Girlstar30
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It is really hard to understand this for people that dont struggle with suicidal ideation. I am referring to myself and my observations on my initial reaction and me how difficult it is for me to process that my thinking is wrong. I have felt depressed before, but never to this extent.These things sometimes happen in clusters---someone who is struggling with ideation hears of a successful attempt, and decides that's how they'll do it too. My high school is (in)famous for having kids kill themselves on the CalTrain tracks, and that dates back to before I was a student there in the 80s.
https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2015/12/the-silicon-valley-suicides/413140/
As someone how has had his fair share of suicidal ideation in the past, speaking to anyone reading this who might feel the same way: You do not have to do this alone, and there are people who are ready to help. That's hard to hear when you are in the middle of it, but it is true. Heck, at last night's meeting, a good friend said something like that, and my brain immmediately responded with: "No they don't." And, I am in a MUCH better place now than I was during the lowest point in early sobriety.
Its great that you took the course and it is good to let your feelings and pain out. And im sorry you had to go through this, life can be so hard sometimes. Im lucky I haven't been affected by this before, I couldnt imagine how I would feel esp if it was my wife/family. I think I would go into a deep, deep depression and i dont know how I would get thru that, thats probably why my thoughts went thereThe thing about suicide is: it's ok to have feelings about this. I do. I don't usually share those feelings because nobody wants to hear them. But suicides have a ripple effect on others in so many ways, and it's affected my family and so many others as well. It's ok to be upset about it. And even with my own feelings, I still wish we could get these people some help. Feeling this was I'm sure is a miserable thing. Wish we could help people reach out when they need others the most, before it is too late.
So so sadThe course was required by a state I'm licensed in, and honestly was well worth it. I learned some discussion points to help people in distress and I've used them a few times; I'd recommend a similar course to anyone. My job doesn't usually have this sort of a component, but I've been surprised when it has come up. I even had a gentleman come up when I was at work and just admit he was suicidal and needed help once, and I felt so much better prepared to help him (I know this sounds crazy but it happened).
It was my older cousin in my case; honestly I'm still angry that he left behind his three young kids who really needed him. Maybe I shouldn't be angry but it was very upsetting and I know his kids still need him, ten years later, and they definitely wish he was here. It felt and still feels very unfair.
I dont even respond to people like that anymore, obviously people would want to talk about and process if somebody passed away somewhere they owned, it was very shocking to me and sad and yes people die everyday, but people don't jump off of resorts that we own at everyday. And yes I noticed they posted this in every thread as well that they could find about the subjectAre you....searching all the DisBoards threads mentioning any deaths so you can repost the exact same message in all today, @Dznefreek? This thread was veritably already dead itself.