New TTC Thread

[TrueEeyore]

Ugh...I can't stop thinking about my BFF about to give birth next week. For her first, I drove an hour the day she gave birth to meet the baby. This time, I'm not sure I have that in me. I want to go, but part of me doesn't want to go. It took me almost 4 MONTHS to walk over to my neighbor and deliver the baby gift I bought for her new daughter. I'm so afraid of how I'll react. I still haven't responded to the email she sent about her induction. I know, I'm an awful friend. I want to be happy for them, but part of me just isn't happy for them. Part of me doesn't want to meet the new baby. I feel so bad feeling this way. I mean, my BFF and her husband are DS's godparents, so obviously we've always been very close. We've been friends since the 5th grade, went to college together, I was her matron of honor in her wedding. Ugh. Sorry, just had to vent. It's all I thought about last night. I just have this picture of me showing up at the hospital and just breaking down in tears.

Does she know what you're going through? If she does, she'll understand if you start crying. If she doesn't know, and you decide to go, then maybe she'll think they're tears of joy? You should probably let her know what's going on, so she won't think you're just avoiding her. I know you don't want to lose her friendship over this.
Good luck

 

[skuttle]

Thanks, Heather. She does know. I had kept everything to myself, but once she announced she was pregnant with her second, I told my three best friends what had been going on with us. So they know.

 

[GypsySue]

Allison--so sorry you have these feelings. Stay strong. I know how hard it is. At least your friends tell you when they are pregnant. Mine have kept it from me for fear of hurting my feelings. Makes me feel like a pariah--as if I don't feel bad enough.

 

[momsully]

Allison - I hope you are able to go see your friend and her baby. As hard as it is since she knows what you are going thru she should understand if you break down.

I disappeared from this thread back in October but have been reading at least once a week and hoping for some BFP's. Anyway, maybe I can give somebody some hope. In October DH and I had been trying for over three years to have another baby and decided that we were content with DS 8 and DS 6. I am 38 and after trying metformin (which made it really hard to work every day) and clomid (which caused a severe medical reaction) I was done. Fast forward to early December - when going thru the basement for Christmas decorations I decided it was time to donate the baby stuff. Heck some of it was almost nine years old! Well, several weeks later I unbelievably got a BFP! I had a chemical pregnancy two years ago so was not holding out much hope but I had an ultrasound and my NT scan today and am shockingly 12.5 weeks pregnant! The baby looks great and I just have to wait until next week for the results of the scan. Although I am scared to death about the age difference I am cautiously excited. Sorry for the rambling but I just want everyone to know that the BFP can happen so don't give up if it is something you really want.

Baby dust to everyone and I promise to keep reading and praying for BFP for everyone on this thread!

 

[GypsySue]

Yeah Momsully!! Congratulations--lots of good vibes for you and baby!

 

[Tasha+Scott]

Congratulations, momsully! I had been wondering about you. Don't stress about the age difference. I was 8 (nearly 9) and my brother was 6 when my youngest brother was born. It was not a bad age span at all IMO.

 

[Never2Old4Disney]

Hey all.. I was wondering if I join you wonderful women here on this thread.. My name is Amy and I am (almost, sniffle)33. My DH and I have been trying to have a baby for 8 years now. I have severe PCOS with insulin resistance. I had gastric bypass in 2001 and lost a ton of weight, hoping that would help but alas it did not. I don't ovulate without many expensive drugs to force it. We went as far as we could in 2006 with the fundage we had and have been taking a break since then. Then in October, while looking for a new job, I lucked into an offer with a company who must comply with the Connecticut fertility coverage mandate which means they will pay for 3 IUI's and 2 IVF's! Yayyee!! My insurance kicked in February 1st and I had my first baby dr. appt this past Thursday. Because we have been trying so long and because I will have to take the same drugs either way, my dr. wants to jump straight to IVF so he has decided to "take up my case" with my insurance to try and get them to allow that. Either way, I am on Provera now and then 1 month of birth control and then we are on our way to something. I am so excited and yet scared to death at the same time, yikes.. Anyway, I saw this thread and thought, ohhhh a bunch of women who know excactly where my brain is.. LOL..

 

[GypsySue]

Welcome, Amy! Good luck to you on your journey. You are so lucky to have insurance that will pay for IVF. Sadly, I do not. But I think we will be doing IVF sometime this spring, so let me know how it goes for you.

 

[beckmrk04]

Welcome Amy Lyn!!! This is a wonderful group of ladies who know exactly what you are going through because I gaurantee someone else is going through it or has gone through it. And even those of us who haven't will listen when you need to vent and offer a hug!

Allison- I'm so sorry that you are having a hard time with the birth of your Bff's baby. When my SIL got pregnant, as much as I wanted to be happy for her, I was just too sad for myself. And I hated myself for feeling that way. And finally I was honest with my SIL. She thought I was mad at her, but really I wasn't: I was hurting, and upset, and felt like it was never going to happen for me (I wasn't able to even TTC at the time), and I told her all of that, and she listened and understood what it's like to want a baby so badly that it hurts to even look at pregnant women. It took me some time, but I got excited helping her plan for my nephew and then got pregnant with my own, and she was SO happy for me.

But your friends should understand what you are going through, so talk to them about it. And go see that beautiful baby, and know in your heart that you'll have one too. And even if you do breakdown and cry, you are human. It's ok, and she'll understand that you are having a hard time.

 

[trmcguire]

Hello everyone-

Everything turned out finefrom my heavy bleeding- just a reaction to going off my birth control pills. I was going to go get one of the ovulation testing kits. Any recommendations? I have been on the pill for 8 years, so I have no idea how long my cycle is or if it is even normal.

 

[DISNEYmooner2008]

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[momsully]

Thanks everyone for the well wishes, I really appreciate it.

Tasha+Scott - Thanks for the good thoughts on the age difference. My niece and nephew are 6 years apart so I know it will be okay. It is just a little scary!

Baby dust for everyone!

 

[solstice621]

Hi! Can I join you? I posted a new TTC thread (yes, that was me) and then was directed here. I'm sorry - I wouldn't have posted a new thread if I had seen this one!!

I have a 2 and half y/o DD and am now officially TTC #2. We started trying last month. It took us a very long time to get PG last time - 18 months. At the time I found out I was pregnant, I had the paperwork filled out to see a specialist - and then got pregnant naturally! I am hoping it will not take us as long this time around, but am prepared just in case.

Looking forward to chatting with you all....

 

[mickeyboat]

Congrats momsully! I am so very happy for you! My parents got pregnant right after they got rid of all their old baby stuff from my brother and me. I have a little brother 11 years younger than me. I have to say we never got to know one another very well, but I love him, and have some wonderful memories of him as a little boy.

Welcome Amy and Solstice! I hope your journeys are short.

AF just left - the first one in several months - so a big you're welcome to anyone who sent her my way. DH and I decided that I would go off the pill, not because we are TTC, but because of some of the side effects. Until we do something permanent, I will probably be freaking out every month!

It is beautiful here, today, and I took a walk at lunch time to run some errands. It made my day and I should do it more often.

trmcguire - My RE was big into charting to get information about your cycle. I might start there before the sticks, so you will get a good idea after a couple of months as to when you need to start using the sticks. From what I hear, they are pretty expensive, and charting is virtually free.

Lots of sticky baby dust to all.

Denae

 

[skuttle]

Congrats to MomSully and welcome Amy Lyn and Solstice!

I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend! Ours was very busy with soccer and birthday parties!

Not too much new going on here...just waiting to O.

I think this is going to be a rough month for me. Between my BFF being induced today and the soccer games...it's hard! Seems like everyone with a 4-5 year old kid is either pregnant or just had a baby...it's been that way for every soccer game so far. Ugh. Last year Colin's team had 3 pregnant moms, this year we're down to one. I know, I know...I should be thankful that I have Colin...and I am, trust me. But I just want another one soooo much. Plus, Easter is coming up and that's when I had the chemical pregnancy last year...got a BFP on Easter morning actually. I guess I just have a lot on my plate this month and I've been in the "down" part of the ups and downs of TTC for a week or so. I was up for a while after starting the Metformin, but now, not so much. Hopefully things get better after DH gets tested and we can confirm that I'm the one with the problem and not DH. I want it to be me because I don't want DH to feel bad.

Okay..enough rambling! LOL!

 

[CheshireVal]

I think this is going to be a rough month for me. Between my BFF being induced today and the soccer games...it's hard! Seems like everyone with a 4-5 year old kid is either pregnant or just had a baby...it's been that way for every soccer game so far. Ugh. Last year Colin's team had 3 pregnant moms, this year we're down to one. I know, I know...I should be thankful that I have Colin...and I am, trust me. But I just want another one soooo much. Plus, Easter is coming up and that's when I had the chemical pregnancy last year...got a BFP on Easter morning actually. I guess I just have a lot on my plate this month and I've been in the "down" part of the ups and downs of TTC for a week or so. I was up for a while after starting the Metformin, but now, not so much. Hopefully things get better after DH gets tested and we can confirm that I'm the one with the problem and not DH. I want it to be me because I don't want DH to feel bad.

Okay..enough rambling! LOL!

I totally know how you feel!

There are FIVE pregnant women here at work (actually 3 now since 2 just had their babies last week). I am on a dwindling list of married childless women here. And the oldest!

I've been avoiding the baby showers (though I've bought gifts, which also isn't fun) but the next one is actually being held in the office during working hours, so I don't think I'll be able to avoid it.

I was doing okay for a while but now that we've been trying for almost a year, it's starting to get to me.

 

[Madaboutthemouse]

I totally know how you feel!

There are FIVE pregnant women here at work (actually 3 now since 2 just had their babies last week). I am on a dwindling list of married childless women here. And the oldest!

I've been avoiding the baby showers (though I've bought gifts, which also isn't fun) but the next one is actually being held in the office during working hours, so I don't think I'll be able to avoid it.

I was doing okay for a while but now that we've been trying for almost a year, it's starting to get to me.

Val, I totally know how you feel. There are about 7 of us at school who are about the same age and up until October (when the last single girl on the faculty got married) I was the only one who wasn't pg or had had a baby. Right now there are 2 pregnant girls that I work with and 2 more who have delivered since October. My SIL is also pg with her 2nd so that is hard too.

I guess I should re-introduce myself. I'm Kelly, 26, and I jumped in at the very beginning of the original TTC thread. DH and I have been trying for about 21 months now. We've both been tested and are beginning treatment with IUI. We've charted, done Clomid on our own, and done Clomid with monitoring, but nothing has worked so far. We tried to start an IUI last month but on my 12CD ultrasound, the follicles just weren't big enough so we washed the cycle. I'm on Provera again to jumpstart my cycle so we can start again. I've lurked here on and off, but I'll probably be around more now that we are working with our RE to hopefully get some better results.

 

[skuttle]

Well, my BFF's baby arrived yesterday. I received a call around 5:30pm...noticed the number, picked up my phone, intended on answering it, but then the next thing I knew I was hanging up the phone. I just couldn't do it. I was actually on my way out of my office, so instead I found one of my coworkers still at the office...she's a bit older than me and just a great friend to vent to, she's very positive. So I was able to vent to her, cry with her for a while before I finally left the office around 6:30. I think that helped. Helped me get a lot of it out before going home since I know DH hates to see me depressed. But now I just have this sick feeling in my stomach knowing that I'll have to make myself go see them soon. Ugh. I know it's awful, but I really don't want to...I really don't. As selfish, childish, and pathetic as it is...I just don't.

My O day is coming up soon so I'm trying to focus on that, hoping for a spring BFP!! THe past two months were pretty much a wash with our WDW trip in Feb and me getting sick in Jan, so I'm hoping for a good round of BDing this month!

Val...pregnant people are everywhere, I agree! I had a bunch in my office for a while, I think we're down to one pregnant girl now after a recent string of deliveries.

Kelly...good luck with the IUI!! Sorry you're out this month, though. We've been trying for about 19 months now. Only test I've had so far is insulin resistance, which I failed thus the Metformin. DH will be tested during spring break (he's a teacher so we're limited with when he can test). I have one more refill on the Metformin and after that I will be making another appt for followup with my gyn to figure out what's next.

 

[helenabear]

Allison, I am so sorry for all you are going through. A friend of mine had a baby just after my miscarriage last year and I didn't get around to seeing her new baby for over 4 months Granted if she hadn't whined about how long it took her to get pregnant and how horrible it was to have a parasite in her, I might have gone to see her sooner It's funny though, my DS's godparents had issues conceiving and lost one as well, so when her DD was born, I saw her when she was about 5 days old. I think when my friends get pregnant so easily it still hurts to hear. I don't think that will ever change for me Just do what you can, when you can. If you can't see her in person, send her something and let her know all that is going on with you.

Kelly, I am wishing you all the best! I am just sorry that this month was a wash for you

momsully, congratulations!!!

Amy & Solstice welcome to the group! I truly hope you won't need to hang out here very long!

 

[DznyLvr2005]

Wow I thought the TTC thread disappeared, I guess it did sort of...
Hope everyone is well.
I just had my level 2 ultrasound and baby is perfect. oh and I'm having a girl. I can't believe it!
I was having some pressure in lower abdomen and was seen as an emergency last week, OB scared me thikning it was my cervix, so at my level 2 I had the cervix checked and everything is just fine. Thank god.
Congrats on all who have gotten BFP's!