It's funny I never knew how fragile pregnancy can be until our boys died but afterward I learned so much. I never knew so many people experienced the death of a child.... The first year was difficult to say the least but I've found alot of peace over the years. I usually don't tell people anymore because I don't like that people want to be sad about it for me...Really I've come to a place I'm no longer sad. I truly believe I have grown in way that may never been possible without them. There was alot of joy with that pregnancy and even some joyful moments in the few days they struggled in the NICU. I prefer to focus on that. I miss them but there was another plan for me and for them and had I not had them and lost them I may have never known my other children and I don't know that I would change anything about my life and my story....Really the phrase "I'm sorry" makes me crazy because I'm not sorry at all. Please don't be offended, I understand the sentiment but for me personally I don't feel sorry at all for the way life has twisted and turned for us. ...I have 5 beautiful children and had the first 2 not been born and then died I probably would have never known my other three and I just can't imagine that at all!!!
I think there is a whole lot of truth in that Garth Brooks song the "Dance" It's one of my favorites. When my oldest living child was born when we got in the car to go the hospital that song was first one that came on the radio...It was a spooky moment but I bellieve it was my boys just giving me a big thumbs up.....
And a funny thing my boys names are the same as a current Disney Channel show with twin boys

I still remember the first time I caught that show. It was 11:30 at night and I was freaked out!!! Now it's my other boys favorite show and they know their brothers have the same name

It's a fun little memory for me everytime that show is on.
Anyway thanks for all the

. It's much appreciated....
I quoted alot of y'all but I was so wordy I just deleted them but thanks and give a little extra squeeze to all your babies today
Sorry to be so long winded and off topic...I guess I'm just in the mood today...