She's Gone

[Terk-1]

My mom passed away yesterday morning from pneumonia. She was in no pain and did not suffer and we were there holding her hand as she took her last breath. She was only 72. I know my dad was there with her to take her with him. We made all the necessary arrangements yesterday and I've stayed strong for my family. But I cried myself to sleep last night. It hurts so much that I can hardly breathe. The thought that I will never see her again, never be able to hold her hand, never be able to hear her voice or see her face is just tearing me apart. She was not just my mom, but also one of my best friends and my life will never be the same without her. We did so much together. Ran errands, went to lunch together, went to B&N for a cup of coffee or just stayed at home and watched tv together. Before she went, I got the chance to tell her that I loved her, that I will miss her more than anything, but that it was ok and that we'd be ok. She did open her eyes a little and looked at all of us. I smiled at her and wanted that to be the last thing she saw of me. In my heart though, it was not ok for her to go and that I wanted her to stay, but knew that this was out of my hands. I let my family make most of the decisions regarding the wake and funeral, but did say that I would like her wedding & mother's ring, if that was ok with them. They said that that was good with them. I know it sounds odd, but it's like I will still have a part of her with me. We made sure my nephews knew that it was still ok to come to our house and that we were still here. My youngest nephew told us that grammie was his angel now.

Thank you to those who sent their prayers and hugs on a previous post. I'm sure she heard them all.

 

[Boo'sMom]

I'm so sorry....I cannot imagine the pain you must feel.

My deepest sympathies

 

[The LK 4]

I'm so sorry to hear about your mom's passing.

 

[NMAmy]

I'm so sorry...it's so hard to lose a parent. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[browneyes]

I'm sorry. I'm glad when it was her time, she wasn't in any pain.

 

[Serena]

It's awful losing your mom. and for you best friend, I'm terribly sorry.

 

[Breezy_Carol]

I am so sorry.

 

[mrsmom]

I am so sorry to hear about your mom's passing
My deepest sympathies.
Kim

 

[Pooh93]

I am so very sorry. May the wonderful memories of your mother give you comfort. I can relate to everything you said about your mom being your best friend because that is the relationship I have with my 72 year old dad. I couldn't imagine losing him either. Many {{HUGS}} and prayers for you and your family.

 

[BWVDenise]

I'm so sorry for your pain.

 

[JESW]

Oh, I am so, so sorry. Hugs and prayers to you and your family during this sad time.

Jill

 

[avdeane]

My deepest sympathies! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!

 

[dizneenut]

I'm so sorry.

 

[Kitty 34]

I am so sorry you lost your Mom. Thank goodness she didn't suffer too much. Many {{{{{{HUGS}}}}} I send to you and your family.

 

[momof2inPA]

It sounds like you had a wonderful relationship with your mom. Hugs for you at this difficult time.

 

[bjgrazi]

I'm sorry to hear of your Mom's passing. Prayers and hugs are sent your way.

 

[goofy4tink]

I am so sorry. I really do know how you are feeling. My mom, at 73, passes away last fall. She was my best friend also. It is so unbelievably hard to bear. I am teary as I post. Remember the good times and know that she is with you still.

 

[loisg1]

I'm so very sorry for your loss...

God bless,
Lois

 

[mickeyboat]

I am sorry for your loss.

Denae

 

[Big Dude]

I know those feelings all too well. I will pray for you and your family.

Matthew 5

4 Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.

Adam aka Big Dude