Hi gang,
So it's been 8 years. On sept 11, 2001, i was on my third year employed with the F.D.N.Y., my fire house is in brooklyn nyc. It is a day or the next 4 months i will never forgot, no matter how hard i try sometimes.There were 4 of us, me, john, danny and bobby, we had to take a chief car who was out on vacation ( not disney either,

) since all the other rigs were already on the way there and we arrived seconds after the first tower collpased. Instead of all the bad, horror these eyes have seen working rescue and recovery at ground zero, i like to tell you about all the good that went on.
First off, we were a family down there, police,fire,ems,iron workers and everyone else. Manhattan was closed in or out to any and all traffic except emergency vechiles. Poland spring had 3 trucks stuck in the city and sent them to ground zero and unloaded 3 trucks filled with water for us. Gatorade sent a truck filled with drinks as well. Coke and pepsi and dr pepper and others did the same.Some company sent over 100 flashlights, ready to go with the battires installed. Timberland sent a few dozen pair of boots and other companys followed with boots, clothes, first aid supplys. Anything you can think of that we needed starting to show up.
Around 3 pm, we took a break and a walk to try to find some food, we rounded a corner and there was a line of people 4 blocks long. I was'nt sure why or who they were, but soon found out. This line streched into beakman hospital and they were people of every background just there to donate blood. To do thier part. It was amazing. I heard this was the seen at every hospital in every boro of nyc and other states as well. We never found any food, every one has closed shop and left the city.
It did'nt matter, around 5 or 6 pm outback steakhouse sent over about 100 bags of food, as well did mc donalds, burger king, kfc,applebees,t.g.i.f's and a few other local chains. It was already cold, but the best food i even ever had, maybe because i was hungry. Around 9 pm, a huge group of peole began to assemble on the west side highway, everytime we walk in or out or any emergency vechile would pull in or out, they would clap and cheer, it was louder that being at a sports stadium. It brought tears to our eyes.It was amazing and after feeling defeated and depressed it gave us the strenght to go in the pile for a few more hours.
A few days later firefighters, medics, police and others began to show up from all over the world. I met a few from, brazil, turkey, italy, japan- they were'nt being paid they were just there to help, and they became part of the ground zero family too. I remember tractor trailers would show up packed to the gills with supplys for us from all over the country and some from other countrys too. Letters from school children began to arrive by the hundreds, after a month thier had to be millions of letters from people everywhere in the world.
We ( me, john,bobby,danny) were permantly assigned to ground zero for 4 months. The chief came back from vacation and discovered that his car had been found crushed at ground zero, he tried to find out how it got there, but to this day no one knows

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This one no one seems to know, but wanna know how cool disney is?? In april 2002, Walt disney world released the hero's getaway package. It was for any member of the FDNY, EMS,NYPD,PAPD , it was free park tickets for the lenght of your stay and a 50% off hotel rate at disneyworld. I could'nt go, but i watched some of my guys leave looking drained and return with smiles, something i had not see them do since that day.
I returned home on the 13th, parked my car still in uniform and walked over to my house. Two neighbors ran and hugged me, they had'nt seen my car or me and thought i too had died. Then they looked at me strangly. I was gray from all the dust and both my hands were covered in blood. I had been digging in the pile so long, i had worn away most of the skin on my finger tips and knuckles, i did'nt know it until they pointed it out.
I walked into my house and dw slapped me in the face, grabbed me and hugged me so tight i could'nt breathe and began crying. I bumped into my cousin at groud zero also fdny, he was going back to his fire house for supplys and assured me that he would call my family and let them know i was ok. He called his parents but with that days events, forgot to tell them to call my parents and my wife. My wife called FDNY headquaters so many times, they listed me as offically missing. My family thought i was gone forever. You should have seen the red tape i had to go to to prove to them i was'nt missing and ok.
Me and bobby still talk, he has since transfered to another fire house and is doing fine, with 2 little boys and one more on the way in dec. John, isn't doing so well. I went to visit him at his home in staten island about 3 years ago, i wish i had'nt. He now is on home oxygen 24 hours a day, turns blue if he tries to walk and coughs up fiber glass and rocks or concrete. Last i heard he is confined to his bed as he can't get enought oxygen into his blood to walk. Then there is danny, a few months after 9/11 danny wrote a letter about all that we saw down there. He said that he could'nt get the bad visions out of his memory and could'nt seem from the nightmares. He put a loaded shot gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger, he was 28.
His death was not the first sucide or the last linking the sept 11 attacks. His dad found him and from what we heard has moved out of nyc and just given up on life, somewhere in arizona.
I'm no hero, the heros were lost on 9/11, i just wanted you to see the good that came out of evil on that day and the days and months after. Live for today cause you really never know what tomorrow holds for any of us.
Thank you all for everything you did to help us thru that day, even your prayers were felt by us.
Mr. FDNY