marcia's journal (comments welcome!)

[sharoncity]

Hi Marcia!
Just wanted to pop in and say hi! I hope you are having a good day today. I'm glad you spoke up and said no to staying late tonight. You really need the break, plus running outside will be a very nice change for you.
So what'd you think of AI? I still haven't decided on who my favorite is. I have to say Amy (pinky) sounded really good last night. Most of the others were just so-so. I think maybe the Hawiian girl who always sounds like she has a cold will go tonight. What do you think?
Hope you are having a good day!
TTFN-
Sharon

 

[luvmy2sams]

Hi Marcia!

Glad to read that you're seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Your post from Monday (?) sounded so full of stress. You've got so much going on...no wonder you feel overwhelmed! Good for you for telling your boss that you can't stay late tonight. Working all those hours is bound to make anyone a little nuts.

Please don't worry about not getting to all the journals. I know exactly how you feel, though, because I feel guilty if I can't make it by everyone's to at least say "hi." Bottom line is all of us know that you're thinking of us, and we all want you to take care of yourself first. The journals will always be there another day!

Enjoy that run...all those exercise endorphins will help lift your spirits!

to you, my friend!

~Angela

 

[marsh0013]

yeah, when i say i'm leaving at 5, that really means i'm staying till 9

i didn't get to run today. that just pisses the life out of me. i should've known better, known that i'd have to stay, and known to take an extra long lunch and run then. i'm so unbelievably frustrated! so i hadn't brought dinner with me, so thankfully i have snacks at work. i had a quarter cup of oatmeal and a cheese stick for "dinner". then i got out of work finally, and i was just so stressed, that i came home and attacked the kitchen. there was leftover chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy, so i had a bowl. then i had some chips and salsa. and then 3 scoops of ice cream with hot fudge. good. did i mention that i hit 20 points with my oatmeal and cheese "dinner"? cause i was originally planning on getting aps to cover dinner, but that didn't happen, so i had 3 points left for dinner, which i ate with the oatmeal and cheese. so i'm way over. and i just don't care.

i don't even know what to say. i feel like i just want to crawl under a rock.

i want to want to get back on track, but i just feel like why bother right now. did that make sense? like, i don't want to get back on track, but i wish i did.

i don't know what's wrong with me. sorry. and i'm done now.

 

[lulu201]

and more s, Marcia. I would've done the same thing as you did tonight--wait, no, I probably would've had to have 4 scoops of ice cream. You're sounding exhausted, frustrated, and used. Put on your comfy pjs and a robe, ask your mom for a big hug, maybe have a good cry, definitely try to have a good night's sleep, and put the cap on the day. Tomorrow is a new one and you can make of it what you want. Tonight, though? Well, tonight, ya gotta get some rest. Take care, Marcia. I'm thinking about you.

Erin

 

[toystoryduo]

Marcia~
Lots of and for you to have a much better day today. I understand why you are so frustrated especially when it comes to your work situation. I hope that you are able to get some time this weekend to relax and take some ME time. It sounds like you have been through the ringer at work and you definitely deserve the break. You will be in my thoughts and prayers today. Take care, Marcia.

Tracy

 

[cinmell]

I'm sorry yesterday didn't go well for you but today is a new day ! Try to relax a little and I hope you have a great day!

 

[Desiree]

Gosh do I ever understand! We get so busy going and going that we settle for the easy way out. Today is a new day so just try to relax and you'll get back on track. Best of luck today!

 

[sharoncity]

for you my friend! I know EXACTLY how you feel. I was there just 2 weeks ago. You are so right, you want to get back on plan, but then you don't do the right things and end up more frustrated! Why do we do that to ourselves? All I can say is, this too shall pass. Keep trying to get back OP. Once you do, it will be much easier to stay OP. Keep fighting the fight Marcia - you will win! In the mean time, try to go easy on yourself. Sounds like you have enough pressure at work without adding more baggage to it.
I hope today is better for you. No matter what, we are here for you.
Heres some to help you through your day today!
TTFN-
Sharon:happy1:

 

[Strings]

Marcia,

You sound exhausted. I hope you were able to sleep last night. It sounds like you could use some extra zzz's.

I'm so sorry that yesterday did not go as planned. You tried. You planned out your day, and that plan included exercise. It was out of your control. You had to work until 9, by that time, it was too late and you were exhausted. Yes, you ended up over in points yesterday. You are human. Please don't beat yourself up over it.

As for not going back on program, well, I think it was exhaustion talking. Last night I bet you were too tired to even think of an eating plan for today. I would also lay money on the bet that you made one first thing in the morning. If you did, that is a sure sign that you don't want to go off program.

I hope that your day goes better today. The weekend is almost here. Try to catch up on your rest and take care of yourself.


Beth

 

[vald1977]

Hey Marcia,
That really stinks that you had to work until 9 ! I really hope you get out of there on time today. At least the weekend is right around the corner. Sounds like you are more than ready for it. Hope today is a good one for you, Marcia.

 

[septbride2002]

Oh Marcia! I've been there, done that, and bought the T-shirt! It is amazing how stressed out we can get because of work and then when we are extra hungry how everything in the kitchen calls our names. Lots of are coming your way my friend! Tomorrow is over - lets look towards today!

~Amanda

 

[R_Judy]

Hi Marcia. Just wanted to stop by and wish you a happy Friday. I hope your day is .

 

[marsh0013]

quick post. yesterday was going well. i only ate 17.5 points, i ran 4 miles, then i went to tgi friday's with my friends to watch the syracuse game. a few of them went to syracuse, so they're big fans. i couldn't care less. i ended up eating a brownie obsession (huuuuuge) out of boredom.

i feel like i'm falling apart. i don't know what's going on. i'm trying to not eat too much today. tonight i have an annual rembembrance mass for my grandfather who died 5 years ago. afterward, we go back to grandma's for dessert. ugh. then i have my friend's birthday celebration tonight, and we're going out to hoboken. yuck. it's so dumb, it's a 45 minute drive, and my best friend said she's not going. so i dont' want to go either, but then my friend whose birthday it is will be hurt.

okay, i gotta go work now. thank you all for stopping by and leaving me such nice messages. i am just in this horrendous funk right now, and i don't know how to break it. so thank you for being there for me.

 

[Strings]

Marcia,

Looks like you've got a lot on your plate still. Lots of emotional things to deal with. Would your friend understan that you are upset by your DGF's rememberance mass. Maybe you could schedule a lunch with just the 2 of you. Would your friend understand that you wouldn't want to ruin her party by being upset?

I hope things workout for you today. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and sending . The weekend will be here soon.

,
Beth

 

[ZerasPride]

Marcia here's a big from me to you. I am so sorry to come to your journal to find you so sad and frustrated. You are under a lot of pressure right now and sometimes eating healthy and exercise fall by the way side. It's okay, we're all human. I hope you will be feeling better real soon.

We all care for you and it's disheartening to see you in such a blue mood. Please take care of yourself and know that when you are ready to get back on the wagon, it and we will be right here to cheer you on.

 

[toystoryduo]

Marcia~
and more for you today. I hope that you get a chance to relax and enjoy the weekend. Please know that we are all here for you, Marcia!

for you today! Take good care of you!


Tracy

 

[lulu201]

Man, Marcia, you are pressured beyond belief right now, IMHO. I think you need some space and some time to regroup--you've got work obligations, social obligations, YOWZA! That being said, try to remember that sometimes all we can do is ride the wave. It's hectic and draining right now, but you'll come through to the other side.

Is there any way you can schedule some Marcia Time? Don't make yourself available to anyone for any reason. How about a Mental Health day off from work? Is it possible?

Just food for thought.

Erin

 

[sharoncity]

for you my friend. Hang in there! It will get better, I promise! I feel terrible that you are having such a bad time. I hope the shines for you this weekend and that you get a chance to exercise outside. I know that is something that you really enjoy. Take GOOD care of you Marcia!
TGIF!!!
TTFN-
Sharon

 

[marsh0013]

i think i had an "aha" moment today. i've been doing lots of thinking, and i'm thinking that i'm done obsessing over food. i really think it's gotten to a point where it really isn't healthy. i constantly think about food, contantly feel guilt when i eat something "bad" and i really can't do that anymore. i don't know if i've ever mentioned this, but i went through a couple months a while back (before i joined wish), where i probably was borderline eating disorder. and i think ww was a good thing, because it showed me i could eat more and it was okay, but now i'm done worrying about every little thing.

so yeah, don't worry, i'm not going anywhere. my focus will just be my running, and i will just eat what feels right. i'm still "inspired to stay healthy" as in the i.s.h in wish (that is what it means...right?? i hope so )

i feel like ever since i made this "discovery" i've started to feel better. like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. and all this in light of having to head to mass tonight for my grandfather! i just feel like a huge thing has been pushed off my plate of stuff to do, and it really has made me feel a bit more peaceful.

i'm not going to be around tonight, but i think i will have some time tomorrow, i really want to catch up with all of you! i miss you guys! thank you so much for sticking with me through the past few days, i know i haven't been pleasant . but i really am feeling much better now, and it really helped to know that you were all there for me, wishing me well, you have no idea how much it means to me

oops, must run...i think they're going to leave without me if i don't get my butt moving!! talk to you guys later

 

[luvmy2sams]

Hi Marcia!

I feel bad that you've been through a great funk the past few days, and I've been pretty much AWOL. However, your last post has raised my spirits as well. It sounds like you've made a breakthrough, and that can be nothing but good. You've got a great plan, and we'll be here to support you all the way.

to you for the emotions that go along with the remembrance mass for your grandfather. I hope that the mass gave you peace and that you left with good memories and not as much saddness.

Again, I'm so glad that you're feeling better. Remember that you're doing an amazing job! Everything will get better soon!

Take care,
Angela