (and his beloved) grandmother, you can do it. It won't be easy, but you will. The process of life with our loved ones is really a long one with lots of different stages! What you have felt is very human and really just an expression of the deep love you have for your grand dad.

I hope you made it to the gym, you are doing so well with that! Keep it up, you will be the lovliest babe at Pop Century when you go to WDW!

 

[kimwim8]

Tracey - sign me up for the dip lovers club.

Your gym workouts have been great! I'm in the same boat as you as far as the willpower. I'm running and working out, but can't seem to stop the snacking. We'll get there, right? We can do it.

I think the thoughts you had about your grandfater are completely normal. You've grown in the past few years and know that you are possibly stronger than you were then. Everyone thinks the same way when someone they love passes away. They pray that they don't have to go through that again anytime soon. I think that when you just thought about how you'd be ok if it was your grandfather's time....it wasn't that you were wishing him to pass away. Just praying that when it's his time, you'll respect that.

I hope that came out right. I think I kind of rambled on.

Take care, Tracey

 

[traceycooper]

thanks everyone it was hard to put that down but now i'm glad i did!!

I did make the gym yesterday
then DD & i had a massive argument last night (the end result of a week of 'stuff')
so i had ANOTHER tub of dip
WI - 2lb gain - i wonder why
i'm doing all this working out but letting myself down with stupid food (if you can even call it food) choices!!!
DD & i have made up now!
I will be glad to get back to work next week & maybe a bit of routine will get me back on track!

Thursdays food
b/fast - cereal
lunch - 5 crispbreads, yogurt, choc cream egg!
dinner - salmon, salad & new potatos .....dip

I'm off into town to meet a fellow diser who i met on the UK boards & only lives a few miles away!! & she works in a school!! & shes going to wdw same time as me!!!
then i'm meeting a friend who i grew up with & havnt seen for ever!! shes just had a baby!
I tried to get in touch with another friend who i;'ve lost contact with & it turned out the day i called her she was having a baby - little girl

gotta go & get ready!

thanks again for all the nice comments - you've made me feel normal...& thats not easy!!

 

[toystoryduo]

Sending a gentle your way, Tracey. I completely understand what you are saying about your grandfather.

Enjoy your DIS meet this weekend! Take good care of you, sweetie!

 

[traceycooper]

The dis meet went well
it was nice to be able to talk to someone as obsessed as me with wdw!!!

I met my long lost friend too, her little boy (7 months old) is gorgeous!! it almost made me broody....almost
went out for dinner

fridays food
b/fast - cereal
lunch - 3 crispbreads, yogurt
dinner - lasagne, fries & salad, 1/2 pint of cider

Saturday
went to gym
burnt 500 cals

b/fast - cereal
lunch 4 crispbreads, yougurt, smll chcoc chip cake bar
dinner - not sure yet!!!

DD is doing another choir concert tonight - 'music from the shows' she'll be wearing her new dress - will be weird to see her in a dress - shes not a dress person!!!

off to town to find shoes for her now....

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Tracey,

I understand what you mean about your granddad. You were certainly noit wishing for him to die. You were acknowledging that you are now in a better place, and could handle it when he does. You are definately normal.

The only name I could come up with for our support group would be the Divine Dieting Divas Devastated by Dip. Let me know, if you can come up with anything better.

You are doing an awesome job with your workouts. Keep up the fantastic work. How was the concert?

Take care,
Beth

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Tracey,

How did the concert go? I hope it went well for your DD.

Hope you have a great week ahead!

 

[Amy&Dan]

I like Beth's name for Dip Lovers! I think I can definitely be a charter member too (had major dip problems this past weekend). I am glad writin down those feelings regarding your granddad helped you. That is what journaling is all about! Glad you met a fellow diser, its good to have somebody to discuss Disney with face to face! Glad you and dd made up, OMG: teenagers!

 

[traceycooper]

Beth - thanks for the kind words
loving the DDDD suport group idea...more below

Amy - at least you didnt eat 3 tubs of dip in a week!!! i'm proud to tell my fellow DDDD members that i went to the supermarket & after hesitating at the dip....i resisted
I'm glad to report i have been dip free for 5 days now

Tracy - the concert was great & DD looked gorgeous in her dress & heels
will try & post a pic of her later!

cant remember what i ate for dinner on saturday now but it was pretty healthy - meaning i know i didnt eat out or do fast food!!

sunday
went to gym..again
b/fast - cereal
lunch - Tai chk fillets with salad & boiled potatos
dinner - 2 100% bran crispbreads - taste like cardboard but very healthy!!!

Dh finished the decking
The sun shone today - it was warm
put my new bistro set out on the patio

Monday
Back to work after 2 week break!!!

walked 25 mins to work & tried to walk 25 mins home... carrying 4 heavy grocery shopping bags - got half way home then had to call DH to pick me up as my arms were dropping off!!!....good workout though!!

b/fast - cereal
lunch - chk salad, strawberries
dinner - chk fatighas, mini toffee cheesecake (pre-packed stuff) was horrible!!

Tuesday
went to gym - didnt feel up to much - did 30 mins walking/incline on TM & some weights & lots of stretching - better than nothing - burnt 380 cals

b/fast - cereal
lunch - chk salad, fruit/yogurt/muslie pot - yummy
dinner - wholemeal fatigha pizza base with veggies & a few fries

hoping to swim tomorrow night

 

[goldcupmom]

Your exercise is AWESOME, Tracey! Wish I could get that motivated!!

food is getting better....just stay away from the dip & I'll stay away from the chocolate....ok?

Hope the week continues to go well!!

 

[toystoryduo]

I love Beth's name for the Dip club too! I've always wanted to be a diva!

Your food and exercise for the past few days look great, Tracey! Keep up the good work!

Hope you have a great day tomorrow!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hey Tracey,

Congratulations on resisting the dip. I'm in, as long as the DDDD isn't a cup size. You are doing awesome with the workouts. It is a huge victory when you do one, when you aren't feeling up for it.

Take care
Beth

 

[Amy&Dan]

You said NO to the DIP, I am quite proud!!! Great job walking to work and part of the way home, that sounds like arm torture! Your food looks great, hope you get to swim tomorrow.

And on that dip thing, I have an additional dip disaster note! When I eat dip, I need some sort of cocktail to go with it! Just adds to the whole dip dilemma. But it sure is good!

 

[traceycooper]

i come head hung in shame
my 5 day dip free resistance is over!!!
went to work & it was someones 60th birthday - they put dip & chips in the staff room!!!.....guess who ate ALL the cheese & chive dip
at least i didnt buy it - its just haunting me!!!

Wednesday
b/fast - cereal
snack - dip, 5 small cho cakes!
lunch - chk salad, fruit/yogurt/muslie
dinner - sweet chilli noodles with chk, red peppers & red onion

went swimming at gym did 30 lengths

it would have been another good food day if not for the dip!!!
gotta dash DD just come home from Spanish class!!

 

[Amy&Dan]

If you don't purchase the dip yourself it has no calories! Hey you dipped, you confessed, its done! Tell whoever brought that dip they need to walk five miles to share in your sorrow. You could have done worse in the end. Don't be too hard on yourself.