Cruise's (Chris) Accountability/Sap Journal :) (comments welcome)

[Cruise04]

8/14/05 #1

Good morning everyone. Just a quick bit of time to touch in before heading off to church and the miriade of stuff to get done today. I didn't get on the scale today - I woke up very bloated and knew I had gained then and I didn't want that disappointment after the bad week I had emotionally. I don't need the scale today anyway. It's a start to a new week!!!!

I did tell dd last night that I'm done with the cupcakes. I've had a total of one and now she can have the rest. So hopefully they'll be gone by tomorrow. Started out this morning on a good foot - two pieces of toast with 1 TBSP PB and a fat free yogurt. I think my hunger went away during the night. Yesterday morning at this time I was starving again and wanted something else. Right now I'm still full and fine. I think it had to have been because of my metabolism having kicked in with all the stress and it burned more than I consumed - that does happen to me once in awhile.

Everyone have a good day - I'll be back tonight to catch up on journals. Off to church, get school supplies (one more week and I'll be the mother of a sophomore in high school), go to the Habitat office and do a little bit of work and then come home and finish laundry, cut up fruit for the week, and then hopefully come back here and relax. See you soon!!!

Keep on
Chris

 

[Mykelogan]

Great job telling those cupcakes who is boss Chris!!!

I hope that you were able to get everything done you had planned for today!!

Have a great night!
Mike

 

[calena]

I'm actually wearing a habitat t-shirt right now! My mom gave it to me. Sending some hugs your way. I know what it feels like to avoid the scale! As you said, Monday is a new day and a new week. I also find my weight varies day to day a bit, so when I am down a lb or a bit I usually wait until it shows up at least twice to "count" it. Probably tommorrow the scale will be back where you want it. I also find if I feel bloated I really top up the water and that helps. You are ahead of me with weight loss too... almost 20 lbs! Good going!
Seeing the in-laws 2-3 times a year sounds great. I see them 2-3 times a week! I wish I could avoid my in-laws more. Just the whole clan. They are nice but too much is too much and there have been a lot of family problems/junk in the past year and I just get too worked up about it all. Plus, it is not "my" family so you can't just shout at them like you would like at times! Just kidding - sort of!

 

[Cruise04]

ROFL Calena - trust me - I know what you mean!!!!!!

Hello for the end of the day. Not a bad day - got pretty much everything done I wanted to except I finally told my dh that he needed to finish the laundry because I hadn't had any relax time for me this weekend and I was going down to my computer to get online!!!!!

Here's what I had today:
breakfast 2 pcs toast
1 TBSP PB
fat free yogurt

lunch oven roasted chicken sub on wheat
1 ounce lay's fat free chips

dinner 6 ounces steak
8 ounces potatoes
2 corn
4 TBSP Brummel and Brown spread

I think I'm figuring high on the margarine but I'd rather thing high than low. My totals are:
1834.6 cals, 79.4 fat grams, 195.9 carbs, 19.5 grams of fiber (probably a little more but I didn't write them all down).

So I bombed a bit today. And I'm feeling it right now - I'm very full. Shouldn't have had the second ear of corn and shouldn't have had all that margarine (should have used the spray butter for the potatoes). And I think I'm a bit high on the potatoes but since I didn't weigh them this is what I'm marking them.

Oh well - on to another day tomorrow and a new week as I said earlier. But haven't had any snacks today or anything like that. No cupcakes. I'll do much better tomorrow (probably) because I'm not going to have as much access to food tomorrow as we are having a staff retreat outside of the office and it will be harder for me to eat much. And lunch is going to be interesting - UGH - and probably icky to me - my boss came up with the idea of everyone bringing a dish to represent their heritage or ethnicity. I'm bringing ham because all my life my dad has worked at a meat packing plant so it represents my life. I am partially Lithuanian but the ethnic dish I grew up with has to be cooked and served right out of the oven to have the best flavor and I hate the dish (plus no oven available) so there was no way I could bring that. I will bring the recipe with me though. But I'm a very picky eater and I KNOW there will be foods there that I won't be able to tolerate. So ham will be good!!!!!

On to check journals - finally. See you all later.

Keep on
Chris

 

[lulu201]

Hi, Chris. You've lost 19 lbs. so far? That's amazing! Congratulations on walking the walk! Good luck at the retreat today; hope you find something to eat!

Erin

 

[Twinkles6892]

19 lbs?!?! wow, that's amazing! Keep on going, you'll be there in no time!

 

[lajones81]

Chris!

Thanks for the kind words! LOL! I'm excited to finally see some pounds dropping! I feel lighter in my clothes, but it's nice to see those pounds go away, too!

Keep up the great work!

 

[keenercam]

Chris -- You are doing such an awesome job! I am so happy for you that you are seeing the results on the scale that you have worked so hard to achieve!

Have a great week, sweetie!

 

[lovinaz]

I hope you were able to find some acceptable things to eat at your retreat! At least you will have your ham...

You are only 1 lb away from your 20 lb clippie! That is so cool, good for you!

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Chris,

How did your retreat go?

You are doing a great job!

keep up the good work. 19 pounds gone....Great job!

 

[Cruise04]

8/15/05 #1

Hello everyone!!!! Got back from our portion of the retreat and it was okay. We do these getting to know you activities with the new staff and then we had a clinical update on our services and how many students we served last year (basically our annual report), etc. and then lunch. Let me tell you - thank goodness I brought the ham because there was just too much weird stuff. I had two slices of ham (about 2 ounces), 9 grapes, 1 mexican chip (someone is mexican and they weren't that great), and 1/8th of 1/8th of a scoop of potato salad (because I wasn't sure what was in it). AFTER we all got our food then we went around the table to tell what it represented or why we brought it. I still wouldn't have eaten any of the other stuff. Oh and I had 1 slice (about 1/2 ounce) of french bread.

They had LOADS of desserts but I'm happy to report I didn't eat any of it. I came back and had my cup of cantaloupe. I drank 32 ounces of water out there (we were at a local forest preserve and the weather was absolutely awesome!!!!) and had my fat free yogurt and an apple crisp fruit and oatmeal bar. So now my tummy is happy because it wasn't very happy at lunch. And there's enough ham leftover for dinner tonight.

I got on the scale today and it said I was up 1.5 pounds. I'm not changing any of my things right now because I know it will be back to 19 tomorrow. It was a lot of water weight and I know that because of the amount of times I went to the restroom after I drank my 32 ounces of water. It was kind of funny - my boss asked if I was sick (within 45 minutes I went 3 times) and I told her no, this was me now and just something that happens when I drink water. She rolled her eyes because she'll know that I am not going to be able to sit in a meeting without at least 1 or 2 bathroom runs. It was funny. Oh well!!! Now I have 30 more ounces here to drink and I know I will because I'm really thirsty. So I'll be down again tomorrow because of the water increase again.

I did put on some shorts that I hadn't worn since the last time we were out at this forest preserve for a retreat and that was August 2001. At the beginning of the summer I wanted to wear them but I could only get them up and buttoned - I could not get them zipped and now they are zipped, buttoned, and falling down!!!!!!! I was so excited!!!! That was the last time that I had tried to lose a lot of weight. I was about as big as I was 6 weeks ago, but maybe about 5 pounds less (so about 14 pounds heavier than I am now). At that time I had lost 25 pounds and then gained it all plus back. Not this time baby!!!!!!!!

Didn't get to all of the journals last night so I'll time to do some more today since everyone is gone. Have a few calls to make and then I'll have some time.

Talk to you all later!!!!
Keep on
Chris

 

[honeymo78]

Chris - great job eating at the retreat today, you should be very proud I can't wait til you see 20lbs gone. It will be quite a celebration!

That's awesome that your shorts not only fit but were falling down

Your dinner last night sounded very similar to mine, but I ended up overeating while you stayed on track. Good job

 

[keenercam]

Chris -- Wow! You were so disciplined at your retreat! That is truly impressive! And congrats on the "big shorts"! I bet that felt great! Keep up the great work! (Oh, and don't be surprised if your weight is up a little tomorrow if the ham is salty, especially if you have some for dinner.)

 

[Mykelogan]

Hi Chris!!

Great job on how you handled the retreat food!!! And I really admire you getting your water in, that is one of my big challenges lately! I get so busy I forget I have the water with me.

Keep up the great work!!!
Mike

 

[lillygator]

Hi Chris - what a great job! Good for you not indulging in those desserts...and YEAH on the big shorts!! That is awesome!

 

[Cruise04]

Thanks guys - here's what I did for today:

breakfast apple crisp fruit and oatmeal bar
fat free yogurt

lunch 3 ounces ham
1/8th of 1/8th cup of potato salad
1 chip
9 grapes

snack 1 cup cantaloupe
9 carrots
2 celery
2 TBSP dip
Hunt's Fat Free Tapioca pudding cup

dinner 5 ounces ham
1/2 c mashed potatoes
1 cup green beans

snack fat free frozen yogurt w/cool whip
light cool whip - 2 TBSP

And my totals are:
1218 cals, 23.8 fat grams, 168.7 carbs

I finally found something that will boost my calories but not my fats and carbs - the Hunt's Fat Free Pudding cups!!!!!!! It gave me 80 more calories but didn't raise the other items. I found myself not hitting over 900 again tonight so I'll have fat free frozen yogurt as soon as I get off of here. I went to Jazzercise tonight and I think I need to go back to my doc - I'm noticing some problems with my knees trying to buckle. When I feel it being a problem when I'm working out I slow it down or go a bit lower impact. But when I'm going downstairs I have almost fallen because I wasn't hanging onto the rail. UGH - I'm a big chicken that he's going to say stop doing Jazzercise and if I do then I won't make it because all exercise use my knees at some point where this is a problem. I'm not going to think too much about it and see how they are after next week as I have a little lighter week next week. I don't think I'm going to make my August exercise challenge but that's okay since I've been still losing. We'll see. Got a lot of minutes to go and not many more weeks!!!!

Everyone have a good night. Boss is gone tomorrow so hopefully I can finally get caught up on journals!!!!! I hate being behind in them.

Keep on
Chris

 

[plutosmyfav]

Hi Chris,

Hunts FF pudding doesn't have carbs? Cool! Your food looks great! Good job!

Definitely listen to your dr. I would recommend slowly adding weightlifting to increase the muscle strength around your knee. Ask if doc agrees. I've had that buckle thing and the stairs scare before, its not fun! Good luck with it.

Sunny

 

[J4Dis]

Hi! Sounds like you're off to a good start this week. Congrats on getting into the shorts and having them be big! That's awesome. Sounds like you managed the retreat very well. Keep up the good work!

 

[kardiebelle]

Keep up the great work Chris. You seem that you are really looking at everything in your food. Great work. Have a wonderful weight loss day. Kardiebelle

 

[Cruise04]

8/16/05 #1

Thanks for the advice - we do strenght training in Jazzercise and starting September 1 they are doing it one day a week - an hour of it that I'm going to start going to when I can (it's on Thursday nights and those are the worse nights for me). So we'll see what happens.

Got on the scale again this morning and it said that from the 19 pounds I lost I have now gained .5 so I'm going to be true to myself and I changed my August challenge amount and my ticker. So the ham yesterday didn't bother me that bad. It was a lower salt ham but usually it still does something to me. I was happy because I just felt icky this morning anyway.

Today has not started off good, got into work before I needed to so that I could sit and write out my bills to go mail at lunch and everyone was on me like flies on fly paper as the computers were not coming up. I hate mornings like that. I'm now 1.5 hours behind in my schedule of what I wanted to and needed to get done - including payroll. Oh well, I'll catch up but that now means I won't be doing many journals today. Sorry guys - I really do feel bad.

Haven't eaten yet, haven't had any time. About to do that soon because I'm starting to get hungry. People are pretty much situated at least for the next 2 hours so I should be good!!!! But, SHOULD is the key word here!!!!

I do think I'm going to need to make some decisions about clothing here soon - either get my butt down to the lady that does my hemming (all my stuff has to be hemmed because I'm so short and she is awesome) or break down and buy some new pants. They are starting to sag just too much than what I'm comfortable with in the butt and leg area. This is the part about losing weight that I hate because I don't like sinking a lot of money into clothes. That's what has held me back the last 4 years - I just couldn't afford it. Now I'm more comfortable in what I can afford and can. I'm just afraid to do it and I don't know why. I guess I'm afraid of looking better - I don't know what it is because I WANT to look better and feel better. It's just weird - I know.

Okay - off to do some more stuff. Everyone have a good day!!!!!

Keep on
Chris