We will all be sorry to see you go if you do disappear Sarah - but will also understand your reasons for doing so if that is the case.
I second tyhe advice about maybe laying it on thick with
DVC about your reasons for cancelling and seeing where that gets you. They invest a lot of time and money to get people to buy into this so every single signature counts. It could be a huge bargaining chip for you.
Best of luck whatever you decide.