It doesn't sound like this is going to be a good long term solution for you. Have you talked to your doctor about trying non-flushing niacin? You could see if that works for you. And you can buy it OTC.
I will say this, as a long term cardiac nurse. Many people don't want to take statins. But the first thing that happens after they have a cardiac event is that they go on a very large dose of statins, and I've yet to see anyone refuse or complain, basically because they're so scared after what they just went through. Isn't it better to just work on prevention in a smaller dose?
I also think you need to look at the bigger picture, though, too, because cardiac health involves a lot of things. Lowering modifiable risk factors is always a good idea, and also something that people generally don't do, either, until they're forced to - like smoking, sedentary lifestyle, lowering stress levels, exercising, improving diet, etc. Unmodifiable risk factors there's not a lot we can do about, like age, gender, family history, health history, etc., but being aware of how it fits into your overal picture is wise, as well.
Good luck, girl, I know it's not easy.