Morning Peeps! I'll just apologize now because, while I was able to skim through and get somewhat caught up, I know I won't have to time to comment and respond as I'd like. And I'm afraid it'll be like this for some time: school is taking a LOT more of my time this semester and my DISing will have to take a backseat. So please know that I am reading, and I am thinking of each of you and wishing you all the best in every challenge and joy you face, even if I can't type all that out!
I will offer this thought for the week...
I'm so frustrated with my current state of choosing between foods that I enjoy and make me happy vs. achieving a weight it's almost impossible for me to maintain. For some background, I come from the world of the Ballet and spent most of my impressionable years in it. No, I'm not anorexic and never had an eating disorder, but I do have a ridiculous self-image of my body as being "round" if I carry any body fat at all. The only time in my adult life I was satisfied with my body was the year following my divorce, when, thanks to stress, I'd gotten down to 102 pounds. Remember, I am 5' tall, so this wasn't dangerously thin at all, and I
did look good. But I couldn't eat well and maintain that, which is why I'm up 10 pounds now.
Anyway, my new resolve is to stop thinking about weight altogether. To stop trying to whip my body into a shape it ain't ever gonna be. To accept that I'll never wear skinny jeans and that no one other than Kate Moss or Heidi Klum should be wearing them, either. As of today, I'm working on just getting healthy for the sake of being healthy. I'll limit my intake of empty calories, but I will not eliminate them. I'll make exercise and sleep priorities. I'll stop worrying about calories and eat when I'm hungry, do something else when I'm not. And I'll just buy clothing that flatters my body, pear-ish shape and all.
I'll still be here, if you'll have me! But I may opt out of the weigh-ins in favor of Health Check-Ins to keep me accountable. LY/MI guys! We can all meet our goals if we just find what works for us and keep supporting one another through it all. I'm so proud of you all!