Un-Tangled-Getting My Life Back....PTR!! TR Started! 5/30

[MEK]

Shopping is so therapeutic, isn't it? So glad you listened to your nagging fears and returned the dress. What a bonus!

Love all the T's too!

 

[Millie12591]

Beautiful dress, Camille. It's going to look great on you.

Thank you Ms. Kat.

Having your Disney trip to plan is probably the best thing for you with everything you have going on with your mom. As much as you want to help your mom, you do have to remember to have some time for just you and your famly.

Yes, I think you're right about the trip planning. Helping my mom is a must for me, but now I'm learning how to put me first as one too. I'm a much better wife, mom, friend for it.

When my dad passed away in 2008, I had the trip to plan and talk to our friends about (they were going with us) and it helped ease the pain of my dad fading away from us. I don't know if you'll recall, but he passed away the week before our trip and I really wanted to cancel the whole thing. But the last thing my dad was able to say to me about three weeks before he left us was that he wanted us to do this trip no matter what and it is what got me through.

I don't think we knew one another back when your dad passed, I think it was right before our 2010 trip that we connected. But I do remember you talking about your dad to someone else going through the same thing. I'm so grateful for you and so many other Dis friends/brothers-sisters.

I love all the colors you have going, it's a good theme! All positive life affirming colors if you ask me on the dress, I love it when something comes together like that and it's so pretty! Just think with the new price, your necklace was free!

Thank you! I certainly wasn't trying to do it, but found it funny I had. The dress coming together the way it did is such a blessing, and I never thought about the necklace being free now. Although, that won't stop me from keeping my eye out for it going on sale.

Shopping is so therapeutic, isn't it?

It sure can be! Now that I've lost a lot of weight it has been, use to be a chore.


So glad you listened to your nagging fears and returned the dress. What a bonus!

I truly felt it was God prompting me to take it back. I realize some will think that sounds crazy, but that's just how He works in my life sometimes. He's such a good God.

Love all the T's too!

Thank you, I thought they were pretty cute.

 

[Skybabyy]

Christian counseling is a dream!! I would love to be able to do that someday as well. Don't count yourself out of any dream yet, you never know what God has in store! Plus add a little pixie dust and determination, and we can do anything!! Well... most anything <3

Yes, I love to sing and act and hope to take a little while off to pursue small dreams in those areas. Like maybe being a performer at Disneyland or part of a community theatre close to home!

I'm super happy to have found you. I am catching up as I type this on your adventure to Disney. I am so so so excited for you!! I can't wait to read your actual trip report too!

I'm so sorry to read about your mom. I will most definitely keep her in my prayers. It's the hardest when the people we love are sick, especially when they are so much a part of us. Never think you are saying too much about anything, everyone is here for you. <3

Also, your new dress is TOTAL WIN!!

 

[Millie12591]

Christian counseling is a dream!! I would love to be able to do that someday as well. Don't count yourself out of any dream yet, you never know what God has in store! Plus add a little pixie dust and determination, and we can do anything!! Well... most anything <3

This is true. You never know what God has up His sleeve when it comes to Him accomplishing in us what He put us here to do.

Yes, I love to sing and act and hope to take a little while off to pursue small dreams in those areas. Like maybe being a performer at Disneyland or part of a community theatre close to home!

Oh! That would be so amazing! I would so totally come see you perform! Just let me know when you get the part!!


I'm super happy to have found you. I am catching up as I type this on your adventure to Disney. I am so so so excited for you!! I can't wait to read your actual trip report too!

Debbie, I'm so glad you came into my PTR. You are such a sweetheart. Can't wait to report on the trip!

I'm so sorry to read about your mom. I will most definitely keep her in my prayers. It's the hardest when the people we love are sick, especially when they are so much a part of us. Never think you are saying too much about anything, everyone is here for you. <3

You are so sweet, thank you for being such a support. The Dis is probably the best when it comes to supporting one another, I don't know what I'd do without y'all.

Also, your new dress is TOTAL WIN!!

It truly was a TOTAL WIN!! I'm so grateful it worked out the way it did.

 

[that's nice]

Just stopping in Millie...

Still sending prayers to your mom and your family.

Nice steal on the dress. $40? Score!!!! It looks nice too.

 

[Millie12591]

Just stopping in Millie...

Still sending prayers to your mom and your family.

Nice steal on the dress. $40? Score!!!! It looks nice too.

Thank you Tim I'm so glad you did. I can feel all the prayers, it's probably what has been getting us all through this.

And thank you for the kind words about the dress. I know how hard that must have been for you to talk shopping.

Hope all is well with you, Mel and the kiddos. Kiss the babies for me!

 

[Millie12591]

Not trying to avoid y'all.

It was a tough week being on the go everyday, Friday ended up being an entire day lost with Dr. appts and the cancer clinic. And to top it all this weekend Mackenzie had dance contest all day Sat.
I love my daughter and I support her in whatever she does, but I can not sit on a bleacher for more than an hour without feeling like my spine has been shoved up inbetween my ears, I have bones that hurt in my backside that I didn't know I had!!

And they do it all again this next Sat. , except much closer to home. Thank goodness, this way I can go home between dances.

This will be another week of daily runs to radiation for mom. Hopefully nothing else will be an issue, last week my mom had to go to the hospital by way of ambulance because she couldn't stand or walk, she thought her hip broke.
I guess it turned out to be the tumors had pushed things out of place and when they went back into place (by way of loud popping-which caused her to think it broke) it caused a lot of pain and she couldn't walk on it for a day. I can't imagine what the EMS people thought when they saw her spiral staircase up to her apt.
The first thing they asked my brother once they got her down was if they were going to move her into another place.

My weight loss is at a total stand still, which worries me for the clothes I've already bought. I'll start back to physical therapy this week (some how fit it around my mom's appts.) for my knees and forearms. My knees have been really painful all of a sudden and my forearms have been giving me trouble off and on for the past month or so, I guess I have the start of not carpal tunnel but another form, but in my forearms. Hopefully p.t. will get me back on track, I feel like a total blob since I'm only getting in about two cardio workouts a week. Pray this will change soon, I have at the very least another 15 lb.'s to get off before the trip.

Gotta run, need to get going to my mom's appt.

 

[Alysa]

Hi Millie, Just dropped in to say I'm proud of you!

 

[TarzansKat]

You're awesome, and amazing, and you can do it!

Sometimes we all need a little cheerleading!

 

[Millie12591]

Hi Millie, Just dropped in to say I'm proud of you!

You're awesome, and amazing, and you can do it!

Sometimes we all need a little cheerleading!

Y'all are so sweet.

You girls knew what I needed even before I knew I needed it!

I have to say I've felt like a failure not being able to really workout over the last few weeks. I realize now how much I tie my feeling good about my body to my working out. Which is good to motivate me to keep doing it in the long run, but really stinky when it comes to wanting to hit a decent goal by the trip.
Yes, I realize losing 75 lb. is a big deal, I just had it in my head it would be more. Having already scaled back on my goal from being 25 more to 15 was hard enough, now I feel I may not even make that.
It's hard to come back into the swing of losing once you've stopped working out for a while.
Silly me, I need to celebrate what I've done so far and be happy with it until I can change it again.

Thank you for the support, I guess I'm just having a pity party day. I don't have them often, but when I do....

 

[zanzibar138]

Oh I missed your shopping update! What a great story and so fantastic that you ended up getting exactly what you wanted for such a bargain price! And I think that necklace is beautiful with the dress - can't wait to see it on

Hopefully your mum isn't in so much pain for much longer. It's perfectly acceptable (in fact, necessary) for you to put your own health and family first on occasion too. You'll be no help to anyone if you don't look after yourself! Sending

 

[MEK]

Don't be so hard on yourself about being at a plateau right now. That happens to everyone.

Glad your mom is OK. That hip pain sounds scary!

 

[kaoden39]

Camille, don't be so hard on yourself! You have done amazing! It isn't always easy and well that's good because you appreciate it far more.

Isn't it strange how things like your knees didn't hurt as much until you lost weight? I don't understand it but I have been through it.


Keep up the good work!! I hope the PT helps.

 

[TarzansKat]

A pity party is okay, believe me. We all need them every now and then.

And not to be a naysayer, because working out is good for many reasons, number one being your health and well being. I know I feel better when I work out, all those endorphins!

But the fact of the matter is that 95% of what we see in the mirror is what we eat. Will working out help you lose weight faster? Sure! But as long as you're eating healthy, hon, do NOT beat yourself up about lack of time right now. You are on a good road, and you will get back on track when you can. I know you will!

 

[pooh'smate]

Millie, I am all caught up. I already sent you little note on FB but I just wanted to let you know I am all caught up. You can do it!!!! I love all the clothes you bought for your trip so far. I am praying for your mom and all of your family.

 

[maroo]

Hey peeps!!!!



Long time no see!!

I am just dropping in to say hello and that I miss you guys very much! I have a ton to catch up on! Running to read!

 

[maroo]

3 Months, people!!!

Maroo called me today and reminded me it was three monts!! Hee hee!

YES!! I am getting so excited!

As some of you know, my mom was diagnosed with breast and lung cancer back in Oct. of 2011. She's been doing treatment and doing well, or so we thought.

We found out today the cancer (I never say "her cancer," it's like you are owning it when you say it's yours or someone else's-I won't give into saying it's my mom's cancer-ever) has come back and come back with a vengeance. It's all through out her body now, in her bones, and I think now in her left lung (they removed her right upper lobe last year).
Needless to say, since I'm at home, I'll be taking her to all her appts., they want to start radiation right away so it will be every day of me driving 25 mins. out of my way to get her to bring her all the way back into town to then drive her downtown another 20 mins away.
It's exhausting just thinking about it, and yes I realize it makes me sound like a selfish bee for saying it, but that is what I'm up against. (I think you all know a bit about my mom's and my history by reading the report at the start)
Well, that and a mother who is in so much pain she has to be on morphine 24/7, needless to say I won't be concentrating on exercise or much of anything else for a while. Just my momma, bless her heart, and her health.

Everyone I know on FB (that's on here) have all been so wonderful to lift us up in prayer, I can't thank you enough. I can sure use a few more to get through this, I realize what we're up against, I'm not hiding my head in the sand on that one.
It's hard to watch someone who you love (and drives you totally crazy) going through pain and suffering.

My mom has taught me being tough is all in the mind, everything can be delt with so long as you have the right mindset, probably why I've been able to get through this weight loss (and many other things) journey like I have.

If you think of us, keep us lifted up. I don't want to be derailed on my weight loss journey now, but I know I'll do what I have to help my mom. I suppose the weight can.....well, wait. Yes, I know, bad timing for humor. But sometimes, humor is all you have left.

My love to you all.

This just tears me up! I hate this stuff! I work at a cancer clinic every day and never get "used" to hearing the "P" word - I really hate cancer.

I need to remember not to claim the cancer as "hers" or "mine" or anything like that - I forget that bit of wisdom!!


Love you, girl! And I really hope you are taking care of yourself - You can't be there for her unless you take care of you first.

I gotta run... and I won't be on here tomorrow... but I miss you guys and hope to be around here more!

 

[Millie12591]

Oh I missed your shopping update! What a great story and so fantastic that you ended up getting exactly what you wanted for such a bargain price! And I think that necklace is beautiful with the dress - can't wait to see it on

Hi Lana! So good to see you again. No worries about missing an update, when ever you can make it is good. I so love that dress!!
I can't wait to have pictures in it so you all can see how it turns out. Hopefully my seriously white arms won't take away from it. Wish there was a healthy way to be tan.

Hopefully your mum isn't in so much pain for much longer. It's perfectly acceptable (in fact, necessary) for you to put your own health and family first on occasion too. You'll be no help to anyone if you don't look after yourself! Sending

Yes, I hope so too. I can't imagine what she must be going through.
Lana, thank you sooo much. I so needed to hear this from y'all. The support from all my Dis brothers and sisters has truly helped me see reason in all of this.

Don't be so hard on yourself about being at a plateau right now. That happens to everyone.

Glad your mom is OK. That hip pain sounds scary!

Thank you Mary Ellen, I know I shouldn't but it's hard to give up what you know will help get you there. But! It's not the end of the world and I'm truly blessed to have come as far as I have.
My mom's hip pain is the last to subside to a greater extent, but she is getting there. Thank the Lord.

Camille, don't be so hard on yourself! You have done amazing! It isn't always easy and well that's good because you appreciate it far more.

Yes I do!! And thank you for your support, I truly appreciate your words of encouragement right now. I'm so blessed by the news about your hubby, it's hearing news like his that keeps me holding on to hope for my mom. How is he feeling, how are you, any planning?

Isn't it strange how things like your knees didn't hurt as much until you lost weight? I don't understand it but I have been through it.

This will be the second go around with this! But it's all good, as long as I don't go to WDW in pain or stay in pain as I'm still working toward my goal.


Keep up the good work!! I hope the PT helps.

You and me both, Michele. I'm sure it will, my p.t. is so good at what she does.

A pity party is okay, believe me. We all need them every now and then.

I hear you, but I hate it when I go there. I have soooo much in my life to be grateful for and blessed by, so when I go down that path I feel like a real heel.

And not to be a naysayer, because working out is good for many reasons, number one being your health and well being. I know I feel better when I work out, all those endorphins!

YES! You get it. I'm sure a lot of people do, I just feel so much better about myself when I'm working out. Speaking of feeling better, how are you doing, sweetie? How is the p.t. for your leg coming along?

But the fact of the matter is that 95% of what we see in the mirror is what we eat. Will working out help you lose weight faster? Sure! But as long as you're eating healthy, hon, do NOT beat yourself up about lack of time right now. You are on a good road, and you will get back on track when you can. I know you will!

Thank you so much, TK. And you are so right, I'm still eating healthy so I'm hopeful to keep pushing forward! I'll tell y'all more on this in a bit.

Millie, I am all caught up. I already sent you little note on FB but I just wanted to let you know I am all caught up. You can do it!!!! I love all the clothes you bought for your trip so far. I am praying for your mom and all of your family.

I'm pretty sure I haven't said this to you yet....

Ms. Jessica, you helped make my day, I'm so proud and happy for you!! This was such a good day!! I also bought a few more things the other day, nothing too exciting but still things I thought were cute. Thank you kindly for your prayers, they are much needed for sure, not to mention how much we feel them as my mom progresses through this. I'm sure they are what is sustaining her/us.

Hey peeps!!!!



Long time no see!!

I am just dropping in to say hello and that I miss you guys very much! I have a ton to catch up on! Running to read!

I'm so glad you were able to stop in. I know how silly busy your life is.

YES!! I am getting so excited!

I KNOW!!!

This just tears me up! I hate this stuff! I work at a cancer clinic every day and never get "used" to hearing the "P" word - I really hate cancer.

Yeaaaah, it's not something anyone hears and gets use to. I just saw a commercial today that shows people hearing there is a cure for cancer and how you'll always remember where you were and what you were doing when you hear it.....I was in total tears thinking about how amazing that news would be and that we'd all certainly remember the day when we hear cancer has been cured. Please Lord, bring it about! On earth as it is in heaven.

I need to remember not to claim the cancer as "hers" or "mine" or anything like that - I forget that bit of wisdom!!

I believe our words have great power, not as powerful as God's, but we are made in His image so our words do have power!! Our words can bring life or death to ourselves and others. I choose life!!

Love you, girl! And I really hope you are taking care of yourself - You can't be there for her unless you take care of you first.

I love you too, babe! And you are right, giving myself what I need first helps me be of use and good for others who need me.

I gotta run... and I won't be on here tomorrow... but I miss you guys and hope to be around here more!

Glad you could make it over here for a bit. Stop by when ever you get the chance.

 

[Millie12591]

I wanted to share with y'all what a great day I had after having a pity party for one the other day.

First off, I braved a workout lastnight!! I modified it a bit in a couple of different ways (less weight while doing the weights) and didn't hit things as hard as I usually do and I survived!! The best part.....I didn't wake up in pain!! And I felt soooo much better for having worked out!

I also did cardio tonight and I'm waiting to see how that turns out, so far the knees are holding up. This may have to be the one thing I do have to give up for a bit, but we'll see. And to top it off, I got on the scale and had dropped the couple of lb.'s I gained over the last few weeks. I feel like I can see moving forward again.

The prayers and support must be in full swing because I had a much better outlook on today. Thank you all soooo much for your prayers (especially for my mom), words of encouragement and for helping me through a snit.
I don't know what I'd do without y'all.

 

[Skybabyy]

Keep going honey!!!! You got this!! We are all so proud and awed by you! Don't worry about the times when you can't, in the end those won't matter. You are doing a great job!!