In Search of My Body - Not the One I Ate... Vol. 6: Goddesses just want to have fun

[adsrtw]

I've officially reached the point of disgust. Complete revulsion. I feel like crap. I'm lethargic. And bloated. And doughy. I've gained back all but 1 pound of the weight that I worked so hard to lose after New Years....

So. What did I do today? Well...what else would you expect me to do?

I went for a really long bike ride. And drank gallons of water. Then....

I baked Heath bar-Chocolate Chip cookies. Seems I can only make myself feel better about ME by fattening up those who I'm surrounded by.

and I only ate one. So far. Bah.

Oh Nancy! I feel your pain. I hate that Double Apple Maple Nutbar yo yo-ing. I just hate it.

 

[3DisneyKids]

I completely agree with you on the travel and home school situation. Wow! That would be awesome for them. I hope you are able to work things out with your job, so that you are able to travel when the climate is right over there. I wouldn't want you to be stuck abroad during the rainy season.

I just put in a request for the Spring semester and asked that for that one semester I be allowed to be 100% online, with the one caveat that I will be in the States for the 3 weeks of Advising and Registration, since that is a hellish time and I have to be on campus a lot during that period. I imagine that will be fine. Then we can go anytime between January and next August for as long as we want.

In other travel news...earlier this evening Jeff said "I want to go back to Disney!" Um, we just got back what? 8 weeks ago? And when we got back he was like, "I think we are all set for a while....we won't go back for a year at least." (After four times this past year, I expected that from him.) So this was a shock tonight! Looks like an October trip for one of the races might be in order...

 

[3DisneyKids]

I've officially reached the point of disgust. Complete revulsion. I feel like crap. I'm lethargic. And bloated. And doughy. I've gained back all but 1 pound of the weight that I worked so hard to lose after New Years....

So. What did I do today? Well...what else would you expect me to do?

I went for a really long bike ride. And drank gallons of water. Then....

I baked Heath bar-Chocolate Chip cookies. Seems I can only make myself feel better about ME by fattening up those who I'm surrounded by.

and I only ate one. So far. Bah.

OMG, I am right there with you. While I haven't gained back all of my weight, I have gained a few pounds and I totally feel it. I feel massively huge and bloated. It feels just awful! And YES, PMS here, too. We must be synced up!

Ok, maybe we need a kick-*** challenge???

 

[adsrtw]

I am SO in for a challenge. For me, I feel if I don't do what I need to for the challenge, then I am letting everybody on the thread down. I know it should be for me, but I've never really been a me person.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

I am SO in for a challenge. For me, I feel if I don't do what I need to for the challenge, then I am letting everybody on the thread down. I know it should be for me, but I've never really been a me person.

WORD!



on the up side (I suppose.....) I've been alcohol-free since Friday. Not necessarily by choice

 

[adsrtw]

I then see a sign that says “You are almost there” and I immediately think – really, that was fast. I keep chugging along and then I see the flags that marked the parking lot to the ski resort and I think holy cr@p, I did it. I actually am going to finish this. I was not anywhere near prepared for that flush of emotions that came over me at that point. I tried fighting back tears, but a few came out. All I could think of was how far I had come and that I am about to complete this huge milestone in my journey towards this new me. Flashes of the many conversations held with my family and local friends, with all of you on this thread, with my JC consultant and with Jesse started to overwhelm me and for the first time, I actually believed that yes, I can do anything I set my mind to. While it took ten miles on a bike with a race bib for me to finally believe that, the fact is that I do believe it and I will accomplish my goals. I won’t accept anything less.

I just had to highlight this section one more time. I've read it at least 5 times now and I just need to express my emotions on this for you. The mental challenge is far worse than the physical effort for so many people, but you are beating it. Goals, heck yes you will meet them and exceed them. I thought about you when we had a team meeting today. We always have motivational music playing while a slide show is going. Ok, ok, it's classic rock usually.

When I heard this song, I thought of you ~ Right Now. You are Right Now! It's your tomorrow. It's everything. Yes, Van Halen might have commercialized it, but the song fits you completely. You caught your magic moment.


Thanks to you all for all of the encouragement and support you have given me. I know you were with me when I crossed that finish line!

I can't tell you how much I would have loved to have been even a few hours away. I would have made the drive in a heartbeat.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Um, drinking wine. Eating M&Ms. Did I mention the entire family is here?

 

[adsrtw]

Um, drinking wine. Eating M&Ms. Did I mention the entire family is here?

You have more than enough reasons to have comfort food. Hang in there!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

OMG! J wants to go back to Disney!!! Woohoo. Now, since you were considering going in August - does that mean he is traveling in August. Oh and your vm - SO typical!!!!

Nancy - I'm sorry for your current tribulation. I don't see it letting up considering your baby boy is leaving soon.

So let me tell you about the project tour Saturday. The 4H club comes out to the Taj Mahogg to see Steven Tyler and Joe Perry. It's raining. Biblical rain. We are all standing under the roof while the rain blows sideways and Mol is answering questions. Of course one of the hogs always poops during Q&A. The rain lets up and our advisor asks Molli to walk one of them. Hogs don't have a halter. Their neck is larger than their head, making haltering impossible. You "lead" a hog. You use a whip or a cane and tap the opposite side of where you want them to go. Molli gets Steven out and is leading him around like a little professional. Proud mom gushing here. The 12/13 year old boys watching ask if they can get in the pen with Joe Perry. I say sure. The head in and are acting like dorks. As Mol comes back to let in S.T. they open the door and don't prevent Joe from bounding out. He slams into Steven, they both start barking (hogs do bark, hi lar ious) and gallop in different directions. I'm not joking - they were galloping. Joe Perry heads to the shop and the biggest mud puddle this side of the county. All the kids are screaming, espically the girls and I am stunned. This is my worst fear. Both hogs out and Bob is not home! I grab a cane and try to lead Steven to the gate as Molli takes off after Joe. Steven will not move for me. I am not Molli and he knows it. He's totally blowing me OFF!!! Molli stops JP before he can find that puddle and Go.To.Town, cause that's exactly what would have happened. She leads him up and locks him away and then comes for Steven. OMG. I was literally shaking. I am so proud of her.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Hi Liz. Give us some vacation stories.

Amiee - omg, your making me emotional!

 

[adsrtw]

OMG! J wants to go back to Disney!!! Woohoo. Now, since you were considering going in August - does that mean he is traveling in August. Oh and your vm - SO typical!!!!

Nancy - I'm sorry for your current tribulation. I don't see it letting up considering your baby boy is leaving soon.

So let me tell you about the project tour Saturday. The 4H club comes out to the Taj Mahogg to see Steven Tyler and Joe Perry. It's raining. Biblical rain. We are all standing under the roof while the rain blows sideways and Mol is answering questions. Of course one of the hogs always poops during Q&A. The rain lets up and our advisor asks Molli to walk one of them. Hogs don't have a halter. Their neck is larger than their head, making haltering impossible. You "lead" a hog. You use a whip or a cane and tap the opposite side of where you want them to go. Molli gets Steven out and is leading him around like a little professional. Proud mom gushing here. The 12/13 year old boys watching ask if they can get in the pen with Joe Perry. I say sure. The head in and are acting like dorks. As Mol comes back to let in S.T. they open the door and don't prevent Joe from bounding out. He slams into Steven, they both start barking (hogs do bark, hi lar ious) and gallop in different directions. I'm not joking - they were galloping. Joe Perry heads to the shop and the biggest mud puddle this side of the county. All the kids are screaming, espically the girls and I am stunned. This is my worst fear. Both hogs out and Bob is not home! I grab a cane and try to lead Steven to the gate as Molli takes off after Joe. Steven will not move for me. I am not Molli and he knows it. He's totally blowing me OFF!!! Molli stops JP before he can find that puddle and Go.To.Town, cause that's exactly what would have happened. She leads him up and locks him away and then comes for Steven. OMG. I was literally shaking. I am so proud of her.

Yeah Molli! What a little professional!

 

[adsrtw]

Hi Liz. Give us some vacation stories.

Amiee - omg, your making me emotional!

I'm so sorry! I tortured myself when I started thinking about it today. <Yeah, why should I pay attention when I can be in my own world, lol>. Had to fake the contact problem thing and went for the rewetting drops. kwim?

 

[3DisneyKids]

Um, drinking wine. Eating M&Ms. Did I mention the entire family is here?

OMG! Have you put the sign on your door yet?

So let me tell you about the project tour Saturday. The 4H club comes out to the Taj Mahogg to see Steven Tyler and Joe Perry. It's raining. Biblical rain. We are all standing under the roof while the rain blows sideways and Mol is answering questions. Of course one of the hogs always poops during Q&A. The rain lets up and our advisor asks Molli to walk one of them. Hogs don't have a halter. Their neck is larger than their head, making haltering impossible. You "lead" a hog. You use a whip or a cane and tap the opposite side of where you want them to go. Molli gets Steven out and is leading him around like a little professional. Proud mom gushing here. The 12/13 year old boys watching ask if they can get in the pen with Joe Perry. I say sure. The head in and are acting like dorks. As Mol comes back to let in S.T. they open the door and don't prevent Joe from bounding out. He slams into Steven, they both start barking (hogs do bark, hi lar ious) and gallop in different directions. I'm not joking - they were galloping. Joe Perry heads to the shop and the biggest mud puddle this side of the county. All the kids are screaming, espically the girls and I am stunned. This is my worst fear. Both hogs out and Bob is not home! I grab a cane and try to lead Steven to the gate as Molli takes off after Joe. Steven will not move for me. I am not Molli and he knows it. He's totally blowing me OFF!!! Molli stops JP before he can find that puddle and Go.To.Town, cause that's exactly what would have happened. She leads him up and locks him away and then comes for Steven. OMG. I was literally shaking. I am so proud of her.

Ok, so I know that this was a major PITA for you, but I have just have to say...SO HAPPY here. OMG, you KNOW how much I love hog drama! Love the hog stories!

Hi Liz. Give us some vacation stories.

WORD!

 

[goofyfan-12]

I can't tell you how much I would have loved to have been even a few hours away. I would have made the drive in a heartbeat.

Amiee - your post gave me chills... That song is on my playlist!!! You have no idea how much I wanted you all to be here for the race. Guess we either need to plan a road trip to see everyone or plan a few events in some centralize locations...

Erika - yes please on the challenge. So need something to keep me going here. I am talking to Jesse tomorrow about training for the princess 1/2...

Went to the gym tonight and did intervals on the bike for the first time in what seemed like forever. It was a welcome change.

Weighed in at JC and lost .8 pounds. Whew - it wasn't a gain...

I am off to bed. Catch you all on the flip side....

 

[goofyfan-12]

Lyz - I am screaming for Molli... she is so cool under pressure that one. Love her...

 

[adsrtw]

Amiee - your post gave me chills... That song is on my playlist!!! You have no idea how much I wanted you all to be here for the race. Guess we either need to plan a road trip to see everyone or plan a few events in some centralize locations...

Erika - yes please on the challenge. So need something to keep me going here. I am talking to Jesse tomorrow about training for the princess 1/2...

Went to the gym tonight and did intervals on the bike for the first time in what seemed like forever. It was a welcome change.

Weighed in at JC and lost .8 pounds. Whew - it wasn't a gain...

I am off to bed. Catch you all on the flip side....

Good night Paula! As far as meeting up at a central location ~ I'm feeling the need to visit New England.

Oh Oh! Post #1100 for me.

 

[DisneyGalUK]

Guess we either need to plan a road trip to see everyone or plan a few events in some centralize locations...

Central for me will be the middle of the Ocean - everyone grab your Dinghys! I of course kid, I will live vicariously through the reports on here!

So....My name is Kelly, and I am so far off the wagon I can't even see the darn thing.

Today is a new day, it is also pay day - that means grocery shopping tonight will not be fried food, pizza, crisps, chocolate, it will be salad, fresh ingredients etc.

I also got the cross trainer out, dusted it off rotfl2 and it is in prime position for me to hop on it tonight. My Disco Burn DVD is out and ready. I am ready. Finally, I had the wake up call I needed yesterday. Now, I know I don't have a lot of weight to lose, but what I do need to lose is all centered in certain areas - tummy, bummocks, thighs. If im standing a certain way I can look...well, pregnant! And I was asked yesterday if I was. Granted, they didn't think I was 9 months pregnant and ready to drop, but they saw enough tummy to think I was.

Can you say DEVASTATED!!! After I stared at her for 10 minutes, drop kicked her (not really) she was that she'd said it and I was .

So. I am ON.

Whos with me!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Wakey Wakey.... It is almost 9:00AM and I am waking up the thread... guess folks are busy this morning. Well, time to get up and get moving people...

Kelly - I am so with you. You will get back on that wagon and kick its bummocks in the process!

Amiee - Congrats on post 1100!!! Very exciting...

Not much going on here today. A slow day at work is expected - I am looking forward to filing yeah! I finally get to go back to lifting weights tonight. I think I will be struggling a bit since I haven't done any weight training in a week. Jesse better be kind tonight....

Have a great day everyone!!!!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

If im standing a certain way I can look...well, pregnant! And I was asked yesterday if I was. Granted, they didn't think I was 9 months pregnant and ready to drop, but they saw enough tummy to think I was.

Can you say DEVASTATED!!! After I stared at her for 10 minutes, drop kicked her (not really) she was that she'd said it and I was .

So. I am ON.

Oh Kelly - DEVASTATING!!!! For sure!!!! I never ask this unless obvious. I bet she felt horrible.

I'm watching my 3 year old nephew at the office today for a couple hours. Weeeeee.

 

[DisneyGalUK]

Oh Kelly - DEVASTATING!!!! For sure!!!! I never ask this unless obvious. I bet she felt horrible.

Exactly! Never, NEVER ask the question unless you are sure people!
She was gutted, I was gutted, we laughed it off! Nothing else to do but laugh!
I did thank her for giving me the shove I needed to get back to the healthy eating and exercise! Secretly though, I gave her the Angry Eyes when she was walking away