PMS in a Handbasket--Don't be afraid, just bring us food... Part 21

[Caropooh]

I'm working on my "issues" post. It's long

 

[Tiffer]

Off to Costco! BBL

 

[Tigger&Belle]

Not to be argumentative or anything, but how can we work through issues if there aren't issues???????

STHU! All is good, love is in the air, and things are going to be fine.


Debbie

 

[paigevz]

The backs of my knees are sweating. And I want chocolate.

 

[tevagirl]

Debbie, put a shot in the jello. You won't feel anything.

 

[paigevz]

Debbie, put a shot in the jello. You won't feel anything.

Oooh great idea!

 

[tevagirl]

Oooh great idea!

I know!

 

[debbiedoo]

Correct, that is all about what I want to eat

Tig, I would have called you last nite, but the lady next to me was really bad off, and they frowned on using my cell, but I could txt and AIM, go figure. . . great to have technology! The nurses were amazed from the txts from my friends and you and my friend in NYC on AIM, guess they never seen that done before hey, if there was a will there was a way

 

[LaraK]

Debbie...we always give DS sorbet when he had endoscopies. It's cold and soft so it feels good.

So round two of chores are done. Lets see, today I've cleaned the kitchen, family room, bathrooms, kids rooms, fed kids, had everyone in the family's hair cut but mine, took the kids to the mall for new shows (Stride Rite on a Saturday with ONE sales person there...can we say hour long nightmare???), took the kids to lunch for a mommy kids special lunch and now we're home and they are put down for naps. I'm tired and my list isn't half done.

Oh well....at least they're not being monsters. DH is getting his "day off" downstairs.

 

[debbiedoo]

Debbie, put a shot in the jello. You won't feel anything.

I have some scratching, it might burn

chicken noodle soup

 

[debbiedoo]

Debbie...we always give DS sorbet when he had endoscopies. It's cold and soft so it feels good.

That sounds yummy, have to get the DH to get some on the way home from work, mango

 

[debbiedoo]

bbl, going to go lay down

 

[Caropooh]

OK, here it goes.
This all stems back from the NYC trip. As you all know there were some problems with feelings being hurt on that trip. That is all in the past now though. Saturday night in our hotel room, I totally shut down. There was bo way that I wanted to get on the plane and go back home to Seattle the next day. Tig, Paige and Myst were there for me and I'll always apprecitate it. The drive back from NYC to Baltimore was pretty much filled with tears and talking with Tig and I. Emotionally I was the lowest I'd ever been. I just didn't want to go back and face my life in Seattle. Tig told me I could come to her house for a couple days if I needed, but I knew I had to get on the plane then or I neber would.
At one point Tig said something about Paige and her, at which I screamed-'ENOUGH ABOUT YOU AND PAIGE!!! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT!' At that poit I realized I was horribly jealous of the relationship Tig and Paige have. I wanted to have a close best friend like I felt they have in each other. One I could call anytime just to talk about nothing or everything, stuff like that. Tig was and still is my best friend. I was just very jealous of the closeness the 2 of them had or that I percieved Tig and I didn't. Yes, I know this is very immature on my part and I'm probabaly going to get flamed for all of this. Oh, well, it's my feelings and they are real to me.
The summer went on and I found out I was going to be able to go on the November meet. I was so excited! I asked Tig if I could be in her room and she said it was actually Teva's. Teva said fine, that there was room! So I was set with a room. Then it turned out that Paige and family were going to be able to come too and Paige was going to be in our room for a couple days. I was still happy, because I was going to get to see Paige nw too. The room thing was still fine, because Teva would be there too. I didn't have to worry about feeling left out of things.
Then Teva told Tig and I that she was getting her own room due to social phobias. I understood and didn't want her to fel unconmfortable or back out at the last minute. At this point I told Teva about my jealousy and that she had been my saving grace in our room, but I totally understood. She offered to have one of us sleep in her room, but that we'd play it by ear. I told her I appreciated it.
Then Tig and Paige posted the CH thread. Tig and I were IM'ing that night and I told her I was crying. It was just an emotional let down crying becaus eof everything I have on my plate right now. The whole jealousy thing came up again and the next thing I know Paige was in the room demanding to know what was wrong. When I told her, she blasted me for bringing it up that day and getting Tig up set. That she had had a very hard day and why did I feel I needed to bring it up then. I would try to explain what was happening but just got blasted. I finally just left the room and came back in about 15 minutes later. At this point Paige told me I had had a tantrum and was till not listening to me. I went had dinner with my family, talked to Tig on the phone, left a message for Paige trying once again to apologize.
OK, now we are on yesterday!
Saw Paige on the thread and sent her a . She says everything is good. OK, good! Get home yesterday and IM Paige. Not a good time to talk because she isn't in a good mood because something happened. OK, no problem! She comes back a little later and starts the conversation asking me if I'm still going to WDW and if so, am I changing rooms. As far as I know I'm still going and staying in the same room. I have the guilt thoughts and feel I should be vivsiting my Mom, but I know I need this trip too. Paige then had too leave due to the Thing 1 or 2 crisis.
I'm sure there is more that happened, I hjust can't remember. I know emotions have been really high here recently and I'm taking that in consideration. I have no intention of backing out on the trip and I hope no one else does either. Tig and Paige both say there are no problems, so maybe I should believe them . I just don't see that, especially after things written here today.
Yes, I'm maybe being immature in my jealosy, but thats's just me.

 

[tevagirl]

I have some scratching, it might burn

chicken noodle soup

The first couple will burn but after that you'll be good to go.

 

[Tigger&Belle]

Caro. Things are fine with me. I want to write more, but am late getting ready for Jake's game, so that will have to wait.

 

[tevagirl]

Caro, this will work out. Paige and Tig are both warm hearted, kind women who, although may not understand your feelings, certainly understand that you have them.

I understand that you can't help how you feel. Look at me, I'm getting a room to myself just so I don't back out of the trip. That's irrational, but it's how I feel. I can't help that. I can work on it and I'm hoping just going on this trip will help. The same goes with you.

 

[paigevz]

I did not "blast" you Caro. I started that room, and brought Tig in, as I told you before, and I was very nice, and very polite, and that is why I brought Tig in, so you wouldn't be able to say later that I was rude to you. There was no blasting. I asked you nicely what was wrong. I told you as nicely as I could possibly tell you that now was not the time for YOU to be venting to Tig, as she had a lot going on and it was emotional for her right now. I was NICE. You refused to answer my questions as to why you had to do it now, why you told her you were crying, and yes you ran away. And yep, when you came back I told you you were throwing a tantrum, because that is what you were doing. That is as "blast"ing as I got. Tell the truth.

Teva said she was leaving the room a week ago. You just decided that night to say you wanted another room. Call it what you want Caro, but what do you think it felt like to us?

I was nice and forgiving to you the next day, then last night you were upsetting Tig again. And you wouldn't answer my IM last night. Which was simply, this: Are you switching rooms or not? That's all it said, and you didn't answer but signed off.

Now I've said all I'll say here.

 

[Shugardrawers]

If you guys want us to help you all work through this the CH might be a better place all things considered.

 

[lovetoscrap]

If you guys want us to help you all work through this the CH might be a better place all things considered.

I was also going to suggest that this would probably all be best discussed in the CH. Not here.

 

[debbiedoo]

If you guys want us to help you all work through this the CH might be a better place all things considered.

I agree