365 days of healthy choices... Year #3 starts with post 356, comments welcome!

[PRINCESS VIJA]

Oh My! It just hit me that I have been doing this for 10 weeks. That is truly amazing how fast this goes. almost 1/5 of the year is done. how does time fly by so fast some moments and then drag the next?

Today I had a GREAT DAY! I really didn't do much, but the weather was great, cool and crisp, a great thunderstorm in the morning AND I read a book almost all day long. I haven't had a day like that in I can't remember how long. I read the book "the Help". It was VERY good, and I just couldn't put it down! Of course I did some things. Went grocery shopping, some laundry, played a little volleyball, watched the end of a movie with DD, cleaned out the fridge. BUT it was just a relaxing day, one that was luxurious!

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

So last week Sunday I was very depressed, WHY???? Well my DH and my DS were gone, they left for 10 days to go on a boundary waters scout high adventure canoe trip. I didn't want to say anything as my DD was then going to be home by herself alot and for safety I couldn't post that. So I REALLY missed my "boys" as I call DH and DS. AND I find out DH REALLY missed me too! we are HS sweethearts after all and are together alot, so this was hard on both of us. He is so awesome.

The boys had a great time, very rough week for them. I'll talk more later, but my mood is so much happier now! Off to go to bed, finally with DH by my side!

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

That would be working almost 2 hours over your shift! got home after 8pm. At dinner and I am just quickly posting and then heading to bed!

Not an easy way to avoid snacking, but effective!

 

[donac]

So last week Sunday I was very depressed, WHY???? Well my DH and my DS were gone, they left for 10 days to go on a boundary waters scout high adventure canoe trip. I didn't want to say anything as my DD was then going to be home by herself alot and for safety I couldn't post that. So I REALLY missed my "boys" as I call DH and DS. AND I find out DH REALLY missed me too! we are HS sweethearts after all and are together alot, so this was hard on both of us. He is so awesome.

The boys had a great time, very rough week for them. I'll talk more later, but my mood is so much happier now! Off to go to bed, finally with DH by my side!

I am glad they made it home safe. I have been through this myself. Now that he is not camping once a month I kind of miss it.

I am in the middle of "the Help" and am enjoying it.

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

I am glad they made it home safe. I have been through this myself. Now that he is not camping once a month I kind of miss it.

I am in the middle of "the Help" and am enjoying it.

I am glad you like "the help". I thought it was super good! HOpe you are doing well!

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

Went to see the movie "the Help" tonight. it was VERY good!!! Highly recommend seeing this movie. I knew I was going to have a big bucket of popcorn and didn't really snack before it. I am proud of that! It is super late, and I am off to bed.

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

I had typed out my log, and then my computer stopped working. Doing this from my phone and it is too hard. I did make great food choices today, but no exercise. I will try and check in by phone, but I will probably put the journal on hold till I have my computr again. Frustration!

 

[dare2dream]

Vija, I have been missing your posts and hope you are doing well. Computer problems suck. Last year my computer went crazy and DH got me a new CPU and I HATE it. I used to leave my computer on all day and pop on when I got a chance. The new CPU has a noisy fan and it drives me crazy so the computer stays off most of the time.

I hope you are still counting your days and being accountable to yourself. I know you can be successful with this lifestyle change.

I mentioned that you inspired me to start thinking about getting down to business. I need to commit to steady work for 18 months to get where I want to be. Eventually along the way I hope the 'lifestyle change' kicks in and eating and living a healthy lifestyle becomes a normal way of life.

I saw an 18 month planner at Sam's and thought that would be great to help record my journey. I did not buy the planner that day and when I returned to Sam's it was gone. I then went on a mission to find the 'perfect' planner for me. I found it Friday at Wal-Mart and I LOVE it.

Monday August 15 was my annual physical. I have type 2 diabetes and visit my DR every February and August. This has been going on since Feb 04 when I was diagnosed. Each visit my DR that I love would encourage me to lose weight. Sometimes I lose, sometimes I gain, no real progress has been made in 7 years. It has gotten to the point now that she no longer really makes a big deal about my weight because she has given up on me. In the last 6 months I lost 1 pound. Yes, one pound.

Well this is it. If Vija can do this, so can I. Today is my day 1!!!

I am now just concentrating on the next 13 weeks or 91 days. I hope to lose 25 pounds but realistically I may be shooting too high.

Total was a failure, as I knew it would be, because of the annual family potluck picnic. I had two plates of food and that included dessert. I got some extra dessert on plate 3 and as I was eating it Good Brenda said 'Brenda your tummy is full and you are not enjoying this dessert, just take it home and eat it later.' And that is what I did. SCORE! A success. A wise choice. I am now off to cut up my cucumber, have a great salad for dinner and enjoy that dessert. Not a great day, but a better day.

I hope to improve my eating habits and find a plan that will work for me.

Thanks for letting me share Vija. I have lots of other stuff to tell you about like books and Vegas and meeting IRL (in real life) but that can wait till later.

How are your kids? Are they excited for school to start or are you more excited? I believe you have a major trip planned soon. I can't wait to hear about it. I especially can't wait to hear about your 365 days of healthy choices.

Take care Princess and check in when you can. Thanks for helping me finally get started. Right now I am so excited about the future and tagging along with you.

 

[dare2dream]

First my news. I survived a hurricane and completed my week 1 with success. The scale rewarded my efforts and I hope to continue on the right path this week.

Vija, how are you doing??? I miss hearing from you. I hope all is going well.

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

So, I left off with my computer going down just before we left for vacation. Frustrating! and I tried to do the log with my phone on vacation, but that didn't work out so well, We were EXHAUSTED by the evening and basically fell into bed, and I did use my phone some days so much that the battery went dead. Did that the second night, and we were camping, so no place to charge my phone. Some of the areas we went to we had NO cell phone reception. That sort of freaked me out, we got these phones specifically for our vacation, so "just in case of emergency" we would be able to call for help. I guess I was very naive about how out West there are LOTS of areas that do not have cell phone coverage, for miles and miles and miles.

I have alot to say about our vacation. It was a CRAZY out west trip, I am going to do a trip report, because it was so much fun, and so crazy, how could I not! My weight related goal was to go on vacation and not gain weight. I am pleased to say that I actually lost .6#. That is the first time ever I didn't gain weight on vacation. I know that 0.6 # isn't all that much, but a loss is a loss, and considering how we ate, I am very happy about that. Lots of bad, bad, bad choices. The last 3 days especially. We were in the car for 13 hours, 8 hours, 10 hours. we ate a lot of junk food to stay alert.

For today after eating breakfast I wanted to have some chips and catch up on shows I DVR'd. Didn't do it! Also avoided soda unless it was with a meal, I had one outside of meal time, and that is a good thing. Craving water, loving that! haven't snacked after dinner and don't plan to.

So, I will post a trip report, but where to post it? It is more than just Disneyland, and more than just "out west", what do you think? Here is our itinerary...

day 1. Drive from Milwaukee, WI area to Omaha (left around noon time, so driving till late at night)
day 2. Drive to the Rocky Mountains and camp over night in Central City, Co.
day 3. Drive to Arches National Park and camp over night.
day 4. Drive to Las Vegas, and walk around the strip, and night time stuff.
day 5. WAKE UP EARLY and drive to DLR (we surprised the kids) do California Adventure
day 6. Do Disneyland
Day 7. Drive to Grand Canyon
day 8. Drive to Page Arizona, do a 1/2 day Colorado river raft trip
day 9. Drive ALL the way through Arizona, go to the Four Corners monument, drive through upper part of New Mexico, drive into Colorado and all the way up past Colorado Springs to Limon, CO on I70.
Day 10. Drive to Kansas City, Ks. Enjoy Oklahoma Joes barbecue and stay at the Great Wolf Lodge (again surprise the kids) and play in their waterpark.
Day 11. Drive all the way back home, and then drive some more to pick up our dog and DD's rabbit from my parents.

CRAZY I know!!! It was an adventure and we have so much to tell you about it. Can't wait to give details!

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

Vija, I have been missing your posts and hope you are doing well. Computer problems suck. Last year my computer went crazy and DH got me a new CPU and I HATE it. I used to leave my computer on all day and pop on when I got a chance. The new CPU has a noisy fan and it drives me crazy so the computer stays off most of the time.

I hope you are still counting your days and being accountable to yourself. I know you can be successful with this lifestyle change.

I mentioned that you inspired me to start thinking about getting down to business. I need to commit to steady work for 18 months to get where I want to be. Eventually along the way I hope the 'lifestyle change' kicks in and eating and living a healthy lifestyle becomes a normal way of life.

I saw an 18 month planner at Sam's and thought that would be great to help record my journey. I did not buy the planner that day and when I returned to Sam's it was gone. I then went on a mission to find the 'perfect' planner for me. I found it Friday at Wal-Mart and I LOVE it.

Monday August 15 was my annual physical. I have type 2 diabetes and visit my DR every February and August. This has been going on since Feb 04 when I was diagnosed. Each visit my DR that I love would encourage me to lose weight. Sometimes I lose, sometimes I gain, no real progress has been made in 7 years. It has gotten to the point now that she no longer really makes a big deal about my weight because she has given up on me. In the last 6 months I lost 1 pound. Yes, one pound.

Well this is it. If Vija can do this, so can I. Today is my day 1!!!

I am now just concentrating on the next 13 weeks or 91 days. I hope to lose 25 pounds but realistically I may be shooting too high.

Total was a failure, as I knew it would be, because of the annual family potluck picnic. I had two plates of food and that included dessert. I got some extra dessert on plate 3 and as I was eating it Good Brenda said 'Brenda your tummy is full and you are not enjoying this dessert, just take it home and eat it later.' And that is what I did. SCORE! A success. A wise choice. I am now off to cut up my cucumber, have a great salad for dinner and enjoy that dessert. Not a great day, but a better day.

I hope to improve my eating habits and find a plan that will work for me.

Thanks for letting me share Vija. I have lots of other stuff to tell you about like books and Vegas and meeting IRL (in real life) but that can wait till later.

How are your kids? Are they excited for school to start or are you more excited? I believe you have a major trip planned soon. I can't wait to hear about it. I especially can't wait to hear about your 365 days of healthy choices.

Take care Princess and check in when you can. Thanks for helping me finally get started. Right now I am so excited about the future and tagging along with you.

OH I AM SO GLAD YOU ARE ON YOUR WAY! Enjoy the journey, it is truly a wonderful thing, and I am so glad that I helped inspire you, that I feel very happy about and very happy for you. I just came back from our major trip, I will post a trip report, but I might post some separate stuff on here that is weight related, I don't think I want to share that in the trip report. I have so much to do to catch up on stuff right now, that I will get to it, but might have to wait a week.

I am so happy that you got the right journal, that is so cool. I was reading this on my I phone on the way home last night, and I read parts of it outloud to my family ---- only PARTS of it, my family is VERY supportive, and my DD had a kind of neat idea. She said we should both take a before picture, then meet up in front of Cinderellas castle at our goal weights and celebrate our journey together at WDW! I think I've raised her right... my Disney buddy! She really made me smile.

First my news. I survived a hurricane and completed my week 1 with success. The scale rewarded my efforts and I hope to continue on the right path this week.

Vija, how are you doing??? I miss hearing from you. I hope all is going well.

OH MY GOSH! Yesterday I was reading the Irene thread, (helped me get from Kansas City into Iowa ) and I was so happy to hear that you weathered the storm OK. So glad that many of the DISers made it through that. What a nightmare. I am so gratefull you are ok. AND WAY TO GO with making your week 1 a success. THat is outstanding! I have no doubt you will do great this week. Thanks for sharing with me, I am so glad to do this journey with you!

Hugs to you! and 3 cheers too

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

1 year ago today I had what I refer to now affectionately as "the incident". One year ago today I ended up in the hospital with blood clots in my lungs, and one that had traveled through my blood stream and down my arm requiring emergency surgery. I ended up in the ICU on the ventilator because they could not get me off the ventilator after surgery. I must have had a bunch of blood clots all summer long, because I was getting short of breath, at times that I shouldn't. Just walking into work from my car is an example. I just attributed it to the fact that I was overweight. Little did I know... So please, please, please listen to your body, if something is off, see somebody. I could have saved myself lots of heartache and pain, and could have saved my family from some very scary days. I almost died, and I am so lucky that I made it all summer long. Blood clots in the lungs alone kill people, let alone when they start traveling. I am so lucky, and so very grateful to God for letting me have this time. I am sitting here in tears remembering the scariness of it all. I still can't grasp it sometimes.

I surely could use any and all hugs, I still get scared sometimes of what could have been.

Good choices for today:

First and foremost hugging my family and Thanking God for all that I have.
I didn't have lunch today because of work, limited my snacking tonight, but still had some as I was famished by the time I got home. I kept it under check, could have been worse, but I didn't go "hog wild" so that is a good thing.

 

[donac]

Happy Anniversary. I remember reading about your incident and praying that you would be okay.

Sounds like you had a great vacation.

Because of you I may be starting my count down tomorrow.

Have a great day

 

[dare2dream]

It is so good to hear from you again. I really hate getting back to 'reality' after a wonderful vacation. I can't wait to hear more about your adventures. What was the best and what was the worst? My daughter is pregnant with grandbaby #5 and is due Christmas day. We are taking a girls only trip to Vegas at the end of September.

Great job on your vacation loss. It is so hard to eat healthy on vacation.

I have always wanted to run the Princess 5 K at WDW. Here's a link. They also have a half marathon but I don't think I would be up for that. What do you think about a 5 K? I will be working on getting my 'before' picture this weekend. I have always dreamed of taking monthly update pictures of my weight loss and it is now FINALLY the time to do it.

I vividly remember 'the incident'. I cried and prayed for you. I am so glad you made it through that ordeal.

As you ease back to reality I look forward to sharing your weight loss journey. I know you can get back to your healthy lifestyle and move forward on this journey. You CAN do this.

 

[jimmduck]

And glad to see this blog again. Brenda and Donac - hello to you both too.

We came home from Iceland last night. Wonderful trip - very tired and jet lagged.

The race was not so successful, though I have completed a 10k race several times, not that day. The pain was shooting out of my leg so badly that the coach pulled me at 7 k. Actually they picked me up in a Hummer like vehicle (which took a cast of thousands to get me into) and transported me .5 k from the finish line.

I walked accross and they gave me a medal anyway, but it is a cherished keepsake, not earned. I did not get photographed in it.

The DQ is very upsetting and if I had been home, I would not have allowed it and would have walked until my legs fell off or they closed the course, whichever happened first.

But I had Norm and our vacation to think about. Later that night we actually bombed around Rekjavik and clocked nearly 10 miles on the pedometer that day.

Staying in bed for several days to "recover" was not in the plan.

Our trip was incredible and I intend to blog in a series of notes on Facebook and can send in another format to you folks if you like.

But I also intend to start one of these WISH journals. Plan to begin on September 7th (giving myself a week to rest up and recover and plan). It will dialogue my journey to (finally) conquer the Disney half in January 2013).

And it will talk about the ugly side of our trip to Iceland - like how it felt to be stuffed into an airplane seat like a sardine (the flight home was the hottest most uncomfortable 5.5 hours I ever spent) and being the fattest person in Iceland and I am not kidding - never saw anyone obese anywhere - and very few people of colour. Everyone there is fit, blonde and beautiful.

The good news is that I did not gain any weight there despite the food.

I am tired of this, I want to be fit and want to move forward.

I am tired of taking up space, apologizing to the world for inconveniencing them and have no business in athletic events until I am fit enough to do it. Not fair to the others. I took up the coach's time babysitting me when he could have been celebrating the success of others and that is inexcusable in my book and must stop.

Its time to get serious and to end all this.

Brenda, go for the 5k. I have done it at Disney twice. They do not sweep, its just fun.

The only good thing about the Iceland race is that I did manage to raise $6,100 for diabetes research, which I hope benefits those like Brenda who have it.

Sorry if this sounds like sour grapes. As long as I breathe I will never give up, but I do need to change focus.

So how do I go about starting a journal like this?

So cool that so many are doing it - Vija, look how you have inspired us. I always felt a special kinship with you.

Linda

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

Happy Anniversary. I remember reading about your incident and praying that you would be okay.

Sounds like you had a great vacation.

Because of you I may be starting my count down tomorrow.

Have a great day

Hi Dona! Thanks for your prayers during that time. I do believe that the prayers had a big part of my recovery! I am Sooo excited that you are thinking of starting your own count down! September 1st would be a great day!!!!!! I will cheerlead you on!

How are you doing with Hurricane Irene issues? I hope OK.

It is so good to hear from you again. I really hate getting back to 'reality' after a wonderful vacation. I can't wait to hear more about your adventures. What was the best and what was the worst? My daughter is pregnant with grandbaby #5 and is due Christmas day. We are taking a girls only trip to Vegas at the end of September.

Great job on your vacation loss. It is so hard to eat healthy on vacation.

I have always wanted to run the Princess 5 K at WDW. Here's a link. They also have a half marathon but I don't think I would be up for that. What do you think about a 5 K? I will be working on getting my 'before' picture this weekend. I have always dreamed of taking monthly update pictures of my weight loss and it is now FINALLY the time to do it.

I vividly remember 'the incident'. I cried and prayed for you. I am so glad you made it through that ordeal.

As you ease back to reality I look forward to sharing your weight loss journey. I know you can get back to your healthy lifestyle and move forward on this journey. You CAN do this.

To answer the vacation questions... the best was Surprising the kids with Disneyland!!! I was able to get the kids literally to the gates of Disney before I surprised them. ALSO waking up at 5 AM at Arches national park was AMAZING! the moon lit up the world, it was so beautiful it took my breath away. The best way I can describe it is that it felt like I was walking through a post card. It truly was so beautiful. THE WORST was the mountain driving in Colorado. I am very nervous with heights. I told DH that I just could not drive the 550 home, sheer drop offs, and no guardrails! So we altered our trip, took a different route home but still going through Colorado you have to go through the mountains. Just as we reached the top and were about to descend the skies opened up and a terrible thunderstorm enveloped us. THEN it started to hail, really bad. The ground was covered so that it looked like snow. I asked DH to pull over because I just couldn't take it anymore. Luckily he did because as we started to move again we encountered cows in the road 2 x. I think if we would have continued we might have hit the cows because of low visibilty, or went slip sliding off the edge with the hail. BUT I love nature and after we made it through, "wow" is all that I can say, it was such a rush. Thunder sounds AMAZING in the mountains. Loved that!

Congrats on grandbaby #5. What an exciting time. I can't wait to hear about Vegas from you. I do think that we did Vegas wrong. Just like when people go to WDW and don't do research, they don't have as good a time. I am sure that Vegas was like that for us. I should have done more research.

I'll have to look into the Princess 5k. I have always dreamed of doing the 1/2 marathon as well. When are you thinking of doing the princess 5k? next year, the year after?

I love seeing the monthly changes for photographs. I say go for it... You will be so glad you did.

Thanks also for the prayers from the incident. Like I told Dona, I do feel that all the prayers were a very important componant of my recovery. It was very humbling to hear about everyone's prayers.

Thanks for cheering me on, I love the support and friendship. it makes this journey so much more special.

And glad to see this blog again. Brenda and Donac - hello to you both too.

We came home from Iceland last night. Wonderful trip - very tired and jet lagged.

The race was not so successful, though I have completed a 10k race several times, not that day. The pain was shooting out of my leg so badly that the coach pulled me at 7 k. Actually they picked me up in a Hummer like vehicle (which took a cast of thousands to get me into) and transported me .5 k from the finish line.

I walked accross and they gave me a medal anyway, but it is a cherished keepsake, not earned. I did not get photographed in it.

The DQ is very upsetting and if I had been home, I would not have allowed it and would have walked until my legs fell off or they closed the course, whichever happened first.

But I had Norm and our vacation to think about. Later that night we actually bombed around Rekjavik and clocked nearly 10 miles on the pedometer that day.

Staying in bed for several days to "recover" was not in the plan.

Our trip was incredible and I intend to blog in a series of notes on Facebook and can send in another format to you folks if you like.

But I also intend to start one of these WISH journals. Plan to begin on September 7th (giving myself a week to rest up and recover and plan). It will dialogue my journey to (finally) conquer the Disney half in January 2013).

And it will talk about the ugly side of our trip to Iceland - like how it felt to be stuffed into an airplane seat like a sardine (the flight home was the hottest most uncomfortable 5.5 hours I ever spent) and being the fattest person in Iceland and I am not kidding - never saw anyone obese anywhere - and very few people of colour. Everyone there is fit, blonde and beautiful.

The good news is that I did not gain any weight there despite the food.

I am tired of this, I want to be fit and want to move forward.

I am tired of taking up space, apologizing to the world for inconveniencing them and have no business in athletic events until I am fit enough to do it. Not fair to the others. I took up the coach's time babysitting me when he could have been celebrating the success of others and that is inexcusable in my book and must stop.

Its time to get serious and to end all this.

Brenda, go for the 5k. I have done it at Disney twice. They do not sweep, its just fun.

The only good thing about the Iceland race is that I did manage to raise $6,100 for diabetes research, which I hope benefits those like Brenda who have it.

Sorry if this sounds like sour grapes. As long as I breathe I will never give up, but I do need to change focus.

So how do I go about starting a journal like this?

So cool that so many are doing it - Vija, look how you have inspired us. I always felt a special kinship with you.

Linda

Hi Linda, so glad to see you home safe and sound. I can't wait to hear all about your trip. I don't do facebook yet, but maybe I will join so that I can read about it.

I am so sorry that your race wasn't as successful as you would have liked. I just think of all that you went through last year, and here you are racing again. I think that is so INSPIRING! YOU inspire me! I know you are frustrated, and I am frustrated for you, I wish I could give you a hug! I think back to the thing that you once said to me about meeting a fellow racer in the elevator. I don't remember how the conversation started but he encouraged you and congratulated you for getting out there and trying. Remember YOU TRUMP "DID NOT TRY"! You were out there and doing it. From your recover to know you have a lot to be proud of. Also, congrats on raising the money, that is outstanding too.

I believe in you. Linda, I sense a determination in your post, and I know you CAN and WILL do this. As to starting a journal... go for it! I have started a journal a bunch of times, but this one has a theme that I like, and I can stick to. I too look forward to cheering you on, as you have cheered me on. I appreciate your words regarding my inspiring you, just remember you inspire me too! And you are worth it, Worth your coaches time, worth your own love and worth all the good things that surround you, including a group of friends that love you. I too have felt a special friendship with you, and can't wait till someday we can meet too!

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

OOOOH, did I do good today!

For lunch I had a bagel with cream cheese, and strawberries. I had a single serving of sun chips available, but I felt full with what I ate and just put the chips away! In the past I would have eaten the chips, just because they were there!

I drove DD to a nearby town to try and find a shirt for the first day of school. I was hungry by then and thought of stopping at the gas station for a "snack" AKA chips. I didn't want to do that, so we drove to the store.

At the store I had a big bag of chips in my hand, but as I got to the checkout, I realized that it wasn't really the brand that I wanted, so why waste calories on the chips so I actually put them away!

After dinner we were out and about and DH wanted ice cream. I bough ice cream for DH and DS and didn't get ANY for me!

I went for a walk!

I really wanted something to eat, I had 1 1/2 pieces of cheese (through the other 1/2 out when I realized I had had enough and didn't need more)

I am so proud of all the good choices!

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

Today was the first day of school for the kids. How in the world did my DS get to be a junior in HS? It is amazing. where does the time go? And DD in 7th grade, how is that possible? I had a great day, managed to get the day off and sent them on their way. We have a tradition of me baking cookies and then sitting down to warm cookies and talking about the first day of school. LOVE this tradition. The only problem was that I made the dough while they were gone and had "a little... a lot" while they were gone and I watched Project Runway. Well, the one really good thing that came out of it was that when it came time for dinner I was pretty full, and I ate only 1/2 of what I was planning to eat because I was full AND I made the mental note of "even though I goofed up the afternoon, that was ALL that I was going to goof up today" AND I didn't blow the entire day like I would have in the past. After dinner I didn't snack. I even had my fingers on one of the cookies and I was ready to have one, but I pulled back! And this morning after breakfast I was a bit hungry and I drank water instead (not even my usual diet coke). AND I went for a nice walk. LOVED it! so I made one bad choice, but made some other really good ones!

During my walk I realized I have 10 months until our cruise. That isn't alot of time, it will go by very quickly, so I better stay consistent and keep it going. I want to wear a really pretty long dress for formal night. I would love to wear something Pink... my favorite color... or even red... with some sparkle even... I would love to do that instead of hiding in a black dress. I wore one last time and although it was very pretty I would like to be a little daring this time....

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

We are up north tonight so I am doing this on my phone which i[CODE

][/CODE]s not easy. I noticed that I had a little stress today at work and I went for food. That frustrated me so much. I will write more tomorrow, my phone is too harhd... Talk about frustrating... LOL

 

[PRINCESS VIJA]

I read yesterdays log and have to say it looks funny! My phone is OK initially, then if I make any mistake and try to get back into the screen, it goes black and I can't see what I am writing. so forgive me for that crazy entry....

so to get back to yesterday. I was doing great, then ended up a bit stressed at work, and at lunch I ATE and ATE and ATE... I was even feeling full, but it was a different hunger that I was feeding...KWIM? I even thought to myself I should stop, but I wasn't listening, I just needed to eat. Ughhh, then of course I am now out of that moment and feel frustrated that I did that. One thing led to another and I ate chips (hadn't had those in 3 days) and more chips, and more junk. Why did I let that happen? So not good.

Today wasn't much better. No stress, but just still in that mindset of eating to eat. Planning a "snack party" in my head... OK multiple snack parties. etc. I need to regroup.