Please give me hope...

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Then I went through depression and self beating up. How stupid could I be? I deserve this. Now I know how DH's ex wife felt. Why did I trust him after first affair? Why did I trust any man after ex 1st husband's affairs? Why wasn't I more attentive, more appreciative, sexier, younger, healthier???

No. You do not deserve this. I bet if you could talk to his ex-wife right now, she would let you know that it was the best thing that could have happened to her. I bet he cheated on her ad nauseum and she has found someone worthy of her. YOU WILL TOO!! I know it is too soon to talk about someone else but one day, in the future, you are going to find what you are looking for too.

We all make mistakes, but I truly believe with all my heart that everything happens for a reason. You need to just zen out right now. Find your place of calm. Don't beg, don't be angry, just let it be. If he is meant to come back, he will. If you are meant to find a new path, YOU will.
 
Lots of great advice so far. What helped me get through a similar situation was keeping a diary of sorts. I kept it with me all the time and when I was feeling particularly low (which was most of the time) I would jot down my feelings, and thoughts. As time passed, it also became something to reflect on. I didn't realize how far I'd come until one day I read what I had written. At that point I realized that I was getting better, and stronger!

Hugs to you, and please take care of yourself!

:grouphug:
 
I immediately wanted an answer... how could he throw everything away because at this moment he isn't feeling "passion" for me anymore, didn't he mean what he said, why did he buy the kittens, why did he give me roses and a beautiful card with a handwritten love note for Valentine's Day, which was two weeks prior to this happening, why, why, why? I bombarded him with whys.


My husband was married before. His first wife left less than a month after they bought a new house - a house that required both of their incomes to support.

She left him a note on the table to find when he came home from work on Saturday - he worked the extra hours on Saturdays at her encouragement (found out why later). The note said she was leaving - didn't say where she went or how he could find her (no cell phones back in those days).

Turns out she did have a boyfriend (who was also married - eventually the wife threw him out). DH eventually found out the boyfriend was one of many over the years.

DH asked her why she let him buy a house when this was going on - a house that was next door to her mother - a house that wound up in foreclosure. Her response was that she thought the house might make her happy...

Truthfully, the answers don't matter too much. He is what he is, and you're better off in the long run. Your main job is to convince yourself of that. :hug:

ETA: DH's first wife decided that she wanted to come back eventually. He told her no thanks. ;)
 
So many powerful words here that I need to add no more...

Your pain and despair are palpable. I pray for peace in your heart and that this fork in the road takes you to a better place where your life is so much better.:hug:
 

So Sorry for your Pain.

My advise would be not to make any decisions while your in such an emotionally fragile place. Take your time.
 
I agree with those who have said that sometime down the road you will feel much better. Particularly about yourself. I think that it's normal to ask the questions and to wonder what you did wrong. As you'll discover later on, you did nothing wrong so there is no answer to that question.

It'll be hard for a while. Very hard. Your happy place might even look different for a while. :hug:
 
Teresa, please do what you need to do to protect yourself, as soon as possible. Financially, healthwise an heartwise.
 
I feel for you! I know how you feel. My ex DH left me with a baby. He had been planing it for 6 months and I had no idea. totally blindsided.

It's been 10 years and I am so much happier. I had to not only morn the marriage I had to morn the dream. He took the "perfect family" away from me. He took the images of a "perfect wedding" away from me.

Now I can hardly remember.

It WILL get better I promise you that, I am living proof!

Lisa
 
It will get better, but it takes time. This happened to my brother, he married the girl next door, literally. When they moved in, he said he knew he would marry her one day and many years later he did. So when she said the same things to him, never been happy, etc after 11 years of marriage and 3 kids, he was beyond devastated. Suicidal even. He gave her everything she asked for in the divorce, didn't even get his own attorney. We thought he'd never move on. 4 years later, he has a wonderful girlfriend of a year and a half and he is truly happy again. It took alot for him to get here, but he did. It will be hard, but it will get better!
 
Thank you all, again. Disney Doll, I did open my own bank account and moved some money into it last week. He was not happy about that at all. In fact, called me an f'ing thief. I could not believe those words were coming out of his mouth. I told him I pay the bills, and that with some of the things he was saying, I couldn't trust that he wouldn't make more bad decisions and leave me high and dry. Since I've been disabled for two years, I automatically go on Medicare starting June 1st. I didn't want it, but you can't refuse it, apparently. Part B is optional, and that you do pay for, so I will have to take that now. I'm going to ask for DH to have to pay for any supplemental health insurance I need, as well as to keep a substantial life insurance policy on himself, which we already have, with me as the beneficiary, and the kids secondary.

I have an appointment with a lawyer. As far as healthwise, I try to eat the best I can, and try to sleep when I can. I've lost 8 lbs in two weeks. I'd been going to Weight Watchers for a few months, and this has certainly boosted my weekly weight loss average. Not a recommended way to do it. I do take a daily multivitamin with minerals, as well as extra vitamin D, and of course, my trusty ibuprofen and prevacid. I need the ibuprofen for the muscle pain. Stress makes this disease worse, but strangely, my muscles don't seem to hurt more than usual. Probably because my focus is on keeping my sanity together.

One very weird, odd thing did occur through all this. On a particularly bad evening the week before last, I was on the phone with my son, totally hysterical, because DH was threatening to take his name off the lease and have me evicted, take the pets, take all the money out of the bank, and just being a total jerk. When he left, I called my son, who lives with his dad. My son was so worried about me that he had his stepmom drive him over, and his dad, my ex, called me to talk to me while his wife and my son were on their way over. It was so strange to hear him trying to console me, and tell me not to let this guy ruin my life. Then stepmom comes in with son, and stays for two hours talking to me. She then offered to drive me to the bank the next day to open my own account.

I'm also without a car right now. Because DH worked from home, and because I really had no need to do any driving, he sold one of our cars last year so as not to have to pay insurance on it, which made sense at the time. With the job losses, we were looking for ways to save money. Of course, now I'm stranded. Fortunately, middle son has a work vehicle, and his wife has a new car, so he is giving me his car, and keeping me on his insurance. It's in the shop right now getting tuned up, but I should have it this week. My sons have really stepped up to the plate.

That's wonderful! It sounds like you have a lot of support from people who love you. :hug:
 
No. You do not deserve this. I bet if you could talk to his ex-wife right now, she would let you know that it was the best thing that could have happened to her. I bet he cheated on her ad nauseum and she has found someone worthy of her. YOU WILL TOO!! I know it is too soon to talk about someone else but one day, in the future, you are going to find what you are looking for too.

We all make mistakes, but I truly believe with all my heart that everything happens for a reason. You need to just zen out right now. Find your place of calm. Don't beg, don't be angry, just let it be. If he is meant to come back, he will. If you are meant to find a new path, YOU will.

This post is worth reading again. Peace be with you.
 
So sorry you are going through this, op. It's heartbreaking. It will take time for your emotions to heal, but over time they will.

So much good advice on this thread. I really can't think of anything to add. And also, an amazing amount of sharing & caring going on here.

:hug:
 
Will pray for you and your family. Don't give up hope. God answers all prayers.
 
I too debated posting publicly about my situation. I didn't really post here (until now) but made some comments on FB and my twitter account. My H's family was NOT happy and made lots of snarky remarks about me "airing my dirty laundry in public" but the thing is MY laundry is clean. I didn't do anything wrong. I'm not the broken one who decided to break my marriage vows. We have very similar situations involving job loss and me (the wife) being sick.

I did NOTHING to deserve this and neither did you.

Like you, I'm learning who my husband really is.
 
Thank you all, again. Disney Doll, I did open my own bank account and moved some money into it last week. He was not happy about that at all. In fact, called me an f'ing thief.

That would concern me about you leaving to go to WDW. If you plan on going through with the trip I would remove everything of value, personal and financial. Make copies of the lease, title to the car, insurance, tax returns, check stubs and bank accounts and move it all somewhere safe. Don't forget jewelry, pictures, baby books, heirlooms etc. While you are gone your DH could file abandonment charges and trash/toss everything you value. I wouldn't be surprised if the locks were changed by the time you got back.

Did you move your money to a different bank or just a different account??

Sorry you are going through with this!! I'm glad you are getting the support you need!
 
Definately praying for you!!

I speak from experience in saying that there is definately light on the other end of the tunnel; unfortunately it is a long tunnel.....
 


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