Oh boy.....well I haven't been doing any better lately about being around here....things on my end are not going very well...ok in fact I think they are pretty darn HORRIBLE!!!
First I have major family issues that have been ongoing for some time. I have little to no relationship with my mom any longer thanks to her completely psychotic fiance. This whole year has been one financial disaster after another for me. Not to bother recapping what happened before, but just the current stuff...last Wednesday night I was driving home from school (I live about 1 hour south on 95 from where I go to school), I get within about 2 streets of the house (thank god) and my transmission goes on my car!!! So we parked it in front of the house totally on the grass, nothing on the street. This weekend we went south to spend the Easter holiday with workguy's family (more on workguy in a minute). We come home only to find that my car was the victim of a hit and run. Called the police and the whole deal. Based on the paint and the accident we can determine that not only did the person who hit me have to totally leave the road to hit my car on our grass, but that he was most likely drunk or fell asleep at the wheel because my car was parked facing south and the car hitting me was going north so he had to totally cross over both sides of the road to ram himself into me!!! Ok so I still have work and school to attend, but workguy only has a 5 speed, which I am not all that versed in driving. I get the concept...but am very fearful of the car. It is a small little sporty thing very close to the ground. Yesterday was the first day I drove it alone...and perhaps the last. He had taken me to work, and then I took his car when he went to work. I was on my way to pick him up at about 9pm last night. It had been storming badly in our area, but wasn't currently raining. I was driving slowly and was at a stop light getting ready to turn left, very little traffic on the road. I am making the turn and shifting into second, when I must have hit a patch of water in the road. The car totally spun out and jumped the median (I honestly thought it was going to flip), and was now half on the median half in the turn lane of the road going in the other direction. I was scared to death. Finally get the car started...kept stalling it trying to get the rest of the car over the median, and pulled off the road. Workguy had someone else at work bring him to me (was less than a mile away). I thought I had blown the tire out by the look of it, but appearantly I just somehow knocked the tire off the wheel rim thing....OMG this is soooo not my year. I guess I should be thankful that there was hardly no traffic...(not that any of those jerks who were around stopped to lend me a hand) and that I didn't hit a building or another car. I am now (perhaps ridiculously so) afraid to drive his car, so poor thing, he is driving me the 1 1/2 hours (longer distance tonight) to school then he will wait for me till I get out, then drive me home.
My god, he is the best thing which has ever happened to me. He is so calm and wonderful about all of the bad stuff that happens to me, and is willing and wanting to help me through it all. I on the other hand, fear that he will wake up one day and realize that I may not be worth all of the trouble and stress I have brought into his life....but he says it isn't so. I know that he completely loves me, as I do him....strange that I know this after such a short time, but I will be marrying this man. His family is so wonderful to me as well. They completely just embraced and accepted me. So nice after I have hardly no relations with my own very small family. We had stayed over at his mother and step father's on Easter Sunday. After we had all gone to lunch (28 people in total

) we had gone to one of his brothers' house (first brother I have met...he has 3) his brother is so much like him right now, they have both recently bought fixer upper houses and are intent on doing all the work. So he stayed with his brother and helped him install a sprinkler system for his newly layed sod, while I went back with his mom and step-father. After workguy had finally returned from his brother's house we were very hungry and the only place in town open was burger king so we had dinner there...on the way his mother made some comment about winning the lotto to help out her children. She included me in the list of her kids, wanting to buy me a new car!!!!
