Child-free, but not by choice?

[hematite153]

I'm sorry that you had such a bad scare and I'm glad it came out okay. I'll keep thinking and praying for you and your baby for the next two months.

 

[want2bamommy]

Hi everyone,
Just thought I would give you an update, we had a little scare on Sat night. I started to bleed at around 8pm, called the doctors office and left a message with the answering service. The doctor called me back and told me to go to the hospital so they could check me out. Luckily, everything was fine, they said it was old blood that I was bleeding, they think from my cervix which they said can be sensitive during pregnancy. The baby is fine, AND, the doctor did an ultrasound and thinks it's a boy, pretty sure he saw a scrotum sac. I just hope everything keeps going ok. The doctor says I need to make it to at least another 7.5 more weeks for it to be a viable pregnancy. So please keep your fingers crossed, sticky vibes coming and any prayers you can offer. Thanks so much for being there for me ladies, I really appreciate it!

Sending all the prayers, hugs and sticky vibes I can muster for you!!! Thank you for keeping us updated!

Missie

 

[R Dog Walt]

Mickey'sMainMami-

I'm so sorry you had a scare. I'm so glad that everything is alright! You're in my thoughts and prayers!

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

Hi everybody, just checking in, got back Sunday afternoon form my trip to Destin, it was beautiful down there and the weather was cooperative. The Sandestin Golf and Beach Resort, where we stayed is just out of this world. I did feel a little out of place, but well worth the money ($140/night for a $300+/night for a 2 bedroom). We had 2 bedrooms, but the first bedroom had a queen bed and pull out sofa, a kitchenette, and bathroom, the living room had a pull out sofa, a "full" kitchen with washer dryer, and bathroom, and the bedroom had a king size bed and a bathroom with his and her sinks and a bathtub, so the three of us were quite comfortable. Oh and each room had its own tv and closets everywhere you turned. We did a little shopping at the outlet and I got a new backpack for WDW from the Disney Character Warehouse.

I was hoping for a wonderful reunion with Dh when I got back on Sunday, but he wasn't even at home, he had gone out with a friend and his friends family, and I only got a half-a**ed hug and a sweatty kiss when he came in. I was not happy. Then he started in on me about looking for a car, granted we haven't even gotten our check from the insurance company yet, and I just cannot take him to go look at cars, he will drive me absolutely crazy. He doesn't want to be reasonable and we really have to right now. This is not a good time to be buying a car, but we don't have one at all. We are getting ready to move which will help our finances a little, but not much and I don't want to go over my budget to get a car and be stuck with huge payments that I know in the beginning I can't afford. DH doesn't make 80 hours a pay period and nothing is guaranteed with him, and finding another job isn't the answer either, I am surprised his job has put up with him this long (long story). I worry everytime the phone rings is will this be the day that he gets fired from yet another job, and although I make what I consider good money, I can't support us both and keep a household going (been there, done that).

I am going to get off my soapbox now, because I forgot where I was even going with this.

Hope everyone is doing well and Mickey'sMainMami, I am so glad you got good news, lots of sticky baby dust for you.

Suzanne

 

[Mickey'sMainMami]

Thank you all for your warm thoughts, prayers and sticky vibes!! They are much appreciated. My husband has been traveling a lot for business lately, but luckily, the project they are working on is done, so he will be home Friday, and probably won't have to travel again for a year or two. I was really scared, but luckily my Dad was there to help me out, and he is such a calm person, that he really helps to keep me calm, my husband on the other hand is very emotional like me, so I guess I was lucky that it happened when he wasn't home. Anyway, Princess Suzanne, so sorry to hear everything you are going through with your finances and husband. I had an ex boyfriend that I dated for six years, and he too could never hold a job. We were struggling to get by just to pay our expenses, and just when I thought we were getting above water, there he would go and get fired or quit. He had a high school diploma, but no special skills, and no type of responsibility. I was so in love with him though, but he cheated on me in the end, which I guess was the best thing that ever happened to me, because I would probably still have been with him. Although, him and I had a lot more issues than just him not being responsible, so I don't want you to think I am comparing him to your husband, just I know how frustrating it can be when you don't have 2 steady paychecks coming in. Nowadays, you definately need 2 incomes to live on. If you need to talk, or vent, feel free to PM me, I have been through a lot in my life and maybe could just be a listening ear, sometimes, it just feels good to get everything off your chest. I hope things start looking up for you.

 

[hematite153]

I'm bleeding....

Just thought you'd want to know.

 

[R Dog Walt]

Bummer, Hematite! So sorry!

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

I'm bleeding....

Just thought you'd want to know.

Suzanne

 

[want2bamommy]

I'm bleeding....

Just thought you'd want to know.

I am really sorry!!!!!


Missie

 

[want2bamommy]

AF started for me Tuesday and I am soooo happy about it!! This is the last cycle for me before DH comes home!!! I expect that AF will start for me again on June 10th and DH should be coming home right before or after AF. I "should" ovulate on or around June 30th/July 1st and we will be on a road trip at that time. We'll be staying at hotels in Chicago, Milwaukee, and Indianapolis and will hope to catch the eggie on the road!!

After 16 months of not being able to TTC (which was very, very hard for me to accept) I am really looking forward to giving it a try again. I have an appt. coming up soon to see a different gyno and am hoping to start Clomid for a few cycles. If that doesn't work our intention is to go to the RE which is an hour from here and undergo IUI. Our insurance won't cover anything so we'll have to pay out of pocket but I'll do anything I can to get pregnant.

Thanks for listening! I am nervous, anxious, excited, happy and terrified all at once now that DH is coming home again. Of course I am thrilled to have him home again but at the same time I am already feeling a LOT of pressure to get pregnant.

Missie

 

[want2bamommy]

I know that today is a hard day for me being Mother's Day since the only thing I've ever wanted out of life was to become a Mother. I thought I'd send out a big group hug to everyone in case you are having a difficult day too.

I wish I could say that I was doing something fun today but I am sitting in the house alone (well the dog is here) watching baseball. It is a gorgeous day out too.

I hope everyone is doing well.

Missie

 

[DznyLvr2005]

Well as if it couldn't be any worse.... anything can be worse....
Let me tell you... ON friday monrning I woke up with a horrible pain under my left arm... I feel around over there and whatdayaknow? There's a lump under my left arm... yes...Does GOD want to throw anything else at me right now?????
So I go to the MD on Saturday and she "thinks" it's an infected lymph node and puts me on antibiotics.. but she also tells me that I have to see a breast surgeon immediately.
OK so now I'm officially scared to death.. Screw being pregnant again, I could be dying!!!!! UGHHHH!!!!
PLus on Thursday afternoon my cucuckoo gyno calls and tells me that my blood hormone tests came back...Well my prolactin is 48.. It should be under 20.... So there's ANOTHER thing I have to worry about. Now, don't get me wrong, I always knew my prolactin was high ever since I had irregular periods at 15.. But my periods have been normal for YEARS... He tells me that with high prolactin, you're not even supposed to be able to get pregnant... Obviosuly, that's not a problem, it's staying pregnant that's the problem. She he asks me "Do you have a neurologist?" I say "excuse me?, you mean an ENDOCRONOLOGIST?" ANd the says, yes endocronologist... what a quacky man... It's defiantly time to find a new MD.... So I made an appointment with a REPORDUCTIVE Endo. July 11th. I'm hoping that my miscarriages are not caused by high prolactin and I need to know what to do about it. I was on meds for it a few years ago, but the MD told me to stop taking it if I'm trying to get pregnant. One possible reason for high prolactin is a pitutary tumor (benign) but I don't think that's the case since I had an MRI a few years ago to test for it, and there was nothing there... WISH ME LUCK PLEASE, I'm so scared about the lump under my arm....

 

[DznyLvr2005]

Oh I have to add.... my progesterone was 10!!! I think that's normal for the 2nd half of a cycle.. right???

 

[hematite153]

to want2bamommy and DznyLvr and others for whom this is a tough day.

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

I know that today is a hard day for me being Mother's Day since the only thing I've ever wanted out of life was to become a Mother. I thought I'd send out a big group hug to everyone in case you are having a difficult day too.

I wish I could say that I was doing something fun today but I am sitting in the house alone (well the dog is here) watching baseball. It is a gorgeous day out too.

I hope everyone is doing well.

Missie

Hi Missie,

Late for Mother's Day, but I just have a feeling you will be celebrating your first Mother's day next year. I know you must be getting excited for DH to come home.

Now I want to know who was watching baseball, you or the dog , or both (my cat watches E Vets on Animal Planet).

for all of us.

Suzanne

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

Well as if it couldn't be any worse.... anything can be worse....
Let me tell you... ON friday monrning I woke up with a horrible pain under my left arm... I feel around over there and whatdayaknow? There's a lump under my left arm... yes...Does GOD want to throw anything else at me right now?????
So I go to the MD on Saturday and she "thinks" it's an infected lymph node and puts me on antibiotics.. but she also tells me that I have to see a breast surgeon immediately.
OK so now I'm officially scared to death.. Screw being pregnant again, I could be dying!!!!! UGHHHH!!!!
PLus on Thursday afternoon my cucuckoo gyno calls and tells me that my blood hormone tests came back...Well my prolactin is 48.. It should be under 20.... So there's ANOTHER thing I have to worry about. Now, don't get me wrong, I always knew my prolactin was high ever since I had irregular periods at 15.. But my periods have been normal for YEARS... He tells me that with high prolactin, you're not even supposed to be able to get pregnant... Obviosuly, that's not a problem, it's staying pregnant that's the problem. She he asks me "Do you have a neurologist?" I say "excuse me?, you mean an ENDOCRONOLOGIST?" ANd the says, yes endocronologist... what a quacky man... It's defiantly time to find a new MD.... So I made an appointment with a REPORDUCTIVE Endo. July 11th. I'm hoping that my miscarriages are not caused by high prolactin and I need to know what to do about it. I was on meds for it a few years ago, but the MD told me to stop taking it if I'm trying to get pregnant. One possible reason for high prolactin is a pitutary tumor (benign) but I don't think that's the case since I had an MRI a few years ago to test for it, and there was nothing there... WISH ME LUCK PLEASE, I'm so scared about the lump under my arm....

Sorry, this is all I can offer right now, because I don't want to say I know how you feel, because I don't, but I certainly want to be supportive. I have a feeling things will work out and be alright. Positive thinking, that is what you need to do and know that we are here to support you through everything.

Suzanne

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

Now to everyone else, Happy Monday (since I know none of us like Mother's Day, except to honor our Mothers).

My week started looking up. I got a new (new to me) car this weekend. It is a 2000 Saturn LS2 . Last Thursday, I got some news that I hope will turn into wonderful news. My mom called me (while watching E Vets and I was crying about them putting a dog to sleep) and said I have to ask you something, so I said what hoping she didn't hear me crying, she says how would you like to take 2 babies, WTH, sure, that was a dumb question. She said I answered for you, but then I thought I better call you and make sure, BUT don't get your hopes up. Well, I don't know anything yet for sure, but my 16 y.o cousin's stepmother has a neice that is like 20, but mentally 12 and has a 14 month old and a 2 to 2.5 month old, she has electricity, but no water and no phone. A relative took my (I'll call her my aunt, but she isn't really) to the girls apartment and the girl has only one bottle (which after a thorough scrubbing was still dirty), no toys, and I don't think much of anything else, the car seats she has are probably 20 years old and filthy, I don't know if she has a car, but probably not. She didn't report the new baby to the welfare/medicaid office, because their daddy would have to pay alot of money back after he gets out of jail and she doesn't want that to happen. He was taking care of them, until he decided to hit someone with a baseball bat, so that got them kicked out of the projects they were in and he was incarcerated. My "aunt" called the local DHR the next day and talked to someone who gave her the phone number for DHR in the girls area and she has been trying to contact them to report what is going on with the girl. She hasn't been able to get through to them, so her father went to the county office where the girl lives and was going to talk to someone there. The girl's mother never taught her anything, not even how to take care of herself, then when she got to be 18, her mother kicked her out, then she got preg twice, she moved back in with her mother, but she couldn't stand it, so she kicked her out again and mother's boyfriend took out the phone because the girl was calling her mother too much. The girls mother had her, so she could get welfare, then when she was too ld for her mother to get welfare, she had another baby, so she could continue to get welfare, now mom has a boyfriend that is taking care of her. I just really want these two babies. Both of them are girls and I believe they are bi-racial (I don't care if they are purple monkeys, they don't deserve this). My mom is going to keep on top of things for me and she told my "aunt" that we have everything they would need except for basic daily care items and those can easily be picked up as soon as I know we are getting them. I can't help but get really excited, so I need all of you to send me some lucky vibes that everything works out for me.

I hope I haven't overwhelmed you all. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers, and I will update you as I know things.

Suzanne

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

to want2bamommy and DznyLvr and others for whom this is a tough day.

I didn't forget you

Suzanne

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

to want2bamommy and DznyLvr and others for whom this is a tough day.

I didn't forget you

Suzanne

Sorry a duplicate of previous message

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

I know that today is a hard day for me being Mother's Day since the only thing I've ever wanted out of life was to become a Mother. I thought I'd send out a big group hug to everyone in case you are having a difficult day too.

I wish I could say that I was doing something fun today but I am sitting in the house alone (well the dog is here) watching baseball. It is a gorgeous day out too.

I hope everyone is doing well.

Missie

Hi Missie,

Late for Mother's Day, but I just have a feeling you will be celebrating your first Mother's day next year. I know you must be getting excited for DH to come home.

Now I want to know who was watching baseball, you or the dog , or both (my cat watches E Vets on Animal Planet).

for all of us.

Suzanne