Never imagined it'd be this hard....

[December99]

I am not asking for prayers or hugs or anything, I just have to get this off of me and out of my head....

I closed on my mom's house this afternoon. All I have done is been a big baby all day - I have cried more today than I have in the past 4 months. I never imagined getting rid of her house, not the house I grew up IN but I grew up WITH, would be this hard...never in my wildest dreams. I told the lady at the bank when I had to go get the certified check (she was my dance instructor when I was growing up and a very good family friend) that this just makes it seem so final....and she said that is because it is so final!!!! Never thought about it.....

I made it through the closing without crying - handing over the keys and shaking their hands was very hard - almost lost it there. Got out to my car and I lost it all over again. Stopped at moms gravesite and told her I loved her and I miss her...cried more (that was before I went to the closing). Walked through the house one more time before going to the closing - yup, cried more. Sat on the swing one last time....swang and remembered my grandmother yelling at my cousin and I because we had it going over the edge of the porch - oh she was so mad!!!!! - cried more. Never imagined I'd never swing in that swing again...I guess maybe I thought that someone in the family would buy it...but now maybe another family can make some wonderful memories with it - I know I sure did.....

Thanks and sorry....

 

[nativetxn]

{{{HUGS}}} sweetie, I can't begin to imagine how difficult this must be for you. Sorry you are feeling so sad.

 

[Rajah]

*HUGS*

I'm sorry, Chris.

 

[Disney-Kim]

I feel for you. I wish you good thoughts.
I am sort of feeling the same as you as I just lost my grandfather in October and this is going to be a very hard/emotional family Christmas. My grandparents have spend almost every xmas with us since we were kids.

Hugs to you.

 

[DaisyDebbie]

Oh Chris I'm sorry you're feeling sad It is so hard to let go, my Mom still has some of my grandmothers clothes hanging in the closet. She just can't bring herself to get rid of them.

HUGS my friend

 

[Jeafl]

I'm sorry, Chris. That must have been very difficult for you. I have always found all the "firsts" to be the most difficult after someone's death. Somehow you just find the strength to move on, and eventually you will have more happy memories than sad ones. In the meantime, big hugs to you.

 

[helenabear]

Chris, I wish I could say something that could help with the pain you are feeling {{{HUGS}}}

 

[Dream]

I'm so sorry Chris. That is an incredably hard thing to do. We like to hold onto whatever "things" are left from our loved ones because it helps us to feel "connected" I think...at least that's how I feel. Saying goodbye to a house is like they are taking one more step away from us...and it hurts like hell. Be patient with yourself...cry when you need to and for however long you need to...keeping it inside is a big mistake...been there. {{{hugs}}}

 

[imgoingtodisney]

Im sorry

 

[EROS]

Sorry about your sadness today .....

I have many treasures left to me by loved ones. Some are LARGE........and some are small .

However, the most IMPORTANT memories which I cherish have NO relation to "things"...............

I'm sure that she'll always be with you in your HEART!!!

Take care,

 

[janette]

{{{HUGS}}}

 

[Mom2Em]

{{{HUGS}}} and *PD*... Thinking of you...

 

[JohnTBap]

{{{HUGS}}} for you.

God bless.

 

[Kallison]

I'm sorry, it's hard to let go of houses that are special. If we ever have to move from our house, I know I will be hysterical. I still drive by the house I was born in until age 10. I'm still mad at my parents for moving us across town to my grandparents house. I even stopped in once and got a tour about 10 years ago. Hugs to you.

 

[DopeyRN]

Chris I understand. {{{Hugs}}}...you know where I am.

 

[ead79]

Oh Chris, I am so sorry. I can't imagine how difficult this day really must've been. I will remember you in my prayers as you miss for and grieve for your mom. {{{HUGS}}}

 

[Bunchkin]

Crying is good for the soul. It will help you heal.

 

[CathyCanada]

No apologies needed, Chris, just hugs!! The first year will be the hardest.
CC

 

[TennVolTony]

Aw man Chris...that just breaks my heart... I know one day I will have to do the same thing. And I think I won't be any better at it than you were... {{{{hugs}}}}

 

[NancyIL]

{{{Hugs}}} Chris.