Amy's Journal: Comments Welcome!

[toystoryduo]

Hi Amy,

Stopping by to see how you are doing sweetie... How's the migraine? I hope that it is gone and that you are feeling much better today.

Take good care of you!

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Amy,

To you for your headache! I know what you are going through. I get one of those at least once a month and it usually lasts a few days. Just take it easy and take care of yourself. You can get back on track when you are feeling better. Don't beat yourself up.....it's not your fault.

Sounds like you had a really good time on your cruise. Good for you for counting the movement while you were gone towards your exercise totals. You should too!! You posted in my journal that you were at Blizzard Beach on 08/31, we didn't make it to the water parks this time...in fact I have never been to the water parks. The closest I have come is when you take the bus to Animal Kingdom and then a bus to DTD. We talked about doing the water parks this year, but I don't know why we decided not to, we just did. One year we will.....just don't know when!

Your trip in December will be fine. Your parents are going to be okay, they have friends and such, so I am sure that you will have a good time and won't need to stress too much. I know it is hard.....but they will be okay!

Keep up the good work! You are doing great. Your vacation gain will be long gone......

Happy Tuesday!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thank you so much everyone. Jamie, its great to hear from you, waterparks aren't typically my thing but we didn't want to spend the money to do the "real" parks the two days we were at WDW before the cruise so doing BB one day seemed like a good idea. It was fun, but give me MK anyday over a waterpark!

The migraine at long last is gone. I still feel sort of wiped out, it lasted from last Thursday until sometime in the wee hours of this morning. Woke up at 1:00, it was still there, took some advil and when the alarm went off at 6:30 it was gone. I don't know how people live with chronic pain.

I cleaned my mom's condo yesterday, really needed a good cleaning. I spent about 4 hours over there, I was pooped. Came home, cooked dinner, helped the kids with homework and of course did not work out. It was good to clean her condo but that meant I was away from my own life and listening to her prattle, repeat and complain. I also had a coke, some chips and some peanuts. For some reason being at my mother's makes me eat. Naturally her Alzheimers has not affected her enough that she can't keep a tally of what I have been eating while I am cleaning her house. I had to laugh when my stepdad came home and she gave him my eating rundown. Couldn't remember if she had taken her meds or not but knew to give me a hard time about pigging out! Gotta love my mom!

Today, I cleaned my own house and got quite a bit done, already made a healthy dinner for tonight and was all set to work out when dd got home from school and choir practice. Somehow while we were talking about her day etc., the subject of growing up for a girl came up. I realized that at age 10 she really needed to know some things about the female body etc. So we spent about 45 minutes talking, she had no idea there was such a thing, so I am glad I talked to her. She's 10 now and even though I think she is probably a couple of years away from this I guess you never know. She told me that she hopes she is out of her car seat before she becomes a "woman". I had to laugh since she is still in her booster and hates it. I am thinking she is ready to let that one go too. The doctor told us last year she needed to still be in one but she's grown quite a bit so I guess I can give away the booster and go out and buy her some Kotex pads. Life is weird sometimes. She also told me it would seem that being a woman is not fair since we have to have periods and give birth. Poor kid has no idea the whole truth of what she has just figured out God help her!

Well anyhow, no workout yet since I spent time doing "the talk". But the opportunity arose so there you have it. Tomorrow is weigh in at WW, I am dreading it but I am going. I need to see what the post cruise damage is and get on with it. I think I am up at least five pounds which means I have approximately 18 pounds to lose by December 25 to make my "42 by 42" goal. Have to think about that one, it seems given my inability to stay on track lately that would be a hefty goal. But then again maybe thats what I need to do, forget the past three months of my mental plateau and get a new attitude! I am ready to get back on track. I am hopeful I can get a walk in at some point. I am also seeing that I need to get back to exercising first thing in the morning. I didn't today because I was still wiped out from the migraine but thats done now so tomorrow as soon as I get home from WW I need to hit it, no excuses! Wish me luck with my weigh in, I will certainly need it! And thanks for all your support the past few days. I feel like I have been so negative lately, please forgive me!

I am going to put down 60 minutes for my cleaning of the past two days. I spent a lot of time scrubbing, vacuming and was pretty breathless quite a bit of the past two days. I hope that seems fair, its really tough to guage how much of that type of activity you can count.

 

[lovinaz]

I'm glad that nasty migraine is finally gone!

Oh geez, the dreaded "talk". I feel sorry for my DD, I started the fun-fest when I was 10 or 11, I hope that doesn't mean she will start early too! I have been telling DH he needs to talk to DS10 pretty soon. I know his real dad won't do it and if he did it'd probably be some X-rated version...

Congrats on the new attitude! You can make your b-day goal. Look how far you've come already! Don't get discouraged with the weigh-in tomorrow, you know you will have a gain, but it was worth every fun moment of your vacation, it's not like you were sitting home eating ice cream out of the carton!

 

[traceycooper]

Glad your feeling better Amy
The talk...did that last year, it made me laugh reading your comments, & your so right about them not knowing the whole truth about whats coming
Best they dont know eh!!!
Glad your getting on track, you can lose that 18lbs, i know it..
(cos i'm pshycic you know ...cant even spell it lol)
Have a great week
Tracey

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thanks Tracey and Amy! Yes, the "talk" was a weird experience. I have been dreading that one since the moment my doctor told me: "looks like you've got a girl"! She told me she is doing lots of panty checks in the bathroom now, poor kid, maybe I shouldn't have told her!

Today I weighed in at WW. I was up three pounds. This was good and bad. Its always a bummer to gain but I was happy that I have managed to take off a good two thirds of what I gained on the ship. My meeting topic was all about getting off the plateau and reinstituting weight loss techniques that have worked for you in the past that somehow you have just stopped doing. So that was a good one to hear. My clothes fit fine, not tight or anything so I think not all hope is lost. This puts me at needing to lose 18 pounds by December 25. We shall see!

Food today was pretty good until dinner when things got out of whack. I spent a lot of time on the dis today, just mindlessly reading threads about WDW and DL. No idea why I do that sometimes. I think it started when I checked email earlier and had an email regarding a family issue and another one from one of my son's teachers basically griping at me AGAIN for him missing school. So I was at the computer, I was stressed, I wanted to eat but I chose to mindlessly prowl through disboards instead. Better than eating but not exercising which is what I needed to be doing! So I thought, no problem, the kids are home soon, I'll do homework, make their dinner and then drop them off at church for Wed. nite kids' programs. Dh is working late, I can work out at home in peace and quiet. Wrong-o! Dh had a lousy day at work, decided to come home and take me out to dinner. We ended up at Chili's and I ended up having three boneless buffalo wings, 12 oz of Coors Light (drank about 3/4 of a 16 oz mug), and 15 tortilla chips with salsa and two glasses of water. Not a good dinner. But not the diet disaster from He** I could have scarfed down. Here was my food today:
Breakfast: Atkins Shake (3)
Snack: 1 oz of turkey (1), 2 pts bar (2)
Lunch: Lean Cuisine (7), pudding (1) carrotts (0)
Snack: Soup (4) and 12 oz of V8 juice (1, I think if you have more than the small can you have to count it so I am to be safe)
Dinner: 1/2 cup hamburger helper made with 96% ground beef (3) and the stuff at Chilis. Have no idea how to count that, I'll have to go to DWLZ.com to check that one out. Before Chilis I was at: 22 points. I have 26 for the day so clearly I went into flex points. I'll have to figure out how many I used.

No exercise, by the time we got home I was too tired to exercise and if I workout too late I can't sleep. So another day of no activity, I am really off track with this and need to start getting back on track PDQ! Never mind about the challenge, I just need to start moving.

I also watched the Biggest Loser tonight for the last hour. I thought they were mean to the girl voted off. I didn't like that concept anyway. I mean these poor overweight souls, go on national television, have to show themselves hurling thier bodies over walls and then one of them gets voted off? How much humiliation can one take? I was glad to see the voted off lady from Minnesota went home and lost a ton of weight on her own. That motivated me big time. The difference in that woman was huge. And her starting weight was about the same as mine.

Okay I just checked on Dotties site and the whole order of wings at chili's has 31 points. Thank God I only ate three of them. I have no idea how many were in the order. Maybe 10 or 12? I think I will guestimate that each one had 4 points. The whole chip basket is listed at 12 and I am going to count 4 points for that too. So thats 16 points. Which means I have used 12 of my flex points. On three little pieces of chicken and some chips that were stale. Oops forgot to add the Coors Light so thats 2 more points. So I have used 14 points. Too bad hubby had a bad day. If he'd kept his buns at work I wouldn't be having this cyper space confession right now! Or at least I could have had the Guiltless Grill menu. But instead I had the Guiltiest menu items!

 

[lovinaz]

I love the Guiltless Grill menu at Chili's! Of course I always seem to wash it down with a 600 calorie margarita... Don't worry about last night, that is what your flex points are for, right???

I meant to TiVo the Biggest Loser, but I didn't, so now I am not even going to watch it. I don't like missing any episodes. I barely have time to watch anything anyway!

That is great about the weigh-in! 3lbs is nothing and I bet that will be gone by the time you weigh in next time. You are perfectly able to make your b-day goal.

Get some exercise in today!

 

[Amy&Dan]

I am exercising at 3:00 p.m. come what may Amy! I love the guiltless grill too, no idea why I didn't order off of it. Today has been really good with food. However, I am steamed because I am experiencing Day Two of waiting for this attorney to call me. He is my parent's atty as well and I need to talk to him about some of the legal issues surrounding my mom and her Alz. I emailed him and he told me he would call me yesterday or today at home that he does not do cell phones so be here. Okay fine, I told him I would be home by 10:00 a.m. yesterday and I was. Have not heard a word. Luckily its a rainy day and my dd was not feeling well earlier but has since gone to school fine (constipated and convinced she is about to become a woman why oh why did I tell her about that?) so I have gotten a lot done. But it aggravates me that I have to wait for him. So he can bill me while I ask questions he could have answered very easily by email. Oh well, such is life. My brother has nicely offered to help pay for this bless his heart. So I have once again spent much of the day mindlessly reading the dis. Managed to offend somebody over on another board I need to wean myself off this place. But it beats eating and watching television which is what I usually do when I am stressed and bored. I cannot wait sometimes to go back to work once I get my mom settled in and the kids can be home alone for an hour or two here and there. Oh and when my daughter isn't on year round schooling. Two years and I'll be a member of the human race again. The disboards will miss me I am sure. Dumb lawyer.

 

[CJK]

The human race will be thrilled to have you back. Though I bet you never left.

Don't you hate it when other people (ie. lawyer) think THEIR time is more important than yours??? I hope you hear from him soon so you get get things moving. Good job on the food despite the stress of the day (and the other DIS board). Stick with WISH.....we don't bite (unless it's chocolate). Have a great night!

 

[lovinaz]

You are doing better than me! I was looking through journals, trying to not snack, and DD came in from the neighbors with a handful of freshly baked chocolate chip cookies. Ya, I ate one! I'm so pathetic... My neighbor is about 5"11 and weighs 120 soaking wet. Not fair! I'd hate her, but she's just too darn nice!

Lawyers earn their reputation, don't they?

Hang in there, congrats on getting that workout in!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Got the workout in! 45 minute video of walking away my pounds. My dd's teacher called, I was huffing and puffing. She acted sort of embarrassed amd weird at first and then I realized I think she thought I was breathless for another reason! Sort of funny, I did tell her I was working out, hope she believed me. Did not hear from the atty. I think its because this guy is not the usual guy I work with at this practice, he's out for a few weeks. Think I'll just wait and deal with him because this other guy is worthless!

Here is my food today:
Breakfast: Shake (3)
Lunch: Lean cuisine (6) grapes (1) salad (2) Goldfish crackers (3)
Snack: V8 (1)
15 points total with 11 left to go. And Amy, what is it with choc. chip cookies? Took the kids to my friend's house so we could all get haircuts. She had just baked a batch. I had one tiny bite. Only because I was drinking V8 so it didn't taste good. I wish I had one now! No I really don't...

CJK: After 12 years of not working I do sometimes feel like I left something, somehow, somewhere! It will be really interesting when I return back to work with 3 useless, non degreed years of college and some office skills that no longer exist! I see working retail in my future. But everyone will be toilet trained and will hopefully not ask me to help them with their homework or what I am feeding them for dinner!

Updated to add dinner points:
6 oz. of shake n bake pork chop: (7), steamed cauliflower (0), Squash soup (1), mac and cheese (4). Ate that dumb mac and cheese while I was cleaning up the dishes. Darn it!
Total for the day:27 Used up one more flex point. Water was good today, also had two diet pepsi's.

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Amy,

I'm sorry to hear about the stress with the attorney.... We had an issue a few months ago with an attorney who didn't like to return phone calls.

You are doing a great job with exercising! Keep up the good work!

Hope you have a great weekend!

 

[CACruisin']

Finally trying to get caught up a bit with journals... I laughed reading about the "talk" Have done the "talk" twice now. I think DD11 still doesn't get it though. She announced about a month ago that she didn't want to have a period so she wasn't having any kids .... if only it worked that way, sweetiepie!

Some of those other boards can be pretty snarky can't they? I try and limit myself to the cruise forum and here for the most part. I hear ya on spending too much time DIS'ing instead of doing all the other stuff though. I am "researching" for our trips, and escaping the other stuff I don't want to do .... The WISH board is the exception though. I really feel like spending time here has improved my life. Not only with keeping my healthy living on track or getting back on track, over and over again , but I can vent here and know it is ok. Thank you WISH buddies

DH was suggesting that I should consider going back to work in the next few years -- uh, NO! I loved my job while I was doing it and never ever thought I would be a SAHM, but now I really don't have any desire to go back. I have an Electrical Engineering degree and have been out of the field for 11 years. I really can't go back. The technology has completely changed. I don't know who would ever hire me. I'm not really qualified to do anything.

Finally, your goal of 42 by 42 is tough, but COMPLETELY doable. We are doing this together and our birthday goals are what is going to keep us on track and get us through the holidays!! Yes, we will have slip ups, but we will get right back on track because we have to. You can do it WISH friend!

 

[lovinaz]

Be glad you had the V8 cookie deterrent! DH didn't eat his, I noticed it when I left for work this morning. He better eat it before I get home, because I will mow that thing down even if it is as hard as a brick from sitting on the counter for 24 hours...

When does your week start over for flex points? I have started chewing gum while cleaning up the dinner stuff. That way I don't snack on all the leftovers! I was really bad with that for a while. I also chew gum while making the lunches for the next day. Yes, I chew a lot of gum, and yes I buy it at Costco...

Great job getting that workout in! It felt great, didn't it?

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
I have been mindlessly floating around the boards for the last 3 hours!!!
Nice that you got to eat out with DH & at least you had water

 

[toystoryduo]

Hey WISH Sis,

I hope you're having a great weekend! Be sure and take good care of you!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Hey everyone. Not the best weekend food wise but not the worst. We had dinner out on Friday with my parents. We were all sort of depressed, my mom's pet scan showed some "changes" with her cancer. They are switching her treatment and said "don't worry" but we all do anyway! I just don't know if she could stand more chemo and surgery is not a good option as Alz. patients tend to not react well to general aneseshia (sp?). I am sure it will be fine but it was just still a bummer. And my mom was very upset, I think she's sick of being sick and sick of bad news and scary tests. So I just ate what I wanted at the buffet place, very small portions with lots of ice tea, had popcorn for lunch at the movie with my son and his friend. That was Friday. Saturday was Edo for lunch at the mall (skipped breakfast) and then some snacky type foods for dinner. Did not drink enough water on Saturday. Today was Atkins shake for breakfast, skipped lunch (slept in so breakfast was at 11:00) and more snacky stuff for dinner. Drank more water today but still feel dehyrdrated. I have a twisted sore knee (thank you dumb beagle for getting under my feet coming down the stairs and tripping me) and my son is really sick with a cold that he has now given me. No exercise all weekend. Hope to hit that on Monday. Just really bummed about my mom, spent money I didn't have on back to school clothes and had more homework with my son who in between feeling miserable has been doing school stuff all day today. So thats my cheery, not too successful report. Tomorrow is a new week. I have 82 days before WDW and 19 pounds to lose. Yikes! I really need to get on, and stay on the wagon with my food and exercise. I will catch up on journals tomorrow. Thanks for reading.

 

[lovinaz]

I also wish I could erase the last 2 days of eating from the record! So let's do that - strike this weekend and start over on Monday!

I hope all is well with your mom, that is very stressful for everyone. Bummer about the cold, my DS has been sniffling and coughing the past couple days, luckily no one else has gotten it (where is the knocking on wood smilie?).

Hang in there, tomorrow is a brand new week and a brand new start!

 

[SunFloridaDisney]

sorry about the news on your mom.

Hope your week goes well, don't worry about the eating on the weekend, and just take each day as it comes.

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
So sorry to hear about your mum, i hope everything will be ok, try to stay positive.
Hope you & DS get over the cold quickly!
Sounds like it was one of those weekends for a lot of us, so you are not alone