Toystoryduo’s Journal: Baby Steps are the Key... Celebrate Each Victory!

[eeyore25]

Hi Tracy,

Sorry to hear that things are so hectic for you. Hopefully things will slow down and you can have some family time without all the running around.
That book sounds like it will be good, looking over those 10 items, I am gulity of a lot of them too. Especially #4, only I don't want the fries or the broccoli. I just can't get into that veggie!!!!

Your goals look great! Keep up the good work!

Have a great day

 

[toystoryduo]

Good morning WISH sisters,

Weigh in did not go as planned. My DH is down 5 pounds since we started this Power 90 stuff and I am up 3 pounds. I just don't understand. It is very, very discouraging to step on that scale and to be faced with a higher number week after week. Something needs to give here.

Today's Plan:

* Homeschool

* Workout: done

* Garage sales

* Go to work with DH

Thanks for your good thoughts and prayers. My DH got home last night @ 11:00 p.m. safe and sound. (He left home at 3:30 a.m. )

My goal of losing 20-25 pounds before WDW in September has turned into a 34 pound loss needed to hit a goal weight of 184.

 

[CaroleD]

Try not to be discouraged by the scales. Instead notice how much better your clothes fit since you started all this exercise. The scales will catch up eventually showing weight loss. Not to worry.

 

[bekkiz]

There are SO many factors that go into weight, esp. with increased exercise. You very well may have lost fat, but gained muscle. It happens all the time! But also remember, true, healthy and long term weight loss is a looonnnngggg process. Please don't get discouraged yet. Think about how much healthier your body is already with all of the workouts. There is huge benefit in that!

Have a wonderful day!

 

[eeyore25]

HI Tracy,

Glad to hear that DH made it home safe. What a long day.....hopefully he can relax and rest this weekend.

Don't get too discouraged with the scale. You have added muscle to your body and that weights more than fat. So even if the scale did go up, I bet it is all muscle. You have been doing a great job working out. That scale will start to move in the right direction in no time. Keep your head up

Keep up the good work!!!

Have a great day

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Tracy
How did WI go?
The book sounds very interesting
Have a great weekend!

 

[hockeygirl]

HI Tracy,

Hope things have settled down for you, sounds like you had a busy week.

Sorry to hear the WI did not go as you had hoped. Hang in there!

Hope you have an awesome weekend!

 

[toystoryduo]

Good morning WISH buddies,

Yesterday was a bad day...... I had a run-in with a dressing room mirror. I was absolutely shocked, dismayed, and appalled at how heavy I am. We don't have a full length mirror in our home so it was quite a shock to see exactly what I look like. Needless to say, it was nothing like the picture I have in my mind of myself. Despite what the scale has been saying, I see myself in my mind as being much thinner than I actually am.

Was this a dose of reality a good thing? I don't know. Yesterday was a miserable day for me. After trying on the clothes, I spent the next 2 hours comparing myself to all of the women in the mall. (That was distressing! Some of them are super skinny and I am 2,3, and even 4 times their size! )The rest of the evening, I spent beating myself up about my weight. I cried a lot too. Needless to say, I woke up this morning pretty tired and not feeling well.

So, what to do about it? Well, I know for one thing that this extra weight is not acceptable to me. I don't feel or look my best. I've been exercising and that's good, but my issues with food are still there.

I've been reading a book called, It was Food vs. Me.... And I Won by Nancy Goodman. It's a very good book about how Nancy overcame her obsession with food. It has gotten me thinking on several different levels about the whys behind my eating/ food choices. I may discuss these from time to time here.

So my plan for the next week is the following:

1. Continue exercising.... This is a must! I feel better and can burn more calories this way.

2. I need to start a food diary. This is gonna be a challenge for me, but I can do this for 7 days at least.

3. No more scale for the next few weeks. I may take measurements with the tape, but that's it. If my clothes fit better and I feel like I have more energy, then I am good to go for now.

4. Changes... I know that changes are needed in my diet. Not just to lose weight, but for my own health. However, for the next 7 days, I'm going to eat and record what I eat in my journal. It's a record of eating now. The changes will come gradually with time.

So, those are my goals for the next 7 days. After 7 days, I will re-evaluate and either keep them, add to them, or change them.

I probably won't be able to get to journals today. I hope everyone is doing well and has a great weekend!

Thanks for listening.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Okay first of all, you are not four times bigger than those mall women. Unless you either way around 550-600 pounds or they way about 50 pounds you cannot be four times bigger! I think every woman in the free world can relate to how painful a dressing room can be. It is so hard to not compare yourself to others. Being overweight means you wear your weakness/addiction on the outside for all the world to see. It can make you feel very inferior and vulnerable. Just remember, those women have issues too, maybe you can't see them but they are there. I really like your idea of journaling what you eat. That gives you a great starting point. And also not weighing yourself on the scale but rather measuring your sucess sounds good too. I am sorry that mirror was not what you wanted to see. Chances are you don't look like that anymore than you do the image in your head. I am betting the truth is somewhere in between. Dressing room mirrors are seldom kind to anyone! Maybe put on a nice outfit and have dh take a picture of you with your two girls smiling. Thats going to be a way more accurate picture of Tracy! It may not be exactly what you want to be but at least its more accurate and can make you want to strive for something better without making you feel awful. You have come up with some great tools (I want that book) and I know you can do this. Read back through your WISH journal, you can see how much you are evolving and learning with all of this. You are getting so close to unlocking the door thats keeping you from the all out success you are going to have! Don't give up!

 

[CaroleD]

I've been there. Caught a glimpse in the mirror and thought "Who is that middle age woman" Cause in my mind I'm still 20. lol. Its a reality shock alright. Then once I get past the shock I sometimes take stock and think "Not bad for 51" unless I'm down on myself...Then I think I'm just old. Its all in how positive I'm feeling about myself at the moment.
I guess my point is not to be so hard on yourself. Look at all the positives you have, hold your head high and be proud. Keep exercising for your health. The rest will come.
Oh and good for you for giving up on the scales. Measure yourself and be amazed in a month at the difference with a healthy diet and exercise!

 

[toystoryduo]

Thank you so much Amy and Carole for your support and words of encouragement.

Well, day 1 of my food journaling experience has been a good one. I've been journaling my food, my emotions when eating, the time I am eating, and who I am eating with. It was eye opening yesterday. Day two starts today!

Goals for the week (May 5- May 12)

1. Continue exercising: Yep! 1/7
2. I need to start a food diary. Yep! 1/7
3. No more scale for the next few weeks. Yep! 1/7

The changes goal is kind of hard to measure.... I won't be making any overt changes in my diet just yet. I am learning some interesting things about my food journal and want to make food journaling a habit before making changes.

Today's Plan:

* Walk before church

* church

* Breakfast

* Grocery Store

* DH's invoicing

* Mow the lawn

* Disney meeting

My DH has another busy week ahead. We leave on Saturday for Illinois and will be back on Sunday... Lots of stress, but a food journal to help handle it all! Maybe.

Have a great Sunday!

 

[bekkiz]

I think you've set a very reasonable and attainable plan. Good Job!

I'm just so sorry you had such a bad day on Friday. But I wish you all of the best of luck for your goals for the next 6 days. I think it'll be a GREAT start!

 

[Amy&Dan]

I am so glad you are feeling better about things! We all have those days, its how we do the next day that counts, and you are doing great! Great job making all your goals as you start this new week. I hope you have a great weekend. You can get through the stress and routine change of going out of town! Keep up the good work!

 

[toystoryduo]

Thanks Amy and Bekki!

Today has been a good day. Here is my goal update:

Goals for the week (May 5- May 12)

1. Continue exercising: Nope! 1/7 (Today was a planned rest day.)
2. I need to start a food diary. Yep! 2/7
3. No more scale for the next few weeks. Yep! 2/7

I didn't get a chance to walk before church this morning. My DH and I were talking about stuff and by the time I looked at the clock, it wa time to get ready to go.

We've got a busy week ahead of us, but we'll just take it one day at a time lke we did last week. I can't believe how tiring last week was for both my DH and for me.

Have a wonderful week ahead!

 

[dabute]

Here's hoping you and your DH have a less stressful week.

Good luck with your new goals. You CAN do it.

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Tracy,

I am sorry that you had such a bad Friday. We have all been there. My problem is with pictures. Good for you for giving up the scale. I too have given up on that. I like your idea of a scale bashing party....that would be great!!!! Keep your head up. Your goals look great and you are doing a good job!

Keep up the good work!!!

Have a great day

 

[CACruisin']

So sorry you had such a bad dressing room experience - been there, done, that - not nice at all! But, I think you are so close to figuring out what you need to do to get the weight off for good. The books you are reading sound excellent. The food journal is a great idea. It really helped me have a better picture of what/how/when I was eating and helped me figure out why. Also, knowing that I would have to write down what I was eating was sometimes enough of an incentive to keep me from eating it . The next step is to log the information into a site like fitday or sparkpeople. Then you can see the calories and nutritional balance of your food. That was really eye opening for me. Good Luck and have a great week!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Tracy
I'm glad you havnt dwelled too much on those negative feelings & its great you are making new positive goals!
We always see ourselves far worse than anyone else! You are beautiful on the inside & that shows on the outside too
Have a great week, take care!

 

[toystoryduo]

Thanks everyone!

Today has been a very long day.... I even managed a two hour nap this afternoon and I still feel exhausted.

Still keeping up with my goals:

1. Exercise: 3/4

2. Food Journal: 4/4

3. No scale: 4/4 (Easiest goal I have ever made! )

Tomorrow looks to be a busy day... Lots to do! I will try and get to more journals tomorrow morning... I can't keep my eyes open. Have a good evening!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Tracy, you are doing great with those goals! You keep this up and you'll be writing your own weight loss book! I am glad you got a nap, hope you are off in la la land as we speak. Keep it up you can do it!