In search of my body...not the one I ate!

[3DisneyKids]

Yup, several folks have reported doing fit day....I think Kat? Or is she SparkPeople? There are getting to be so many of us that it is hard to keep straight! (That is a GOOD thing, btw.)

Dawn, now we know your secret! I was wondering if you were hiding... Good to see you. I totally know what you mean about needing to post twice per day or you are cheating. That is how I feel, too! Posting in this thread keeps me on track, and for that, I am so vey grateful to you all!

My victory for the day...today is lecture day. I teach mostly online these days, but on Tuesdays I am actually in a classroom on campus. I teach mostly 20-somethings (mix of men and women), and for the past several years, I have been stressed when writing on the board, thinking, "Man...now all of these young things are looking at my gi-normous butt!" And it was just an awful feeling.

Today, though, I am wearing a pair of pants that I picked up at my trip to the Closet Mall yesterday...and I am like..."Go ahead....look!"

And sure, it is still huge, but that is a step down from gi-normous, right?

Ok, off to teach my next class...then finally home by 10pm...only to check in on my online classes. Did I mention that I hate Tuesdays???

 

[Dizneydawn]

By the way...regarding the thong pad being used for mice....it would be a...
MOUSE PAD!!!

Get it...a MOUSE PAD!!!



MaMaBearJo....I can attest to your needing a bra w/ some padding for protection of yourself and others...who may turn into you at said moment of cold air and face getting their eyes poked out ...unless they were wearing

Although with your wandering right ni le saying to every stranger you encounter...they cannot say you are not doing your part as Welcome Wagon lady!! It's hard though cause sometimes...I don't know which direction you are heading...could be East. ..or perhaps...West.. .sometimes both...bright side...not often South!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Boca Lasagna is great...and I love Boca Burgers (best brand of veggie burgers on the market). We are vegetarians, so those are often staples here.

Underwear....hoo-boy....DH and I were just laughing about mine the other day. They are a DISASTER. Totally ratty and tattered and holes and just plain ol' Yup, for Valentine's Day I am going to buy myself some new skivvies!

And then I have the Big Berthas....these humongous things that look like elephant underwear. Oh, they are hideous and heinous beyond description. Sad thing is that they fit!

Let's just say that I am in desparate need....

 

[HockeyKat]

OKay... at the underwear stories!!!

I have the worst time finding underwear. I like a basic non-cotton black bikini. Simple, you say. NOT SO MUCH!! Why does everything either have to cost more than my mortgage, be lacy/weird/thong, or be cotton?? I did finally do a purge of the OMG Please hope that no one ever sees these, though... like the ones with holes in really bad places.

I have a good quote I found today:
"Food has replaced sex in my life. Now I can't even get into my own pants."

My other weight loss thread brought up dying the carpet to match the curtains... fun day for TMI, I guess! I dyed the curtains this afternoon, and the eyebrows (why, oh why, are my eyebrows gray at 32?!?), but I don't bother with the carpet.

On a more serious note, sorry that I have been a bit MIA. I have been decidedly bad in food choices and feeling a bit guilty about it. On top of that I have been really struggling with some other choices in my life and I just don't feel ready to talk about them publicly. Why can't life be easy??

But, I had my "goals and objectives" talk with my boss yesterday and it is pretty clear that he really values me as an employee and wants to help me grow my career. I have been around the block a bit*, so to speak, on the work front, so I take that with a healthy grain of salt, but it is still nice to hear. He seems to me to be a really decent person, and I do believe that he means what he is saying. I have been at this company for 18 months now, and don't see a problem here unless someone higher than him decides we are no longer useful. It is a rare thing to find a decent boss so that is at least a lucky find.

Hope everyone is having a great week!

*as background... this is my 8th company in 10 years... 3 layoffs, all but 2 of the companies in question are out of business now. Welcome to the tech-go-round that is the life of a computer programmer!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

OKay... at the underwear stories!!!

I have the worst time finding underwear. I like a basic non-cotton black bikini. Simple, you say. NOT SO MUCH!! Why does everything either have to cost more than my mortgage, be lacy/weird/thong, or be cotton?? I did finally do a purge of the OMG Please hope that no one ever sees these, though... like the ones with holes in really bad places.

I have a good quote I found today:
"Food has replaced sex in my life. Now I can't even get into my own pants."

My other weight loss thread brought up dying the carpet to match the curtains... fun day for TMI, I guess! I dyed the curtains this afternoon, and the eyebrows (why, oh why, are my eyebrows gray at 32?!?), but I don't bother with the carpet.

On a more serious note, sorry that I have been a bit MIA. I have been decidedly bad in food choices and feeling a bit guilty about it. On top of that I have been really struggling with some other choices in my life and I just don't feel ready to talk about them publicly. Why can't life be easy??

But, I had my "goals and objectives" talk with my boss yesterday and it is pretty clear that he really values me as an employee and wants to help me grow my career. I have been around the block a bit*, so to speak, on the work front, so I take that with a healthy grain of salt, but it is still nice to hear. He seems to me to be a really decent person, and I do believe that he means what he is saying. I have been at this company for 18 months now, and don't see a problem here unless someone higher than him decides we are no longer useful. It is a rare thing to find a decent boss so that is at least a lucky find.

Hope everyone is having a great week!

*as background... this is my 8th company in 10 years... 3 layoffs, all but 2 of the companies in question are out of business now. Welcome to the tech-go-round that is the life of a computer programmer!

Kat, you know you don't have to be "good" to be on here!

on the personal issues...we are here when you are ready.

It IS great to find a good boss...I know the feeling of those layoffs. Good for you on the career front!

And on the TMI, too funny. I am a redhead and I sometimes still get asked that curtains/drapes questions...like that was ever going to work as a pick up line?

 

[HockeyKat]

You know... you guys are the best. I can't believe this thread showed up in a time when I really, really needed it the most.

 

[3DisneyKids]

You know... you guys are the best. I can't believe this thread showed up in a time when I really, really needed it the most.

That is exactly how I feel!

And seriously...whenever you are ready, we are here to listen without judgement.

 

[grumpyyoungguy]

You know... you guys are the best. I can't believe this thread showed up in a time when I really, really needed it the most.

I couldnt agree more.....dear lord give me the power to avoid comments on the underwear.....

 

[MunkyMe13]

You know... you guys are the best. I can't believe this thread showed up in a time when I really, really needed it the most.

I agree! This board helped me gain the motivation I needed to get my butt back to the gym and to take my diet seriously. I appreciate all of you!

 

[MunkyMe13]

I couldnt agree more.....dear lord give me the power to avoid comments on the underwear.....

LOL

 

[MaMabearJo]

You know... you guys are the best. I can't believe this thread showed up in a time when I really, really needed it the most.

I agree Kat, hang in there whatever the issues are we are here for you no judging, just love love love

Dan, Do men get asked if the drapes match the carpet or chest hair, leg hair, back hair, toe hair Why does it matter anyways ?
Just wondering

 

[MaMabearJo]

I agree Kat, hang in there whatever the issues are we are here for you no judging, just love love love

Dan, Do men get asked if the drapes match the carpet or chest hair, leg hair, back hair, toe hair Why does it matter anyways ?
Just wondering

Ok my husbands laughing at me, so I said it wrong carpet, drapes, curtains, I had to ask what was what.

 

[chbc]

I agree! This board came along for me at the right time. I too am not ready to tell my story and I don't know if I could even if I was ready. As I typed that I came to a realization, that I am ready. I just don't know If I can. Hostile work environment and bullying from the principal and after filing a grievance the admin. as well. Actions taken by the Pricipal warranted my leaving as decided by myself and the union. The president and former vice have been very supportive. As of Jan. 11 I have been out on unpaid leave, not what was agreed to when I left. So, when I am able to share details, I will.
I am a P.E. Teacher. An elementary P.E. teacher. I am 20 pounds overfat. It could be less than that, but I am too hard on myself. I have bellyfat from the stress at work. I weigh 141 or 140. It is not pretty. I am 5'4'' oh probably 3 but sometimes the nurse says 4, so I'll take it. There is a huge difference in being 140 and fat and 140 and fit. I've got my knee brace on and ready for the treadmill. Get out there and walk today.

 

[MaMabearJo]

I did lose weight this week from 290 to 284.2. I was very shocked but very happy, my only problem is I end up thinking ok I can reward myself it won't hurt anything so I ended up going out for pizza with family. Well one piece did not satisfy me 4 did. I don't get why my mind tells my body to just keep eating. I think I lost my stop mode This morning has been good yorgut, granola, Lunch: turkey, lettuce, sandwhich and fruit. But I am still hungry, I will fight the urge

 

[MunkyMe13]

Deleted because it was a duplicate post.

 

[MunkyMe13]

I agree! This board came along for me at the right time. I too am not ready to tell my story and I don't know if I could even if I was ready. As I typed that I came to a realization, that I am ready. I just don't know If I can. Hostile work environment and bullying from the principal and after filing a grievance the admin. as well. Actions taken by the Pricipal warranted my leaving as decided by myself and the union. The president and former vice have been very supportive. As of Jan. 11 I have been out on unpaid leave, not what was agreed to when I left. So, when I am able to share details, I will.
I am a P.E. Teacher. An elementary P.E. teacher. I am 20 pounds overfat. It could be less than that, but I am too hard on myself. I have bellyfat from the stress at work. I weigh 141 or 140. It is not pretty. I am 5'4'' oh probably 3 but sometimes the nurse says 4, so I'll take it. There is a huge difference in being 140 and fat and 140 and fit. I've got my knee brace on and ready for the treadmill. Get out there and walk today.

Welcome and good luck today!

 

[MaMabearJo]

Emotional Triggers Behind Eating
You just got into a knockdown-dragout fight with your spouse. Or your kid. Or your mom. Or the guy behind you in the checkout line. Your reaction is to head for the kitchen to soothe yourself with something smooth, fattening, creamy, sugary, salty, or crunchy — pick your poison.
Sound familiar? If so, you're an emotional eater. But you've probably figured that out already. You've probably also figured out that unhealthy overeating leads not only to weight gain but to a destructive pattern of anxiety and self-loathing that's tough to break on your own. Want to break the cycle? I'm here to help.

You've got to start by facing the fact that there will never be a totally stress-free time in your life. There. That's as bad as it gets. Now on to the good news: You can stop emotional eating. The key is to identify the things that make you feel pressured, sad, angry, or anxious. Once you understand your triggers, you can break the cycle and start regaining control of when, why, and how you eat.

The best way to identify your emotional triggers is through self-examination. Face your issues. Bring them out of your subconscious and into your conscious reality. This is the most empowering thing you can do for yourself.

To change the present, you have to let go of your past. Forget about the times when you binged because you were upset, hurt, angry, or depressed. The past does not define you; the present does. Having a crystal clear vision of the future affects your behavior now. Let your daily actions be governed by your game plan for a new you. Keep that game plan in the forefront of your mind by writing about it and letting it become real. There's no deadline. Just commit to the process and take it day by day.

Tomorrow's Tip: Biggest Loser Recap!

 

[MunkyMe13]

I did lose weight this week from 290 to 284.2. I was very shocked but very happy, my only problem is I end up thinking ok I can reward myself it won't hurt anything so I ended up going out for pizza with family. Well one piece did not satisfy me 4 did. I don't get why my mind tells my body to just keep eating. I think I lost my stop mode This morning has been good yorgut, granola, Lunch: turkey, lettuce, sandwhich and fruit. But I am still hungry, I will fight the urge

Grats on the weight loss!!! Today my breakfast was Weight Control Oatmeal and lunch was half a reduced fat balogna sandwich with honey dijon and a healthy choice chicken with rice soup. Total so far today is 405 calories! I can't wait to go to the gym tonight!

 

[chbc]

I did lose weight this week from 290 to 284.2. I was very shocked but very happy, my only problem is I end up thinking ok I can reward myself it won't hurt anything so I ended up going out for pizza with family. Well one piece did not satisfy me 4 did. I don't get why my mind tells my body to just keep eating. I think I lost my stop mode This morning has been good yorgut, granola, Lunch: turkey, lettuce, sandwhich and fruit. But I am still hungry, I will fight the urge

Way to lose. Today is a new day and you had a great breakfast and lunch. Learn from yesterday, put the pizza in the past and work your plan today. Drink water, walk, plan what to eat. Again, Way To Lose !

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

I didn't realize anyone was home. MY FLIPPIN' email is not alerting me. I tend to avoid this thread if no one has posted. I get bummed.

Couple things:
I'd GLADLY fork over $15 for a q-tip swabbing of someone with the flu. So you are not alone, 3DK.

MamaBJ-next time you are printing something you don't want, take the paper out.

Mouse Pad

I have an IUD, so aunt Flo has stopped visiting me.

I don't think I have any funny underwear stories. That sucks, doesn't it.

I do have a funny exercising story. After I had the 4yr old, I was was pretty healthy. One summer afternoon we decided to go for a walk on the local flood wall.

(Imagine a big hill that slopes down on each side. On one side is about 16 softball diamond and soccer fields (No one is down there - it's empty during the day) with the river beyond. Hence the floodwall, gotta keep that Scioto away from town. On the other side is the city park. The wall is five miles long and paved for walking/jogging/bike riding.)

I decide to wear my rollerblades. I'm a rookie, but had done it at least 3 times! DD7 is rolling along with her Bratz scooter and I am pushing the 5 month old in an umbrella stroller. We roll for a mile, then start to roll back.

At this point I trip and fall to the pavement and the stroller slips out of my grasp.

(You all know what happens next, imagine it in V.E.R.Y. - S.L.O.W.- M.O.T.I.O.N. because that is how this is happening to me.)

The stroller starts rolling down the hill. I am in shock, I am watching her, my mouth gaping open. I look to Molli, who is standing there in horror. Now remember I have FREIKING ROLLER BLADES ON!!! - so I growl/yell - (in my slow, very low, movie voice) "G.O.O.O.O.O-A.F.T.E.R.-H.E.R."

Molli takes off running. The stroller is steadily picking up speed with THE 5 MONTH OLD IN IT!!!!

I roll over (which is awkard when you have 5 lbs of blue plastic molded to your calves and feet), slam my butt onto the grass and slide my legs down the hill. Pull my body with my arms. Roll my feet down farther. Pull body with arms. Roll feet, pull with arms. Roll feet, pull with arms. Picking up speed, but I am never going to catch that stroller.

At the bottom of the hill is the road that connects all the sporting fields and it is lined with railroad ties. That is what is going to stop the stroller one way or the other.

I am roll, pull, roll, pull, roll, pull (grass stain, grass stain, grass stain).

Molli is running her little 7 year old leggs off.

The stroller gets to the bottom of the hill and glides to a stop. Soft as a cloud. Didn't even touch the railroad tie.

Molli catches up and I can see everything is under control. I rip off those blasted roller blades and run to them.

Maddi is happy as a clam. She, I'm sure, thought this was part of the walk.

I can't tell you the relief I felt.

(Of course then I had to push her BACK UP the hill and collect the roller blades on the way.)

I don't think I've gone roller blading since.