I am so glad to read that you're going back for a second time. I was so excited for your success last year but was a little nervous [for myself] that you didn't want to do it again. And here I am, signing up as a walker, partly based on your experiences! What a great memory that will be for you and your daughter.
Amy, your words encouraged me so much!!!! And were exactly what I needed to read right now!
I have committed, at least through next year's Princess, to focus on walking only. And I'm walking my little toes to the bone! Still, I'm a little insecure about that, especially since I don't even walk that fast. Fast for me, yes, but other walkers still zoom past me.
I signed up for a road race series sponsored by our local runners' club and was encouraged to do this by someone who told me she walked these races. There are 8 races, total, that grow in distance from 5K to half marathon [by November]. All of this to try to pull me out of this insecurity I have about walking and, like you said, 'playing athlete.' And also to keep me motivated to walk longer distances in the fall.
I picked up my packet at a running store and, as usual, felt about 100 pounds heavier than everyone else. Yet, everyone was so encouraging, even the store's employees, and gave me lots of good wishes for the race today.
This morning, I pulled in and saw so many runner looking types - thin, fit, young. What was
I doing there?!?!? But I had paid my money and hey, somebody has to be last, right? Might as well be me!
And I kept thinking about what you wrote about feeling out of place and that I needed to get out of that mindset. I belonged there, too, even as a walker.
And, while I might not ever beat anyone to the finish line [I finished next-to-last in my age group!], I'm still beating my tendency to let those 'fat girl' thoughts keep me from trying things like this.
Again, thank you for your timely words, Amy - I really needed them this morning.
Hopefully, all of this mental warfare will get easier. That was a lot to think about at 5:30 on a Sunday morning!