I don't know if it is a side effect of the drugs or what but right now I am feeling very tired but can't sleep and I have this overwhelming sense of dread. It's weird really. and I told my DH that I don't feel well. I can't put my finger on why I just don't , like when you have a cold or flu and you dont' feel well. I also feel very restless. I am hoping its a side effect. I was not pleased that he had to dilate the esophagus or do a biopsy because now I am fearful of bleeding and other complications
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You're doing this to yourself, sweetie..

I was a chronic worrier for years - saw pretty much everything in the worst possible light - until I became involved in CBT therapy after I fell into a severe, severe depression..
This is what I have learned about "feelings" and "fears".. Without hard, cold
facts to indicate there is a very high likelihood of probability, that's all they are - feelings and fears.. Do you have any hard, cold facts that would support your feelings of overwhelming dread? Do you have any hard, cold facts that would support your theory that because the doctor dialated your esophagus and took a biopsy that
you will have bleeding or other complications? If not, you have no basis to be torturing yourself with all of these worries and concerns..
I know it's not easy to change the way you think - and it's something that you have to work on every minute of every day until it comes "naturally" - but believe me, it's
so worth the hard work involved..
Just try to relax and every time one of those thoughts pops into your head, ask yourself what hard, cold
facts you have to support those concerns..
Hang in there - and try to get some rest..

