In Search of My Body....Not the One I ATE! Vol. 5: Goddesses are Always on Top!

[goofyfan-12]

Hi everyone...

Amy - awesome pics. Congrats on both races!!!!

Just got back from seeing "He's not that into you" It was cute in that totally predictable kind of way. A nice diversion.

Off to veg for a while.

Talk to you later,
Paula

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Nancy - sorry you aren't feeling well. Hopefully, the snow won't be so bad and the kiddies can't get to school.

I'm feeling a bit more like "me" tonight, thankfully. But I have a baaaadd feeling that school tomorrow is going to be a no-go! We're supposed to be getting "the worst storm of the season"

Dawn - hope the trip was a good one.

me too. Are you back? Was it warm and sunny and just plain wonderful???

Celebrated my gram's 95th birthday today. It was fun, but difficult. Her mind is gone so it is really just watching a shell of the person you once knew. She was in good spirits today so that was cool.

95. Happy Birthday, Paula's Gram!

I did go to my training session today and things are going well there. Still making progress and my body is changing (someone didn't recognize me yesterday so that was pretty cool). Just need to get the food part back under control.

Awesome that you were unrecognizable!!!

Ok, race report time!

Thanks for the race report.

Rain - yikes. I don't mind running in the rain. But cold, wind-driven, Gatorade Gushing rain?

Mylar blankets rule! I always feel like a giant baked potato when I'm wrapped in one

Bummer that they ran out of medals- but at least they are going to send it to you. And then you'll have TWO



Here's my daily check-in.

Food: 28 points
water: check.
Alcohol: none.
Exercise: none

(costume sewing: NONE )

 

[adsrtw]

Hi Everyone,

Lyz - you do not stink. I just haven't been home long enough to actually type out a proper post this weekend.

Liz - sounds like the chili cookoff went well. And please, give us an update on Jodi.

Erika - glad that everything went well at camp yesterday. Sorry about the pending snowstorm.

Amy - thought of you this morning. Hope the race went well.

Nancy - sorry you aren't feeling well. Hopefully, the snow won't be so bad and the kiddies can't get to school.

Kat - way to get back on track and yeah for choosing the new diet plan. Hopefully, that will make things a little easier for you.

Sarah, Steph, LisaPR, LisaZ, Sunny, Stacey - hope all is well with you all. We miss you around here and really, Lyz does not stink...

Dawn - hope the trip was a good one.

Kelly - how is your weekend going?

Amiee - any news on the mechanic?

Rod - hope your weekend is going well. Enjoy the snow (what little you are supposed to get)

Yesterday was my second of three regional Odyssey tournaments. All went well and I am thankfully off judging duty for the next two weeks (whoo hoo!!!). Food wise, I have been way off this week and the scale is definitely showing it. If I can squeak through tomorrow's weigh in with only a two pound gain, I'll consider that a success. I am totally in full on TOM hell right now and food just can't seem to stay out of my mouth. Not bad foods, just way to freaking much of it. Today is a new day and I have said enough!!! Time to get back on track. So yes, I'll be tracking my food this week to get me back to being aware of what I am doing.

Celebrated my gram's 95th birthday today. It was fun, but difficult. Her mind is gone so it is really just watching a shell of the person you once knew. She was in good spirits today so that was cool.

I did go to my training session today and things are going well there. Still making progress and my body is changing (someone didn't recognize me yesterday so that was pretty cool). Just need to get the food part back under control.

Off to go clean my closet for a little while.

Talk to you all later,
Paula

The only mechanic news that I have is that he made it to Daytona late yesterday afternoon.

I can so relate to your situation with your Grandma. My Grandpa was the same way and it nearly killed me. Grandpa was a fill in dad for me, so we were tight.

Hang in there! Everybody has some off moments now and again.

 

[princessrunner]

Good morning everyone. I feel like I am constantly trying to catch up on this thread!!

Amy, Great job on the race. Delena too!! Running in the rain is okay for me but rain and wind....you rock!

Lyz, thinking of you and your family.

Erika, I am so sick of shoveling I cannot express it in words. We are in the heavy snow zone today (lucky us). They called school at 4:30 and it was not even snowing here yet!!

Nancy, yes, kids in school practically until school starts again in the fall!!

LisaV, love the list.

Everyone else, sorry I just get so lost in everything I cannot respond to it all. I am trying though, seriously...

Boston College is so beautiful. I forget how overwhelming it is at a young age though. Shelby was pretty scared. Funny thing is that her aunt went to Northeastern and played FH there and BC was her very first game in Division 1. She was talking to Shelby telling her she felt the same way and she was 18 as opposed to 14. For a 14 year old, Shelby did really well playing with all 18-19 year old girls. You could never tell she was not the same age. She held her own despite not being on the same page as the older girls. At 14, you just want to play and at 19 you want to win. Serious mind set difference. Anyway, a great trip. We got home at 1 a.m. on Sunday. I felt like someone had run over me.

Sunday up and at it again. Out for my 10 mile run which I maintained about an 11:30 pace for. It was long and cold and did I mention long? How am I ever going to survive 26.2????? The playoff FH game was canceled (thank goodness) and I took David to his swim end of season party and then back here for endless amounts of . No, I am still not caught up on that. Good news is that Shelby can do it today....

Shelby is also in the market for an 8th grade prom dress. She went last year with her 8th grade boyfriend. We found just a simple black sheath with a white trim, strapless. It was beautiful and so was she. Hair in a modified updo with lots of ringlets. She got out of the car and her boyfriend got really nervous all of the sudden. It was kind of comical. This year, she says she wants a longer dress. We need to get out shopping but FH is taking over lately. Next weekend she has another tourney, locally thank goodness but, another day bites the dust entirely. Oh and I have a 12 mile run on Sunday...

What would I tell my younger self:
1. You do not need to be "that" girl.
2. Thin is not something that should come at the cost of your health.
3. You do not NEED someone to love you. You need to love yourself.
4. Life is about choices, keep the bad ones to a minimum.
5. Maine is not so bad and you don't need to sell out just to leave.

Have a great day everyone!!!

 

[DisneyGalUK]

Good Morning

Quick fly by from me, im at work! I haven't had chance to read back but I will!

Busy weekend, not great. Ive got an ear infection so im deaf in one ear

Yesterday was not a good eating day. I was good all day then I had two slices of pizza last night. Hey ho, back on it today!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

(costume sewing: NONE )

Rut-Ro. I'm guessing you needed to sew sew sew yesterday.

Last night I went to bed with an Ahhhh. Remember last Sunday evening I was in the throws of my marathon, till 4am, two nights in a row, tax data entry. It's so wonderful to only have my normal stuff to do.

She got out of the car and her boyfriend got really nervous all of the sudden.

Ugh, I am so not looking forward to some grubby little boy-man going out with MY daughter. Heaven help all of us.

What would I tell my younger self:
1. You do not need to be "that" girl.
2. Thin is not something that should come at the cost of your health.
3. You do not NEED someone to love you. You need to love yourself.
4. Life is about choices, keep the bad ones to a minimum.
5. Maine is not so bad and you don't need to sell out just to leave.

Interesting list Lisa. You've come very far from your younger self.

Amy - I love love love the pictures of Delena. She is so precious. Sucks that you were dodging the marathon of strollers. And then the rain. OMG. Sounds like a looonnngggg weekend.

I'm sorry bunches of you are having snow storms. I can't tell you how happy I am that they are not here. Whew.

Ok, off to work. Busy day. Although I'll probably be on. Viewing tonight - must get new black panty hose.

 

[adsrtw]

A quick drive by today! I hope everybody is doing well today (or at least hanging in there!). Had a little arguement with my son today ~ didn't want to take his glasses to school. Grr, kids!

In other news ~ IT'S CASUAL DAY! I so cherish our extra casual days at work. My wonderful new boss is trying to get our dress code changed to casual as long as we wear logowear. The only stipulation would be if a client visited.

Last week was insane at work and I am still not in check from it. My feet and ankles are still killing me. Just had to whine a bit.

Talk with ya later!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Ok, finally have time for a proper post!

Snow day. Shocker, I know.

LisaPR--love the list! And we are in the heavy snow belt as well. Looks like we are going to get the full 15" I am DONE with snow. Just done. No interest in showshoeing, skate skiing, sledding...done with it all.

Paula--glad you have some down time from OotM. Tell us about your weigh in tonight! It may not be what you think, so stay OT today and have a great day!

Lyz--so glad to have you back and that you are no longer in tax hell. Me? Still putting that off. You know how sick it makes me. Hang in there tonight at the viewing. Just be there for your mom.

EE--why do you have dress up and dress down days? Do you actually have clients come in to the office?

AMY--WOO HOO on the race week-end! Awesome job all the way around! I would have sworn at Gatorade Guy up and down. OMG, totally RUDE. Throw it low! And you are SO not a wimp about complaining about running in 50* and rain. That is AWFUL. Even though I am used to cold temps, that particular combination (40s - 50s and rain) is just BONE-CHILLING cold. So I totally get what you were going through. What a trooper! My very first race ever was in those conditions. It is still my PR, though. So maybe getting out of that awful cold was my motivation to run faster!

As for the walkers. Two-across only! This is why I like it when there are different start times. Otherwise, the first few miles are all elbows and excuse mes.

LisaV--been thinking about your list since last night. SO good.

I will get to my list. I am still thinking.

Ok, snow day or not, when you work online like I do, you still have to work. Back later.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Shelby is also in the market for an 8th grade prom dress. She went last year with her 8th grade boyfriend. We found just a simple black sheath with a white trim, strapless. It was beautiful and so was she.

Our kids have an 8th grade "Promotion Dance". They stress that it is NOT a prom. Normal school dress code still applies. Modesty is the #1 rule. No super short dresses. No strapless dresses. Even spaghetti straps are pushing it. Limos? The rule is, if a Limo pulls up, it keeps going. Not allowed. There's so much pressure and angst that go along with "prom", not to mention the outrageous expenses that often are incurred. It's bad enough when you are a Jr or Sr. in High School. 13 is a horrific enough age as it is - don't need the added stress of "prom" thrown on them!


Fortunately DD is the youngest! With 2 older brothers she knows the truth about boys - and just how un-appealing they really are at that age! No mystique there Besides, our rule is 16. Not allowed to date until she's 16. End of conversation. She can go with a group of friends, boys/girls mixed - that's fine. But no one-on-one dates.

Good Morning

Good morning Kelly

Busy weekend, not great. Ive got an ear infection so im deaf in one ear

Hope you are on the mend soon!!!

Rut-Ro. I'm guessing you needed to sew sew sew yesterday.

Yes. shoulda. Today hopefully will be a busy-bee day

This may sound odd Lyz - but I hope you enjoy tonight. Good people, good conversation, pleasant memories. That's my wish for you


I have to take a friend to an appt this morning. Of course when I agreed I had no idea that the weather was going to require that we travel by Dog Sled It's going to take for.ever. Timing just sucks. <sigh> We've already got a good 8-9" of snow on the ground, and it's going to continue for the better part of the day.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi gang,

It is Monday and while I know many of you are dealing with this latest snowstorm, I am thankful that I am not (for once). Now this could certainly come back to bite me as we have been known to get snow storms as late as mid May around here so I am ready for my payback. (Hope you got your snow day Kat).

I am feeling much better about things today than I did last week. I was snacking in a totally out of control way and my sweet tooth was on overdrive thanks to TOM. I am picking myself up and starting again by tracking food this week to get a handle on things. The scale will be what it will be tonight and I am done stressing about it. It is a new week and a new start right?

I was talking to my sister last night about my training session and realized that my trainer paid me a big compliment yesterday. Our conversations have been rather interesting lately. Yeah, they deal a lot with his relationship issues as he is getting over some rejection and as he puts it – he loves having an adult to talk to about this stuff (that makes me feel old just thinking about it), but yesterday was a bit different. From what I gathered, I am one of his few clients that are probably over the age of 30 and I am pretty sure I am the only one with a major amount of weight to lose. He mentioned that he didn’t want to take on any obese clients and when I added the “except for me” part, he quickly jumped in and said that he doesn’t consider me to be obese because I am so active. Now, I joked about the BMI scales that are out there and he laughed and said that those scales are truly unrealistic. In fact, the chart would list him as obese right now when that is certainly not the case. Thinking back, I didn’t grasp what he said until my sister pointed it out to me and then the light coming from the light bulb that just flicked on was blinding. I am an active person. I am working my bummocks off and I am seeing results. So I am not going to let one off week derail everything. It is one off week. I can overcome that right.

I have mentioned this in the past, but this is more of a mental battle than a physical one at times so grasping these types of concepts is huge for me. I know that I hear this from my extremely supportive friends (like you all) and family (love you all for that), but having an outsider say the same thing can be just the validation you need from time to time to keep you going.

I thought I would share a link to an article I read about finding out what your ideal weight is. It was interesting to see what influences our thought processes about our weight. Here is the link if anyone is interested:

http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/heal...t-5-tips-for-finding-your-happy-weight-393032

I think I have blabbered on enough for this morning. I’m sure I’ll check in at some point along the day and will definitely check in later tonight after my weigh in and cardio workout. Treated myself to some new music and set a new playlist on my ipod so I am excited about my cardio workouts this week.

Lyz - sending you hugs for tonght. I agree with Nancy, celebrate the life of the loved one you lost by sharing the stories and the memories with the people who will be there.

Later,
Paula

 

[3DisneyKids]

Paula--AWESOME! And you know, I don't think of you as obese either. I really don't. I think it is because so ARE so active and you have such a full life!

Ok, things I would tell my younger self (and this may just be the start! HA! This has been in my head since Lyz first posted it).

1. Biology and parenting have no relationship. You don't have to love him because he impregnated your mother.
2. Don't deny who you are and then try to be something you aren't. It is OK to be a jock. Cool, even.
3. Stay single when you live in Alaska (great decision you made to go). But don't tie yourself to a guy while there.
4. Making the decision to go to a small, Christian school for college as opposed to Ivy League is the RIGHT decision for you. Trust yourself on that and don't ever look back and "what if" it.
5. Junior year of college. OMG, don't you DARE blow off junior year abroad so that you can stay with your boyfriend. Go to Greece! (This is truly one of the few regrets I have in life.)
6. Keep playing softball. You are good. Don't worry about the stereotype that goes with it.
7. Same goes with swimming. Don't stop competing.
8. In fact, this goes for all athletics. Don't quit the team because you are not the captain or no longer the best one on the team, etc. Being part of the team is more important...and certainly better than not playing at all.
9. You have a ton of talents, but music isn't one of them. Let it go.
10. It's ok to pledge a sorority in college, fun even, but don't let it become your entire college life. Keep your circle open.
11. Spend more money on travel and life and less money on acquiring "stuff."
12. Talk less. Listen more.

Ok, so I told you that was going to be long. I could keep going!

 

[princessrunner]

Erika I love the list, especially the sports-related things. One I would add to my list in relation to this is:

Don't quit the team because you hate the coach.

One more,

It is not about winning, it is about learning, the experiences you have and the bonds you gain. Winning is a bonus.

Shelby has issues with the stereotypes of a female athlete. If you have any wise insights on this, I would really appreciate it. The non-athlete or athlete wannabe girls tell her she is built like a boy and plays sports like a boy, etcetera. It is painful for her, and me. She has so much talent inside her body but she is so afraid to let it out because of the perception from others. I try to reassure her that the true athletes do not stereotype, they appreciate you for what you are.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Erika - awesome list!!! I especially liked the items that talked about accepting yourself for who you are and celebrating your talents. That applies to so many of the "types" you find in school. Excellent advice for us all.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Hi!

I did so well this week, but today is a major struggle to be on track. So far only fruit and coffee, so I'm not throwing it all away. I want to be thin, though. I can taste it!

And speaking of being thin, you know the only reason I "run" is to raise money for breast cancer research. And you know my mom is on her fifth diagnosis and currently doing chemo and praying like hell that this isn't the end. So in that spirit, I am running a 5k in April. Here's the link to my donation page. If you have anything to spare, I would appreciate it so much. I hate asking for anything, but I ask for this for my mom and my daughter. The fighter and survivor, and her reason to fight.

http://www.komennorthjersey.org/site/TR/Race/General?px=1124401&pg=personal&fr_id=1040

Thanks, guys. Gotta go cry for a minute now.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Lisa--wish I had some magic words for you and Shelby. I am built like a mini-linebacker. It has bothered me for a lot of my life. No matter how thin I am (or get), I can never wear spaghetti strap type of things and can rarely go sleeveless. I just have massive shoulders and upper arms (from being a competitive swimmer during puberty).

Embarrassing but true story (embarrassed me to tears at the time). I was...14? 15? and sitting on some guy's lap. We were all crammed in a car, a bunch of us, so the girls were all sitting on laps. Anyway, he had his hands on my back and he sort of started "patting" me around my back and said, "What is this? I didn't know you wore a back brace..." Um no. That is just my BROAD freaking back! I was pretty thin at the time. But I was mortified. I never swam competitively again.

Until now. Sunday will be my first swim competition in 25 years.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Liz, that made ME cry!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Liz, that made ME cry!

It's hard, to look at this like that. But it's so true. I spend more time with her now, because she is afraid. And she has never had the luxury of taking Emily for granted. It's so hard, though, to tell people I am doing this 5k, because it's 1. Asky and 2. Emotional.

But I figure I am saving other people's grandmas and moms and daughters and best friends. And you know women are the center of my world, so to lose any of them - unspeakable. Oh, but to fight to keep them here! THAT I can do.

You and I, we know we can't go there sometimes. And we know hope is the most important thing, ever.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

I am feeling much better about things today than I did last week. I was snacking in a totally out of control way and my sweet tooth was on overdrive thanks to TOM. I am picking myself up and starting again by tracking food this week to get a handle on things. The scale will be what it will be tonight and I am done stressing about it. It is a new week and a new start right?

I was talking to my sister last night about my training session and realized that my trainer paid me a big compliment yesterday. Our conversations have been rather interesting lately. Yeah, they deal a lot with his relationship issues as he is getting over some rejection and as he puts it – he loves having an adult to talk to about this stuff (that makes me feel old just thinking about it), but yesterday was a bit different. From what I gathered, I am one of his few clients that are probably over the age of 30 and I am pretty sure I am the only one with a major amount of weight to lose. He mentioned that he didn’t want to take on any obese clients and when I added the “except for me” part, he quickly jumped in and said that he doesn’t consider me to be obese because I am so active. Now, I joked about the BMI scales that are out there and he laughed and said that those scales are truly unrealistic. In fact, the chart would list him as obese right now when that is certainly not the case. Thinking back, I didn’t grasp what he said until my sister pointed it out to me and then the light coming from the light bulb that just flicked on was blinding. I am an active person. I am working my bummocks off and I am seeing results. So I am not going to let one off week derail everything. It is one off week. I can overcome that right.

I have mentioned this in the past, but this is more of a mental battle than a physical one at times so grasping these types of concepts is huge for me. I know that I hear this from my extremely supportive friends (like you all) and family (love you all for that), but having an outsider say the same thing can be just the validation you need from time to time to keep you going.

I thought I would share a link to an article I read about finding out what your ideal weight is. It was interesting to see what influences our thought processes about our weight. Here is the link if anyone is interested:

http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/heal...t-5-tips-for-finding-your-happy-weight-393032

Okay, GREAT article! And I took the Self quiz - there's a link - and it put me at 153.1, which is pretty much my goal!

And yes, yes, yes. You are right on about the weekend, and how hard you work, and where you are. Gold stars for seeing yourself as fab.

 

[princessrunner]

Liz, That's all I can say. I run for my dad, because he can't do anything anymore. You are doing such a wonderful thing!

Erika, for you too. It is hard sometimes being unsure of yourself and the power within. My heart aches for Shelby a lot. She will do pullups in the gym and boys will literally stop and stare. She wants to curl in a ball and die. It is painful. Hard to tell her to celebrate her strength and embrace the talent she has inside when everything around her is telling her that she needs to be soft and feminine. Sweat is not pretty. Fortunately for me, Mike thinks it is beautiful.

Nancy, Shelby does not go out one on one either. It is a group thing. We laugh because she says she is "going out" with someone and we say "where are you going??" Not funny in her world. She is pretty good about keeping one boyfriend and he is the one who dumps her for "that" girl. She cries and I tell her that "that" boy is out there somewhere it just takes awhile to find him. You know the one that loves sweaty muscular girls who can hurt them if they wanted too...lol. Shelby and I also have an understanding that this is an 8th grade prom and I am not going full out on it. Last year's dress was on the clearance rack for $25, $5 shoes from TJ Maxx and the lady that took care of her when she was a baby is our hairdresser so she takes care of the hair/makeup and nails thing. Last year, when Marie was done with her, she looked like she should have been going to senior prom. Daddy cried....

 

[3DisneyKids]

I took the quiz, too, and it put me at 126.2. My goal is 125, so I am in line with where I should be.