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Rubbin' is racing! Go #24!!!
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I am not really sure how tonight went. I think it went well. But, I always look at the negative of things. SO, I don't know what to take from it yet.
It felt so right to be with him. We talked and went out to eat. then talked some more. He held me for a little bit. He felt so good. I miss him sooo much.
The only thing that sucks is that either way I have to give something up. If we get back together I have to give up some of my friends, that may sound weird but I have a lot of guy friends and a few of them and him do not get a long. Now it would be my choice and it would be worth making. Someone to be there theoritically forever, or a friend to go drink with now. I think I know which is more important to me.
So we both left tonight with a lot to think about. I really didn't feel like thinking about it tonight. So I went out. Trying to keep my mind positive.
We talked about a lot of things. I brought up things that were a concern to me and so did he. I think we had a good conversation. Neither one of wants to be hurt again. We also talked about why I left in the first place. This was my choice. I told him because I felt that he deserved to know. I was scared that I was with him for the wrong reasons. I didn't want to end up marrying him because I felt it was the next step or because I was trying to get over someone else. If I had stayed with him he would have proposed to me already. I am not ready for that yet. I thought I was and we had disscussed it. But in reality I wasn't. I realize that now. And I am glad we talked about it even if things do not work out between us.
Oh Goodness, I need to try to go to bed. Talk to you all tomorrow.
Night.
It felt so right to be with him. We talked and went out to eat. then talked some more. He held me for a little bit. He felt so good. I miss him sooo much.
The only thing that sucks is that either way I have to give something up. If we get back together I have to give up some of my friends, that may sound weird but I have a lot of guy friends and a few of them and him do not get a long. Now it would be my choice and it would be worth making. Someone to be there theoritically forever, or a friend to go drink with now. I think I know which is more important to me.
So we both left tonight with a lot to think about. I really didn't feel like thinking about it tonight. So I went out. Trying to keep my mind positive.
We talked about a lot of things. I brought up things that were a concern to me and so did he. I think we had a good conversation. Neither one of wants to be hurt again. We also talked about why I left in the first place. This was my choice. I told him because I felt that he deserved to know. I was scared that I was with him for the wrong reasons. I didn't want to end up marrying him because I felt it was the next step or because I was trying to get over someone else. If I had stayed with him he would have proposed to me already. I am not ready for that yet. I thought I was and we had disscussed it. But in reality I wasn't. I realize that now. And I am glad we talked about it even if things do not work out between us.
Oh Goodness, I need to try to go to bed. Talk to you all tomorrow.
Night.
!! Have a great day!
So quiet around here.
to anyone that needs one. I hope your weekend is a good one. 
I don't have any specifics planned except for the concert on the 17th. I'm not even sure if my one friend wants to go, but my Boston friend is supposed to be coming. If my friend backs out, you should come! (It's sold out.) Do you like sexy Irish folk rock stars? (see links below) 
That's why I'm thinking she might back out of the concert. 
Said he could be nothing though so that's cool too. 
But then I remembered that when I was a kid, my parents would set the temp at 68 at night, so I nudged it up! 
Yes, I finally closed on Wednesday! Wooooo hooooooooooooo! 
and couldn't go back to sleep.
