In Search of My Body....Not the One I ATE! Vol. 5: Goddesses are Always on Top!

[lisaviolet]

Lyz--the tri. Yes, swim first. Which means I am actually in the water at 7:20. Which means getting there at like 6:30-ish. (feeling like it is 5:30-ish. Gross.) Then bike, then run. I am not nervous about finishing. I know I will finish. And it will at least look like I am not finishing last since I have one of the earliest start times. So all's good there.

I am nervous about my overall performance. I would like to do well. I know that it is my first tri and that finishing it is all that I should really focus on. But I can't help wanting to push myself and have a strong finish. I haven't put in nearly enough time in the pool. Nothing I can do about that now. I have done a lot of biking and am hoping that will carry me. That is where tris are won and lost as it is. You can just covers so much ground so much more quickly on a bike as opposed to swimming or running.

My biggest concern is that every time I swim, I am just WIPED. It totally fatigues me like nothing else. Likely because I am using muscles that are not as developed as my biking and running ones are. For example, I routinely will do a workout like bike 15 miles and then run 5. And that is a good work-out for me, but not brutal. I can still go on with the rest of my day after that. But add a short swim, and then just one or the other (short bike or short run) and I am D.E.A.D. for the rest of the day. It takes everything out of me. So I hate that the swim is first.

My other concern had been about changing. There is no time to really change, of course, so you just throw your running/biking clothes on right over your wet swimsuit. I am ok with this part. But the other day when I did my mock tri something happened that I didn't count on. This means running in my bathing suit (covered up, of course! ) but it means that the, um, girls, are un-supported except for that little shelf bra in my racing suit. Now granted, I am the b00bless wonder and all, but even what little I do have up top needs more support than that for running. (Sorry for this, Roddy!) My chest ached something awful after that.

So I went online yesterday and ordered an official "tri" suit. It is meant so that you can do all three events in one piece of clothing without having to change. I had to pay for the express shipping, so it will be here tomorrow and I won't have a chance to train in it at all before the race.

And lots of people don't even put socks on for the bike and run. Just sneakers on bare feet. I don't think I can. I will take the minute to dry my feet off and put socks on. I don't have to tie my shoes as most people do, so I am hoping that will make up the time difference.

Lots to be nervous about.

And yes, I will post a link to the tri suit. Since I know you are wondering what the hell it looks like.

Glad you liked your birthday cheer. You know how I am about toes!

Heaven, I'm in heaven, I'm in heaven nah nah nah.

Love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Umm, love it. Have I told you how much I love a race. Tris, cars, babies, skiers, Heaven, I'm in heaven.

We get Olympic promos every two seconds. Skiing - oh I can't wait. The bells. Short track speed skating. "READY?", the start guy says. Yes, yes I'm so ready.

Lisa, I am so glad you took in in the spirit it was meant. Support and love and not judgment.
!

Like anyone would ever think anything out of your mouth was from evil places?

The biggest laugh catching up. Thanks Liz.

Lisa - I'll shut the eff up because you have enough fine advice. But don't do it Lisa. Take care of yourself. I know this sounds dramatic but changing your rational wants for someone else - to not deal with their behaviour - beginning of never ending crap. to you.

Weekly, weekly Lisa I think about how you love running and how you were getting roadblocks from those who love you. I was so sad for you. Really. Weekly I think about it Lisa and sit and hope that you are running. You are continually in my thoughts with it all. I am so proud of how you kept running. And came here to vent about it all a couple of months ago. So proud. Really.

 

[lisaviolet]

Vent coming....

I am royally pissed off today.

Background - struggled teaching today. Lost students as in "was beyond them". Happens sometimes. I teach all levels across the city and you are bringing in lesson plans (yes, we actually do the prep) that worked brilliantly at one level at one school. Doesn't always at another. Anyway, it's awful to feel like it's not clicking and that you are failing them. I stopped midway and did a change. But draining.

And today a level one student from this school found me to say hi. I "knew her" but didn't know what level - class. So she finds me in the washroom later on to say, in how she could get it out, she dislikes her teacher. Not happy. I support her teacher in a gentle way. It's a difficult job - level one. She wants me to come and teach her - misses me. Remembers my name. I was there once in her class and it was a least a month and a half ago.

The point of this story. The second happens to me a lot. The first happens sometimes - I am human. Okay, point coming -

But here is what POs me big time. I couldn't take in #2. Nope. Not at all despite coming here and posting.

I am fed up with my all or nothing perfectionist ways. That's what it is. One mistake wipes out everything for me. Fed up!!!! One insult from another person/friend would always wipe out fifty compliments from oithers. I hate it.

Can you hear me? I AM FED UP. This is why I need to lose weight. Infiltrates everything. This all or nothing. I wanted to cry on the streetcar (Lyz want to know what that is? ) because of feeling like I failed the class instead of taking one moment to smile that I sincerely touched a new immigrant, with limited English, for one day and she remembered everything name and all. Just time for both. Should I care class didn't go well? Of course. It happens and you tweak lessons because you are sensitive to their learining/needs. But some flippin' balance. I need some flippin balance.

I need some flippin balance.

 

[lisaviolet]

Hi Dawn. Pics from trip. Pretty please.

 

[Ronda93]

Just a note to say how lucky I am. I hope to be a fanatical runner some day. In the meantime, I am a beginner and very excited. I have told only a few people that I have begun running. EVERYONE is supportive and encouraging (much like the Ducks and Goddesses). My DGF could not be more supportive. I excitedly talk about the half marathon in 2010 and she, in a not-a-morning-person voice, says, "you have to be there when!?", but she's on board.

I am SO lucky and I wish everyone had a warm circle of support for pursuing fitness and milestone accomplishments.

Luckily,
Ronda

 

[3DisneyKids]

Just finished my last workout before the tri. 4.25 mile run, nice and easy. Now two days of rest. Which is always hard.

So the tri suit showed up this evening. Didn't expect it till tomorrow. Um, there is NO b00b support at all. Just like any ol' regular racing suit up top. Hmmmm. Maybe the fabric is super supportive special miracle stuff? Don't know. Have to try it on tonight, but I am still too sweaty. And it looks ginormous. I looked at the size chart, found my dimensions, all of which worked out to a size 6, which is mostly what I am wearing. (Some 4s, some 8s.) But it looks huge. And it feels flimsy. Not sure about this at all.

LisaV--Hi honey. As a teacher, I so get where you are. At the end of each semester, I get evaluated my all students. So there are like 200 evaluations. If 199 of them are good and only one is bad, guess which one I will remember? But although I still remember the one bad one, I am able to take in all of the good ones. The fact that you are able to change your lecture mid-stream to accommodate the needs of your students is awesome. A mark of a true teacher. You have NO IDEA how few teachers are able to do that on the fly. Good for you!

And glad you liked the race info. Knew you would.

Nancy--yes, killer! Ha! Love that. Good story about the corral placement, too. And yes, I use body glide as well. Others use "slick suit" and lots of people just use Pam, but that just weirds me out.

Everyone else...more to come. until then.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

 

[adsrtw]

Hey Everybody!

Very long day today and I am so glad to be home relaxing.

Be back soon!

 

[HockeyKat]

OKay, food for today:

B: 1/2 cup Fiber One + 1/4 cup milk (80), coffee
L: Salad (45), 2 cups v8 garden broccoli soup (160), apple (60), 1/2 piece of wee chocolate (25) = 290
D: 1/2 eggplant pizza w/ bacon bits, chopped mushrooms, red onion (150), 1 bag popcorn (200), 1/2 cup no sugar added vanilla ice cream + 1 crushed thin mint + 2 tbsp ff whipped cream (135)

Total, 870 (yikes, need to eat more). Water, 96 oz. Exercise, 45 min kickboxing.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

I need some flippin balance.

Lisa - you amaze me. The fact that you care so much about your class. Your students. ALL of them. Says so much about the quality of person you are. Our kids should all be so lucky to have teachers who care so much.

. I excitedly talk about the half marathon in 2010 and she, in a not-a-morning-person voice, says, "you have to be there when!?", but she's on board.

Yep. It's what we lovingly refer to as "a God-awful-hour"

So the tri suit showed up this evening. Didn't expect it till tomorrow. Um, there is NO b00b support at all. Just like any ol' regular racing suit up top. Hmmmm. Maybe the fabric is super supportive special miracle stuff? Don't know. Have to try it on tonight, but I am still too sweaty. And it looks ginormous. I looked at the size chart, found my dimensions, all of which worked out to a size 6, which is mostly what I am wearing. (Some 4s, some 8s.) But it looks huge. And it feels flimsy. Not sure about this at all.


huh. That's odd. Then what's so "killer Orca" about it?

Nancy--yes, killer! Ha! Love that. Good story about the corral placement, too. And yes, I use body glide as well. Others use "slick suit" and lots of people just use Pam, but that just weirds me out.

PAM?!?! yikes That's wrong.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Total, 870 (yikes, need to eat more).

Kat- I'll give you some of mine if you want

 

[adsrtw]

Erika and Liz ~ awesome posts about empowerment and doing what you need to do. I am a firm believer that everybody has to have 'me' time.

LisaPR ~ I know how annoying that can be. I used to get the 3rd degree too.

 

[adsrtw]

Lyz--the tri. Yes, swim first. Which means I am actually in the water at 7:20. Which means getting there at like 6:30-ish. (feeling like it is 5:30-ish. Gross.) Then bike, then run. I am not nervous about finishing. I know I will finish. And it will at least look like I am not finishing last since I have one of the earliest start times. So all's good there.

I am nervous about my overall performance. I would like to do well. I know that it is my first tri and that finishing it is all that I should really focus on. But I can't help wanting to push myself and have a strong finish. I haven't put in nearly enough time in the pool. Nothing I can do about that now. I have done a lot of biking and am hoping that will carry me. That is where tris are won and lost as it is. You can just covers so much ground so much more quickly on a bike as opposed to swimming or running.

My biggest concern is that every time I swim, I am just WIPED. It totally fatigues me like nothing else. Likely because I am using muscles that are not as developed as my biking and running ones are. For example, I routinely will do a workout like bike 15 miles and then run 5. And that is a good work-out for me, but not brutal. I can still go on with the rest of my day after that. But add a short swim, and then just one or the other (short bike or short run) and I am D.E.A.D. for the rest of the day. It takes everything out of me. So I hate that the swim is first.

My other concern had been about changing. There is no time to really change, of course, so you just throw your running/biking clothes on right over your wet swimsuit. I am ok with this part. But the other day when I did my mock tri something happened that I didn't count on. This means running in my bathing suit (covered up, of course! ) but it means that the, um, girls, are un-supported except for that little shelf bra in my racing suit. Now granted, I am the b00bless wonder and all, but even what little I do have up top needs more support than that for running. (Sorry for this, Roddy!) My chest ached something awful after that.

So I went online yesterday and ordered an official "tri" suit. It is meant so that you can do all three events in one piece of clothing without having to change. I had to pay for the express shipping, so it will be here tomorrow and I won't have a chance to train in it at all before the race.

And lots of people don't even put socks on for the bike and run. Just sneakers on bare feet. I don't think I can. I will take the minute to dry my feet off and put socks on. I don't have to tie my shoes as most people do, so I am hoping that will make up the time difference.

Lots to be nervous about.

And yes, I will post a link to the tri suit. Since I know you are wondering what the hell it looks like.

Glad you liked your birthday cheer. You know how I am about toes!

What about the stick on b 00 b supporters that you can get at lingerie shops??? Maybe that would help?

Most of all,


GOOD LUCK!!!!

 

[adsrtw]

No, I'm not in hiding, just a couple of crazy days at work and haven't gotten around to catching up yet. I'm sure if you'll ask Kat, she'll tell you that conversations about cramps, IUD's, PMS, IED's and WMD's doesn't bother me. I've known her for about a decade and we regular talk about things that most people would probably consider TMI. So, don't mind me.

And, I have no issues with the guy, either. Just a little friendly picking at Nancy.

Woo Hoo! You fit right in!

 

[adsrtw]

Hey guys quick drive by!
I have been bushed this week actually fell asleep at work the other night while on dinner break. Puppy has been getting up at 530 and then I can't fall back to sleep, wouldn't be bad if I went to bed before 1 am. I was doing great last week and then those wonderful things that I swear the devil invented himself came along ( GIRL SCOUT COOKIES).
Ok off to shower and then to work! Hope everyone is doing great! Miss you all!

Hang in there Stephanie!!!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Ok, don't hate me. But I don't get it about GS cookies. I mean, I was a GS for years, sold them, love the fund raiser and all of that. But the cookies are just not that good. And this is not me being Health Food Queen. I love a good cookie. Or sweets of any kind. But GS cookies are so, well, NOT what Nancy would make! Thankfully, they are not a temptation for me.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Just a note to say how lucky I am. I hope to be a fanatical runner some day. In the meantime, I am a beginner and very excited. I have told only a few people that I have begun running. EVERYONE is supportive and encouraging (much like the Ducks and Goddesses). My DGF could not be more supportive. I excitedly talk about the half marathon in 2010 and she, in a not-a-morning-person voice, says, "you have to be there when!?", but she's on board.

I am SO lucky and I wish everyone had a warm circle of support for pursuing fitness and milestone accomplishments.

Luckily,
Ronda

Gotta love having people to support you in this quest. This board is awesome for that! Glad that your training is going well. You'll be running races in no time.

Ugh... Jesse worked me hard tonight. As if the shoulder presses weren't bad enough, I had to do them while balancing on the bosu ball. Now I know why we worked core so hard the past few weeks. He is going to kill me with the bosu ball for the next few weeks. He also warned me that I'll be doing pushups on the floor off my toes in about three weeks. You have no idea how much that terrifies me. I am going to have to get over that I guess.

I am putting in my notice that yes, I am out of town again this weekend. I am heading to Boston to visit my friend and head to the big golf expo. I am excited about the expo and I am meeting my friend's new girlfriend. Should be a fun time (I hope). I need new golf shoes and a new golf bag, so I'll be shopping for those. Hopefully, I can stop there .

I am off to pack - I'll check in later,
Paula

 

[goofyfan-12]

Ok, don't hate me. But I don't get it about GS cookies. I mean, I was a GS for years, sold them, love the fund raiser and all of that. But the cookies are just not that good. And this is not me being Health Food Queen. I love a good cookie. Or sweets of any kind. But GS cookies are so, well, NOT what Nancy would make! Thankfully, they are not a temptation for me.

I don't hate you. I strangly finding myself agreeing with you. I had a few tagalongs and thought, these aren't as good as I remembered. If I am going to splurge, I want something better. I am done with GS cookies. I can help the scouts in other ways right?

(I'm sure my membership will get revoked now... )

 

[RodK1975]

Woo Hoo! You fit right in!

HAHA! Thanks!

Frankly, I don't see what the big deal is. I see guys get embarrassed and cringe with grimaces when they hear certain *girl* stuff and I don't get it. I mean, it's life stuff. So, it doesn't bother me at all. I consider it a learning experience.

 

[adsrtw]

Vent coming....

I am royally pissed off today.

Background - struggled teaching today. Lost students as in "was beyond them". Happens sometimes. I teach all levels across the city and you are bringing in lesson plans (yes, we actually do the prep) that worked brilliantly at one level at one school. Doesn't always at another. Anyway, it's awful to feel like it's not clicking and that you are failing them. I stopped midway and did a change. But draining.

And today a level one student from this school found me to say hi. I "knew her" but didn't know what level - class. So she finds me in the washroom later on to say, in how she could get it out, she dislikes her teacher. Not happy. I support her teacher in a gentle way. It's a difficult job - level one. She wants me to come and teach her - misses me. Remembers my name. I was there once in her class and it was a least a month and a half ago.

The point of this story. The second happens to me a lot. The first happens sometimes - I am human. Okay, point coming -

But here is what POs me big time. I couldn't take in #2. Nope. Not at all despite coming here and posting.

I am fed up with my all or nothing perfectionist ways. That's what it is. One mistake wipes out everything for me. Fed up!!!! One insult from another person/friend would always wipe out fifty compliments from oithers. I hate it.

Can you hear me? I AM FED UP. This is why I need to lose weight. Infiltrates everything. This all or nothing. I wanted to cry on the streetcar (Lyz want to know what that is? ) because of feeling like I failed the class instead of taking one moment to smile that I sincerely touched a new immigrant, with limited English, for one day and she remembered everything name and all. Just time for both. Should I care class didn't go well? Of course. It happens and you tweak lessons because you are sensitive to their learining/needs. But some flippin' balance. I need some flippin balance.

I need some flippin balance.

Lisa ~ Do you think that you failed your class??? I don't think so, far from it! Sounds like your students have an awesome teacher.

Back to more replying, lol.

 

[adsrtw]

I don't hate you. I strangly finding myself agreeing with you. I had a few tagalongs and thought, these aren't as good as I remembered. If I am going to splurge, I want something better. I am done with GS cookies. I can help the scouts in other ways right?

(I'm sure my membership will get revoked now... )

I agree Paula! Why settle for Hershey's when you can have Godiva? I sold my fair share of gs cookies in the past, but they just don't cut it for me anymore. Didn't they taste amazingly good back in the day?