Ok, so, I feel really bad about doing this, but I have to throw a little rant out here...Mainly because I don't quite know who else to vent to.

Well, it all started this past Saturday, I woke up not quite feeling up to par. My stomach was queasy and I just figured it was from eating dinner so late the night before. That night, I had a horrible sleep (very little to none, actually). I got up early and started to road trip back to Pennsylvania from Massachusetts with my Daddy. Well, my stomach felt the same as it did the day before, and before I knew it, I was yurking out my car window on the side of the MassPike and again in Connecticut.

I tend to be a nervous traveler (when flying), but this was just disappointing, because I LOVE car rides. I think it's just the anticipation of everything starting to creep up on me and not giving my mind a rest. Going home and spending time with my mother (not my most favorite thing in the world), bridal shower (that only 2 people have RSVPed yes for), my other MOH hasn't even begun planning our other shower which is supposed to be next month, the wedding being a little bit over 2 months away, thinking about what and where I'll be in the next year or so...it's all very overwhelming.

So now I'm home in PA and I still have the jitters. I don't know why, but I cannot shake it. I've woken up these past couple mornings stricken with panic, increased heart rate and nervous stomach. My Mommy keeps
yelling at me to stop my worrying, but it's not that easy for some reason. I've never been a big worry-wart in the past, but I do tend to get myself all worked up in anticipation to something that is exciting (like Christmas, my birthday) and now I guess the wedding...

I just really want to be cured of this feeling. If I feel like this now, I can only imagine what I'll feel like on our wedding day.

Can I get meds for this?

So in the midst of trying to calm myself, my Mommy has been trying to pick and plan some recipes for the shower, which makes me just want to yurk some more.

Food doesn't even sound appealing. So, in an attempt to shush her up, I gave her my requests for what I wanted. She doesn't understand why I want to have Disney themed food. She's hellbent on making some sort of bundt-cake, when all I really think we need are cookies. (I mean
come on, there's not many people coming...).
So, that's where I am right now. I'd just really appreciate if you all could send me some good vibes, prayers, inspirational words that'll help me CALM DOWN. I really don't want to be wound up anymore...in the end it'll just take a toll on me physically.