lisah0711
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Well.....Happy Thanksgiving everyone!
I'm feeling the need to spend a few minutes in positive thought, so I am choosing to start the day by listing some things I am thankful for.
1. DH's intact and normal neurological status.
2. A wonderful medical center within driving distance of home full of super skilled doctors, nurses, and others medical professionals. I'm sure I will continue to meet many more of these wonderful folks in the days ahead.
3. My parents..... I only pray that they know how very much I appreciate all that they are doing. There aren't words enough to say it.
4. All of our family. I know they all wish they were geographically closer to be able to help.... but just knowing they are there, getting their prayers and phone calls etc, is such a great feeling.
5. True friends, both near and far, who walk the walk and not just talk the talk, when it comes to support. Rides for my kids, meals and visits for me and DH, hugs, love, and prayer..... all of these things are more valuable than gold to me right now, and my true friends are providing them.
6. A long holiday weekend. Sure it is tough to deal with this over T.giving, but the fact that I have 5 days to NOT worry about how my kids are going to get back and forth to school and their daily activities is a huge weight off my mind right now.
7. A decent night's sleep. This place was really quiet last night and I was "alone" in this waiting room for the first time. I got about 5 solid hours of sleep, only waking once. That sleep will serve me well today, I'm sure.
6. DH's job. For the time being I have NO worries about our financial status. His paycheck will continue to arrive on schedule. And then, when disability kicks in, we will still be okay. I'm sure you can all understand what an enormous burden that takes from my shoulders.
7. My job. Praise GOD for a flexible job. I called them Sunday and said "you won't see my until at least January. Sorry about that." and it was as easy as that!! Sure, I won't get paid... but that is okay... at least I will still have a job to go back to when I'm ready.
8. Good health insurance. DS expressed a concern to me yesterday about the cost of this whole thing. It was so nice to be able to honestly tell him not to worry about a thing. I'm not sure myself exactly how this will all work with the insurance, but I know we've met our deductible for 2010, so I think our out of pocket will be very minimal.
9. My children.... for the mature, responsible, loving, helpful, wonderful kids they are. Just a hug from them gives me so much strength.
10. Blessings, big and small. No matter how awful this is (and honestly, it is seeming particularly awful this morning), it could have been SO MUCH WORSE. He WILL recover from this and return to his normal self with just a few new exterior battle scars. I fully understand that I could be planning a funeral right now or deciding what brain injury center to send him to... just the fact that I am only waiting for the breathing tube issue to be resolved for now is truly miraculous.
Love to you all on this Thanksgiving day. Enjoy it with your friends and family!............P
Comfort me and make me weepy at the same time... but that's okay.
Funny how silly little things can make or break your day during a time like this. Deb not only brought me DINNER last night, but the fixings for one of my favorite breakfast! I just enjoyed a delightful peanut butter and banana sandwich on a Sandwich Thin. It brought a smile to my face to eat something that tasted like I was home.
But of course... I went downstairs to get coffee... I've had the same coffee at the same deli for days now.... and I finally "earned" a free coffee with my punch card (who knew I'd be here THAT long).... well...they are locked up for the day.... the place that is supposed to be open 24/7 is CLOSED! I stood there like a dejected puppy looking through the glass for a moment. I mean, I can STILL get coffee at the bakery... I won't die from lack of coffee.... but I had my new "routine" disturbed and such and it made me feel like a grumpy toddler! So stupid, I know... but amazing how little it takes to throw me for a loop right now.
Been in to see DH this morning. They tried to reduce the sedation during the night, but he got a bit agitated and started to pull at the breathing tube, so they had to bump it up again. They will try again this morning to reduce the sedation because it is affecting his breathing... the machine needs to bump on to breathe for him more often than they would like.
Most everything else is looking good. No temperature (was starting to go up yesterday), chest sounds clear (new xray this morning... waiting for results), good bowel sounds, no DVT, head incision clean (but WOW... it isn't pretty... saw it this morning).
You know, when he was squeezing my hand in the PACU yesterday and "responding" to my voice, I thought it was nice, but I didn't fully appreciate HOW nice. I would give so much to have him that alert right now and get a hand squeeze and know for sure that he knows I am there.
Sorry to be a downer today ladies.... the weeping has begun in earnest and I'm afraid I won't be able to stem the flow today. I'm so sorry....... ttyl..........P



I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers today.
