I need a hug...

[Axel]

So. One of my best friends in the entire world, one of those people who probably knows me better than I know myself, you know, is moving away.

John's leaving for North Carolina sunday. Graduation is saturday. Today should have been his last day. I didn't get to see him at all. He and a bunch of our other friends were supposed to go to the movies friday to see get smart- a last night out with him. Well, apparently he's got plans with his mom that he just found out about that he can't blow off. So I'm now being hit with the reality that I never got to say goodbye properly. So I left him a message on facebook:

so the popular rumour is that you're not coming with us friday. this makes me very sad. cuz, y'know, I'm gonna miss you most and I've known you the least. I'm going to miss you more than Owen, than Brittany, than any of my senior friends. I guess I'll see you around x-mas. xoxox

and a few seconds later this is what I got:

patty my dearest friend i will miss you as well but cheer up i willl be back next year and see you dominate in shot, and other stuff in home track meets, listen i will be back and it will be awsome see you later P.S.-love you

and I don't know why, but just that made me start crying so hard.

Because above all this kid is one of, if not my best, friends ever. And I started to fall in love with him earlier in the year and never acted on it. And now I'm sitting here with all the regrets going through my head. Wondering if the "love you" at the end of his message means anything, or if it's just there for the sake of being there. And I'm really gonna miss this kid. He's moving to North Carolina, you know. It's not like I can even drive down and visit on weekends.

you know. I used to never understand why people got sad when the didn't get to say goodbye. I always figured that not getting to say it meant that it wasn't really goodbye...only, now I really wish I had gotten the chance.

So yeah. I'm gonna sit here and cry and listen to sad songs and wish I had gotten that one last hug from him.

 

[PurpleDucky]

at least you can still contact him through facebook and phonecalls and stuff.
I'm sorry =/

 

[CastawayJ]

good luck
I hope things work out for you

 

[mikeyandscoobyx2]

I'm sorry.

that's gotta stink for a friend to move away like that, but you know, like ducky said, at least you can talk to him and stuff.

 

[PosessedEeyore]

awz... that happens to me ALL of the time. when ever i make really good friends with someone, i or them move away...

 

[llama62]

 

[Cassidy]

i hate it when people move.

 

[HDD]

I hope everything works out for you.

 

[AmandaSparks730]

Aww *gives Patty giant hug*

I recently lost a friend to a move, too. 'Cept she moved to Florida (lucky ducky). Luckily for us, she has tons of family up here, so she'll be visiting. Probably in the winter, 'cuz she hates it hot, and loooves the snow!

Still very sad that I'm losing my Sammi, though

 

[disneychick2721]

I know how your feeling.
My best friend in the entire universe moved last year, to NC too.
She has been my best friend since 3rd grade.
Its really hard especially since I hung out with her everyday...
She new me better than anyone.


I think you should think of it as not saying Good-bye to him, but saying See Ya Later.

And if you really have feelings for him, tell him...

I hope everything works out.

 

[Tinkerbell424]

I'm sorry.
Do you still feel the same way now for him? It's never to late to express those feelings. If you didn't, you'd probably regret that even more.

I hope it all works out.

 

[STOPxmickeytime]

I almost started tearing up reading that.
I'm sorry.

 

[::Snow_White::]

 

[Sparx]

patti,
i love you so much. i'm here for you. do you have my phone number? if not, just tell me. i text more than i breathe lately. and i'm always here for you when you need me.

 

[KitKat_Tink]

aww i'm sorry...
my best friend moved away back in the summer before high school...

i still talk to him on myspace an im and stuff...We refuse to lose contact...We have a trip planned that he and his gf (if there still together) will come out here after senior year to see me and we might head down to disneyland :]

look foward to the next time you'll see him.

 

[katz_r_awsum]

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

Aww my goodness.
Patti!!
I remember how you would talk about him on the B+G thread, and it was the most cutest thing I'd ever heard.

*arm hugs really hard*

If you need to talk, you can PM me any time.

*arm hugs some more*

 

[wilmabride'sdaughter]

Aww that must suck your best friend moving away. At least you have facebook and stuff so that the two of you can keep in touch. I hope things get better.
If you need to chat or anything PM me, i'm never busy.

 

[XxCuriosityxX<3]