New TTC Thread

[D&DDisney]

hotveggy - Congrats on your BFP! See...your stay was short.

KiKi - Sorry that you're "out too". Glad you had a good laugh anyway.

momsully - Our trip is still on. I changed my ticker last week when the boys were driving me crazy. I have a doctor appt on Thurs. and hopefully she can figure out what's going on w/ this pain. However, I said NOTHING is going to keep me from this vacation. I so badly need one. And, AF will be showing up right before we leave so at least it won't ruin vacation.
10 days to go!!!!!!!! Don't have my LGM head yet, but I'll put something in our van window so you know its me. Look in loop A.

WDWAurora - We're here for ya if you need us. I know you didn't O so when does your count start over again or do you have to test first? Will you still get AF? Might there still be hope????

 

[ChrizJen]

OMG!!! I go away for a weekend and I miss a BFP!!!
Congrats, hotveggy!!!
I hope you have a healthy, happy pregnancy!!

Thank you all for your support (Crystal-YOU made ME cry!). I am so thankful to have you all here. Somedays it makes all the difference.

I'm glad that we can be here with words of encouragement when you need it. I know how helpful it can be somtimes. I actually had to go back and read my own words to remind myself that "things happen for a reason". We went back up to Chicago this weekend and had a great time visiting some friends. But while we were there, I got a visit from a not-so-great friend.

So I'm out. And I had said before that we would take a break and save money. But on the drive home on Sunday we had a loooong talk, and I'm done. I feel like such a failure, but I just can't see throwing any more money out for failure after failure. So we've decided that we are going to take a break to save up money, and Jen's going to give it a shot. I guess it's a big advantage that we have that option. But everytime I think about it, I just want to cry. I really wanted to do this. I've always known that I wanted to be a mom, and I've always known that I wanted to carry a child of my own. But after 3 years and countless dollars, I have to let go of that dream. I had a good long cry about it on Sunday. It's such a huge loss. I wouldn't expect the average person to understand, but I knew that my DIS ladies would understand the mourning and grief that I'm dealing with right now.

I KNOW that I will be a mom someday. I'm just not sure at this point how it's going to happen. So I'll continue to post here on our progress, and hopefully continue to be a sounding board for everyone else here.

-Christal

 

[Jen_in_NH]

Christal - I'm so sorry. That has got to be the hardest decision to make.

DH and I were having a similar conversation. When AF shows up, I'm supposed to schedule an HSG, and then the month after that, the RE wants to do an IUI with mini-stim. I think we'll give it a round or 2, but after that, I'm done. If we have another baby, that will be great. If not, I'll thank my lucky stars for the one I have. I can't do much more of this - it's driving both DH and I crazy. Nothing is just fun or romantic anymore - it's all about the calendar

 

[KiKi Mouse]

Nothing is just fun or romantic anymore - it's all about the calendar

Ain't that the truth. As soon as AF showed DH got out the calendar and we figured out our schedule to make sure we are covered for this coming month.
My goal of being pregnant before my due date at the beginning of Sept is not looking so great.

 

[D&DDisney]

ChrizJen - Sorry you had to make such a painful decision. That must be so incredibly hard for you right now to make it so final. And...(I hope I don't offend by saying this) because there isn't a chance that it will happen "naturally" for you, it must be extra, extra hard. We're here for ya if you ever just want to rant or cry on your keyboard. We'll also be here when your partner is ready. You will be a mom.

Jen in NH - Hang in there. There is always that little glimmer of hope, which I have been hanging onto for the past few years, that it will happen some day naturally.

KiKi - As your "due date" approaches and IF there isn't some good news yet, feel free to come on over here for a

You are all right. People just don't get how hard this is month after month and how robotic it can become. Sure takes all the fun out of it - big time!

 

[KiKi Mouse]

Thank you for the kind words.

I just came back from our Canada Day celebration. I ran into my midwife. *awkward*. It was just a reminder of what was, what is going on now, etc. etc. I put on my happy face and chatted and told her I hope to be calling her soon. After she left I felt like barfing.

On a more cheery note...during the fireworks I pretended I was at the castle and it was Wishes...so I wished hard for all of us waiting and praying for healthy pregnancies and full term healthy babies. Hopefully our fairy godmothers can wave their magic wands and make it happen.

 

[KT27]

Well it looks as if I will be joining your group.

Hi, I'm Katie 30 years old. My DH is 35 and has been in the ARMY for the last 18 years. We were married in 06 at Disney. DH had 2 children from a previous marriage and I have none. My stepson (15) passed away last year from a breathing complication. My stepdaughter is 11. My DH had a vasectomy just after my SD was born. When I met my DH he was upfront about being unable to have any future children and I had always thought I didn't want kids. But after spending alot of time with a friend's son (both of us prior to my husband leaving for a 15 month deployment) we have seem to caught the baby bug. We started researching Vasectomy reversal options both in Europe (we are stationed in Germany) and the States and have narrowed it down to a Dr. Leverett in Texas. My husband wants to have the procedure done on his 18 days R & R, return to Iraq and be fully healed at the time he comes home so that we can start trying to get pregnant (he has a desk job and is not out in a combat situation). And there is the beginning to our story...

 

[skuttle]

Big HUGS to everyone!! It sounds like we are all a bit down. (Except for HotVeggy...Sticky baby dust to you!! ).

Courtney..Sorry about this month. Sounds like y'all have a plan, though, which helps.

D&D...Sorry you are out, too.

Christal... Big to you! What a tough decision to make. But you are right, there's only so much a person can go through...physically, financially, and emotionally, before it gets to be just too much. Do you think you would be okay if Jen got a BFP?

KiKi...It's hard when a date like that approaches and you have no good news. I think my past due date, December 15th, will forever be etched into my brain. I also found myself getting sad around Easter this year because that's when I had gotten my BFP last year.

Jen...Totally understand about things being about the calendar and not romantic. Been there for sure!

KT27...Welcome to the thread! Please don't let these last few posts get you down. LOL! We've been in a bit of a slump! I hope your stay here is a short one. Sounds like you and your family has been through a lot lately so hopefully you will receive good news quickly!

I've been having the debate about just being done with TTC. Ever since we received DH's test results, I've been a lot less stressed about it. I guess I have it in my mind that it just won't happen due to the sperm issues. I still haven't made DH's appt...not sure if I want to go through all of that...have that hope again only to be crushed month after month. I feel like knowing it's a longshot for us right now helps me cope a bit more.

Although, this weekend was DS's 5th birthday party and I couldn't help but just feel sadness watching my friend with her new baby. And also, I had to run into Babies R Us to buy a new baby gate for our dog (He likes to chew it for some reason ) and walking in I felt like I had been punched in the stomach. Those two things have, I think, reinforced my desire to have a second. So I'm not sure what to do. Part of me doesn't want DH to go to the doctor and then be given options/hope only to have DH not willing to do the recommended procedure or meds or whatever. It took A LOT for him to agree to go for the follow-up and I feel like I should be thankful for that and stop pushing him. I don't know. Such mixed emotions. And I think a lot of it may also be the fear of the unknown...what if he goes and is told we have 0% chance of having another...not sure how I would react.

On a happy note, we decided to fly to WDW! We usually drive...haven't flown since our WDW honeymoon in 2000. This will also be DS's first time in a plane so we are all excited!

And, today is my DS's 5th birthday (Happy Birthday, Colin!!)....more and more I'm believing that he is my little miracle.

 

[D&DDisney]

KT27 - to our little corner of the world. Feel free to share rants, tears, or even joys w/ us. Chances are we've been there, done that, and bought the t-shirt. Although we love to have ya, we hope your stay isn't long.

skuttle - on your flying to Disney. My DS had his first plane trip when he was 5. Thought he'd freak, but he loved it. Especially liked people serving him juice and pretzels and chocolate chip cookies.

(We flew Midwest Airlines) Hope they still serve snacks when you go.


Okay...enough of this crying in our beer (or other beverage). Let's start thinking positive. Let's all promise to wish on a star (or fireworks) and be happy if just for one day. Then remember...

Babies = cry, spit up, soil themselves, get into things, keep you awake at night, turn into teenagers.

Pregnancies = make you fat, sick, moody, give you pain, make you pee a lot and are stressful.

If we see any of the above this weekend, promise to just turn the other way and think of the negatives.

 

[ChrizJen]

Thanks for the replies! It's been a rough morning so far. I needed some . Thanks again!

AND....


COLIN!!!

 

[GypsySue]

Chriz--I am sorry--I feel your pain! It is so fundamentally unfair. I wish you and Jen all the luck when she takes a go at it. In fact, I like this idea so much I am going to tell DH that it's his turn to try and get pregnant

I flew home this past weekend and told my family the bad news. They took it pretty well and were very supportive. A very difficult conversation. Funny--when I was a teenager I thought having to tell my parents that I was pregnant would be the most horrible thing ever (thankfully I didn't have to!), but telling them I would never be pregnant was pretty horrible!

So D&D--I like your suggestion! Time for a change of attitude!

And Happy Birthday to Colin!!!

 

[ChrizJen]

Chriz--I am sorry--I feel your pain! It is so fundamentally unfair. I wish you and Jen all the luck when she takes a go at it. In fact, I like this idea so much I am going to tell DH that it's his turn to try and get pregnant

It's worth a shot!!

I flew home this past weekend and told my family the bad news. They took it pretty well and were very supportive. A very difficult conversation. Funny--when I was a teenager I thought having to tell my parents that I was pregnant would be the most horrible thing ever (thankfully I didn't have to!), but telling them I would never be pregnant was pretty horrible!

I'm sure that was a really difficult thing to do.

So D&D--I like your suggestion! Time for a change of attitude!

And Happy Birthday to Colin!!!

Well, Jen and I had a talk last night, and we're still going to take a break for a while and save some money before she starts on the TTC journey. But in the meantime, we recently got a letter from the state indicating that our foster license has been renewed for another year. (Was it a sign? Perhaps.)
We'll have to have another home visit to revise our homestudy (to reflect the new house). But we think we're ready to open our home and our hearts again to foster (probably newborn babies).

We have some friends who have 3 beautiful children. They fostered their 2 daughters from birth, then adoped them once the birth parents' rights were termated. They're waiting to find out if rights will be terminated on their son, whom they've also had since birth. They've also fostered 2 other newborn babies who went back to their respective birth families.
It's been amazing to watch their journey.

Foster/adoption comes with its own set of risks, heartache, and pain. But honestly, is there really an EASY way to get a child? Even if you had a successful pregnancy on the first try, you'd still have to go through the months of worrying, preparing, and then the labor. No matter what your "struggle" is to have a child, no matter how small or how great the cost, it's the end result that matters the most.


...OK, I'm not really trying to sound like a motivational speaker. And most of this blabber is probably more of a pep talk to myself than anything else. But I guess you could say that I just had to get it out of my system. Thanks for reading.
-Christal

 

[minnieandmickeymouse]

Well it looks as if I will be joining your group.

Hi, I'm Katie 30 years old. My DH is 35 and has been in the ARMY for the last 18 years. We were married in 06 at Disney. DH had 2 children from a previous marriage and I have none. My stepson (15) passed away last year from a breathing complication. My stepdaughter is 11. My DH had a vasectomy just after my SD was born. When I met my DH he was upfront about being unable to have any future children and I had always thought I didn't want kids. But after spending alot of time with a friend's son (both of us prior to my husband leaving for a 15 month deployment) we have seem to caught the baby bug. We started researching Vasectomy reversal options both in Europe (we are stationed in Germany) and the States and have narrowed it down to a Dr. Leverett in Texas. My husband wants to have the procedure done on his 18 days R & R, return to Iraq and be fully healed at the time he comes home so that we can start trying to get pregnant (he has a desk job and is not out in a combat situation). And there is the beginning to our story...

Hey! My DH is getting his VR done with Dr. Leverett this month!! I'm so scared and excited at the same time. Feel free to PM me if you wish.
We've never been to texas, so it will be like an adventure for us, lol.
Good luck with the reversal!

 

[skuttle]

...OK, I'm not really trying to sound like a motivational speaker. And most of this blabber is probably more of a pep talk to myself than anything else. But I guess you could say that I just had to get it out of my system. Thanks for reading.
-Christal

I think a motivational speaker is exactly what we all need right now! Seems like we're all down in the dumps!

 

[AllyandJack]

Hi, all! I wanted to pop in and see how everyone was doing.

I know there have been a lot of....changes....here since I've been on for a visit, so I wanted to check in.

Things are crazy here, to say the least. Cassidy was born on May 23. I had an induction since my BP kept going up. Broke my water at 8:11am. She was born at 12:32pm. No pitocin. No epidural. I didn't even push, she just forced her way out - she was out to the shoulders before my doctor could run back into the room when she popped out to make a phone call about an emergency going to another hospital.

I know people here are at varying levels of TTC and infertility. I've been on both sides. I know that medical science is an amazing thing and, even after it's failed you many times, it can surprise you and work when you least expect it. I also know that strange things can happen and miracles shock you when you've given up hope.

For all the new people...... DH and I tried for almost 3 years (we have multiple issues, including PCOS, low sperm count and low motility, plus MTHFR). We had 2 IUIs and 4 rounds of IVF (and an ectopic after IVF #2) before becoming pregnant with my daughter, Kate, who just turned a year. I didn't use any birth control after because I never thought I'd need it.

12 weeks later, I got a positive pregnancy test. Cassidy was born about a month ago. They're 11 months apart.

I AM on birth control now! I was going to use the Mirena, but decided to take the pill for a bit and decide on that later. It's been out of control here and I haven't had a chance to sit down and decide whether I'm in any mood to have yet another procedure done to me. I'm just sick of being tampered with, as many of you can probably understand.

Anyway.....I'm going to try and check in more often because this group got me through some really rough times and a very dark period in my life.

to all of you still struggling.

 

[TiggerStac]

well, I'm out this month, too.

 

[DznyLvr2005]

Sorry to hear your news WDWAurora and D&DDisney.

though apparently you all gave me good luck this month bc this morning i had a positive HPT!!! It is hard to believe that it happened so fast this time. I am trying to stay positive though with 2 MCs behind me I am still a little scared.

Hopefully third time will be a charm!!

Congrats!
3rd time was the charm for me. I'm due any day now!

 

[D&DDisney]

Since I am officially OUT this time around, I have diverted my attention to my upcoming camping trip in 1 WEEK!

Momsully - Hope to see you in 1 week. Look for the sites w/ WI and TX plates. That will be us.

DznyLvr2005 - Good luck if you have the baby while I'm gone. Don't worry. The epidural will do wonders. Mine was sooooo good that I didn't feel A THING giving birth. Nurses and doc had to tell me when to push and I did. Couldn't feel a thing from the waist down and had absolutely no pain.

To everyone else...good luck this next time around.

 

[WDWAurora]

It's like day 44. I don't know if I should start provera, or if I should test, or what. I hate waiting. I took a test probably 5 days ago I'm going to leave a message for the nurse at the RE, so I guess they'll tell me. I keep hoping I am pregnant, even though I feel pretty comfortable I'm not. Ugh. Why does my body keep doing this?

 

[momsully]

Christal I just wanted to let you kow how sorry I am. DH and I have looked at foster/adopt but because I work full time the agencies here in Colorado are not very supportive. I would love to do it, but I also need/like my job.

Sue - I am sure that was a hard conversation. I know the hardest thing I have ever done was call my dad after we found out the baby had no heartbeat.

D&D - We will be on the lookout. My boys are 9 and 6 and the dogs are two labs, a yellow and a chocolate. We usually go out to Chatfield and swim on Monday nights and then take the dogs out a couple of nights to run around. The boys are training for an open water swim in August so we go out to the gravel pond to get some open water swimming in. I think you said you were camping on A loop?

Kiki - I truly understand how you feel. In the back of my mind I always thought that I would be pregnant again before the end of August but it does not seem likely. I know my age (38) is a factor and so is our crazy lifestyle. We are always on the go so I don't think we always time things really well.

AllyandJack - Congratulations on the new baby! I have been on this thread since the beginning and know your story so I am really happy for you.

DznyLvr2005 - Good luck! Let us know when the baby gets here!

I hope everyone had a great 4th. I am in the 2ww but as mentioned earlier our timing was pretty bad this month so I would be confident in saying we are out as well.