Cruise's (Chris) Accountability/Sap Journal :) (comments welcome)

[rcyannacci]

Off to the Mall with you, girl!!! Seriously, I'm feeling some of this too. I'm going to have to get some new pants to teach in for the fall, and for the past few years shopping has been such a frustration. Plus, you hate the thought of buying something that you may be throwing out again when you lose more. But, try to have fun with it. Last time I went shopping, I actually did have fun because I was buying a new size and could really tell a difference.

Hope you have a great day!

 

[Lesli54]

Still trying to catch up, but saw your post on the clothing issue. This is how I look at it and it really helps (wish I had done it years ago). The new clothing in smaller sizes is an investment in you and your future. Sure you may not fit into them a few months after you buy them, but it doesn't matter, you are worth it. You just buy some key pieces that you need that will help get you by until you can buy that AWESOME wardrobe at the end of your journey.

Before, I would hang on to the "too bigs" and keep telling myself that it just costs too much to get new clothes that I won't wear forever. The problem, the "too bigs" become too comfy again and later you find yourself back at the beginning of your weight problems. Now, I get the "too bigs" out of my house right away and I work with what I have left, buy a few pieces to stretch out what is in my closet and move on. It is working and I feel better about shopping all the time. It is great to try on so many clothes that actually fit, even if I don't buy them.

Also, it is a big boost in confidence when you see yourself in better fitting clothes. Definitely worth the investment.

Hope your day gets better!

 

[lovinaz]

Think of your clothes dilemma as a GOOD problem! Maybe you can compromise - get a couple pairs of pants altered so they don't bag too much and get a couple new pairs. Would that be a little more cost-effective?

Definitely see the Dr about your knees. There might be some exercises he can give you to help strengthen them.

You are doing great, I admire your willpower to steer clear of the desserts at your retreat!

 

[goldcupmom]

You're doing AWESOME Chris!

Now, about the clothes......GO TO THE MALL!!!

Or, if you are like me, go to the Thrift Store. I find it much more fun, and I can buy 20 pairs of good brand pants for the price I'd pay for one decent pair at the mall.

Have a great day!

 

[Jane E.]

Congrats on the loose clothes! Do you have any discount stores? When I lost weight a few years back, I went to Ross quite a bit and was able to find shorts, jeans, shirts for under $15. Also went to dept stores during clearance times & was able to snag a pair of jeans for $12.99 at Saks. I've also found some great buys in casual clothes recently at Wal Mart. Great job!

 

[Cruise04]

8/16/05 #2

Thanks again everyone. I have a correction to make - calorieking had that Hunt's fat free pudding (tapioca) at 0 carbs unless I read it wrong but on the package it does say for the tapioca 19 carbs. Actually it didn't have it listed as zero it had it as - and I took that for no carbs. My mistake and I apologize. Did want to clear that up.

Now to today - I am going to go to Jazzercise tonight - worked some things around to be able to do that - dd has to babysit otherwise she would go too. She's doing okay this week, not writing down well but doing okay - she's still losing.

Here's what I've had today so far and I know, kind of, what I'm having for dinner:

breakfast very berry fruit and oatmeal bar

snack almond joy

lunch 3 chicken strips - KFC
1 small cole slaw

snack Hunts fat free choco pudding

dinner 3 ounces ham
4 ounces potatoes

And what my totals will be after dinner:
1136 cals, 46.7 fat grams, 129.2 carbs

I had a weak moment today because I was angry at my boss and work, I was upset because I hadn't been able to drink my water today because of not being able to get out of my office for more than 2 minutes, and because of various other reasons. I so wanted to go to McD's and get a quarter pounder with cheese and large fries and a shake - oh you don't know how bad I wanted that. But instead I went to KFC and got the crispy strips and cole slaw. Hurt my fat grams but I am going to go workout tonight. I'm just so angry and upset and hurt with her right now - yes, this is the same woman I felt so bad for on Thursday night. But this is just how she is. UGH

Okay - off of the rant. Probably not going to be able to get back on tonight. Everyone have a good night - thank you everyone. I do love you all for being my support!!!!!

Keep on
Chris

 

[Blueeyes101817]

today is over--so dont worry about it--have a great day tomorrow!!

 

[Mykelogan]

Hi Chris!!

Sorry that today had some bumps in the road for you!! I hope that tomorrow brings only smooth sailing!

Mike

 

[Cruise04]

I added 1/2 a cupcake and a bag of 94% fat free popcorn. Totals are still good - cals now 1364.5, fats 56.8, carbs 161.55 - but the cupcake obviously raised my fat grams a bit. Oh well - I worked out really hard tonight and I could really feel it too. Working out again tomorrow night and Thursday if I can. We'll see. Now on top of work stress I have carpool issues for school - one day something will go my way. This is generally the week that everything falls apart and then picks up a few days later....

Talk to you all tomorrow - hopefully!!!!!
Chris

 

[KimRaye]

Dear, Dear Chris, roomie, December99 , you can't dwell on the clothes. Buy what you need when you need it (Lots of Great tips here too) and buy it all on sale! Not to be a downer, but as we put the weight on, we didn't think about the clothing expenses, so why do it now? Yes, I've spent more on clothes for myself in the past 1-1/2 years but it was ALL for the positive!!! And I'll tell you that buying 8s or 10s feels a heckuva lot better than buying 20s or 22s!!! And, if you have a resale/consignment store anywhere around, you can always leave your Big clothes with them and make some money back!

Concentrate on the Positive - You're losing weight and exercising and feeling better! Onward and Downward!! I'm really proud of you!

 

[honeymo78]

Chris, I understand your clothing dilema but I say just go ahead and get some new stuff. You'll feel great once you're in the new clothes. You don't have to get a whole new wardrobe but certainly a few new pieces will really help out. And you can always take them to a consignment shop or goodwill once they become too big. You really shouldn't hide all the progress you've made behind some clothes that are too big.

Have a great day

 

[rcyannacci]

This must be a busy time for everyone! Good luck getting through the week! At least today is hump day, right?

 

[lajones81]

I hope you have a great day!

 

[crusin'minnie]

Chris and Jane are right. Shop the thrift and discount stores and get rid of those baggy clothes.

Hope tomorrow is brighter! Keep up the good work.

 

[eeyore25]

Hello!!!! I agree go get some new clothes....then when they get too big, donate them! Don't hide.

You are doing great, show it off girl!!!

 

[daisy_77]

You are doing great!! Go and get yourself some new clothes! You deserve it! Have a wonderful day!!

 

[Cruise04]

8/17/05

Good evening everyone. Today was another one of those days. I've got about 2 more weeks of this quick pace and then it will slow down - I HOPE!!!!! I realized at 4:45, when I late leaving work, that I hadn't gone to the bathroom since 1:30 and I had drank the last 1/2 plus of my 40 ounces of water. I'm gonna pay for this during the night tonight - I just know it!!!!! But that's how busy my day was. I decided not to go workout tonight. I am just feeling blah. I knew this would happen eventually - I was doing too good. I have got to kick start this back in shape. I've been upset with my boss regarding a question I asked about coming in late on one Friday a month so I can go workout in the morning and she said she'd have to think about it. Well later I found out she emailed another staff member and asked what she thought - should she let me. That really honked me off. It wasn't like I was asking for every Friday - one Friday a month. Oh well....I just need to get over it but I'm having a very hard time.

Well today didn't go awesome but not bad either. I got home, was very tired, had planned on going to workout and then get Subway for dinner and instead opted to not workout and went and got KFC instead. I'm not getting on the scale tomorrow. TOM is on it's way next week and I think that might be part of my blah. I hope not. Anyway - here's what I had today...

breakfast very berry fruit and oatmeal bar
fat free yogurt

lunch ham sandwich
3 pickle slices
1 tomato
1/2 cup cottage cheese
1/2 cupcake

snack fat free yogurt

dinner 1 original recipe breast, no skin/breading
1 small order cole slaw
1 order green beans

My totals are:
1092.5 calories, 29.4 fat grams, 136.85 carbs

Not bad, I know but I'm just not feeling like it's great. I'm sure I'll retain some water due to the salt too. We'll see. I'll probably have something small for a snack tonight, like some fat free pudding or something without fat but I'm not going much higher. I also believe that the approaching date of my mom's death is really getting me this year. Last year I was fine. The year before I was okay. This year it's really hitting me for some reason and I just don't know why. I started feeling down about a month ago and everytime I think about it I cry. I can't wait for this week and next to get over (my aunt died a year and a week after my mom and she was like a 2nd mom to me - my dad's sister).

Hope everyone had a good day and I'm gonna go try to read some journals - that I've been trying to get to for the last week or so UGH I'm really sorry about this. Thanks for the support!!!

Keep on
Chris

 

[pearlieq]

Hi!

Sorry it's taken me so long to catch up with you...

First off, I want to send for you during this difficult season. It sounds like you're dealing with it well, though, by recognizing it and letting your emotions out.

It sounds like you're keeping up with the work craziness the best you can. Enjoy the midnight potty runs! I don't think I've slept a full night through in months!

There was something I wanted to bring up, and I really hope you're not offended, and I'm most certainly not a dietician, but do you think you're getting enough calories? The only reason I ask is that I see you skirting around in the 1100-1300 calorie range and that seems kind of low, especially with your exercise habits. I definitely don't claim to know anything about how your body works and what it needs--I was just worried that you might wind up slowing your metabolism down or wind up restricting yourself so much that one day you just snap and spend 4 hours at McD's! Again, I'm certainly not qualified to make any kind of recommendation or anything, it was just something I noticed and wondered about.

I hope you have a great night!!!

 

[toystoryduo]

Oh Chris,

I'm sending a gentle your way today. It sounds like you are dealing with a lot right now. Please know that your WISH friends are here for you. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Take good care of you, Chris.

 

[honeymo78]

Chris - lots of your way. I know you'll make it

It really is funny to us eating similar and losing/gaining similar. I love having a friend doing the same as me