Child-free, but not by choice?

[Mickey'sMainMami]

So far, I am 16 weeks and 2 days. Just got my first shot of progesterone on Saturday, and will have to do that every sat from now on. I really hope this helps. This is the first pregnancy that I havent' had any bleeding or cramping yet, so I am looking at this like a good sign. All the other 4 I had bleeding, then it would stop, then a few weeks later I would have cramping and then some bleeding and then I would lose them. So far, so good, so we are just taking it one day at a time. Princess Suzanne, I wish you luck and the courage to keep going through everything you have gone through. To everyone else, good luck, hang in there, keep thinking positive. I will keep praying for you all. Please keep us informed of your progress!

 

[hematite153]

So far, I am 16 weeks and 2 days. Just got my first shot of progesterone on Saturday, and will have to do that every sat from now on. I really hope this helps. This is the first pregnancy that I havent' had any bleeding or cramping yet, so I am looking at this like a good sign. ...

Sounding good so far! Keep us posted. I am so hoping that this will be the one that lasts.

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

Hi Missie, I was wondering if DH was already home and you were just really busy catching up. I'm not going to get my hopes up for anything to happen, but I'm glad AF didn't wait until next week, b/c I am going to the beach.

Hematite, way to go, baby vibes for you and I know soon sticky baby dust.

stephgles, Lizzybear: Thank you for sharing your stories and come join us.

Mickey'smainmami, good luck with the Progesterone, I understand it is some good sticky stuff (very successful).

Keeping everyone in my thoughts everyday.

Suzanne

 

[R Dog Walt]

Wow. Busy day!

As for my check in, AF showed up last night. I start BCPs on Sunday for my FET cycle with donor embryos (Lupron starts 5/17, transfer 6/14).

We have a trip to WDW planned for 6/1-6/8 (between ultrasound appointments)! Staying at SSR- planning on getting a massage!

Suzanne- Sorry AF just takes her sweet time. Glad she's avoiding the beach for you though.

want2bamommy- Wow! I hope your DH gets home safely soon. I bet you can't wait to see him. We have a Dec./early Jan. trip to WDW planned too. I'm hoping Murphy's law gets me pregnant in June. I'd be thrilled to go pregnant (provided everything's okay) or cancel if it means I'm having a baby!

hematite- Good luck with the IUI! I hope this is your cycle.

Mickey'sMainMami- I'm glad that your pregnancy has been going so well!!! I'm praying that this is definitely THE one! When is your next ultrasound or check up?

Hellooooo to everyone else I missed!

 

[brightspark]

Hi everyone. I too have a WDW trip planned for later this year, and am torn between wanting to go and wanting to be pregnant! LOL what a dilema. We've been promising to take my sis for ages and finally arranged this trip when dh's semen results were so bad! Then they got better, then ICSI seemed nearer (although do we need it if dh's results are better - oh so confusing), now we have been waiting what seems like an eternity for an appointment to see someone at the clinic... It feels rather like we are on a roller coaster ride that keeps speeding up then suddenly slowing down again, whilst spinning us round in circles! I have no idea what is going to happen...

On the other hand, I have this hystosalpingram (I think it's called) next Tuesday... so bit nervous about that. At least my 21 day progesterone results are looking ok.

Have to book Dh in for another SA - lucky him, but hopefully he won't feel so bad about that when he's seen me go through the HSG thing! LOL.

Praying for all of you to get the results you are looking for.

 

[hematite153]

It feels rather like we are on a roller coaster ride that keeps speeding up then suddenly slowing down again, whilst spinning us round in circles! I have no idea what is going to happen...

Yes!

My DW travels for work. When we first started this process she would arrange her meetings around the clinic's schedule. Now, we have learned to plan our life as if we are maintaining the status quo.

It doesn't mean that we have given up hoping, just that we have learned it is better to live, plan and possibly to cancel later than to hold off on living until some nebulous day.

I am amused though by how many of us are planning around wdw trips (and/or planning wdw trips around treatments).

 

[TravelinGal]

I tried to get pregnant for 10 years. How's that for an infertility timeline? (granted, if our insurance had covered infertility treatments we might have had success earlier)

In that time though, we never quit doing Disney. I was actually able to take a vacation from trying to get pg and we always had a lovely time.

I hope you are able to enjoy WDW 100% while there and not focus on infertility and losses. Enjoy all the 'grown up' rides! Check out the night clubs! Because you WILL get pg (one must keep hope!) and one day you won't be able to ride those rides or go to the clubs for many years!

Last May we got to take our DS to WDW for the first time (18 months old). It was really fun! But I'm looking forward to taking him this fall even more since he'll recognize the characters at that point.

I'm very sorry for your losses. I hope you are able to get pg soon and that everything works out well for you.

Wanted to add - I had an IUI on Jan 22 (2004) and had a trip to WDW scheduled for the 27th. I asked the doctor (R.E.) if I had to be careful on any rides (and specifically mentioned M:S and how it was a giant centrifuge) and he said no. Enjoy whatever I wanted to. I still give M:S credit for helping the pregnancy along. I think the centrifuge helped 'snug' DS nice and firm into my lining. So, in all reality, he's been to WDW twice.

 

[brightspark]

Yes!

My DW travels for work. When we first started this process she would arrange her meetings around the clinic's schedule. Now, we have learned to plan our life as if we are maintaining the status quo.

It doesn't mean that we have given up hoping, just that we have learned it is better to live, plan and possibly to cancel later than to hold off on living until some nebulous day.

I am amused though by how many of us are planning around wdw trips (and/or planning wdw trips around treatments).

How long have you been on this old journey? I have a job where people want to book me up to a year in advance to run their kids summer clubs and they book that far in advance because otherwise they won't get anyone... which makes it really difficult to know what to do... been in this limbo for 2 years now...

Planning to go to WDW is like a bright point on an otherwise dodgy horizon... it's something we can actually have control over and will really enjoy if everything else fails. I can't believe that I'm so torn over treatment v WDW... I'm so desperate to have my family, how can our trip to Disney make me slightly uncertain about getting pregnant?

 

[hematite153]

How long have you been on this old journey? I have a job where people want to book me up to a year in advance to run their kids summer clubs and they book that far in advance because otherwise they won't get anyone... which makes it really difficult to know what to do... been in this limbo for 2 years now...

We've been working on this for 3.5 years now. We spent 3 years trying to get my DW pregnant, started working me up about a year ago, and made the decisive switch 6 months ago.

Like R Dog Walt, when we first showed up the people at the clinic all thought we'd be easy. And, in some ways we still are. But, we have no proper explanation for my DW's inability to get pregnant. In my case, I seem to have responded really well to minor drug interventon (along with many side effects) and all of my workup testing looks good even though I've never been regular. (When we started we found it irritating that we were required to do a full IF workup in order to "buy sperm" but we have ended up using ALL of the fertility resources available from the clinic.)

My DW travels 2-4 times a month and sometimes schedules up to a year in advance. I am a teacher and have trouble scheduling around things. I have been on leave this past year but have committed to returning to teaching again starting next Feb. If this IUI is successful, I won't be available in Feb.

I have learned to think of impending pregnancy as a medical condition that might arise and make me unable to complete all of my commitments. Yes, if you have just gotten started, I can see not committing to something new when TTC. But, for those of us on the longer journey, our stats aren't all that different from someone else getting diagnosed with another medical condition during the intervening year.

Yes, they have good reasons for booking you a year early. But, they would understand if you cancelled because of emergency surgery. They will also understand if you cancelled because of a difficult pregnancy. (If you are looking for longterm relationships you may choose to share the story of your TTC difficulties and the unpredictability of success.)

 

[Mickey'sMainMami]

Hi everyone, I just wanted to say how thankful I am to have all of you and have you all praying and wishing and sending pixie baby dust my way! It feels so good to have people to talk to who understand what I am going through. Although, I wish none of us had to be on here, but at least we can be a support for eachother. So far, still everything is going well. I go back for my ultrasound on May 11th, and by then, we might be able to find out what it is if the baby is being cooperative. and, I will get my first cervical scan. So I will let you know if we can tell. I don't care as long as it's healthy, BUT, my mother passed away when I was 17, and a few days before she died we had a beautiful mother daughter talk. My mom asked me if I have a daughter if I would name it after her. She told me she would send a beautiful baby for me down from heaven with a beautiful head of hair, my mom had thin hair, but I got my dad's thick mess. Sometimes I think it has to happen for me because I know she is up there with God talking his ear off about sending me my angel. So anyway, I know that after all of this, I hope I can have just one, I will not push my luck of trying for more, so I do hope it is a healthy baby girl, BUT, if it's a boy, I will be just as happy!! I will keep praying for all of you, hope you have a great weekend.

 

[want2bamommy]

Hi everyone, I just wanted to say how thankful I am to have all of you and have you all praying and wishing and sending pixie baby dust my way! It feels so good to have people to talk to who understand what I am going through. Although, I wish none of us had to be on here, but at least we can be a support for eachother. So far, still everything is going well. I go back for my ultrasound on May 11th, and by then, we might be able to find out what it is if the baby is being cooperative. and, I will get my first cervical scan. So I will let you know if we can tell. I don't care as long as it's healthy, BUT, my mother passed away when I was 17, and a few days before she died we had a beautiful mother daughter talk. My mom asked me if I have a daughter if I would name it after her. She told me she would send a beautiful baby for me down from heaven with a beautiful head of hair, my mom had thin hair, but I got my dad's thick mess. Sometimes I think it has to happen for me because I know she is up there with God talking his ear off about sending me my angel. So anyway, I know that after all of this, I hope I can have just one, I will not push my luck of trying for more, so I do hope it is a healthy baby girl, BUT, if it's a boy, I will be just as happy!! I will keep praying for all of you, hope you have a great weekend.

I hope that the baby will cooperate on May 11th!! A few girlfriends of mine either drank a Mountain Dew or ate a candy bar before the U/S and they claim it made the baby more active and therefore they got the "money shot" lol.

You brought tears to my eyes when wrote about your Mother/Daughter talk!! Is there a male name that is similar to your Mom's name that you could use?

We'll keep sending those sticky vibes for you!!!!



Missie

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

Hi everyone, I just wanted to say how thankful I am to have all of you and have you all praying and wishing and sending pixie baby dust my way! It feels so good to have people to talk to who understand what I am going through. Although, I wish none of us had to be on here, but at least we can be a support for eachother. So far, still everything is going well. I go back for my ultrasound on May 11th, and by then, we might be able to find out what it is if the baby is being cooperative. and, I will get my first cervical scan. So I will let you know if we can tell. I don't care as long as it's healthy, BUT, my mother passed away when I was 17, and a few days before she died we had a beautiful mother daughter talk. My mom asked me if I have a daughter if I would name it after her. She told me she would send a beautiful baby for me down from heaven with a beautiful head of hair, my mom had thin hair, but I got my dad's thick mess. Sometimes I think it has to happen for me because I know she is up there with God talking his ear off about sending me my angel. So anyway, I know that after all of this, I hope I can have just one, I will not push my luck of trying for more, so I do hope it is a healthy baby girl, BUT, if it's a boy, I will be just as happy!! I will keep praying for all of you, hope you have a great weekend.

I'm so glad to "hear" that everything is going well so far, and I know it will continue to. I know your mom will send you that little girl, and everytime you see the twinkle in her eye, you will know it is your mother. I lost my aunt when she was 40 to breast cancer and she left behind a 5 year old daughter, every time I look at her I see my aunt. You have to know that she is talking to God about sending you an angel, because I know that my grandmother is waiting for that special angel to send to me someday. And I know even if you do get a little boy, he will be just as sweet as any little girl. My cousin has a 5 year old son with Autism and you couldn't ask for a sweeter little boy, so they can be just as sweet as a little girl. Secretly, I want a little girl too (if I could ever just get that BFP)

AF is finally almost gone, I was getting kinda weak I lost so much blood (I know TMI, but who else can I share this with). Today, when I thought things were getting better, my DH calls me at work and tells me he had a wreck and totaled our one and only car that we have only had for a year. I don't know what I am going to do. He is okay, only got some minor burns and cuts on his arms from the airbag. I still owe about $700 on it, and we have no extra money for this right now. I, of course, am the one that will have to stress about it, my DH doesn't worry about much, he lets me worry about all the big stuff. I didn't need this right now. We are getting ready to move back into the family home (long story) with my mother and she is going to sell the house that we are in right now. So I went this morning and put a deposit on a storage building because we have to put some of our stuff in storage until my grandmother's estate is settled and my aunt and uncle get what they want out of the house, then we can finish moving in. I have too much on my plate for this to have happened. I am so greatful that he is okay and we have insurance, but it still isn't a good time (when is it ever). And do you know what he says to me while waiting to be seen in the ER, he says I guess we will have to cancel our WDW trip in August because we don't have a car. I told him not to worry about that right now, WTH

I hope everyone else is doing great and I am sending everyone else some pixie dust , because if it weren't for bad luck I'd have no luck at all, you all must be using all the luck right now

Suzanne

 

[R Dog Walt]

AF is finally almost gone, I was getting kinda weak I lost so much blood (I know TMI, but who else can I share this with). Today, when I thought things were getting better, my DH calls me at work and tells me he had a wreck and totaled our one and only car that we have only had for a year. I don't know what I am going to do. He is okay, only got some minor burns and cuts on his arms from the airbag. I still owe about $700 on it, and we have no extra money for this right now. I, of course, am the one that will have to stress about it, my DH doesn't worry about much, he lets me worry about all the big stuff. I didn't need this right now. We are getting ready to move back into the family home (long story) with my mother and she is going to sell the house that we are in right now. So I went this morning and put a deposit on a storage building because we have to put some of our stuff in storage until my grandmother's estate is settled and my aunt and uncle get what they want out of the house, then we can finish moving in. I have too much on my plate for this to have happened. I am so greatful that he is okay and we have insurance, but it still isn't a good time (when is it ever). And do you know what he says to me while waiting to be seen in the ER, he says I guess we will have to cancel our WDW trip in August because we don't have a car. I told him not to worry about that right now, WTH

I hope everyone else is doing great and I am sending everyone else some pixie dust , because if it weren't for bad luck I'd have no luck at all, you all must be using all the luck right now

Suzanne

So sorry, Suzanne! What an awful day! I hope things get better.

 

[brightspark]

Big hugs princessSuzanne sorry things are going so badly for you

I'm a bit stressed have the HSG dye and x-ray thing tomorrow, and we finally got a letter from the IVF clinic telling us what tests we need to have before they will see us. Have to get one of them done on day 1-5 of my cycle, and the letter arrived on day 7. Not much to get annoyed about really, except it just seems that everything is taking so long (haven't we all said that before). So we get the bloods done, then we wait for our dr to get our results and send them to the clinic, then it's another 4-6 week wait for our initial appointment! At least the ball is rolling, but I'm 34 and just keep watching the time disappearing.

Anyway, a little extra for me tomorrow would be appreciated!

Keep smiling (or trying to)!

 

[Mickey'sMainMami]

Princess Suzanne, I am so sorry for everything that you are going through right now! It always seems that when it rains it pours, especially in our family. I just said a prayer for you, and I hope everything turns out ok. My mom died from Breast Cancer on her 40th birthday, so hearing about your Aunt, I can relate. TO ALL THE LADIES ON HERE, don't forget to do your monthly breast exams and get a baseline mammogram, talk to your docotrs. Don't wait until you are 40. My family has no history of bc, but my mom was diagnosed with advanced stage bc at 37, which means that she probably had it way before then, but since they werent' doing mammograms for women with no family history under the age of 40, they missed it.

Want2beamommy, thanks for your wonderful comments. I had thought about changing her name into a boys version, but her name is Wendy, so unless I want to name my son Wendell or something like that, which I don't know if I like it, maybe I will make that his middle name or something. I will figure something out, but thanks for the idea!! Thanks for the sticky vibes and I look forward to keeping you updated!!

 

[R Dog Walt]

brightspark- The HSG won't be that bad. Not that it's particularly comfortable, but... Good luck!

Yes, I understand about "hurry up" and waiting! The world of IF is SOOOOO frustrating! If only things could move faster...

 

[Starr_DJ]

Hello all!
Infertility SUCKS!!!!!!! We have MF infertility and have been TTC for the past 8 years (3 fresh IVF, 1 FET, 2 DIUI's) with no success. DH doesn't get that I would want to go to Disney again, with all the kids there. He didn't get it the first time last summer, but came with me anyways. He had a good time, but I don't know if I'll ever get him to go again. I'm a kindergarten teacher, and a big kid at heart, so I'm obsessed with going, but DH won't let me go alone - he's worried about me going all that way by myself (isn't he sweet!). It would be so nice to have kids to bring with me instead! It's nice to see that there are other crazy people like me - obsessed with Disney, yet going through this miserable stuff.

 

[hematite153]

Hello all....

Sorry I haven't had much time to be online lately but I have been thinking of all of you.

brightspark: I hope the HSG went okay--let us know!

PrincessSuzanne: I'm sorry for everything you've been going through. I keep getting reminded to "hold hope" when I get frustrated with the waiting.

Mickey'sMainMami: I'll be thinking of you especially on the 11th.

RDogWalt: You're starting your donor embryo cycle soon, right? I'll be praying for success.

To anyone that I missed, I'll try to catch you in my next post.

My update: it's been a week since my IUI. I am sick (cold, fever, laryngitis) so it is impossible to get a hint from my basal temperature. I am having trouble waiting. One would think that you'd get used to the waiting, but instead it seems to get worse every time. I did spot briefly 3 days after the IUI which I was warned could be a possible side-effect of the drugs I took (so, if I'm not pregnant this time, I'll take progesterone next time) but it is also, just barely, in range to have been implantation bleeding. So, I'm trying to be patient and think positively.

 

[brightspark]

Hi all,
Just checking in to let you know how my hsg went. R Dog Walt, you are correct it wasn't SO bad... well I can think of other things that would be worse... but I didn't get much cramping afterwards, just walked a bit gingerly for a while. Had cramping and pain at the time, and the nurse couldn't find my cervix! LOL what's that about? Found it eventually, and the x-ray seemed to be normal - we have up to 3 weeks to wait for official results, but the dr said we wouldn't need a lap and dye, so I guess that's fairly conclusive

On another amusing note, when booking dh's next SA, I noticed that there was something odd about the form with it! It had MY name on it! So now we have 2 possible reasons for us not conceiving - 1, I have no cervix; and 2, my sperm count is too low! LOL - What are they thinking about???

Well hope that puts a smile on your faces!

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

Hi everyone, just checking in myself. I think our car is probably a total loss, but haven't gotten official word from the insurance company yet. Somebody reminded me that when it rains it pours and it sure has "rained" on me alot lately. AF is finally completely gone and I am taking Soy Isoflavones this month, it works very much like Clomid, which did nothing for me, except make me mean and I am mean anyway. I go back to my GYN on May 15 for f/u on the Metformin, so we sill see what she has to say.

Hematite153: I will definitely "hold hope". I have been keeping you in my thoughts and just know that you will get your BFP this time. for you.

StarrDJ: I certaily agree with you Infertility SUCKS. My Dh and I have been trying for over 5 years now, we haven't pin pointed what the actual problem is, but we do have some MF. You know I guess I didn't notice the kids much at WDW, my DH was so busy acting like one I didn't notice anybody elses . Planning a WDW trip keeps my mind off my infertility, so I don't know where that puts me.

brightspark: I'm so glad your HSG went well. Mine was almost 3 years ago, so I don't remember much. My RE did mine, so I got most of the results at the time of the test. A few days later, I had to have some other kind of test in his office to look at some growths, which turned out to be benign polyps. I really needed some humor today. Maybe you could do the SA and maybe
your DH has your cervix, so maybe you need to trade back.

I know I missed a couple of you, so hi and I hope you are all haveing a great day.

Suzanne