Holly, she tell you that you are not a bad mom...
When I was reading it and make me think about Olivia as she can be hard work for us as she is deaf child as I thought we can cope with her *** we know what deaf child like but it was hard work... Olivia and I can be clashing together sometime.
Now she is 12 years old and much better calm depend on her mood as she have mood swings every month
Another hand she can be lovely girl, sometime she was so horrible cheeky to us grrrr
No matter what you think as you felt that you are bad mother but you are not.
You need break to Hawaii cruise and enjoy your freedom
love and hugs from me
Remember there will be up and down, some day good some day bad .......