I posted yesterday but got lost in school stuff and forgot to submit it!
Anyway, thanks Lorie, cancer taught us
something!! I learned way too much and it made me a bit nutty. I though everything would just kill us/her. Not to mention that we were/sometimes still are, targets for the "next best thing that will cure cancer". I admit to trying ONE really crazy thing that I cannot even remember what it was called, but it was a desperate mom fighting for her dying little girls life, that recommended it, and I caved for her sorrow and friendship. But i cried all the way home(from the westbank to the northshore at 10pm!) b/c the people administering the 'test' told me Ashton still had cancer in her body(this was when we were about a year away from finishing chemo and she was in remission) and we needed to get her on $500 worth of herbs and vitamins.

Uh, I called my DH , in desperation, and he ,thankfully, had HIS brain connected to his heart and said, "uh, we do enough, no, and what do you REALLY beleive?" and it whipped me back into shape.
I so wanted to validate my friend, who was losing her baby girl, who was 6, by just putting the $500 on a CC so she knew I believed with her, but we couldn't and thankfully, didn't.
Well, I guess now, looking back, those people were crazy to me. My friend did lose her child to rhabdomyosarcoma a few months later after a LONG and BITTER battle.
When Ashton was just 3, she told me her cancer was gone for her mommy-2x. My DH decided to beleive her COMPLETELY and I need to "see" numbers-I guess it is the medical background. I wanted to beleive her, but when numbers did not point correctly, I caved. I LOVED those words from her mouth, but had a hard time digesting them-for years.

Now you know why i am kooky!!!
Lori