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[Amy&Dan]

Well both my kids were home sick today. Ds came down with the same bug last night. They both seemed okay by afternoon, I talked with the school secretary and she said a third of the kids were out sick today but it was a fast hitting, fast leaving bug. I should be fine to go to WW and Curves tomorrow. I am hoping to treadmill later.

I did finally connect with the nurse, she is super nice, we talked for almost a half hour, she gave me great tips. She said I need to exercise my legal authority and get my mom into a gerintologist PDQ. She was familar with mom's current doctor and not impressed as I am not. So I will tackle that very soon too. She also said I need to be more involved (social worker said the same thing) so I am gearing up for that. And since today was my day to be a bit more on top of life and family, I fired off an email to my sister calling her on the carpet for some recent comments she made about my mom and to my mom. And told her she couldn't crash at my house next Friday, I have too much going on for her to just decend on me. She'll probably flip out but I am done taking crap off of her!

Food today so so. I was stressed but stayed in points. No fruits only one veggie. So I am having a fruit plate for dinner. I also am going to go ahead and post treadmill minutes so that I can't back out on myself as once I post it, I feel compelled to honor it!

So, Exercise challenge for the week: 80/180 I am in the mood for a little Viggo Mortensen so I think I'll pop in GI Jane and watch while I walk! Eye candy = 0 Points on Weight Watchers!

I have WW tomorrow, not exactly excited but not dreading it either. Compared to my other issues of the week, how bad can it be? As compared to cleaning up barf in my new car, telling Mom I am exercising my medical POA, what's a little bad news on the scale?

Thanks for reading, off to catch up with you all!

 

[lovinaz]

When my DS was about 7 he threw up all over my new car. We were pulling out of the garage on the way to school. I'd only had it for a couple weeks, I was so upset!!! I told him it was from eating a bunch of junk at his grandma's and he pointed out that most of it was green beans, not cake & ice cream!

Don't fret about your weigh-in, just go and take your lumps. Who knows, you might be surprised!! And eventually you will be able to deal with the special occasions without going overboard. At least that is always what I tell myself...

Good job getting rid of the cake, no sense in having it around if you are going to be the only one eating it!!!

You are doing great with Curves, I'm glad you enjoy it, that makes it easier to stick to!!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Hey Amy, we were posting at the same time, thanks for stopping by!

Yes, dd's barf had a ton of veggies in it from her party so that was one good thing! Being a mom is certainly a hands on job isn't it??

 

[Amy&Dan]

Well I weighed in, I was down .2 Not exactly a stellar loss, but way better than a gain! So I have to say I was pleased.

I took my parents a crock pot roast this morning. They were heading to a funeral yet another friend has died. My mom is really steamed at me because she said she hates this nurse already. Totally reminds me of when my son started preschool and claimed he hated it because they were mean to all the kids! I just laughed at her and said, yep, I went to all sorts of lengths to find the meanest nurse in the state of Colorado. I told her maybe Nancy (nurse) will slip some poisoneus pills into the slots just to spite my mom! She ended up laughing and saying she would love to whip my butt. Go right ahead. So we parted on good terms. I really think she will end up loving this woman and oh by the way if she doesn't too bad!

Came home attempted to update my brother on the latest. He was not in the mood, got another call (guess he can't tell someone he'll have to call him back he's on an important family business call) and I was really pissed. He'll write a check but is unable to deal with the whole enchilada. I was so mad I almost went down and ate cookies (left over from dd's class party, I am saving them, she got sick and never did get one). But I resisted. Not worth the points. I miss having the nice losses on the scale and the only way that is happening again is if I get off the emotional eating train I have been on way too long.

Did Curves today so another 30 minutes on the weekly goal. I am now at: 110/180

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Amy,

I sent you a PM. I hope something in the sites I sent you helps. If not, I am sorry to be a time suck.

CONGRATULATIONS on the loss. You've had one heck of a week, and you handled it really well.

I have a new car story. DD was 21 months. I was driving my new car home from the dealership. I stop at Starbucks for my latte. DD wants up on my shoulders. All of a sudden she starts puking all over my head. Then she had diarrhea down my back. I was mortified. Then, I had to get in my brand new car and drive home. Ahh... Memories.

Have a good one,
Beth

 

[lovinaz]

MIDanceMom, I was absolutely cracking up when I read your post!!!! One of those things that definitely wasn't funny at the time, but makes a good story for everyone else!

Great weigh-in, Amy!!!! See, you always think it's bad, and usually it isn't. And it was great that you recognized you were about to eat something you shouldn't just because you were upset with your brother. I'm glad you resisted those cookies!

You are really doing awesome on your weekly exercise goal!

I hope everyone is back to feeling 100%. Luckily those stomach bugs don't tend to hang around for too long.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thanks so much Amy and Beth. And Beth thank you so much for the links, they are going to be really helpful. I am also forwarding them to my brother. I have only glanced at them but will have more time on the weekend to really dig into them. Thanks so much! I am always amazed at the great support I get here on WISH. And I loved your new car story. Talk about a double whammy!!


Amy, I am really trying to stop and analyze when I am about to overeat. Sometimes I hit it spot on, other times I don't!

I tried posting more last night with my food and also to catch up with all of you, but the boards were down. Now I can't remember except that I did well and stayed within points. So that was good. And time to catch up with my WISH buddies!

Today was super stressful. First visit with the nurse who was wonderful. Tons of paperwork and quetions to fill out and answer. My mom did great during the appointment but then pretty much made mine and stepdad's life a living hell afterwards. She is so angry at losing control which is totally understandable. We had to lock up the medicine bottles, so she only has access to the weekly pill container. This didn't go over too well! It will be much better, so much better and I know she'll adjust in time. Until she does, this will be just the way it is. Stepdad and I talked via phone several times today and are both just determined not to relent. I think it will all be great and feel very relieved. I told him to give her a tranquilizer to settle her down and hopefully they'll have good night's rest.

Food today was okay, I didn't get my fruits or veggies in. I was mostly over at my mom's with the nurse getting it all set up. No fruits or veggies over there, but lots of junk, which I mostly avoided (had a half a cookie) Then I had a ton of errands to do. I came home (I should also mention I got no sleep last night)starved, tired and wrung out and just sat on the couch and grazed for the hour I had left until it was time to pick up the kids. Nothing bad but nothing really good either. I am guestimating I have stayed within points and used 5 flex points. I can live with that.

Tomorrow should be better. I am hoping to make it to Curves but I may go Saturday instead. I have a very messy house which makes me insane and I may just clean in the a.m., then I will be with my mom all afternoon. I need to walk on the treadmill at some point if I don't make Curves.

Thanks for all the support, I am really hoping I can make this a very successful week and see a nice big loss on the scale on Wednesday!

 

[Amy&Dan]

So I took my mom to lunch and we had a great day. She is confused and still miffed about the nurse but I just kept telling her its for her good and she seemed to understand that. Stepdad was in heaven this morning, he said he no longers need to worry about giving her the wrong meds/doseage. I really think the hard part is over with this one. Now onto getting her into a gerintologist that can help manager her Alzheimers better.

I splurged at lunch but am okay with that. Here is my food today:

Breakfast: protein bar: 3

Lunch: 1/2 burger 10, 1/2 order of fries, 5, 1 slice pumpkin pie, 8 2 tbs whipping cream, 3
We Went to Marie Callendars and split an entree with my mom and then had pie. I love pie, and pumpin is the lowest in points and at least I got some beta caroteine with this. It was so good, I didn't finish the last couple of bites, I tried to stop when I was full. I am using Dottie's site and Weight Watchers to guestimate the points (no Marie Callenders listed on either site). But I did use restaurants that have similar items and added two points to be safe.

Dinner: Veggie soup: 2
Total for the day: 31
Water for the day: 100 oz.

Have now used a total of 10 flex points.

Walked: 40 minutes

Exercise weekly goal: 150/180

I am going to Curves tomorrow so that will put me right at goal. I think I am going to add 20 minutes for next week to make it 200 minutes per week. I seem to be making my goal of 180 so I think raising the bar will be a good thing.

Hope everyone has a great weekend! I have 25 flex points left so that should leave me some room to survive the next two days.

 

[lovinaz]

You are doing awesome staying within your points!! And my hat goes off to anyone who can eat just HALF a cookie. The only reason I'd only eat half is if the other half fell down the garbage disposal.

I'm glad the meds situation is getting better for your mom. I'm sure once she realizes it is a new routine she will eventually adjust. Hopefully the links you got will help as well.

I'm off to Germany tonight but I'll try to check in and see how well you are doing! And I think upping your exercise goal is a great idea - it'll force you to get one extra workout in every week!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
You are coping great with your food considering how hectic & stressful life is at the moment!
AND you left some pie!! Now thats what i call will power!!!
good on you for standing up to your sister, sometimes we just have to harden up a little to make those who take us for granted listen & take notice!!!
Take care matey

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Amy,

I think you are doing an amazing job considering all the stress you are under. I'm glad to hear that your mom had a better day. Hopefully, she adjusts soon.

Have a good week,
Beth

 

[Amy&Dan]

Well my food total for Friday went out the window when during volleyball friends asked us to come over afterwards for beer and snacks. I ended up having 4 beers (8 points) and some chips and dip (10 points roughly) and was disgusted with myself. I didn't drink all of that fourth beer and didn't eat that many chips and dip but still... I figured probably a bit high on the points and since I didn't eat my soup that put 2 back on the total. So my flex points stand at something like 26 total with 9 left over. But I am hoping to just not use those.

Satuday was much better, I did go to Curves so I made last week's challenge. I stayed within points on Saturday as far as food goes.


Food today:
Protein bar (3)

For lunch, we had out of town company who insisted on taking us out to eat. Dh and I split an entree and I had ice tea to drink. I had about 6 oz. of smoked turkey (6), small amount of french fries (5)and a salad with dressing on the side (1). I will have all of you know, I didn't eat one piece of the fabulous cheesey corn bread muffins with butter they serve at this place! The guilt from Friday night is still with me. Lunch total: 12

Dinner was a lean cuisine (5)and a skinny cow(2) crackers (3) for a total of: 10

Total for the day: 25 (one point under)

This week's exercise total will be 200 minutes. I didn't exercise today so I will have six days to make this. I should be able to. I know if I would have set last weeks goal higher, I would have made it. Clearly, I am only going to do what I have to and not more!

And one final note. I have told my family we are NOT doing the Disney Dining Plan in December. Dh and the kids love all that food, but I just think its too much. And we have so many expenses coming up with the holidays, ds' birthday and our January trip (which comes right after Christmas) that I cannot see plunking down $1600 to eat. Not even a pig like me can justify that! So I will be calling Disney Dining tomorrow and cancelling all but four full service meals. I feel a tremendous amount of stress gone not having to feel guilty in advance about that spending and the gluttony of eating that much. This next few months is typically the time of year that I get off program and overeat. A trip in the middle of that is just going to make it that amuch harder to stay on program. I need to really plan in advance and omit any obstacles (such as the Dining Plan) ahead of time.

My weight loss goal for the next six weeks is 2 pounds per week average. I really, really, REALLY want my 35 pound star by the time we leave. I have six weigh ins to lose something like 12.6 pounds. We'll see. I am starting to feel like I might get on the wagon again. Friday night was sort of a bummer but I have not strayed since.

Thanks for reading!

Beth: Thanks for the encouragement. I told Amy M. (aka, lovinaz) that my life is clearly not going to decompress anytime soon, so I have just got to handle this stress and lose weight in the process. I see how well you do, and it really motivates me.

Amy: Don't get too excited, the cookie was huge so eating half was not an oscar winning performance I assure you! Good luck in Germany!

Tracey: Sister and I have talked since my email with good results. She has a lot going on but you know what, I do too!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Today was good on the food front. I woke up feeling extremely depressed, it was rainy, it was Monday and I spent too much time at my mom's over the weekend and not enough time with my kids so I had major guilt. I had a strong desire to come home and eat crap and drink hot chocolate but I did not.

I got the kids off to school, ds had a meltdown, he had forgotten a paper at home. I stood firm and told him I wasn't bringing it back to him. I have done that several times lately and he needs to buck up and be more responsible. So he got out of the car looking like he was going to the death chamber. Turns out, the teacher didn't even ask for that assignment to be handed in. Wish I would have known that all day as I felt guilty for not taking it back to him. As soon as he got in the car I asked him, got a blank look and then "oh it was fine, she didn't even ask for it". Whatever!

I did go to Curves, I was not in the mood but I went and was pretty proud of myself. I have been 10 times now and really do enjoy this. I am due for measurements on the 24th, I hope I have lost an inch or two!

Food today:
Breakfast: Oatmeal w/ .5 oz. walnuts and skim milk (5)

Lunch: Lean Cuisine: 4

Snack: Wheat thins (a lot of wheat thins ) 6, fresh salsa (0), applesauce (1)

Dinner: Lasagne, (7), 2 cups salad w/ 2TB dressing (2)

Snack: 1/3 protein bar (1), 1/2 cup skim (1)

Total: 27 (one point over, so now I have 8 flex points left)

Exercise: 35/200

Thanks for reading!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Today was hectic. I didn't work out, I literally didn't have time. Poor dd came home slammed with homework, we just now finished. Crazy in fifth grade in my opinion. I will make up the difference tomorrow.

Food was good, I took a friend to lunch for her birthday, I did very well, had a grilled chicken salad with dressing on the side. I stayed in points, drank my water and watched her eat some very tasty mexican food and drink a beer. It was torture!

I stepped on my scale, it says I am up one pound. No idea why, other than Friday night, I have stayed on points most every day and still have some flex points left. Who knows. I get so sick of this! Not sure I even want to go weigh in, I hate it when I have been good and the scale still bites me in the butt. We'll see.

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Amy,

Don't get discouraged, sweetie. THere could be many reasons you are up a measly pound. You are gaining muscle at curves. That is a good thing. I bet you will be really surprised at the change in measurements. Your cortisol level must be sky high with all the stress you are under. Are you close to TOM, or ovulating? How was you sodium intake yestersday? How much fiber have you been eating?

You are making enormous strides to a healthier you. Keep up the great work you are doing.


Beth

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
Hang in there, wait & see if the inches are coming off instead.
Had to laugh about DS having the meltdown about forgetting the paper & then not being asked for it!
The times that happened to my DD, And we're the ones left stressed!!
You did the right thing not taking it back though, gotta get them more independent
Have a good week

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thanks Tracey and Beth, don't know what I'd do without you ladies!

I weighed in and stayed exactly the same. I was so discouraged, I almost cried. I wanted to just leave but went ahead and stayed for the meeting, which was all about not letting the number on the scale get you down! So that was good. I did go to Curves, I was still feeling upset but the nice lady that works there, the one who signed me up, was back from vacation. Turned out her vacation was cancelled last minute when her 26 year old nephew was killed in an accident. So that really put my own woes into perspective. I felt so bad for her, what a tragedy.

Left Curves, went to Sams and Wal Mart, lugged all that stuff in, got it put away, cleaned up the house, ate lunch then it was time to pick the kids up. So no extra work out as hoped. I may or may not be able to make up the missed workout from yesterday. I am not stressing about it, my exericise is so much better I have to be happy in the bigger picture I guess.

Food so far:
Protein bar: 2
Skim milk: 3
Grape juice: 2
Soup: 4
Cereal: 4
15 points worth of nothing very filling or satisfying. The kids have church tonight, dh and I will eat out, we'll see how I do. I am thinking a salad but the one I like has 16 points which will put me quite a bit over.
Exercise for the week: 70/200

Beth: Funny you mention that, on the way to pick up the kids I was so stressed I could feel my pulse in my head. I pulled over, just shut my eyes and listened to music for five minutes and calmed down. I can't wait to go to WDW in five weeks I can tell you that much!

Tracey: Ds is the King of Forgetfulness, if I went back for each thing, I'd do nothing else all day! And you are so right, the moms always worry long after the kids have forgotten the crisis!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Well last night I completely fell off the wagon. I think the stress of all that is going on just got to me. For one thing, dd's teacher came out to the car when I picked up the kids saying that dd is really struggling and may have to go down to some fourth grade level work. Its not that big of a deal, the class is actually both grades so its easy enough and the other kids probably won't even notice. But I had to tell this to dd who was very upset, it just broke my heart. Then dh has had a lot of stress with his job, things are a bit uncertain (again) so he came home stressed. We took the kids to their Wednesday night church groups and headed to dinner and ended up at our favorite watering hole. I had two beers and some chicken wings as well as chips and salsa. Yikes, can't get much worse than that! But we had a really nice evening, we got to talk and both just needed to relax and unwind. Frankly, I think I just rebelled a bit, it really stunk that I behaved so well but the scale didn't show it! I guess I got my revenge and that makes no sense. But those chicken wings were to die for. I havent had those in months and months. Forbidden fruit so to speak!

Today was good foodwise until Alz. Support Group. One of the ladies brought the most delicous chocolate cake with vanilla frosting (my favorite) I have ever eaten! I had to have piece since I have no will power and didn't want to hurt her feelings (yeah right you are saying but its true). Also had some peanuts but not too many. Oh well, we had a great group tonight and that also helped me to destress.

So I am feeling lots better about things but the diet is suffering a bit! My plan is to go to Curves tomorrow early, around 6:00 a.m. before school. I am taking my mom to breakfast since the kids have a half day, can't do the usual all day thing. So I need to get my workout done first thing.

I didn't exercise today, doubtful I'll make this week's challenge but you never know. There is still tomorrow and Saturday. We'll see.

Thanks for reading!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
So sad about the lady from curves & her nephew
Try not to stress about the scale...it hasnt moved for me in 6 months infact since i started the gym...but definatly lost inches - get that tape measure out!!
Sounds like the eating out & treats were worth it if they helped you
de-stress
Hope DD hasnt taken the school stuff too bad, it must be hard for her - peer pressure & all just keep telling her its not that big a deal
We dont move kids into other levels/grades/year groups over here...but if you've read my journal with the maths stuff...some kids would definatly benefit! So its not a bad thing in the long term, just hard for the kids & their self esteem in the short term!!
give her self esteem a good boost
Have a lovely weekend

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy,

I'm sending lots of and your way. I'm sorry that the past few days have been rough. I hope your weekend is going much better!

Will you be in WDW in December? I know you have a trip coming up in a few weeks. I bet you're getting excited!

Hope you have a great Sunday!