here some of my advise.
You should have told your mother about your love of your life. If you wanted your parents approval instead of hiding it. She told you to talk to her if you were in this situation but you chose not to. Also, how in less than 30 days, never having gone on one date or spent any alone time together, has he become the love of your life? And he is 1 1/2 years younger than you possibly. I don't think that your very first crush will turn out to be your life partner but if this was the rare case and he is the one, then he will still be the one at 18. If he is as loving and caring as you say hie is, then you should be able to tell him the truth as to why you can't text him at certain times and that your mother is reading your text messages. Relationships are built on trust and truth, not lies and hiding. If you can't be honest with the love of your life and tell him that you are not allowed to date and that you were sneaking behind your parents back after to told them you would never do that again, and if he truly is the one for you he will have no problem waiting till you are 18. You also left out that you would have been allowed to date in January if you followed the rules. If he is truly the one he will love you with or with out make up. He will accept your restrictions and be more than happy to wait to have you at 18 without any restrictions if this is a mature and caring boy. But, if this is just teen emotions then he probably won't wait. Only time will tell in that area. Think about this too. You said he's thinking of enlisting in the military. If you can't live without the boy what will you do when he goes in the army? How would you be able to handle a 2 year tour of duty where he might not make it back? This month was the deadliest month in Afghanistan. If you feel you can't handle six months of waiting until you are 18, how will you handle years? If you get anything out of this advice, get this: relationships need truth and communication whether it is dealing with your parents or your future relationships. Hiding and lying will get you nowhere. That is immature behavior, and I am sure you would not want the love of your life doing that to you.
In closing, I think if you wanted to show your parents you were ready for a serious relationship, then you should have not have hid it from them. You should have been up front, honest, and mature and come to them to discuss your possible feelings before it went too far . If all you wanted was a relationship that you had to hide and if you weren't proud to show him to your parents, then you went about it the right way by hiding it.
I never said he was the "love of my life." However in less than a month he knows more about me than many of my closest friends do. He knows I am obsessive, and he knows I am insecure. (Plus he isn't my very first crush, as you well know.)
However he doesn't know that I can't date or text him because I didn't want him to know that at 17 and a half years old I was still not allowed. I have been considered a "freak" my whole life. It gets frustrating to watch everyone else text freely to the members of the opposite sex. It makes me feel lonely when I see all of the couples at my high school, and know that I can't be that way. So I pretended for once like I was normal.
As far as him wanting to be in the army, as much as I don't want him to be I
can't stop him. It would kill me to have to wait to see if he is alive or dead. Is it that hard to understand that before that happens I would like to spend time with him?
As far as waiting until I am 18... we haven't had enough time together to expect him to wait for me. Like you said it's been a month, and that isn't enough time to know if I am worth waiting for.
It was a decision I made on impulse, but that decision brought me to someone that I care deeply about. I didn't want to have restrictions so I eliminated them as best I could, not knowing how worth it he would be.
I understand that I betrayed all trust, and I understand that I made the wrong decision however I am looking to the future, and trying to understand how to fix things with everyone.
If I could have anything in the world it would to have my parents understand how much he means to me, and as much as I don't deserve it, for us to be able to be together. I know in reality that will never happen because of what I did, but that is my wish.
I talked myself into my decision with the "Life is to short to live with regrets." But either way I would have regretted this situation. Either I sat there wondering "what if" or "what could have been" or like now I know that we could be but I regret hurting my parents.
