marcia's journal (comments welcome!)

[ZerasPride]

Marcia!

I see I'm not the only one that feels guilty when I can't get around to everyone's journals the way I like too. Like Doe mentioned, we have to cut ourselves some slack I think frequently about my WISH friends even if I can't get around to all their journals the way I'd like to and I know you do to. I will say it brightens my day to open my journal and see that I've been visited by my friends but I totally understand if people don't always have the time to post a reply - just like I'm sure you understand. Darn real life gets in the way of cyber life all the time!

I hope you have a great afternoon and a wonderful evening.

 

[mickeysdsnyprncs]

Hi! Marcia.

I can't belive you know exaclt how many cal in each m&m. That's awesome! I can use that info. LOL 4.6 cal that's precise.

Don't worry about getting to people's journals we know how it is. That think called life gets in the way. LOL.

You are doing GREAT! Just remember that.

Make a dinner that you haven't had in awhile that is Oh so good, maybe taht'll take up some of those points. I know how that is though, I am only at 990 cal for the day as I have it planned. hmmmm... You'll think of something.

Thinking of you.
Karen

 

[LAinSEA]

Marcia:

You've had some ups and downs this last week. I'm so impressed that you took the negatives (scale and IM friend) and turned it around to a positive.

Your schedule of late doesn't seem to include much time for you. "You" time is important. Stress will interfere with all kinds of things like TOM and weight loss/gain.

Take care of you - it's OK.

-Laurie

 

[lulu201]

Hi, Marcia. Just checking in. I'm going to stop by and chat this weekend, but I wanted you to know I'm thinking about you. Have a great day, OK?

Erin

 

[marsh0013]

i'm doing it again...hitting my journal first . hehe, mostly, because i didn't get a chance to post my day at the end of the day yesterday.

desiree, judy, angela - oh i did have my cadbury egg, cream ones are my fav, and it was sooooo good

beth - thanks, and i did end up doing my own version of mexican! and most of the time, the only days i struggle with fulfilling the points are the high points day. or when i'm sick, but since i've been over that cold, i've been having no problems

doe - thank you so much for your support and reassuring. i know his fears are unfounded, it really helps to hear it from others though . oh yes, and i didn't get to look at how amanda makes her quesadillas, but i made my own version

jody - i know, it's so hard just stopping at 1 or 2! but these ladies at work have been putting out a dish of large jelly beans and the malted milk egg balls every single day! so i try to just grab one or two every once in a while, they call my name

cheryl and lisa - these boards really are addicting! i try to do a once through daily, and keep up with just reading throughout the day. i really feel like a part of my day is missing if i don't get to dis

karen - first off, it's nice to know your name, i don't have to call you anymore . and yes, i'm definitely out of my mind for knowing that precise number for m&m's...goes back to my calorie counting days

laurie - i know you're right about scheduling "me" time. i think i use my hour or so of tv each night as my time. tuesday and wednesday is my american idol time, and i really do love that. other days, i'm more busy. but the past 2 mornings, i slept in instead of doing early morning workouts (did after work instead). i think that was good "me" time

erin - hi, thanks for stopping by . i know you're thinking about me even though you don't always have the time to pop in


so yesterday for dinner, i did end up going mexican, my own way! made chicken quesadillas, with a whole wheat tortilla wrap, chicken breast, and reduced fat mexican cheese, dipped in salsa. mmm, so very good. and i'm glad leah was the one cut on american idol. i think it's crazy that jennifer was in the bottom though. jsut nuts.

wednesday
b: lc bagel + morningstar pattie + 2% cheese slice = 4
s: 1 apple + 1 string cheese = 3
l: 2 slices light wheat + 1.5 tbsp pb + 1 tbsp sf preserves + columbo light yogurt + 1/2 cup smart start soy + 1 cup carrots = 8
s: 8 mini jelly beans = 1
s: banana = 2
w: run 3.25 mi (9:22 pace!!!), walk 1 mi (4 aps)
s: hot cocoa w/skim = 2
d: 1 cup romaine + 1 tbsp ff italian + 1 wheat wrap + 3 oz chicken + 1/2 cup rf mexican cheese + salsa = 9.5
s: cadbury cream egg = 4
s: smart ones vanilla fudge giant sundae cup = 2

total: 35.5

i was aiming for 34.5 plus aps, but didn't quite make it. guess i could have had the real cheese instead of the reduced fat (2 more points), but the rf stuff was just as good and gooey! oh well!

today, i'm not sure what's going to happen, because it's a stay late at work day, but i kinda turned off the alarm when it went off at 6am this morning . i don't know why, i'm just so tired, and i have this mental thing that i think i run better later in the day. so i just said too bad. i may be able to get out of working late, not sure. but if i have to stay here, i won't get to run because it will be too late to go to the gym. but this is ok. i will try to do pilates at home. and tomorrow is an off day from running, so i can just switch my run to tomorrow. so far, food is planned out, but it'll change depending on the running thing. if i get to run, it'll be 20 points plus 5 aps. if not, it'll be a 22 point day.

oh, and there were animal crackers out in the kitchen, and i took a handful, thinking "these are healthy", then find out that 13 of them are 3 points! i think i had about 13, so that stinks. oh well, switched up lunch because of it. not a huge deal.

alright, enough of my babbling for now. let's hope this isn't too long to post...i'm copying it into a notepad file just in case the dis decides to erase it on me

 

[vald1977]

Good morning Marcia,
Your chicken quesidilla sounds so yummy . I may have to make those soon . I was glad to see Leah get kicked off last night too. She was a very pretty girl but she couldn't sing any better than me ! I like Jennifer too and don't see how she ended up in the bottom. Clay was fantastic (he usually is ).

Hope you have a great day and you're able to fit in your run !

 

[DavidandDenise]

Hey, Marcia! Sorry I haven't been around, but I have been thinking of you and did stop by and read a couple times even when I didn't have time to post. Thank you for checking in on me, too. I'm glad to hear you are doing well. You are too on top of everything to even be considered as having an ED; don't worry about that. I know what you mean about animal crackers; I eat them a couple times a week, but I think it's okay b/c I usually struggle to eat as many calories as I'm "supposed" to even to lose. I don't get the whole calorie thing; most people need to eat less, but you can go too low and not lose???? It's confusing--I just eat something healthy when I'm hungry--it's all I can do to keep from going crazy. Anyway, back to you--you can conquer the Easter candy. I'm so glad you're able to just grab a couple when they call you. I promise to try and check in on you more often again--I miss our daily chats. I'll be around a lot until I leave for WDW. Take care of you--I'm glad you didn't push yourself to get up w/ the alarm. Extra sleep can never hurt. I actually took a nap before I went to bed last night. Smile and have fun--keep up the great job with your running--you are making great progress. TTYL!

 

[tlgoblue]

Marcia,
Just stopping by for a quick Hello and ATTAGIRL. Sounds like you are handling those temptations pretty well. Good for you. I am so lucky I don't have the candy issue to deal with as I fear I would fail miserably. No co-workers, no candy in the house. I haven't even bought Easter candy yet. I think I'll do it the Monday before I leave, that way, I won't have time to eat it, and it will be here when I get back on Good Friday. (I'm not a real big candy person anyway, but for easter, I do have a weakness for those robin eggs. Gross, I know, but I just can't help myself once I start. I really should just not buy them, as I don't think anyone but me cares for them. Funny how everyone gets them in their basket, and then gives them all to me! )

Anyway, you have a great day and a happy healthy weekend!

Keep the Faith!
Tracy

 

[Desiree]

It sounds like you needed that rest! My body did that to me the other day too!

I think that maybe this year I wont buy Easter candy. (Devyn doesn't really eat treats anyway, I end up having to throw all her candy away). Instead I'm thinking of buying her some fruit cups and apples w/ caramel dip. Apples are her favorite. I'm sure my mom and her other grandparents will give her plenty of candy anyways.

 

[Strings]

Marcia,

I was just checking on you. Did you have to work last night? I hope you got plenty of rest. Long shifts can wear you out. Is the run today, or did you manage last night?

I'm sending and your way. I hope you have a relaxing weekend.

Beth

 

[marsh0013]

aha! the incredible disappearing post of the dis has not gotten me this time! copy and paste is your friend! let's try this again...

val - how could i forget about clay??? he was absolutely fantastic, i must agree . i just love him

denise - hi!! don't worry about not being able to post all the time, i know you're a very busy girl, and i know you're thinking about me even when you can't post . nap before bed sounds wonderful...maybe i can squeeze one in today, i hope so

tracy - robin eggs...are those like malted milk balls? i don't even know why i'm eating so many of those malted balls, i never have eaten them before. maybe just because they're there, and they give me a little chocolate fix . i'm so jealous that you are in a candy free zone! i have so many temptations at work, and then at home with the rest of my family! but i'm doing my best

desiree - wow, a kid that doesn't like candy and treats!! i'm so jealous, i wish i was like that! well good for her, one less obstacle for her to have to tackle in this crazy world

beth - hiya . yes, i did have to work last night. i was here till 8:30! gotta love that OT . so yeah, i got up early and ran this morning. again, lots of fun . haha, gotta do what ya gotta do i guess


alright, so like i said above, i ended up having to stay at work really late. i wasn't really prepared to stay that late...late nights at work every other thursday, i'm usually out of here by 7. so plenty of time to get home and eat dinner before i'm famished. but yeah, working till 8:30, that just stinks for eating purposes. i had a snack of yogurt with all bran at 5 as i had planned, but when 7 rolled around and i knew i wasn't getting out of here any time soon, i popped a bag of healthy choice popcorn and split it with my boss. that was enough to hold me over till i got home and had a small pbj sandwich. at that point, i didn't really want to eat a big dinner since it was so late. ah well. got to bed by 9:30 so i could wake up early to run this morning.

anyway, here's yesterday's details

b: lc bagel + morningstar pattie + 2% cheese slice + banana = 6
s: 13 animal crackers = 3
s: 1 cup carrrots = 0
l: 2 slices light wheat + gardenburger original + lettuce + 1 apple + cucumber slices = 4
s: columbo light + 1/2 cup all bran = 2
s: half bag healthy choice popcorn = 2
d: 2 slices light wheat + 1 tbsp pb + 1 tbsp sf preserves = 3
s: smart ones vanilla fudge giant sundae cup = 2

total: 22

that's good, because i decided to do a 22 point day yesterday. today should be a 20 point day plus 5 aps, for 25 total. meatless today, since it's a friday in lent, so im really looking forward to the sole that my mom is cooking for dinner. i love fish. i wish we would have it more often at my house.

and can i tell you how much i love gardenburger's original gardenburger? i know that sounds redundant...but gardenburger makes soy burgers too (think i'm having one for lunch today actually...the soy kind). a real gardenburger isn't an imitation burger, it's not supposed to taste like meat. i realized this when i had the garden burger at friday's last week...it's really made out of veggies, brown rice, mushrooms, cheese, that type of stuff. and it's so tasty! i'm a big fan.

even though i feel like the 8.5 hours of sleep i got should be plenty, i think mentally getting up at 6am makes me more tired...i don't know. i'm feeling a little like i'm dragging today, and i'm almost positive that i will be staying at work late again. ugh. i assist the human resources manager along with my receptionist duties, and yesterday (and every other thursday) was payroll sorting and sending out. today we have to make insurance packages and send them out to our 25 systems...every single employee has to get one. yikes, that's a task that will be starting any minute now since my boss just walked in. it's going to be a long day . the only request i have is that i make it home in time to really enjoy my fish tonight. i've been looking forward to it all week, and i'd liek to eat it before 8pm. we'll see.

so yeah, i thought i was going to make it to journals, but i forgot about this project today. so i will try to get to some if there is down time, but if not, i'll be thinking about all of you. have a great day everyone (yes, that's sun, i need some too...darn snow came again )

*****EDIT*****
okay, i had to come back real quick. somebody at work just showed up with fresh bread from the bakery. i'm not really feeling like it's even a temptation right now, but i need to write this down. i will not eat any of this bread. i do not want it. i do not need it. i have weigh in tomorrow morning for the last time for a while (oh yeah..have i mentioned that? i'm staying away from the scale for a while after tomorrow), and i don't want a false reading. i will not succumb to the bread. i sincerely don't want it, and i don't want to give in to the sabotage mentality that has a tendency to take over when there are goodies in the kitchen. i will continue to fill up my water tumbler, i will eat the snacks i have planned, and i will stick out my tongue at that bread ala doreen and her evm . there. i have said it. i have put it in stone. no bread from the kitchen. okay, i think that's enough.

 

[vald1977]

Hey Marcia,
You just stick your tongue right out at that bread ! Sounds like you have your menu for the day planned and under control . I'm wishing you a great day and sending some pixie dust for that weigh in tomorrow! Enjoy the fish tonight .

 

[sharoncity]

Hey Marcia - Somebody sneezed on the bread - big, gooey mess! You REALLY don't want any of that! Yuck!!

Sorry I haven't been around. Things have been hectic for me this week too! Sounds like your are doing great as usual - sticking to plan, exercising.... good job! I wish I could bottle some of your drive and resolve and drink it down! I am having a hard time convincing myself to stick with the plan.

Keep up all the good work Marcia! I'll try to stop by on Sunday. DD has another all day dance competition on Saturday. Oh well, at least I can't eat everything in sight while there.....
Hope the comes out for the weekend. I can't take any more of this white stuff!!!
TTFN-
Sharon

 

[toystoryduo]

Wow Marcia!
Sounds like you have been pretty busy lately. You are doing a great job staying in your points range during this OT at work! I probably would have broken down and headed for Taco Bell after work.

Hope your weigh in goes well tomorrow! Have a great day today!


Tracy

 

[honeymo78]

Marcia - I hope you were able to stay away from that bread. You have been doing so well!! After the past couple days at work you deserve a nice relaxing weekend. Give yourself some "you" time this weekend.

 

[lulu201]

Good morning, Marcia! How are you today? Are you going to be able to relax and chill this weekend or do you have big plans? Try to catch up on your sleep if you can. I get up between 5:30 and 6:00 usually, and while I like getting up early, it can sometimes make the days seem reeaaalllllyyy long. Treat yourself right, OK?

AI talk: yep, it was good to have Leah go, but would someone tell me why Frank Sinatra Boy isn't sent packing? It scares me that Jennifer Hudson was in the bottom three and he wasn't! Weasley should go home--soon. Maybe if next week is Disco Week or something and he's sitting on a stool in his suit, America will get the message!

I love your menus lately, Marcia. They're quite inspiring. I'm telling you, no one but you can pack so much food into 22 points. You're creative and you're healthy--it's a winning combination.

Did you ever say where you and your mom are going to be staying at the half marathon? Will you be at the Caribbean Beach with Doe and me and our DHs (and my DD)? I can't wait until we all get to meet in person.

to you, Marcia, and thank you for all the kindness and support you give to me. This healthy living walk is easier 'cause of you.

Erin

 

[cinmell]

Hi Marcia!

Looks like you are doing a great job with points, congratulations! Keep up the great work.

P.S.
How are the smart ones vanilla fudge giant sundae cups? I've never tried them.

 

[marsh0013]

val - thanks! the fish was wonderful, and i think your pixiedust helped me

sharon - that big gooey mess! i definitely stayed away from it! thanks for reminding me of the ickiness

tracy - thanks for stopping by, i really have been pretty busy lately, and it seems it will continue!

steph - yup, i avoided that bread like the plague . i'll try to find some "me" time this weekend...not sure it will happen

erin - hiya, thanks for your wonderful compliment about my menus . i really have been trying to get the most out of my points, and i haven't ever felt hungry. i love that! not sure what's going on for the half marathon...i think my mom said that now my dad wants to come too! even though it's busy season for him at work! i'm trying to convince them that we need to stay at the poly. we've never stayed at a disney hotel before, so i'm not sure what's going to happen. i'll keep you posted, i can't wait to meet you guys too!!!

cindy - the smart ones cups are okay. i've had the peanut butter ones before, and i think i like the vanilla better. the peanut butter was a pretty poor imitation. know what my favorite is though? the vanilla giant sundae cones! i tried them while i was babysitting last week, and they are really really good! i'm trying to finish up what i have in the house (the cups) before going out and buying some of the cones for myself


now on to weigh in this morning...i'm having mixed feelings. i weighed in at 136. on one hand, this is great, because i'm down from 139 last week, the one that i pretended didn't happen. but now i can't really pretend it didn't happen. while i know that probably 2-2.5 of what i lost this week was water weight, it still means i gained a bunch when i went off plan staying with ashley. that really scares me. but maybe it was just a fluke and i really was eating more than i normally would (when left to my own defenses i mean). i think i took more advantage of not counting points to eat lots of fatty and high calorie foods. oh well, live and learn.

i took measurements today too. i don't know if i was in a haze or something a month ago when i took them, because this month, they're back to where i started 2 months ago...i have no idea. it doesn't really make sense though, because my pants (especially my work size 12s) are really really too big on me now. oh i give up trying to figure this stuff out.

so yeah, i have mixed feelings. first off, i should be really excited that i lost 3 pounds in one week. haha, ww online gave me a scolding about losing weight too fast...i'm not worried, i know most of it was the water. but then again, that weight puts me 2 pounds above where i started 2 months and 1 week ago! another but...my clothes are fitting looser, and overall i feel better about myself. this is really hard, but i have to let go of the numbers. i started this journey saying i wasn't interested in what i weighed, i just wanted to be comfortable in my own skin (and a size 6 ). i need to remember that. i think that i get so caught up in everyone else's scale victories that i get a little jealous and want to have something tangible to focus on each week. but i really need to know that we are all different, and our successes will be measured in different ways. for goodness sakes, i ran 8 miles last saturday, and i'm planning on running 7 today! i can be proud of that. no i don't look like the typical runner, i've got fatty thighs, hips, and butt. but i know that if i just keep running (and add in some strength which i really really am going to try to do on my off running days, i just haven't been able to find the time lately), my body will respond eventually.

haha, i feel like i just gave myself a pep talk. a lot of that stuff i said, i'm just putting out there because i need to believe it. this is really really hard. i'm taking my weight out of my signature. i'm taking the scale out of my room. i will not weigh myself for a month. the next time i measure, i will also weigh, just to have an idea. i am going to stop obsessing over the number on the scale.

phew, that feels better. i will still be sticking to my points, no worries there . still going to stay with a modified version of wendie this week. this coming up friday is one of my really good friend's birthdays, so we will be going out drinking. i want to volunteer to be the designated driver so that i leave myself no option of drinking too much. i really don't want to waste points on alcohol. funny i should mention that...i went out for a drink last night with my mom and aunt, just one drink . but anyway, a couple drinks, fine, but nothing overboard. so i need to make sure i allot a few extra points for friday. not sure what my high day will be, i think i'll play it by ear. see where we're going out to dinner tonight, see what the plans are for the rest of the week. if all else fails, i'll make those yummy quesadillas again one night .

oh goodness, this has gotten long (surprise surprise ), i didn't even get to post my menu from yesterday, but i need to be at work in 15 minutes to babysit, just like last week. must go and get dressed! i'll try to come back later to post yesterday! hope everone has a great day

 

[DavidandDenise]

Hello, Marcia! I think your plan sounds great! I wish I could make myself stay off the scale. I think your pep talk was right on--you feel better and your clothes fit better--who cares about the numbers. I know it can be hard to see all these people losing weight, but just remember what you are doing for your body is very healthy. I bet the difference in your weight is muscle from running--look at all the running you've been doing. Keep making good choices and stick w/ your plan--you always do a great job with this. I think the structure works for you and that's good--take that lesson from your week of house/babysitting. Just remember how healthy you are and how healthy you heart is. If you like numbers look at all the miles you're running and start looking at your running times instead of the scale. K, sorry--I'll stop babbling.

I think that's great that your dad is considering going with you next year. We invited my parents to go with us this summer, but they're not going to be able to--I hope they can sometime soon.

Have a great weekend and don't stress out over this stuff. Take care of you!

 

[ZerasPride]

Hi Marcia!

I wanted to congratulate you on the 3 pound lose and say I am so proud of you for making the decision not to focus on what the scale says. That takes guts. I have gotten so focused on the scale that I seem to be weighing myself everyday. I don't count it except what the scale says on my official weigh in day (Sunday) but I do find the scale dictates how happy or unhappy I am with myself. That's sad and definitely unacceptable.

Anyway, I just want you to know that we are very proud of you! I'm sending bright and sunny thoughts your way!