Sadly, today wasn't as good. DH was having hallucinations with the morphine - bugs on the wall he said, so he refused a couple of doses. Of course that put his pain level back at about a 9. So, around 11 this morning, he agreed to try hydramorphone again. They've put butterfly inserts on each arm, one for I think it's haldol?? for his hiccups that are frequent and persistent and one on the other side for dilaudid. Since he has an anti-anxiety on board long acting overnight and as needed through the day, he felt he could withstand the pain med. So, today he basically slept. Which also means barely ate or drank.
It sounds like delirium, since they are giving him haldol. This is not uncommon, and happens when a variety of changes in the body and brain cascade all at the same time, including stress, medications, pain, being in the hospital/changing rooms, changes in body chemistry, toxins in the bloodstream from systems that aren't working optimally, dehydration, altered sleep patterns, etc. It's not only challenging, but not even possible, to correct all these things right now, because he still needs his pain medicine, and still needs to sleep whenever he can, his disease is progressing, his chemistries remain off, etc.
This is why the goal will be comfort: to control his pain, to let him rest, to honor his wishes, to try to preserve his dignity, etc. (whatever his personal goals of care are). Take comfort in knowing that this is the best you can do for him right now. I know it's a tough pill to swallow - most people have a more time to process this. (And I wish that you did too.) So keep that in mind, that you have to do whatever it is that helps him be comfortable, and that those interventions are not the bad thing, the disease is. You should not and cannot feel guilty about anything that's happened or will happen, you are doing the best you can do under extremely difficult circumstances. (And none of us are perfect, though I'm just saying that, not that I think you've done anything wrong. Almost nothing is ever perfect.)
I hope this helps, I'm trying hard to say things gently, while at the same time giving you the information you need. I'm sure your caregivers at the hospice are doing the same. Sending prayers to you, your husband, your family and loved ones, and all of his caregivers, that your dear husband can remain comfortable and assured that he is in loving hands and that those around him have only his best interests at heart.