Lisa's Journal (Life on the "Beach" - Part 2 all the way to goal!)

[ZerasPride]

April 25, 2004 (Sunday) Day 147 on the Beach

I wanted to post my menu for the day and exercise, then I'll be back later for some ramblings (if I can think of any).

Menu:
B: 2 scrambled eggs and a slice of lf cheese, 3 slices of bacon and 1 slice of whole wheat toast with strawberry Simply Fruit Spread
L: fried (in Pam) bologna sandwich with whole wheat bread with mayo, lettuce and tomato and an orange
D: shrimp alfredo over whole wheat pasta and 1/2 cup of Pierre's peanut butter cup n/s/a ice cream

Exercise/Water Gauge:
I did FIRM ab sculpt this morning and water was a 4.0. Not too bad for a weekend.

That's a wrap for Sunday!

Beth - thanks for stopping by and cheering me on. Don't you just love our new smilies? I told myself that once I reached my second minigoal and was less than 30 pounds from onderland that I would set my sights on 199. It has been close to 20 years since I've been under 200 pounds. It's so exciting to think about! I hope to reach onderland by or before September 5th. Thanks for the vote of confidence that I'll get there!

 

[DoeWDW]

Lisa, you've got my eyes all teary while reading your journal. Do you KNOW how far you've come???

Every time I read your journal I'm inspired, and it's often the things that would seem minor to many people but seem major to me because I've battled the same battles. Your story about the in-the-cart / out-of-the-cart battles with the ice cream treats - I see myself in that story - and you WON!!! Your story about fitting into smaller clothes, like that little black dress and how beautiful it made you feel - I've had those moments myself and while my DH is supportive, somehow he rarely manages to say that encouraging word or compliment when I need it most. I'm so thankful we can share these moments with each other here!!

Now then, I have not properly helped to celebrate that absolutely wondrous clippie you've worked so hard to earn!

:thewave: 50 AMAZING POUNDS!!! :thewave:

Warm congratulations, Lisa, and my very best wishes for continued success!!

 

[Carol36]

I want to join in on the celebration!

Hey Lisa! I am glad you had a fun time at the mall with your sister. A size 10 or 12 sounds wonderful to me. I cannot wait to buy smaller sizes!

I bought some of the Pierre's brand ice cream yesterday. Tonight I had 1/4 cup and agree with you that it is delicious!! Thanks!

Keeping a journal has helped me, also! I have to go and post in my journal!

I hope that you have another successful day!

Carol

 

[ZerasPride]

April 26, 2004 (Monday) Day 148 on the Beach

I had a coworker tell me that my slacks are so baggy they look like they are going to fall off me! I think she was exaggerating a bit but they are really really big on me. I just love this way of eating and wish I would have discovered it years ago! I put up my new mirror, okay, DH put it up but I did help by handing him screwdriver and nails!

I don't know how to describe the feelings that went through me as I looked at my full length reflection in this mirror. I made sure to buy a good mirror too with beveled glass so I would get an accurate reflection. They say pictures don't lie when it comes to how you truly look, well let me tell you, neither does a beveled glass mirror! I am so glad I waited until I had lost 50+ pounds to buy this mirror. It shows all the lumps, bumps and bulges that I thought I was hiding from the rest of the world. I do see the progress I have made but I am still fat. Not as fat as I used to be but fat nonetheless. I don't mean this statement as a pity party. It's just fact. A fact that I am working my hardest to make go away but a fact nonetheless.

At one point my reflection would have depressed me. I would have only thought about the long journey to get to my destination. Now though I can look in that mirror and see the progress I have made. The struggles and battles I have fought with food or not wanting to exercise and how I have for the most part won them! I am strong, I invincible - I am WOMAN!!! Okay, I'm getting a bit off here but we all need a little chuckle once in a while.

My point is that I am a different person now, on the inside and the outside. I am looking forward to this journey, no matter how long it takes, because I know when I come out on the other side I will be mentally and emotionally as well as physically ready to be my ideal weight and size. You can't rush the mental and emotional progress, even if you can speed up the physical process to weight loss. I am happy where I am today. I truly am. I couldn't always say that before. Wow! I like what I am seeing in my full length mirror. If you don't have one of your own, perhaps you should go get one. I think it's one of the best investments I have made since I started this way of eating and know this is one more tool to help me get to goal.

Menu:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat cereal with 1% milk and 2 small sausage patties
S: 8 small whole almonds (they are really tiny for some reason)
L: tuna salad with whole wheat crackers and an orange
S: Dannon light and fit carb control 4 oz. strawberry n' cream yogurt
D: sloppy joe on whole wheat bread with 1/2 cup of n/s/a peanut butter cup ice cream for dessert

Exercise/Water Gauge:
I did FIRM cardio sculpt blaster this morning. Water was a 5.0. Pretty good for a week day.

That's a wrap for Monday!

Doe - you are such a sweetie! Thanks so much for stopping by to check on me. Your words bring such sunshine to my day and warm my heart more than I can ever say! Thanks for celebrating the big "50" with me. I can hardly believe I've gotten this far myself. I've got my sights set on onderland and I'm not going to let anything (even fear) stop me from getting there! Thanks so much for your warmth and support!

Carol - Hi there girlie friend! You know I always appreciate your encouragement and cheers for me to keep on keeping on! I know we can make our goals traveling this road together. Thanks for sharing in my celebration. I know I'm a long long long way off from wearing normal sized clothes but it was nice looking in those sections and just taking sizes 10 and 12 into a fitting room, even though I knew they wouldn't fit, felt pretty good. One day I will wear 12s and 10s!!!! I'm so glad you like that ice cream. Let's be careful with though, okay? That stuff is dangerous!!! I'm almost sorry I recommended it to you. I know I can go overboard if I'm not careful. Let's keep an eye on each other!

 

[septbride2002]

Hi Sweetie! Thanks for stopping by my journal. I'm doing okay I guess (go see today's journal entry if you have a chance). I think about you everyday as my FIRM tapes gather dust. I will be dusting them off soon.

Congrats on looking in the mirror! LOL! Mirror Mirror on the wall - who is the shrinking girl I see - why it is LISA!

Quick Question - how long are your Firm tapes? All 3 of mine are an hour long and I am having a hard time fitting it into my schedule. Thought I might try to find some that are shorter online today.

~Amanda

 

[ZerasPride]

April 27, 2004 (Tuesday) Day 149 on the Beach

I had the nicest compliment paid to me last night. A friend hugged me and she said she could feel my backbone! Then this morning a co-worker said she could see the lovehandles on my back have virtually disappared. And she could see my shoulder blades. When people notice your progress, it spurs you on!

Okay, here's today's menu:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat flakes with 1% milk, 2 small sausage patties and 2 scrambled eggs with a slice of lf cheese
S: 7 whole almonds
L: tuna salad with whole wheat crackers and an orange
S: Dannon light and fit carb control strawberry and cream yogurt
D: beef stroganoff over 1/2 cup of long grain converted rice with a 1/2 cup of n/s/a chocolate peanut butter cup ice cream for dessert

I have been woefully deficient on the veggie front for the past couple of days so I'm adding back in my V8 juice tomorrow.

Exercise and Water Level:
I did FIRM BSS1 body sculpt (upper body) and I'm happy to report my arms weren't aching and tired by the middle of the routine like usual. I was able to get through the entire routine without straining my neck. Woohoo! I'm getting fit, slowly but surely!!!! And I love doing my manly man push ups! I'm up to 9 of them now! Woohoo!!!! Water was a 5.50. Pretty good for a weekday.

That's a wrap for Monday!

Amanda - thanks for stopping by and checking on me! I am enjoying my mirror. It's nice to see the whole me - bumps and buldges too - but it's the me everyone else sees so it's important for me to have an accurate picture of what people see when they look at me. I'm sorry you haven't been able to get the FIRM work outs in. Most of the tapes are pretty long. When I do cardio sculpt with Allie, I only do this one Saturday and usually stop when I get to 40 minutes because 55 minutes is just too long for me. I don't have the stamina or time. When I do body sculpt (twice a week) I either do lower or upper body but never both. Each section is about 24 minutes long and that's enough for me for a weekday. I bought cardio sculpt blater with Lisa Kay as instructor and it's a 30 minute from beginning to end video that has replaced regular cardio sculpt with Allie as my all time favorite FIRM work out. It's quick and efficient and you feel so goooooddd when you're done! Check it out if you have the chance. I found my VHS for $8 at Walmart about a month ago. I'm off to your journal to read up on all that's going on with you. Take care!

 

[Carol36]

Hey Lisa!

Don't be sorry about that ice cream! When I am in control, I have no problems. My husband may bake something and that doesn't tempt me at all. But when I start falling off program, then I gradually slip into my old ways. So, you see, having it in the house doesn't bother me in the least. I would most likely eat "real" food that I shouldn't. That is where my downfall always starts.

Enough about me! You are so good at doing your exercises! No wonder you are successful at losing weight! As I have said before, you are an inspiration to all that follow your progress! Thanks for being so strong! Seeing how far you have come in your battle makes me realize that I can do the same!

Have a great day. Lisa!

Carol

 

[ZerasPride]

April 28, 2004 (Wednesday) Day 150 on the Beach

Today makes 150 cheat free days for me! Woohoo!!!

I am reading a book called "Passing for Thin" by Frances Kuffel and I see so much of myself in the author. Her story is wonderful and she lost 170 pounds in a year and half. Anyway, I almost feel as obsessed with my weight loss as she must have been to lose that much weight in such a short period of time! (lol)

My vacation is coming up in a few weeks and I have pretty much decided to stay on plan while on vacation. What makes this trip so thrilling is that I have 1) never lost this much weight before and hope to be able to sit comfortably in my airplane seat and 2) I've never even tried to eat healthy on vacation so this will definitely be a learning experience for me. I'm glad I will have a little more than six months experience when I go and hope to be successful. I am intrigued by the thought of going on vacation with food not being the main attraction.

I love going to parties or gatherings now and focusing in on the people now and not the food. What a great feeling! It's so liberating. I hope to experience something similar when on vacation. It's sad to admit but all my previous Disney trips have revolved around food. The rides, family, weather, resort, etc. were always secondary. Again, reading Passing for Thin is really helping me step outside myself and see my obsessive behavior toward food for what it really was. A prison that kept me just out of arms reach of truly living. I am so excited at the thought of going on vacation and looking forward to the good times and not the good food! I love food though, don't get me wrong, and I plan on having some awesome meals but I want them to be within the confines of what's healthy eating for me. Wouldn't it be awesome to report a weight loss when you came back from vacation? We'll see if I can make it happen for me.

Here's today's menu:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat cereal with 1% milk and 2 small sausage patties
S: V8 juice and a few almonds
L: leftover beef stroganoff over 1/2 cup of long grain converted rice
S: Dannon light and fit carb control yogurt (strawberries and cream) - I don't like this stuff - it's too watery - I'm going back to the other Dannon yogurt
D: fried (in canola oil) chicken breast, 1/2 cup of long grain converted rice with a mushroom sauce and 1/2 cup of n/s/a crunchy peanut butter cup ice cream for dessert

Exercise and Water Gague:
I did FIRM cardio sculpt blaster this morning and feel fantastic! I ove doing a cardio and weight routine. Woohoo!!! Water was a 5.0. Pretty good.

That's a wrap for Wednesday!

Carol - thanks so much for stopping by and complimenting me on my exercise. I absolutely hate to skip a day of working out with the FIRM. It makes me feel so good. I think I've turned into an endorphin junkie. I am even really happy when I go to bed at night and realize I can wake up in the morning and do a work out. I know too weird!!!! I hope you have a great successful and sunny day!

 

[LAinSEA]

Wow, Lisa - You are so amazing! I'm so glad those who are around you everyday are noticing your committment and effort and the new thin, healthy you coming through!

Good for you for making the decision to stay on plan while on vacation. Since this is a lifestyle change, finding ways to eat well and enjoy your vacation while at WDW is a big accomplishment. Happy planning - I sure wish I was going too.

To another 100 or more cheat-free days and onderland for you!

-Laurie

 

[ZerasPride]

April 29, 2004 (Thursday) Day 151 on the Beach


WARNING! LONG RAMBLING CONFESSIONAL TYPE POST AHEAD. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!

Today’s topic class is on control or the lack thereof. So often on this weight loss journey we talk about “losing control” or feeling “out of control” with our eating. I decided to do some research on the word. The dictionary gives the following definitions of control: “to exercise authority over”; “to restrain or curb”; “power to regulate or direct”; and “restrain, influence; check”.

I can definitely say that last night I was out of control with my eating. No, I didn’t cheat. I didn’t need to. It wasn’t about the specific food I was eating, but the way I felt eating it. I was so tired that I didn’t make a meeting I needed to attend. I felt bad and asked DH to order a pizza. Of course I was going to dutifully take the toppings off and not eat the bread. I did just that. I also had my ½ cup of ice cream, the Pierre’s chocolate peanut butter stuff. There was nothing specifically wrong with that dinner. Okay, I didn’t make the grilled pork chops and veggie I was supposed to cook but I was still within the confines of my plan (barely) but still there.

It was simply the way I approached the food mentally that was scary. I felt like the “old” Lisa. That’s bad. Real bad. I felt guilty and almost dirty as I scarfed down the pizza toppings barely pausing to chew. Just like the old days. Then to make matters worse, I couldn’t stop myself. I knew I had satisfied my hunger but I couldn’t restrain, curb, regulate, direct or exercise authority over the fork to mouth motions. I kept shoveling the food in and even my husband looked at me kind of scared and I almost growled at him with a “What are you looking at buddy? Do you want a piece of me?” Okay, a little levity is needed to lighten things up a bit on this post. But the point is I didn’t like the feeling of being so out of control. I did manage to stop eating and DH craftily snuck up beside me and slid the plate away taking it to the kitchen without a word. I told myself I wouldn’t have dessert. How could I? I had just eaten parts of 3 slices of pizza toppings and I really was full. An hour later I sat with giddy anticipation with my ½ cup of ice cream melting away in my favorite Mickey mouse shaped container.

I debated for about half a second over whether to actually eat it. As I started eating, so many thoughts started to go through my mind. Including a voice deep deep inside that was begging me to stop. It was saying that I had had enough. That I didn’t want to ruin all the hard work I had worked so hard for. Another voice told me to ignore the wimp and keep eating myself back to fat oblivion. It’s where I belonged. I didn’t deserve to keep getting the compliments that I relish now. I didn’t deserve to look in my full length mirror and not cringe. I didn’t deserve to melt away to a normal size 10 or even an 8. I belonged in Fat World. No one would love me or want me or accept me in Skinny World.

I’m happy to report the good voice won out. But for the first time since I started portioning out my desserts I got more than ½ cup and it scared me to have so much dessert in my cup at one time. I only ate about half of it and threw the rest of the contents of the cup in the garbage disposal. I will not be buying more of that Pierre’s ice cream. I have been feeling guilty about it since the day I brought it home. It obviously is a trigger food for me but I have been denying it. Well, I’m not in denial about it anymore.

I think part of the problem with this episode of lost control is two-fold: One, I skipped my afternoon snack and didn’t eat dinner until almost 9:30 because of a mix-up with our pizza order. That means I ate nothing between 2 and almost 10 pm. That’s way too many hours to go without food. Second, I have been reading a book about a woman who lost an incredible amount of weight in a very short period of time and she talks a lot about her binges and out of control episodes with food. She also talks extensively about what’s it like to step outside Fat World and find yourself on an alien planet called Thin. I’m not blaming the author for my negative feelings but her book is raw with emotion and hits so close to home, it scared me. The thought of truly being thin scars me. Guys, I know this is silly but none of my clothes fit. I am beginning not to recognize the face in the mirror staring back at me. As exciting as all this stuff is, it’s disconcerting too. I’ve been so caught up in the excitement that I forgot to make sure I’m mentally and emotionally ready or at least to check my mental and emotional state as often as I check my body in the mirror or my weight on the scale.

I think I posted yesterday that this weight loss journey is about so much more than the physical. I have to take time weekly and maybe even daily to make sure I’m okay with this process emotionally and mentally.

I am feeling much more in control this morning. I knew that if I came here and wrote down (sorry about the War and Peace novel type post) that the real issues would become clear to me and I would see the path I needed to move forward. I’m ready now. Boy, this is cheaper than therapy! If you have read this far, thanks for listening and sorry for the bumpy emotion-filled ride this morning!

Menu:
B: ½ bowl of cereal and 3 slices of bacon
S: 8 whole almonds
L: tuna salad with 8 whole wheat crackers and an orange
S: no afternoon snack
D: toppings off 3 slices of pizza, a diet soda and ½ cup of ice cream for dessert

Exercise/Water Gauge:
I did FIRM ab sculpt for my work out. I like doing a low or no impact work out instead of taking a rest day. It’s working out fine so far. Water was a 4.75. Not too bad.

That’s a wrap for Thursday!

Laurie - Thanks so much for celebrating 150 cheat free days with me. I appreciate the support so much. I hope you have a wonderful weekend!!!!

 

[septbride2002]

Feel better? Sometimes I think that we block up all our emotions and all of our feelings into ourselves and once the flood gates open - they really open and then it all comes rushing out in one big wave. The good news is that you are the wave just fine.

I want you to go out this weekend and buy some new clothes! You've been posting for awhile that your clothes don't fit - you need to go buy some clothes - say good-bye to the saggy wear and get some clothes that fit. Keep journaling - you are uncovering a lot of pent up emotion that needs to be let out so that you can focus on the end.

Don't be scared to be thin, there is nothing to be afraid of. You are still you just with a new and improved outer self. You are still the bright, caring, loving, wonderful person that you have always been.

~Amanda

 

[DoeWDW]

I don't know what to say (odd for me ). I just know that I love reading your journal - ALL of it, including the emotion-filled posts.

Lisa, you so often write things that ring true with me, things that I may be thinking in the back of my mind but I won't let my conscious mind dwell on - I just stuff them back down and hide them. I NEED to work through these same feelings and issues or I will never allow myself to once and for all lose this extra weight. Thank you for sharing yourself, your innermost thoughts and feelings with me - you are truly helping both of us.

I hope you have a good weekend and I like Amanda's idea of going shopping for clothes that truly "fit" you. If you don't want to spend a lot of money, there are plenty of consignment shops with beautiful clothes for a very reasonable price.

Please take extra good care of you, Lisa!!

 

[Strings]

Lisa,

I just wanted to say that you are not alone in those feelings you described. About a week ago I had a similar episode. I stayed within my allowed carbs, but felt compulsive about my eating. I chose not to flip my bear because of it. You have learned from the episode. You already have a plan to avoid this in the future. I am proud of you for working that out and for being brave enough to share your feelings. I also have to agree that you need to go shopping. A pair of khaki capris, black capris, and a few coordinating tops should help you feel better as well.

Beth

 

[lulu201]

Hi, Lisa. Here's a . Thank you so much for sharing your emotional journey with us; you've encouraged me to explore a lot of my own issues re: compulsive eating because you've so bravely shared your joys, your fears, your pain.

I'm reading Francis Kuffel's book, after seeing you were. It IS raw. I've had to put it down at times to just comes to terms with the emotions it's stirred in me. As I've read it, I've thought of many of us here on the WISH and what we're trying to do for ourselves and the adjustments we have to make as we enter Planet of the Girls/Thin World. If we don't take time to explore our feelings and all the psychological aspects of this journey, we're cheating ourselves; I know that I'm feeling like I'm just getting to know the real me.

Lisa, I certainly understand your being upset with the loss of control you felt (I usually feel that a few times a week ), but I hope that you can spend some time focusing on the fact that you flirted with disaster and temptation, but you really didn't go there. The feelings were there, but you talked back to them and you moved past them (as in "Au revoir, Pierre"). I think it's in these moments--not the easy days, but rather the days where you're extra hungry, extra tired, whatever--that you double the amount of strength you already possess when you make the right choices. You looked your food demon in the eye and you won, even though you had the compulsive feeling. You're strong, Lisa, stronger than the feeling.

Lisa, you are an incredible example to me. Your ability to abstain from cheating/binge eating, to recognize and reject your triggers, your openness in meeting your challenges, and your willingness to share them with us here--I have such admiration for you.

for this journey, Lisa. You're doing it.
Erin

 

[LAinSEA]

Lisa - this is your journal and your journey and I want to thank you for sharing your successes and trials. I don't feel so alone when I read your posts.

You deserve some real YOU time this weekend.

-Laurie

 

[ZerasPride]

I was actually a little scared to come back to my journal today for fear you would all think I was some psycho! I have tears welling up in my eyes as I type this and it's hard to see the screen!

Thanks to each of you so much for your acceptance. You just don't know how much it truly means to me. I had such a rough day at work. People can be so unkind at times. I talked it over with DH and he made me feel better and so did talking to my sister. But when I came to my journal and saw all your lovely posts, well, like Doe, I'm just speechless. Tears are streaming down my face . . .

You guys think I should go buy some new stuff and I agree I should. I have been putting it off because (here I go again with the negativity) I felt like I didn't deserve to buy new things. I realize typing this that this is a stupid thought but I think the excuses I was using (no money, no time) were just that excuses. I deserve to buy myself a nice piece or two and I will make some time and find some money to do that! Thanks for the encouragement to get out of my baggy clothes!

****

Amanda - I so agree with you about riding the waves of pent up emotions and when they start coming at you, there's nothing you can do but hold on. Thankfully I have my faith, my family (real life and cyber) to help me move past the painful feelings. When you are doped up on carbs, you don't feel anything but a false sense of numbness. I don't want to be numb anymore and thanks to my healthy eating, I'm experiencing so many different emotions that I don't think I ever allowed myself to feel before. Thanks so much for being here for me! I really really mean it.

Doe - I've said it before and I'll say it again, when you post to my journal and I just see your name, I get all excited because I know you'll have something to say that will make me feel special. I don't know how old you are and I hope you don't take this the wrong way but I think of you as a motherly type figure. Not in being old or anything but just in being wise, caring, open and loving. If what I have shared (it was scary thinking the thoughts, losing control and then coming here to write about it) touched a cord with you and has helped even one person look deeper inside themselves then I am the one that is benefitted and feel privileged. Thanks to you too for lifting me up and giving me the support and encouragement I need.

Erin - I would love to know what you think about Francie's book. I just finished it tonight and feel like I have been on an emotional roller coaster! Her writing is so powerful and raw. She cut right to the heart of what it feels like to be fat all your life and suddenly find yourself in Girl/Thin World. Thank you for reminding me that I stared the beast in the eye and the beast flinched first! You guys just don't know how much your cheering me on means. I so appreciate you coming here and supporting me!

Laurie - sometimes I feel so alone in this journey too. I mean I know we are all traveling the same road together but the head stuff (emotional and mental) is a lonley place to be sometimes. That's one reason I share so much of myself. Sometimes I think I shouldn't. That I should just keep my feelings to myself but if I don't write them out, I don't feel like I'm healing. Plus I hope I can give back a little of what you all give to me by being so open and honest with my posts. Another big thanks to you for being here for me. I truly value your taking the time to post and support me on this journey.

 

[Carol36]

Hey Lisa,

I got home and read your post and was speechless! I din't really know what to say, so I am back and still I'm at a loss for words. I will say that I can relate to that feeling of starting to eat and not wanting to stop! I think that has always been the way I have started every failure to every diet. Eating too much and doing that again and again until I act like nothing is wrong. At least you did not go off program! That's a good thing! You did take control! I am proud of you and think that buying yourself something new would help your spirits. I do understand how you feel. You just have to realize that waiting so long in between meals triggers those feelings, I believe. Keep that positive attitude and know that you are who you are no matter what size you are! Thanks for sharing.

Carol

 

[ZerasPride]

April 30, 2004 (Friday) Day 152 on the Beach

I wanted to post my menu and exercise/water for the day so here goes:

Menu:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat cereal and 3 slices of bacon
S: 8 very tiny whole almonds
L: tuna salad with 8 or 9 whole wheat crackers and an orange
S: strawberry yogurt (4 oz. Dannon light and fit)
D: fried fish (in canola oil) and homemade cole slaw with 1/2 cup of n/s/a ice cream for dessert

Exercise/Water Gauge:
I did FIRM body sculpt (upper body) for my work out this morning. Water level was a 4.75. Pretty good.

That's a wrap for Friday!

Carol - Thanks so much to you for your constant support. I am feeling more in control the past day or so. I was a bit concerned about dinner the following night but I was just fine. This losing weight thing is such a complicated process sometimes, or maybe I just make it that way for myself. Anyway, I hope you have a great weekend!

 

[ZerasPride]

May 1, 2004 (Saturday) Day 153 on the Beach

Today marks 5 straight months of exercise for me. I love my FIRM work outs! They make exercising so much easier for me. I've claimed my five month clippie! Woohoo!!!!

I want to relate my shopping experience from earlier today while it's still fresh in my mind.

I went tennis shoe shopping and found a cute pair and on sale too! The best part is that they are a whole size smaller than my old ones. Woohoo!!!! I've gone from a size 9 to a size 8.

Then my sister and I went over to Lane Bryant so I could find 2 outfits for work. I was looking for a pair of size 18 petite slacks but they didn't have any on the sale racks. They only had 20's and 16's. The 20's were too lose and I was so surprised that the 16's fit perfectly! Another woohoo! I stood in the dressing room sobbing uncontrolably while my sister held me saying it was going to be alright. I think the salespeople thought I was having a nervous breakdown!

I haven't wore a size 16 pants in 20 years! I am still in disbelief. I almost starting crying again when the sales lady gave me a big smile and told me to keep up the great work as she folded my new clothes. They folded down so small. Almost like regular size clothes. I did have to get the tops in 18/20's because of the "girls", they are still pretty hefty but it won't be long before I'll be in a 14/16 tops and 14 bottoms then it will be so long LB and hello regular sized clothing stores!

I truly didn't feel like I had lost that much weight until I put these smaller clothes on. Now I can tell. What a difference it makes in how you look. Okay, that's it for the shopping story. Thanks for listening.

Menu:
B: 1/2 bowl of whole wheat flakes and 3 slices of bacon
S: 7 whole almonds
L: lunch at sisters (whole wheat pita stuffed with turkey and veggies, salad with lf dressing and a strawberry smoothie made with lf yogurt, and n/s/a ice cream)
S: no afternoon snack
D: grilled pork chop and 1/2 cup of long grain converted rice with mushroom sauce

Exercise/Water Gauge:
I did FIRM cardio sculpt this morning and as I continue to use the full 14 inch fanny lifter, it is really helping me to feel strong and powerful. Water was a 4.0, which isn't bad for the weekend.

Weigh in: Since it's actually Sunday that I am typing Saturday's journal, I'll report on my weight loss. I've lost 2 pounds this week and 3 inches. This brings my total weight loss to 55 pounds and I've claimed my beautiful 55 pound clippie! Another Woohoo!!!!

That's a wrap for Saturday!

 

[Strings]

CLIPPIE PARTY AT LISA'S!

Congratulations on the beautiful new clippie. Here's 2 for the pounds and for the inches. Congrats on the size 16's too. I bet DH was . You will be saying goodbyr to LB very soon. I am so proud of you. You really are an inspiration to all of us. the exercise clippie.

Congrats again.
Beth