Our tickets came yesterday and ive hidden them away from the boys as they have no idea we are going this December to Florida. They think we are going to Spain or Malta if I can get a bargin!! My youngest turns 12 next Saturday and after that I plan to tell them by using a treasure hunt which ive devised so they can build up letter clues which will tell them where to find two gifts ive wrapped which are Disney tshirts I bought in DLP last week. Cant wait. Im getting excited but now the heebie jebbies are setting in. Two years ago my husband of 17 years walked out amidst much agro. At first we didnt speak as we hated each other. Then I decided that I needed to move on and so used my savings and have been saving ever since too so I could take the boys back to Florida. Then about 4 months ago we started to get on well with their dad and things were looking fairly calm. Now after making friends I told him about the trip. He asked to come and luckily at the time he managed to get a ticket that fitted with our trip. Suddenly he flipped his lid again and has decided he can live without us as we should f*** off and go ruin someone elses life etc etc. He told me to file for a divorce and now my confidence is knocked sideways. I sat in my bathroom last night with the tickets and cried my eyes out - but not really sure why. I am now thinking am I mad to take my kids to Florida alone, with all the luggage?? Will I cope?? Sure, I think I will but looking at the tickets it suddenly became real. We are going to Florida. 9 hours away from home. I know others on here have managed as single parents and I have been on holidays around England no problem. Just needed to air my thoughts and get them off my chest so I can shake myself back to reality and get back the confidence. Its just that I was all prepared to go when I originally booked knowing it would be by myself with the boys but this cat and mouse game he plays has made me feel yuk! Can anyone advise how I get over this cr*p sh*t man and get my excited holiday feelings back.