Tagless and Formerly Tagless 4..(its still) PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME!!

[TarzansKat]

Hi, everyone! Mega busy day over here. First DS had school, then we went to pick up my mother to head to my grandpa's to go to the park to play and feed the ducks.

Did you catch all that?

Didn't even get home until around 430 and the boy is still asleep. I just wore him out, I guess. I'm going to wake him up soon, or he'll never go to bed tonight.

 

[PaMom001]

Tomorrow would've been my 20th wedding anniversary. We were married 10 years and now we've been divorced 10 years. I've long since gotten over the anniversary issue....this year though, I'm having a tough time of it. I guess it's because this would've been a "biggie" anniversary and we've been divorced as long as we had been married.

I've gotten used to not having anyone there for me(sorry, my kid doesn't count). I've gotten used to the reality that I'll never find anyone. I've gotten used to the idea that I'll be all alone till the day I die. Thank God tomorrow is only a half day.

Sorry all. I guess I just needed to throw a pity party for myself....

 

[Smileybug]

Tomorrow would've been my 20th wedding anniversary. We were married 10 years and now we've been divorced 10 years. I've long since gotten over the anniversary issue....this year though, I'm having a tough time of it. I guess it's because this would've been a "biggie" anniversary and we've been divorced as long as we had been married.

I've gotten used to not having anyone there for me(sorry, my kid doesn't count). I've gotten used to the reality that I'll never find anyone. I've gotten used to the idea that I'll be all alone till the day I die. Thank God tomorrow is only a half day.

Sorry all. I guess I just needed to throw a pity party for myself....

First of all....... And I really mean this.

Party on for today. But tomorrow, throw that stuff away. Its time for a change. And that change is there waiting on you to make it happen. And that is something else I really believe in.

 

[Mean Queen]

Big hugs PAMom. Smiley gave you some great advice, tomorrow is a new day with new hope.

 

[Tinkerbellarella]

feed the ducks

Ducks.
Ducks make me think of Disney.
Disney Ducks.
GOD. The PDD is in full force. (NOTheForce)

Tomorrow would've been my 20th wedding anniversary. We were married 10 years and now we've been divorced 10 years. I've long since gotten over the anniversary issue....this year though, I'm having a tough time of it. I guess it's because this would've been a "biggie" anniversary and we've been divorced as long as we had been married.

Lots of Skittle hugs for you. Whether you've "gotten over" it or not, there are always things that will emotionally affect us for a lifetime, especially when we lose someone, whether it be by death, divorce, moving.

So just for you.

I've gotten used to the reality that I'll never find anyone. I've gotten used to the idea that I'll be all alone till the day I die.

Never say never. I know, SO cliche. But seriously, I used to say it all the time and then life started surprising me. I think we just need to live for what we want. In time, all the pieces fall into place, however we want them - regardless of if that means with someone or in our own great company!

When I'm having moments like this I repeat one of my mantras:

The Universe is unfolding exactly as it should.

Sorry all. I guess I just needed to throw a pity party for myself....

Oh please don't apologize to us. There's no need! That's what we're all here for,isn't it? To support each other.

And maybe encourage chocolate consumption.

But that last part is optional, I s'pose.

Funny, though, when I was thinking about what I wanted to write to you here, a little Disney ditty kept popping into my head and the more I thought about it, the more I realized it was applicable. Appropos. Because ever day is what WE make of it, regardless if it's the anniversary of 10 years marriage or 10 years divorce.

"There's a great, big, beautiful tomorrow...shining at the end of every day..."

Hang in there!


I hope everyone is having a great night! I can't remember the last time I was online at night. But I'm sure it won't last long. I'm still so beat.

 

[PaMom001]

Now I'm even more bummed. I've known this lady for 12 years. We met about 3-4 months or so before D-EX(dear-ex) dropped the bombshell on me. We met online. Have never met and only talked once, and we've emailed each other for all of this time. She has bipolar disorder.

Well, back around January/February she decided to come down so we could meet. I made the reservations and everything. We were to go to Cape May, NJ June 8-12. Welllllll, all good plans go to Hades. She had "medication issues" and got put in the hospital May 19 and got discharged yesterday. She just told me that she's not going to come down and join us for the beach. She feels horrible for putting us in this financial problem so she's going to send money. Maybe she'll come down this summer.

This is for the best.

 

[Tinkerbellarella]

She had "medication issues" and got put in the hospital May 19 and got discharged yesterday. She just told me that she's not going to come down and join us for the beach. She feels horrible for putting us in this financial problem so she's going to send money. Maybe she'll come down this summer.

This is for the best.

Ugh. When it rains it seems to pour, no?

(And I'm apparently full of cliches tonight!)

But I think that last sentence of yours is so very true. That's a particularly difficult disorder and your friend (and/or her doctors) likely know what's best at this point.

I'm sure you'll meet when the time is right.

On only a semi-related note, I just finished an amazing autobiography about a bipolar manic depressive. It's called Puppy Chow I Better Than Prozac by Bruce Goldstein. About a man and the dog who saved his life.

Now I'm reading Realityland.

 

[Seewhatimesdone]

PaMom, so sorry to hear about your troubles right now But really, you are a better person because of your struggles. I know that sounds dumb but looking back, my mom and I would have never been this close unless my parents hadn't divorced. I know it's hard for her sometimes because she hasn't remarried yet but she is so strong now. You shouldn't regret anything. Maybe now you'll meet someone amazing that you wouldn't have before. It will happen. Just keep going on the best you can, doing what you love and you'll meet someone with the same interests.

 

[TarzansKat]

Sorry all. I guess I just needed to throw a pity party for myself....

Hon, pity away. Sometimes, we need that. Pour a glass of wine...or whatever...and just have a spectacular mope.

Ducks.
Ducks make me think of Disney.
Disney Ducks.
GOD. The PDD is in full force. (NOTheForce)

Actually, these ducks reminded me of Disney ducks because they were rather forceful, and some, actually, quite scary!

This is for the best.

Sorry about all the yuckiness, hon. The world will right itself, I promise. It always does.

On only a semi-related note, I just finished an amazing autobiography about a bipolar manic depressive. It's called Puppy Chow I Better Than Prozac by Bruce Goldstein. About a man and the dog who saved his life.

I totally forgot about that book, and I'm glad you mentioned it again. I definitely want to read it.

Now I'm reading Realityland.

And this, too. But maybe after my Sept. trip.

 

[LegoMom3]

Wow, I guess I'll join the enclave of tonight and confess that I am having a really, really hard time adjusting to DH being home at night..... He worked 2nd shift for over 8 years. I had an evening routine that I could do in my sleep (and, curiously, feel I often did just that...) and I had it under control. Now, it's.....different. LegoMom doesn't like...!

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[Tinkerbellarella]

I am having a really, really hard time adjusting to DH being home at night..... He worked 2nd shift for over 8 years. I had an evening routine that I could do in my sleep (and, curiously, feel I often did just that...) and I had it under control. Now, it's.....different. LegoMom doesn't like...!

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BF and I are very much creatures of routine as well. I work your typical Mon.-Fri. (though don't I WISH it was 9-5; I'm out the door around 6:15 and not home until 7 on a good night) but BF works a Tues.-Sat. schedule. It's like we each get a built-in day to ourselves in addition to a full day to spend together. But sometimes, when he has a Saturday off, it really screws me up and despite liking the extra time we have together, I get internally cranky that I don't have that time to myself.

 

[Mean Queen]

Wow, I guess I'll join the enclave of tonight and confess that I am having a really, really hard time adjusting to DH being home at night..... He worked 2nd shift for over 8 years. I had an evening routine that I could do in my sleep (and, curiously, feel I often did just that...) and I had it under control. Now, it's.....different. LegoMom doesn't like...!

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I get all thrown off when my DH takes off a Friday, since that's my time to schedule stuff for me (like Starbucks wth LegoMom!) So I totally understand. It's not that you don't like them, but they're messing up your routine.

 

[TarzansKat]

I'm right there with you guys!

When my DH has his weekend job, it's usually late night, and although I miss him, another part of me really enjoys doing the whole nighttime routine with DS, and then getting to have hours of alone time to myself. Quite frankly, its' heavenly.

Actually, they're both sacked out right now and it's so quiet. Just the central air and my furious typing as background noise.

 

[PaMom001]

BF and I are very much creatures of routine as well. I work your typical Mon.-Fri. (though don't I WISH it was 9-5; I'm out the door around 6:15 and not home until 7 on a good night) but BF works a Tues.-Sat. schedule. It's like we each get a built-in day to ourselves in addition to a full day to spend together. But sometimes, when he has a Saturday off, it really screws me up and despite liking the extra time we have together, I get internally cranky that I don't have that time to myself.

DD has gone to her Dad's house every other weekend since 1997. I couldn't figure out what to do with myself at first. Now it ticks me off when we have to switch weekends. When she is at her Dad's I get to run around, then come home about 11 and have lunch. After that I clean. At about 5:30 I am done cleaning I take a shower and change into my jammies. It feels so "naughty" to be in my jammies by 5:30 and then to eat dinner in my jammies............oh the naughtiness. I don't do that the weekends I have her.

 

[Smileybug]

Good morning ya'll.

Gee, ya'll have just given me all kinds of reasons to keep my life as unstructured as possible.

 

[LegoMom3]

Quite frankly I could use a little structure about now!! I've been without any sort of "normal" routine since late March..... It's getting old.

Mean Queen you hit it right on the head....It's not at all that I don't like my DH, but he is SO messin' with my routine!!



Happy Wednesday to all! Hang in there, the weekend's coming!


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[Smileybug]

For me, just for me.......My days are pretty structured. But, I have had to learn to be flexible just to keep from driving myself crazy. On any given day things can and do change. But thats my life.

 

[creativeamanda]

Have to say good morning. But other than that, never mind me. Just looking at my ticker. . .

 

[Seewhatimesdone]

Have to say good morning. But other than that, never mind me. Just looking at my ticker. . .

You are going to have so much fun!

 

[Smileybug]

I hope everyone has had a good day.