I had to laugh when you said people said you looked good, and how bad you must have looked before! You have a great attitude, and your husband sounds precious. Make going to Disney a priority...it definitely will take your mind off things, and you can plan like crazy...be obsessed...it helps...lol!
Thank god for hiatal hernia's! Who knew...LOL!
so sorry for your losses.
Well, you're definitely not bored! When are you going to Disney?
You do have a lot on your plate, but it sounds like things ate on the upswing.
Hi there! life got crazy...er... lol! sometimes I am pretty sure, grown children are a lot harder than toddlers!!! I owe you an email
I am another survivor who went old school and lost all my very long hair! and eyebrows and lashes! lol, It was a bit traumatic when it first happened, but I found it very liberating, and comfortable, and mine also grew back in, at first pure white and curly, and then slowly back to the way it was. in fact it started growing back before I was even finished the 2nd type of chemo I was onI'm doing the Dignicap. I am 5 days past my second dose of Taxotere/Cytoxan. I have hair but probably down to about 30%. I had very thick hair to begin wit. I am hoping it stops sooon otherwise the cost and the pain and discomfort will be for nothing
I am saying a prayer for your recovery.
I do know exactly how you are feeling. I think they don't tell you how bad it can be or it might scare you away. There were many times all I could do was take pain medication and cry and wonder how I was going to get through it all. I also suffered with leg pain so badly! it took a good couple of years for it to really to away, and even now when I sit for too long, it is painful to get moving again. But I am here! and generally doing pretty darn good, and one day so will you be!I'm having the worst time.
On top of that I just can't seem to bounce back from chemo plus I started rads already, 8 down, 27 left to go
I'm just done in mentally because of this. There is not even a single day where I have felt close to the old me. The past 5 months has done so much damage that I wonder if I will ever feel like I did again. Sorry to be so negative but nobody else gets this. They placate and try and spin it positively but there's nothing positive about having cancer.
We left for Disneyland 3 days after my last chemo treatment, and while I could not do as much as I wanted to, it was a soul soothing trip, and really helped my mentally. When I got back it was to discover my cancer had come back and I was rushed into a 2nd surgery, they felt it was because the first surgeon left too narrow of a margin. then about 3-4 weeks after that surgery I did radiation. That's when I really noticed the pain in my legs, and being so tired. But again, only about 3 weeks after I was done that, we flew down to Disneyland with our 5 and 7 year old grand daughters! again, couldn't do as much as before but we still had an awesome time and made memories we talk about now, 6 years later when they are 11 and 13! Hang in there! And crying is good for you! chemicals from being sad are released in our tears, and it helps!
That is good news! I have one of those too! along with a condition called achalasia. I deal with symptoms rather that have surgery because I have had 2 major and 8 minor procedures done through the years and just do not want to have any more surgery! lol
I am sorry you are going through such loss during this hard time. Our dear son, the father of our 4 beautiful grand daughters, was killed in a workplace accident just 3 weeks after my first breast cancer surgery and a week before I was supposed to start chemo. my husband who worked for the same company was the first aid attendent, and even though he was injured as well, tried to perform cpr on our son. 2011 was the very worst year of my life and there were plenty of times during chemo I was so sick I was sure I was going to die, and part of me wanted toWow I hadn't realized how long it's been since I checked in here...sorry ladies.
LMP: Hang in there!
Thistle: Hoping for good results for you!
Mrs. I: Sorry about the hair struggles...ugh! I know what you mean about spending the money and thinking it could have been for nothing.
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Thanks to all of you for the good thoughts for our family. Last week was a tough one...as was the week prior. My MIL finally lost her battle with kidney cancer on the morning of July 4th and as sad as that was, we take solace knowing her struggles are over. I lost an uncle who also had a long term illness just two days later. So last week was: Mon: MIL Viewings/Visitation for MIL, Tues: MIL Funeral with repast at our house, Wed: Unwind, Thur: Funeral for my uncle and back to work on Friday.
Yesterday was chemo #2 of 4 for me and I'm beginning my hair shed/loss process now so it remains to be seen if the cold cap will be successful. Definitely have much thinner hair. Managing with bandanas and cloth headbands for now. Today will be neulasta and we'll go from there. Only 2 more of these sessions to go...and then the fun of radiation will begin next.
Thinking of all you waiting on results, happy for those who have had positive news. The waiting is so much worse than the news itself sometimes.
but I knew I had to fight to be here to help our 2 daughters and our sons dear daughters through the next several years living without him. My husband is on a life time pension now, and we have had a lot to adjust to. Because of our sons death right then, we knew life is never garunteed! and I made my bucket list and we proceeded to get through it! The only thing we have not done is make a trip to England. I don't think I can cope with the very long plane flight, just flying to Hawaii nearly did me in! I got so sick and my lymphadema in my arm and side really kicked up! We will see, maybe one day I will get brave enough!
Life is like a roller coaster, when it's going up you know there will be a drop sometime! but when you are plummeting you know it won't last forever! I pray I have used up all my really bad things happening quota for my lifetime now, but you never know! so I try to enjoy something every day, even if it's only a good cup of coffee in the morning! lol! oh and yay for the good news!!!
I am sorry you are going through such loss during this hard time. Our dear son, the father of our 4 beautiful grand daughters, was killed in a workplace accident just 3 weeks after my first breast cancer surgery and a week before I was supposed to start chemo. my husband who worked for the same company was the first aid attendent, and even though he was injured as well, tried to perform cpr on our son. 2011 was the very worst year of my life and there were plenty of times during chemo I was so sick I was sure I was going to die, and part of me wanted to
