In Search of My Body - Not the One I Ate, VOL 8...It's Never Too Late To Start Again!

[cantwaitvaca09]

Lisa, I agree with you the BMI is crap.
Sorry you were hurt by a man
Men Suck!

For that dinner, OMG it was bad, I split a Gyro with DH,yes and some fries to.
Owell whats done is done, I owe WW 11 points.

 

[lisaviolet]

Lisa, I agree with you the BMI is crap.
Sorry you were hurt by a man
Men Suck!

For that dinner, OMG it was bad, I split a Gyro with DH,yes and some fries to.
Owell whats done is done, I owe WW 11 points.

First you can't do men suck. You can't Jo! That's where I'm holding on with all my might not to go. Funny story - ALL my girlfriends every single one of them separately said to me - "oh no no -stay there. It's a better side to stay." Every single one of them dissed their husbands/boyfriends. It was awful. I'm like don't have a choice (this is about healing and courage) but thank you so much for your welcoming party. It's absolutely inspiring.

OMG. I LOVE GYROS. Like love it abandoned on a deserted island with gyros, Indian, Korean and of course West Indian - my goat roti or curry goat. No particular order. What a happy thought. I ADORE gyros.

Sorry I'm not much of a support.

Okay I must exercise. At home and avoiding.

 

[lisaviolet]

I think the BMI is good for some body types. But even Jean reads overweight on the BMI. I will read obese for a good amount of weight left. I will never probably never read normal. Sucks.

And I'm in such better shape - (yes have to lose more for sure - hand's down) - than some that read normal. That I know.

Let me go lower the little sh!t. I must go exercise.

 

[HockeyKat]

First of all - Kat - I lost the under 200 quote. Congratulations Kat. That's fantastic.

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Flippin' Fantastic Kat! Flippin' Fantastic.

I fully understand the regular 14s and the 14W. So understand.

I try to explain that to Jean and just gives me a blank stare. What do you mean you're a 14 but not a 14? Those pants are loose and they are a 14.

But they're a 14 plus store. Which is a 16 but not a 16. Funny.

THose are the best moments. Those small smiling moments, eh?

Me - I'm okay. Someone - who unfortunately happens to be a man (since I'm trying to be open to them in a vulnerable manner )- rocked my trust last week. I didn't say anything b/c I didn't want more flippin drama on this thread. Unfortunately it triggers more in me than the average woman. I'm just trying to make sure I express/have my feelings so I don't make it mean something else. A la I just can't do this with men - stupid and irrational leap. It hurts too much.

So I'm pretty proud of myself that I'm rolling through the emotions to come out the other side. Don't get me wrong - it's hurting intensely. But I'm allowing myself to feel it instead of letting "numb" come in. Numb adores unconsious eating - adores it. So good on me.

When it rains it pours. They want to calculate my BMI this time through testing procedures - paperwork crap. I will still read obese. I am nowhere near OBESE - not even in the same darn county. God I like to knife the person who made up the BMI. I cleared last surgery at a much higher weight - no BMI. Maybe I should take a picture of my stomach and email it to them. Laughing. It's pretty nice. Maybe I should post it here. NOT!

Have a good day everyone!

Thanks!! I have tried to explain the 14/16 vs 14/16W to people before as well, and until you experience it, you don't get it.

Also, there is a strange no-man's land between 16 and 18, which I guess is filled by those 14/16Ws (something I just figured out, maybe?). Like 16s are way too tight, but 18s are disproportionately too big. Weird.

Sorry about the boy. They suck sometimes, sure, but are good sometimes too. Much like women., or really people in general. There are few good ones and many bad ones, unfortunately. Just hope to find the good ones.

BMI. Piss on 'em.

Lisa, I agree with you the BMI is crap.
Sorry you were hurt by a man
Men Suck!

For that dinner, OMG it was bad, I split a Gyro with DH,yes and some fries to.
Owell whats done is done, I owe WW 11 points.

Mmmmmm gyro. Fries. Yum. I am no help either!

Hey, at least you split it and didn't have your own? Baby steps.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Lisa--hoo boy! You know what the Cutie would say! She is blessed with the men-hating gene! Ha! So I will hate him for her and you. Not all men. Just the one that hurt you. He's scum. Done.

I know I should be congratulating a lot of people on a lot of things, but it is all out of my head already. Such is life.

Dad is doing well, thanks. Just came from visiting him.

We are finally getting some snow here in the northeast. They keep saying 6-10" for us, but so far it has just been spitting for the past few hours.

I got in a 4.5 mile run and things feel good. Not perfect, but not painful. I'll take it, right? I have a 12-miler scheduled for Thursday. We'll see. If I am hurting half way through it, I'll stop. But I sure as hell want to finish it. Then I am off to Taper Town and my next long run will be the Half!

Jo--hang in there and don't give up. It will take some time to adjust, so don't beat yourself up too much.

I don't give a crap about the BMI and mine actually says I am healthy, which is true. Go by how you look and how you feel. The rest you can throw out the window with the guy who hurt Lisa. Word.

Kids are home all week for February break. It's a New England thing. Lots of my friends are in WDW this week since we have the week off but it isn't something the whole country has off.

Kelly--check in when you can!

 

[DisneyGalUK]

JC was tonight - lost 1.1 pounds and am thrilled. Feeling a bit more in control but not quite there yet. Baby steps right?

Jesse is starting to get me pumped for the race. We are working the plan so that I can peak at the race. He is picking on me for not running, but I told him to strap two water balloons on his chest and a few around his waist and try running and then let me know how he feels. He just laughed... men... can't kill em right?

Fantastic loss Paula
You and Jesse sound like a fun double act in the gym! You get on really well don't you?
Oh, and Im so glad you are getting an office with windows! I didn't like to think of you under the stairs

One course is down for the semester! This one was very difficult. It looks like I only missed 3 points for the entire course. To celebrate, I'm having a happy cow drumstick. I am really enjoying WW. It's so different.

Amiee, I am glad you are enjoying WW, I was a few weeks ago.
But I will get there again

You most definitely will get there again! One day at a time Jo, thats how I take it!

I am happy today, because I am wearing size 14 pants, and they aren't cutting off my circulation.

Ummm. Yeah. You're like sunshine on a sh!tty day.

And you need support and some form of venting missy.

Ah Lisa, you always know the right thing to say
And for you. I hate him for you too.

So I will hate him for her and you. Not all men. Just the one that hurt you. He's scum. Done.

Word....right use?!
Glad to hear your dad is doin better.

If everyone could keep fingers, toes, eyes and any other extremeties crossed for me...I have an interview tomorrow! My first interview in oooh, 6 years!
Much appreciated!

Hope everyone is having a great day

 

[AKASnowWhite]

So I'm pretty proud of myself that I'm rolling through the emotions to come out the other side. Don't get me wrong - it's hurting intensely. But I'm allowing myself to feel it instead of letting "numb" come in. Numb adores unconsious eating - adores it. So good on me.

yes, indeed Lisa. Good on you!

When it rains it pours. They want to calculate my BMI this time through testing procedures - paperwork crap. I will still read obese

BMI is complete crap, IMO. My husband who is rock solid muscle is considered "overweight" on the BMI scale, my BMI registers "normal". His body fat % runs around 15% (gets as low as 11% when he's really workin' it), my body fat % is currently probably right around 25%. Tell me how that works out as him overweight and me normal? Honestly. It's so stupid.

Owell whats done is done, I owe WW 11 points.

IOU-WW points OMG I owe WW so many points I think I need to file Chapter 11 and start over.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Hi. Here, reading, just feeling very personally overwhelmed. Good on tracking and exercise. All that is fine. I just need some off time.

I'll try to post and reply later. Love to you all! Be kind to yourselves, okay? You're all making huge strides - personally, professionally, emotionally. I'm witnessing it all!

 

[DisneyGalUK]

BMI. Piss on 'em.

You know when you really AREN'T expecting to read something - well this was it! I snorted out of my nose

Liz - Hope all is well

 

[AKASnowWhite]

If everyone could keep fingers, toes, eyes and any other extremeties crossed for me...I have an interview tomorrow! My first interview in oooh, 6 years!
Much appreciated!

Good luck tomorrow Kelly! I'm sure you'll do GREAT!

 

[poppinspal]

Hey everyone! The snow has finally hit here and it's hit in full force!

Erika- I think we are right around the same size. I'm having a hard time figuring out my weight goal and size goal only because when I was smaller I was never concerned with my weight. I didn't gain weight till about three years ago when I dated a guy who lived for food. But I think I want to be around 125 which will probably put me in a 4 or 6. I'm short too so that weight and size won't make me super skinny but healthy. I'm also curious what training program you used for the half as I'm going to be starting my half marathon training soon enough.

Paula- Baby steps are still steps in the right direction. I'm glad things are finally starting to turn around for you!

Kat- Yay for size 14! While I find seeing the numbers drop on the scale is great, going down a size in clothes almost seems more real to me. Have I mentioned how fantastic I think you are? Because now would be a good time to do it!

Lisa- I have never thought BMI was great but I knew it was out of control when the doctor told my aunt that my five year old cousin's BMI meant she was on the border of over weight and obese! If you went strictly by her weight she'd be considered under weight!!! Plus BMI for a five year old? As Charlie Brown would say... good grief!!! for you!

I feel like I missed some things but my brain doesn't seem to be completely working today! I probably won't get my run in till later then normal today, it'll be interesting to see how I do running after dinner and not before. The snow has hit and the roads are messy, makes me really glad I have a TM in the house. (And that I'm done driving for today! Praying it snows enough to close work tomorrow!) Off to whip up some dinner for myself.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Word....right use?!

Totally right use! Ha! And GOOD LUCK! I am rooting for you all the way!

Hi. Here, reading, just feeling very personally overwhelmed. Good on tracking and exercise. All that is fine. I just need some off time.

I'll try to post and reply later. Love to you all! Be kind to yourselves, okay? You're all making huge strides - personally, professionally, emotionally. I'm witnessing it all!

Sorry you are overwhelmed, love. I know how it feels and I am sorry you are feeling it. Breathe. You'll figure it out. You always do. And lean on us when you need to.

Hey everyone! The snow has finally hit here and it's hit in full force!

Erika- I think we are right around the same size. I'm having a hard time figuring out my weight goal and size goal only because when I was smaller I was never concerned with my weight. I didn't gain weight till about three years ago when I dated a guy who lived for food. But I think I want to be around 125 which will probably put me in a 4 or 6. I'm short too so that weight and size won't make me super skinny but healthy. I'm also curious what training program you used for the half as I'm going to be starting my half marathon training soon enough.

Yes, it finally started here, too. They said it would start this morning, but really it was 3-ish before anything started to stick. We have a plow truck so we are ready. Fortunately, Jeff is still in town for this storm, but he leaves again this week-end. He'll be gone for three weeks and don't you just know that it'll snow like hell several times while he is gone and I'll be stuck plowing us out! Ugh!

Yes, my ultimate final goal is 125. Honestly, after having 3 kids I don't know if that is even realistic for me anymore. So my first goal is to get to 130, which is 9 pounds away. Once I manage to get there, I'll decide on those last 5. But let me tell you, I have been fighting for the last year to get to 130. *sigh* Aging sucks.

I know Lisa says it all the time and it just can't be said enough--those in your 20s, deal with it NOW. It is so so so much easier to lose in your 20s than in your 30s. And easier to lose in your 30s than in your 40s.

As for a training plan--I hired a coach, believe it or not. Our running store here advertises personal coaching. So when I was a brand new runner, I looked into it and was shocked at how reasonable it was. Because I am not an "elite" athlete and really just needed to know the basics (and needed someone around to ask all of my tons of questions), he charged me $75 for 6 months. It was awesome and totally worth it. And part of what I got for that price was a personalized training plan. I will be happy to e-mail it to you if you send me your e-mail address.

Probably the most popular training plan is John Bingham's Marathoning for Mortals. While I love John "the Penguin" and his books, I don't love his plan. It has your longest run before the Half at only 10 miles. And again, this is pretty common regardless of what plan you do. Most say that once you have hit 10 miles, you are ready. BUT. I don't think so. At least not for me. There is a huge difference between 10 and 13. So I like to train to 11.5--then I know I am ready.

But again, I have several plans and would be happy to send you some.

When is your Half again? The Boston, right? Who knows, I may even come down and do it! (You and I are running at about the same pace right now as well as being the same size!)

 

[poppinspal]

E- I love the idea of you plowing a driveway! At least you get out of doing this one. Snow didn't start sticking here till late and it looks like we'll probably end up with about an inch sticking, not bad.

I'm doing the same thing. I set a goal of 130 but ultimately want to get to 125. I figure if I get to 130 I'll be more determined to hit that 125 mark. I definitely want to do this now and not in twenty years, ten years or even two years. (when I will hit 30) I want to hit it and maintain it now.

I think a coach would he a little intimadating for me, I don't feel confident in my running. Some day I'll hopeful stop thinking I should have a soccer ball in front of me while I run! I don't want to be scared away from running.

I have looked at a bunch of training plans including John binghams. I'm with you on thinking ten miles isn't enough and for me that's not just physically. I need to be mentally prepared for the last of the miles and I'm not sure ten will prepare me for the mental part. So I'd love to see the plans you have because otherwise I'll just be using the marathon for mortals plan.

I am doing the Boston one, June 27th I believe is the day. It'd be awesome to run it together. I'm also looking at other New England races to do this summer but probably more in the 10k range.

 

[HockeyKat]

Kat- Yay for size 14! While I find seeing the numbers drop on the scale is great, going down a size in clothes almost seems more real to me. Have I mentioned how fantastic I think you are? Because now would be a good time to do it!

Right back at you. That made my day.


Kelly, glad I could make you snort.


No time to really respond... my day completely rolled away from me. I am scarfing dinner at my desk (at 7:20PM) so that I can head over to visit a friend in the hospital. Her laptop died and a friend at work was kind enough to loan me a laptop for her, so I am going to drop it by and visit for a while.

Btw, please pray or think of my friend if you can. She is 48 and in the process of getting diagnosed with cancer, and looking at a hip replacement in the near to immediate future.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi everyone...

Feeling like crap tonight since I am getting sick so this will likely be shorter than it should be.

Kat - awesome about the 14's!

Liz- hang in there

Lisa - sending hugs... Not all men suck give them a chance from time to time.

Meg - look for a coach... You don't need to be an expert to have one. That is what you are paying them for. You will advance in skill much quicker with one than without one.

Kelly - Jesse and I get along great. I am lucky that way. Our personalities mesh and we do tend to make the people around us laugh because you never know what we are going to say next. The key is - I can't whine. He has no patience for that. Glad we can entertain you.

Ok I am off to crawl into bed... Talk to you all tomorrow!

 

[lisaviolet]

Hi. Here, reading, just feeling very personally overwhelmed. Good on tracking and exercise. All that is fine. I just need some off time.

I'll try to post and reply later. Love to you all! Be kind to yourselves, okay? You're all making huge strides - personally, professionally, emotionally. I'm witnessing it all!

Liz. Big .

Lisa - Not all men suck give them a chance from time to time.


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Paula

I can only think my rambling got too much to read.

I know 100% not all men suck. I said that. And besides not putting myself out there YET I give all men a chance. This is just really really hurting and triggering sh!t and I'm trying to stop that from happening.

It got worse tonight. I can't post it. Just let's say I'm emotionally gone and like scary emotionally gone (from everything as a whole right now - my mom couldn't even complete a couple of sentences she started the other day). But this too shall pass. But this too shall pass. Yes, chanting.


And Erika - thank you for having my back. Really. What I have to say doesn't change that. But he's not a scum and that's why it's so incredibly painful. I wish he was scum.


Okay - I need to shut up.

to all.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

I'm with you on thinking ten miles isn't enough and for me that's not just physically. I need to be mentally prepared for the last of the miles and I'm not sure ten will prepare me for the mental part.

When I trained for my 1st half marathon my longest training run was 10 miles. When I ran my 1st half marathon, I totally hit the wall at 10 miles. SUCKED. Physically and mentally. My unprofessional recommendation is do more than 10 for your longest run. I'm using a Hal Higdon plan this time around (intermediate level) which takes me up to 12 miles. Much better plan for me personally. I need that build up to the big finish.

as an aside, Megan, I have to admit that I laugh at myself when I read your posts. Because I read them in that north shore accent. My brother is up that way - don't know if I mentioned that or not, but he is.

Okay - I need to shut up.

um, no really you don't.


I'm am once again in too deep with my life! Costumes for Anything Goes. 23 matching sailor skirts. 8 white, 15 blue. I have a LONG way to go. OH! And I get to make my daughter a 1920's wedding dress. I just may have to bring some projects along to work on while we relax poolside after the race

 

[lisaviolet]

um, no really you don't.

Oh yes I do. It's that kind of no idea what this emotional short circuiting can bring.

 

[lisaviolet]

I just may have to bring some projects along to work on while we relax poolside after the race

Pictures please people.

 

[poppinspal]

Morning Ladies! Woke up to a winter wonderland here.

Kat- I'm glad I could make your day! Will definitely keep your friend in my prayers. Just the word cancer is so scary but the doctors and nurses who work with cancer really can be amazing.

Paula- I will have to think of the coach thing. I think I'm just hesitant not because I am no expert runner but literally just because I'm afraid they'll say I've done everything wrong or not to run my race or something like that. I'm sure I would do much better with a coach though.

Nancy- I looked at Hal's plans but I was worried anything harder then the plan for newbies would be too much for someone who has never trained for a half marathon. And the easiest plan he has is very similar in some ways to the Marathon for Mortals plan. Any thoughts on how hard the intermediate plan is? I don't remember you saying your brother lived up this way. Should I disappoint you and tell you about how my accent really sounds.

Lisa- I had this whole thing typed out and erased it because it seemed silly. There will be better days ahead and in the mean time you should share your emotions with someone so you don't carry the burden alone.