I am almost certain that I have a math learning disability. Why none of my teachers suggested this to me... who knows. I will look into it.
I actually didn't mind being a waitress... it was the company I worked for that I hated, not the work itself. A lot of drama, favouritism, issues like the district manager and store manager being brothers and therefore incompetent management was never reprimanded, etc.
I have zero interest in being a CNA. I'm not interested in cleaning up people's bodily functions, bathing them, etc. I do not feel that that makes me a bad person.
I don't like children, children don't like me, and I'm not good with them. Why would I put myself in a job where I would not excel, you know? I think it's good that I know where I would not excel, so that I don't get into a field and then realize, "holy crap, I can't do this".
We cannot afford the gas or wear & tear on the car for me to drive my husband to work every day so I can go to the mall and hand out resumes all day. I can browse Craigslist from home. On a few occasions, my mom has driven me to the mall to hand in applications and resumes (came with a whole folder of resumes to hand in with the applications) and I was dressed as if I were to be interviewed on the spot. That got me one interview, total, in the few times I did it.
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For those of you who have been helpful, I thank you. I plan to look into all of your suggestions for Stafford loans, FAFSA, the math disability issue, the forums for Medical Transcriptionists, etc. I very much welcome the wisdom of those of you who have "been there, done that". For those of you who think that I am just some entitled loser who thinks I'm "too good" to "work my way up" and "pay my dues" (I think 10+ years in retail and food service is quite enough of "paying my dues", but whatever), may I politely ask you to shove it.
I want to address the two parts I bolded.
First about the poor management at the waitressing job. In my opinion, (and experience incidentally), if you need to save money for a car to find a better job or for school you put your head down, ignore the bad management, make your money and go home. I had a waitressing job like that once. It was a family owned restaurant and when the owner's daughters would come back from school she would take our regular shifts and give them to her daughters. BUT..instead of putting the shifts under their names on the schedule she would put them under her name with an M or H next to them (the initials of her daughters) thinking we wouldn't know that meant her daughters would be working those shifts. I continued working there because I made decent money and just ignored her stupidity. It wasn't my career or lifetime job, but a means to an end.
DH just went through the same thing. TERRIBLE management at his last company. I actually posted about it here on the DIS. He was MISERABLE (as in grown many crying miserable)! But he stayed until he had another job lined up. And in fact he worked his horrible job until a Friday and his new job started two days later on Sunday. Sometimes you just do what you have to do even if it is not what you want to do or love or even enjoy. His new job is not what he wants to do, but it pays the bills and he's happier.
Now as for you "paying your dues" comment. Let's be honest, as far as employers are concerned you are uneducated. In their opinion educated=degree or formal training. You are unskilled. Skilled=education or specialized training. I think the pharmacy tech thing is great, but if you're applying to a secretary job they don't consider that education. I'm not putting you down, as I worked many a retail and waitressing job, but those did not equate with education or skill.
In my opinion you can't count the years before your education or training "as paying your dues." You start paying your dues once you get into your chosen career field. If I felt I was "paying my dues" from the time I started working at 14 until now...well I should have been hired as the principal rather than a teacher because I "paid my dues". But my time as a waitress, selling shoes, in childcare, as a camp counselor, camp supervisor, paraprofessional, and cashier at the speedway does not count toward that.
I'm not trying to offend you or insult you, but you do sound entitled. You sound young and like you don't understand that sometimes you may not like doing something (waitressing, retail, CNA, childcare, etc) but you have to because it is a means to an end.
I would suggest you find another waitressing job and start there. I suggest waitressing because it is a big money maker. Then save for a car you can afford and use your free time to look for other jobs you would prefer. Take some time to figure out what you want to do as a career. Don't go back to school because the program looks quick and you can work at home. Figure out what you really want to do, find out if it is a viable career choice and then go back to school for it. Waitress while you go to school. That way you can help pay for school.
I also agree with other posters. If you can't currently afford the gas to drop DH off and look for jobs, ride with him into where he works and look there for jobs.
The fact of the matter is that you will have to do jobs you don't want to do or maybe even enjoy doing. Especially if you're having to ask others for gas or grocery money.
There are solutions, and many of them, but you have to be open to them. If you find a reason to say no to each and every suggestion you're truly not open to any advice.
And for the record, this is coming from someone not much older, 31, who went through the same thoughts about not being sure what I wanted to do.