two years tomorrow that my grandmother has been gone

[summersweeti3889]

Tomorrow- July 3rd will be the 2nd year my grandmother has been gone. It is really hard for me....

my grandmothers birthday was june 27th. 2 years ago we were going to be in disney world on her birthday, so we decided to have a birthday dinner for her before we left. I beleive it was the 23rd that we went out to this fancy resturant. My cousin was only 4 at the time, i was 13 and my brother was 18. Anyway, thant night i was at dinner with my grandparents, cousin, and alot of family... I remember the whole thing exactly but i wont explain it all. I remember sitting, eating my hamburger (that was horrible!) and my grandma said, "I just want to live to see Amy (me) graduate, Charles (my brother) to get married, and Hilary ( my aunt) to have a baby." Everyone was saying, dont worry, youll live for a very long time. later, everyone went home. I remember waking up the next morning with my dad sitting on my bed and he said "amy, somthing happend" i was so scared someone had died. but he told me that last night my grandma and grandpa got home, grandma felt dizzy and fainted. later we were told, she didnt faint, but she went straight into a coma. i was terrified. my grandma was not a healthy person so this didnt help matters. family from all over the country came and we all sat in the waiting room, waiting. it turns out she had a stroke, and 3 brain annurisms. the doctors didnt know if she would live or not. that was the first time i ever saw my grandpa cry. i was hysterical crying it was just so horrible bc i was extremly close to her. every conversation we had would always end in her saying "i love you" so the doctors explained that if she got out of a coma, she would basically be a vegetable and not be able to do anything bc she had so much brain damage. so, she was still in a coma on her birthday. i was sure that june 27th, she would wake up and be okay. i sat in the intesive care unit room with her holding her hands and i told her if she could ehar me, squeeze my hand and she did, and i was so excited, but the doctor ruined it for me and said "oh, thats just a normal reflex, she cant feel anything" it was horrible. we canceled our trip. jul third we lost her. once again i woke up with my dad sitting on my bed and he had tears in his eyes and said "grandma went to heaven last night" every time i think about it i cry hysterically. i just feel that it helps to get this stuff out. so anyone- i know how your parents always say, oh, lets go visit grandma and grandpa today, well dont argue, go see your grandparents hug them and tell them you love them because you never know when they may leave you.

 

[VaGal]

Although I'm not one to say I know what you are going through, I can certainly say I sympathize with you. I lost my grandmother 4 yrs ago, a few days before Christmas and til this day I still think about her and miss her very much. I totally agree with you Tell them you love them and give lots of hugs whenever you can because you never know what tomorrow holds.

 

[mommytotwo]

I understand how it feels to lose a grandparent. I had lost two of them when I was younger and miss them sooo much. I have one grandma left, but she lives all the way in Japan, so I'm not sure if I will get the chance to see her again or not, but she is now in her later 90s. Your story mad me teary and you can tell how much you cared for your grandma and of how much she cared for her family wanting to see you graduate, ....
I now these days will be hard and it will bring back alot of memories, but think of the happy times you had with her and hopefully it will make things easier for you. :hugs:

 

[Serena]

 

[helenabear]

 

[summersweeti3889]

thank you all for making me feel better

 

[Dan Murphy]

Thanks for sharing some nice thoughts there, Amy. You sound like you were very close to grandma, your wonderful memories will live on forever.