TTC thread take 2

[tinytreasures]

I am praying for you Chernabog#1fan
It is so hard knowing there is someone waiting out there that needs you and you can't be with them.
I am sure it will be a change for the children but thankfully you understand that and will help them as they need it

 

[Chernabog#1fan]

I am praying for you Chernabog#1fan
It is so hard knowing there is someone waiting out there that needs you and you can't be with them.
I am sure it will be a change for the children but thankfully you understand that and will help them as they need it

Thank you The kids should find out about us tomorrow and I am hoping it may help ease part of the pain they are feeling over their loss.

 

[D&DDisney]

I am having a really hard night tonight. My husband and I are adopting a sibling group from South Carolina. The do not know about us yet and we have known about them for 3 months tomorrow. South Carolina should get the clearance to tell them on Monday and we should be able to meet them in the next week or 2.

The reason I am sad is because it was my son's birthday on this past week and we were not able to be there to celebrate with him and he does not know that it was the last birthday he would have to celebrate without parents. Then we got a horrific phone call this morning. Both kids are in pain because one of the girls that live in the group home they are at died in a car accident last night. I am so sad for them and it hurts to not be able to comfort them at all. The girl that passed away has a birthday this month and they were going to have a birthday party for our son and her this month. He also had a crush on her. Our daughter shared a cabin with her, so it is hard for her as well.

Please keep them in your prayers as I can not imagine what they must be feeling and then for them to hear they are leaving everything they know for an unknown future and family in the next few weeks is going to be hard on them. They have had so much loss in their short life.

Thank you all for listening.

Hang in there. Will keep the kids in my prayers.

 

[cherbear]

I am having a really hard night tonight. My husband and I are adopting a sibling group from South Carolina. The do not know about us yet and we have known about them for 3 months tomorrow. South Carolina should get the clearance to tell them on Monday and we should be able to meet them in the next week or 2.

The reason I am sad is because it was my son's birthday on this past week and we were not able to be there to celebrate with him and he does not know that it was the last birthday he would have to celebrate without parents. Then we got a horrific phone call this morning. Both kids are in pain because one of the girls that live in the group home they are at died in a car accident last night. I am so sad for them and it hurts to not be able to comfort them at all. The girl that passed away has a birthday this month and they were going to have a birthday party for our son and her this month. He also had a crush on her. Our daughter shared a cabin with her, so it is hard for her as well.

Please keep them in your prayers as I can not imagine what they must be feeling and then for them to hear they are leaving everything they know for an unknown future and family in the next few weeks is going to be hard on them. They have had so much loss in their short life.

Thank you all for listening.

they're in my prayers.


Sorry everyone that I've been scarce. It's Mardi Gras time 'round here and my inlaws are in town. I probably won't be posting again til Wednesday night or Thursday!

 

[shruley]

Thank you all so very much for all your kind words. I was so crushed when the Dr called to tell me the news. I actually had to go again this morning for a second blood test to confirm the beta of 5. It is almost like a slap in the face in the sense that I get to hear again that it is negative I was also POAS, which I will not do again when they say not to, b/c I was getting faint positives all the way up till my blood test so I kind of had my hopes up.

The worst part is this Dr that I have been going to was a second opinion Dr and I had switched to him.
Back when I had the ectopic, I was seeing this one Dr. He had scheduled me for a Laparotomy and a myomectomy to remove my bad tube from the ectopic, repair the other one and remove a fibroid I have that is outside of my uterus. I went to get a second opinion and this other Dr who I am seeing now said that my fibroid didnt need to come out as it wasnt inside my uterus and didnt feel it would affect anything as he sees many people that have fibroids become pregnant. So he would then perform a less invasive Laparoscopy surgery to just remove my one tube and repair the other and leave the fibroid. Bceause I liked the lesser of the surgeries and was scared I stayed with him.

Now with the laparoscopy surgery, 4 failed IUI's, and one failed IVF he now wants to revisit removing my fibroid. I just feel so drained and am wishing I had had this surgery to begin with. It has been 3 long years of disappointment after disappointment and I don't know how much more I can take. Not to mention the IUIs and IVF were out of pocket.

Sorry this is so long I just needed to vent.

VEnt away!! I haven't been through nearly as much as you, and I'm still feeling really tired at this point! Like I don't know how much more I can do. I have an appointment with the actual Fertility Specialist today. I'm hoping that inspires me, or gives me some kind of strength to keep going. Because right now it's fading! I think it's just really hard to look back at the money you spent and the pain you endured and think you could have been doing whatever and partying it up and gotten the same results! In case you can't tell, I'm having my own pity party. My husband told me yesterday I'm bitter, and I SO don't want to be!!!

Sarah

 

[More Magic Please]

I am having a really hard night tonight. My husband and I are adopting a sibling group from South Carolina. The do not know about us yet and we have known about them for 3 months tomorrow. South Carolina should get the clearance to tell them on Monday and we should be able to meet them in the next week or 2.

The reason I am sad is because it was my son's birthday on this past week and we were not able to be there to celebrate with him and he does not know that it was the last birthday he would have to celebrate without parents. Then we got a horrific phone call this morning. Both kids are in pain because one of the girls that live in the group home they are at died in a car accident last night. I am so sad for them and it hurts to not be able to comfort them at all. The girl that passed away has a birthday this month and they were going to have a birthday party for our son and her this month. He also had a crush on her. Our daughter shared a cabin with her, so it is hard for her as well.

Please keep them in your prayers as I can not imagine what they must be feeling and then for them to hear they are leaving everything they know for an unknown future and family in the next few weeks is going to be hard on them. They have had so much loss in their short life.

Thank you all for listening.

You are all in my prayers! Out of tragedy something wonderful will happen and you and your husband will be able to bring the light of family happiness into the lives of these children. God Bless all of you!

 

[More Magic Please]

I've lost and regained the same 15-20 lbs so many times over the last 6 years, I've lost count. But I've heard that many women who are able to loose a little weight, even 10-15 lbs, have an easier time TTC. So that's my goal - 15 lbs. We'll see how it goes...

Hi Ladies ~ Just wanted to give you a page from my book of "Been there done that!" Please keep in mind 2 things, 1st. You are all under a tremendous amount of pressure right now. Yes, sometimes exercise does releive stress but sometimes a nice bowl of ice cream can accomplish the same thing. Don't beat yourselves up to much about it if you see saw a little. 2nd. If you have started any type, and I mean any type of fertility drugs, from over the counter to perscription you will gain weight. This is not something you can control You may want to try a low glycemic diet in the mean time. U may not lose weight initially, however, in the long run it will helps to curb high blood sugars and calories. My RE nurse told me when I started on the fertility drugs to buy a few cute sun dresses from target and old navy, get my hair done and hang on for the ride! It's a doozy! Also please invest in 30 spf. Your skin becomes more sensitive to the sun as well, I'm talken even with just taking BCPs. They are a whole different animal from what you are used to!

xo
E

 

[More Magic Please]

VEnt away!! I haven't been through nearly as much as you, and I'm still feeling really tired at this point! Like I don't know how much more I can do. I have an appointment with the actual Fertility Specialist today. I'm hoping that inspires me, or gives me some kind of strength to keep going. Because right now it's fading! I think it's just really hard to look back at the money you spent and the pain you endured and think you could have been doing whatever and partying it up and gotten the same results! In case you can't tell, I'm having my own pity party. My husband told me yesterday I'm bitter, and I SO don't want to be!!!

Sarah

This place is the best place in the world to have your pity party! Pull up a comfy chair and vent away. One of the things that has always helped is getting a plan. This is not to say that the plan always works or has no hitches but at least it is something to work off of. It is easy, so easy to look back and see the failure, however, and remember easier said than done, I know, if it helps look at it like this. The cost of REGRET is much higher, the cost of never trying, the cost of not knowing is much higher then the monitary cost. We have all had failures. With the failures sometime come answers and new directions. New directions are always scarey and take some time to get used to but they can also be incredible journeys and lead you to a place you never thought would be so wonderful

Don't give up! Vent, Chill, Take a Break, Do it all, but don't give up! Your dreams are worth it. You may not get your dreams the way you thought, God knows I haven't, but there is an answer for all of you!

I think of you all and pray for you! I'm still scared outta my poo and probably will be for a while!

Take care ya'll!
xo
E

 

[cc1013]

Sorry I've been MIA lately. DH and I just got back from a trip to California this weekend. We took the chance to get away while I'm on BCP prepping for our first IVF in April. I'm just catching up, so please forgive me if I've missed some posts.

Jenm2878 - My heart is broken for your loss. I will be praying for you.

Cheri - Love your new signature. You are very empowering!!!

Gabbie - So glad to hear you might get some insurance coverage! Every little bit helps. Also happy to hear you found a new dentist given your recent dental issues. I still find your previous dentist's reaction so unbelievable!!!


Joanne312 - I hope the injectibles give you great results! Fingers crossed!

ckret01 - So sorry to hear about your beta and possible future surgery. I sincerely hope things start looking up for you. This can be such a rough path.

smi727 - Welcome to the group! Sorry you have to go on this journey, but the women here are very helpful and supportive.

ead79 - What dosage of clomid where you on? I've heard that many people don't react right away and it can take 2 or three dosage increases to see a change. Fingers crossed for you!

Chernabog - I admire you for opening up your home to this sibling group. It must be so difficult for you to not be able to comfort them right now. They are lucky to be joining your family. I'll keep you in my thoughts.

Shruley - Hope your appointment today goes well!

And last but not least E - Hope things are going well for you!

-Christine

 

[smi727]

My RE nurse told me when I started on the fertility drugs to buy a few cute sun dresses from target and old navy, get my hair done and hang on for the ride! It's a doozy! Also please invest in 30 spf. Your skin becomes more sensitive to the sun as well, I'm talken even with just taking BCPs. They are a whole different animal from what you are used to!

xo
E

I've already got some sundresses and skirts that I can wear no matter what my weight is. And I already have fair, sensitive skin. I wear AT LEAST 30 spf year-round and more like 50 in the summer. I've looked into a low glycemic diet. I've tried a few (weight watchers, south beach, etc.) and I've had results with all of them. It's just when I go off the diet - well... I go WAY off. I'm going to try to get exercise to be more of a routine and then I'll consult my MD about what diet would be best for me.

 

[cc1013]

I've already got some sundresses and skirts that I can wear no matter what my weight is. And I already have fair, sensitive skin. I wear AT LEAST 30 spf year-round and more like 50 in the summer. I've looked into a low glycemic diet. I've tried a few (weight watchers, south beach, etc.) and I've had results with all of them. It's just when I go off the diet - well... I go WAY off. I'm going to try to get exercise to be more of a routine and then I'll consult my MD about what diet would be best for me.

The weight gain with IVF totally stresses me out. I always struggle with my weight and have gained about 12 pounds in the last 18 months. Granted, that 12 pound gain was from my lowest weight ever and I'm more at a 'normal' level now, but it just freaks me out. As it is, I don't go on the scale b/c I obsess about it (the 12 is from my last scale check a few months ago and I am pretty sure I haven't changed since). I guess I will just eat really healthy for the next 3 weeks before we begin the injectibles for IVF. That way a gain won't seem as bad. I know this is all for a great reason and once we get a BFP, it will all be worth it. It's just that when I have to put my dress pants on in the morning before work and they are tight, I fixate on it. Ugh!

 

[cherbear]

The weight gain with IVF totally stresses me out. I always struggle with my weight and have gained about 12 pounds in the last 18 months. Granted, that 12 pound gain was from my lowest weight ever and I'm more at a 'normal' level now, but it just freaks me out. As it is, I don't go on the scale b/c I obsess about it (the 12 is from my last scale check a few months ago and I am pretty sure I haven't changed since). I guess I will just eat really healthy for the next 3 weeks before we begin the injectibles for IVF. That way a gain won't seem as bad. I know this is all for a great reason and once we get a BFP, it will all be worth it. It's just that when I have to put my dress pants on in the morning before work and they are tight, I fixate on it. Ugh!

HUUUUGE DITTO. I am the same way with my work clothes....even when they do "fit", I don't look nice in anything anymore. It just doesn't fit RIGHT.

 

[cc1013]

HUUUUGE DITTO. I am the same way with my work clothes....even when they do "fit", I don't look nice in anything anymore. It just doesn't fit RIGHT.

Cheri - How was the weight gain with your previous IVF cycle? Just curious how extreme it got.....

 

[ead79]

ead79 - What dosage of clomid where you on? I've heard that many people don't react right away and it can take 2 or three dosage increases to see a change. Fingers crossed for you!

I was on 50 mg. They are increasing it to 100 mg for next month. I'm hoping it does the trick!

 

[tinytreasures]

Thank you The kids should find out about us tomorrow and I am hoping it may help ease part of the pain they are feeling over their loss.

Hope they took in news well. Please keep us updated.

Vent away!! I haven't been through nearly as much as you, and I'm still feeling really tired at this point! Like I don't know how much more I can do. I have an appointment with the actual Fertility Specialist today. I'm hoping that inspires me, or gives me some kind of strength to keep going. Because right now it's fading! I think it's just really hard to look back at the money you spent and the pain you endured and think you could have been doing whatever and partying it up and gotten the same results! In case you can't tell, I'm having my own pity party. My husband told me yesterday I'm bitter, and I SO don't want to be!!!

Sarah

Hope your appointment went okay today

 

[ead79]

I am having a really hard night tonight. My husband and I are adopting a sibling group from South Carolina. The do not know about us yet and we have known about them for 3 months tomorrow. South Carolina should get the clearance to tell them on Monday and we should be able to meet them in the next week or 2.

The reason I am sad is because it was my son's birthday on this past week and we were not able to be there to celebrate with him and he does not know that it was the last birthday he would have to celebrate without parents. Then we got a horrific phone call this morning. Both kids are in pain because one of the girls that live in the group home they are at died in a car accident last night. I am so sad for them and it hurts to not be able to comfort them at all. The girl that passed away has a birthday this month and they were going to have a birthday party for our son and her this month. He also had a crush on her. Our daughter shared a cabin with her, so it is hard for her as well.

Please keep them in your prayers as I can not imagine what they must be feeling and then for them to hear they are leaving everything they know for an unknown future and family in the next few weeks is going to be hard on them. They have had so much loss in their short life.

Thank you all for listening.

I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of their friend--I can certainly understand it hitting them hard. Prayers are on the way for all the kids affected by this.

Prayers are with them as they find out about you and make the transition to being your children. What a blessing you will be to them and they will be to you!

 

[shruley]

Ok, so I went in yesterday for an exam with the Advanced Practice Nurse, who is the "fertility specialist" in our town. The closest fertility clinics are about 1.5-2 hours away in the Cities, and she is affiliated with one of those. She can do everything in her office up to IUIs on her own, and if you need an IVF cycle, she does all the local monitoring, etc. for the Clinic in the Cities. My friends who have seen her, love her!

So, I asked her when it was time to start actual treatment, and she told me it was time. I have an "initial infertility appointment" next week, that she said will take about 1.5-2 hours! She said we'd make a full plan at that appointment for the next cycle, but some things she mentioned were ultrasound to check ovulation (I already know I have low progesterone, and she stated she wonders if it's a result of ovulation issues), HSG, and meds that would stimulate me to ovulate on both sides (I only have one functioning tube...birth defect, but my body still tries to ovulate on that side).

I told my husband I'm really sad that I'm at that point, I guess offically "infertile" and needing treatment, yet happy to have the opportunity to make a plan and get some help in moving forward! The more time that goes on, the more I think I'm leaning towards happy!

 

[Falltime]

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I have been extremely sick since returning from Disneyland and Oprah's Oscar Party show. I had a slight cold before I left but was getting over it but with the record cold temps in CA and being out in the weather all day it reactivated it and it came back worse than ever. I was so sick that I had to take off of work all last week as I was so out of it. Anyway still had a great time at Disneyland and the Oprah show was a lot of fun (nope she didn't give the audience anything and I wasn't expecting her to either) You wouldn't believe how many people are complaining about the show on Oprah's website that they didn't get a free gift. Sheesh!

We got the BDing business done while in CA too! I go in Friday for the beta blood test. I don't have my hopes up high though and I am not going to test like I did last month. Either way I am fine with it, at least the injectibles are working with my PCOS condition and I was able to ovulate 2 eggs which I am happy about that. If it doesn't work this month we'll just try again. Although my DH is going out of the country for 2 weeks on business at the end of the month exactly at the same time it would be his part to play. So if it didn't work this cycle it will be April before we will be able to try again.

Since the weight issue has been brought up I am curious what your Dr's have said is an ideal weight. My OB wanted me to be down to 170 lbs before even starting the TTC journey and I am 5' 8". I was able to get down to that weight with the help of diet and exercise and also being put on Metformin. That stuff really curbs your appetite plus helps with other PCOS conditions and I have been able to maintain my weight at that level for 2 years. I only exercised for the first 6 months and would really like to lose 20 more pounds so if things don't work out this month, I am going to restart my exercise routine.

 

[Kennywife]

Can I just say I have the BEST neurologist ever?

My neuro is going to put me on Lyrica during my AF and stressful times to help with seizures....it did a world of good! They stopped!!!!

More good news....the cost....0. He's giving me samples so I don't have to pay for them. They cost $300!

He said if, not when I see that pink line, to call him and discontinue Lyrica immediately. He's as excited about this ttc thing as me and Kenny are I think! lol. I've been his patient forever and he can't wait to put up our kids baby pics.

Gabbie

 

[shruley]

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I have been extremely sick since returning from Disneyland and Oprah's Oscar Party show. I had a slight cold before I left but was getting over it but with the record cold temps in CA and being out in the weather all day it reactivated it and it came back worse than ever. I was so sick that I had to take off of work all last week as I was so out of it. Anyway still had a great time at Disneyland and the Oprah show was a lot of fun (nope she didn't give the audience anything and I wasn't expecting her to either) You wouldn't believe how many people are complaining about the show on Oprah's website that they didn't get a free gift. Sheesh!

We got the BDing business done while in CA too! I go in Friday for the beta blood test. I don't have my hopes up high though and I am not going to test like I did last month. Either way I am fine with it, at least the injectibles are working with my PCOS condition and I was able to ovulate 2 eggs which I am happy about that. If it doesn't work this month we'll just try again. Although my DH is going out of the country for 2 weeks on business at the end of the month exactly at the same time it would be his part to play. So if it didn't work this cycle it will be April before we will be able to try again.

Since the weight issue has been brought up I am curious what your Dr's have said is an ideal weight. My OB wanted me to be down to 170 lbs before even starting the TTC journey and I am 5' 8". I was able to get down to that weight with the help of diet and exercise and also being put on Metformin. That stuff really curbs your appetite plus helps with other PCOS conditions and I have been able to maintain my weight at that level for 2 years. I only exercised for the first 6 months and would really like to lose 20 more pounds so if things don't work out this month, I am going to restart my exercise routine.

Sorry about being sick! We are all just getting over colds here, too, I'm tired of winter and being sick! Finger's crossed for Friday! (We need a little finger crossing smilie on here!)

I, too, would be curious about weight. I'm 5'4" and about 142 right now. My doctor didn't comment on my weight but asked about my diet this past week. I told her it was horrible, but that I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't drink caffine or even pop, I don't use Ibuprofin anymore (even when I broke my tailbone!), I take a ton of huge supplements every day that make me gag, and my breasts are so sore for the weeks on Progesterone I can't even roll over in bed. I said eating fast food and chocolate is all I have left right now. She didn't say anything else to me after that! I know my diet should be better but I just haven't had it in me lately.