geffric, I am soo sorry. You lost your mother around the same time I lost my father and I will always remember how you were there for me during that time. Please know that we are all here for you. This must be extremely numbing, exhausting, and tremendously painful for you to go through.
I found this poem on the web and it speaks to exactly how I felt and its my offer to you:
I know the feeling of being all alone
even when there are people all around.
I know the feeling of emptiness,
that surrounds you at a time like this.
I know the feeling of despair, when nothing is comforting.
I know the feeling of anger that this person did not live
Long enough for you to see one more time.
The feeling that you have been aware of
but suppressed deep within.
The feeling you get when someone says
"Is there anything we can do?" or
"If you need anything call me. "
When the whole time you are thinking,
"the only thing anyone can do is bring
him back." But, knowing this is totally unrealistic.
I know the feeling of sadness, knowing you
have lost someone you love, and will
not see them again until you meet
them in the great beyond.
I know that there is no right or wrong way
to grieve. Each person must do this in
their own way, and take as long as
necessary to work through this
roller-coaster of emotions.
I know there is nothing to be said or done.
If you need a hug, or just someone to sit
With in the quiet, Ill be there.