Linda, Brenda and Moli...OH, MY DEAR WISH FRIENDS!!!! What would I do without you? You 3 are so very important to me! THANK you so much for rallying around me. You have no idea how much that means to me. Wouldn't it be great if we could all meet in real life? Some day I sure hope to!
What I was down about is getting better, and to some people when I finally post will think "she was sad about that???", it really isn't "a big deal" it just got to me. So know that I am OK. I am much better, and in fact when you read today's post I think you will be proud of me!
When you are down, it is the very time you should reach out to someone.
There is nothing wrong with you - except that you desire to face your struggles while others bury their heads in the sand until its too late.
It is not too late.
You are not thinking or doing anything that many others, along with me are not.
Keep plugging and reaching out Vija - be vigilant. The only way to get to the next mile is to put one foot in front of the other.
Like Nike Says - just Do it!
Waiting eagerly for the next post...
Linda
You are so right about " just do it", what a bunch of time I have wasted lamenting my self imposed predicament. I don't want to do that any more, I just want to LIVE and enjoy LIFE, and feel comfortable in my skin! Thanks for reminding me that although I am struggling I have not given up, nor will I ever give up and I do choose to face my struggles. some days I may hide from them, but eventually I come out to battle, and I plan to conquer this!
I have been spying on you for a while. I discovered your journal when I posted my Wish thread about going to my drug dealer.
I am concerned about you and am sorry about whatever is causing you pain. Life can be tough at times but you have the ability to get through this challenge and get on with your weight loss journey.
You are inspiring me. I have been miserable for quite a while now and am moving toward that big commitment of jumping on the wagon and hanging on for dear life. I like the way you are numbering each day and have enjoyed your daily accounting.
I too am in this for a very long haul. In my mind I am breaking my journey into 6 13 week increments. I keep telling myself I can commit to 91 days and then see what happens. So far I haven't gotten past day 1.
I ordered that Chicken Soup book you mentioned but first I am reading Heaven is for Real for my church ladies September book club. I am reading it early so I can share my copy with the other ladies in the group so they can read it too. It's hard to get a copy of it at the library right now.
Sorry to talk so much about me. This is your journal and I just wanted to say "Hi" and let you know I am sharing your journey and rejoicing with your successes and weeping with you during the tough times.
Keep your head up Princess and keep moving forward. You know this journey will be perilous but it will be worth it. One day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time, one bite at a time. I KNOW you CAN do this.
Please check in when you can. There are many here that care about you.
PS Hi Linda, good to see you too!!
BRENDA! I am so glad to hear from you, it has been a long time. So glad to "see" you here! Thanks for coming to join the party. OK, now you have me curious as to what your post about going to the drug dealer is all about, I will have to go research that one.... As to my journal, numbering each day has been really helpful, and insightful. I am amazed at how quickly the days move along... Ironic in a way because when you are hungry the time goes soooo slowwwww! I don't remember what I ate 3 weeks ago. So in 3 weeks I won't remember if I had chips, if I went to bed hungry, I'll survive if I skip chips one day... I guess that is a lesson I am learning from all of this.
I will be right here for you when you start on that journey, and I will push you up on your weight loss wagon, and I will be your Loudest cheerleader too!
That day 1 is a killer, but just make one change that day, one healthy choice and don't give up, I am here for you and believe in you too! 13 week increments sounds very doable! choose something you know you can commit too, I'm the queen of making too many promises, setting myself up to fail. Another thing I've learned on my journey. This morning I was plotting and planning my next great idea and really had to think through and analyzed my ideas and thought "would this be something I truly can commit to, something I am ready to do" and because I thought things through I picked some changes that I know I can stick to. ( see today's post for that!)
As far as the books go, "Heaven is for Real" is soooo good! the book spoke to me in so many ways. When your done let me know, I would love to "chat" about what inspired you and what you thought of it. Now I've moved on to "the Help", along with the chicken soup book. Pretty good book so far.
AND PLEASE feel free to chat about what is going on in your life. I may have started this journal, but it is for EVERYONE to share their thoughts too, because only together with each other's support can we make it through this and I know we can all help each other!
(((VIJA)))
ginormous hugs for you my friend, whatever is creeping in my mind and heart, I know you can overcome it, you are strong! i'm rooting for you, you have been a true friend to me over the years, never doubt you are WORTH IT!
Oh my gosh, such tremendous words of support, comfort, and friendship. I almost feel foolish now because what was getting me down isn't necessarly something I have to overcome, just I need time to pass by quickly. I fear I have led everyone astray in what is/was getting me down. TRUST ME it will pass, and I will be just fine, it really isn't a "problem". Some people have real issues in their lives, this is not at all. THank you for your vote of confidence in me, I am so strong in different areas of my life. How interesting that some areas I can conquer, be determined and really overcome issues. and others, like healthy habbits, are such a challenge? Hmmmm, something to ponder...
You're doing great!
I made a commitment to post every day, and it didn't take! Ughhh, please know that I did post yesterday. I must have clicked out of the DIS before it posted. I know it was taking a long time for my pages to refresh, so I must have thought it was OK, but in fact it got lost in cyber world. Oh well, I'll try to remember what I posted. I mentioned that I had hurt my back on Sunday somehow and that was adding to my misery. Yesterday it was pretty bad in the morning, but I iced it throughout the day and it did get better. I did make the choice of not eating fast food and instead made dinner at home. It wasn't the healthiest, but better than McDonlads! 
So, here are 2 changes that I want to be consistent on. 
WHY is it so hard for me at night? Why oh Why didn't I go upstairs and read upstairs. Once upstairs I rarely venture back down for snacks. Well my DD yelled down to me that she was really happy. I asked why and she said that she is trying to get more in shape and is down a few pounds. I am so happy for her, and happy that she is motivated to get healthy. Well that inspired me and I immediately put the chips away. who knows how much more damage I would have done. 
