Any parent will tell you, that there is nothing more painful as to see your child suffer. You know this better than many of us. I have read about Nate for months, and cannot imagine how difficult this has been for you. Remember, God loves you and will give you the continued strength to bear these difficult times. Nate is one of His Angels. You may believe that this internet "family" has been helpful to You, but please know that You have been so much more special to us. You have time and time again reminded us that life is precious. I believe God puts us on this earth with a purpose, and perhaps yours, and more importantly, Nates, purpose here on earth was to remind us, that life is short, and beautiful.
I do not claim to be a "holy roller", but I do believe God guides us throughout our lives. I feel blessed, that He has guided me here, and through You and Nate and you family, reminded me, there is no greater gift than love.
I will pray for You and your family that some day You will understand the gifts You have given us through Your suffering. Sounds familiar, huh?
God bless you all